I woke up the next morning to three voices that sounded like they were standing in my room. I kept my eyes closed in an attempt to go back to sleep.
"Maybe we should let her sleep for a bit longer. I mean, Rosalie's still asleep and they were both really tired last night." I heard Edward whisper.
"But we really need to work on writing the songs we have left for her album" Jasper said.
"Rosalie's still asleep too, though" I heard Emmet say.
Wait, how'd they get in if Rosalie is still asleep?
"Guys, just wake them up-I'm gonna go fix coffee or breakfast or something" Jasper said. I could tell he had left the room because a few second later I heard noise coming from the kitchen.
"I guess I'll go wake Rosalie up…can you handle getting her up?" Emmet asked quietly.
"Yeah, I got it" Edward replied.
I heard my door close and Rosalie's open and close. The room was silent for a minute and then I felt Edward wiping the hair out of my face and putting it behind my ear.
"Bella? It's time to get up darlin'" I heard him whisper. I decided to mess with him-I groaned, muttered a 'go away' and rolled over away from him. This ended up being a very bad idea because he just jumped on my bed beside me.
"Bella, we have to write songs today. Please get up?"
"But I'm still tired" I said as I turned towards him and pouted.
"I know, but Jasper is in the kitchen fixing coffee and stuff"
"Fine. I guess I can't turn down someone ELSE making breakfast for me" I smiled softly as I started to get out of bed.
"You're seriously still in your dress? I thought for sure you'd change after I brought you up here" he smirked.
"Whatever-like I was really going to get out of bed after you guys tucked me in and left" I said sarcastically. "Now leave so I can change" I said as I playfully swatted his arm. He smiled and started to leave.
"Oh, shoot…I need help" I said
"You need help changing?" Edward said weirdly as a slight blush started to spread across his face.
"No, silly-I just need help unzipping my dress" I said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"Oh, yeah" He walked over unzipped my dress and walked out.
I settled on a pair of black skinny jeans, a black T-shirt with hot pink writing on it. My hair still looked surprisingly good so I re-pinned my bangs back and put the flower back in. I walked out to the smell of something cooking.
"Hey, what smells so good?" I asked.
"I'm making pancakes…they're almost ready if you want some" Jasper told me as I poured myself a cup of coffee.
We all ate breakfast and Rosalie and I cleaned up after we all got done eating. We were all sitting in the living room talking and trying to come up with ideas.
"So have you come up with any songs lately? We're almost ready to start recording all of it." Emmet asked.
"Unfortunately, no. I haven't really been inspired lately. Maybe getting out of the house would do me some good. Can we maybe go back to the park we were at last night?" I asked.
"Yeah, why?" Jasper asked.
"At home, the park is where I went to sometimes get away from my dad. I used to get a lot of inspiration from it and it gave me a lot of time to think. The park last night kind of reminded me of the one at home."
"Then let's go" Edward said.
We all piled into the Ranger Rover and drove to the park. I immediately ran over to the huge rock sitting by the playground, climbed up, and just sat. I saw Rosalie Emmet and Jasper go to the swings. Emmete started pushing Rosalie-they look really cute together. I'm pretty sure they're going to end up dating. That would be good for her-neither one of us have had the greatest luck in relationships. I didn't notice Edward climbing up and sitting next to me.
"Penny for your thoughts?" he asked me quietly.
"I'm not sure they're worth that much"
"Bellar, of course they are. What's on your mind?"
"I was just thinking about how I wish I could take the past 3 years back. I wish I could go back to the beginning of this whole mess and not leave that night with my mom. If we had just stayed in, she wouldn't be dead, my dad wouldn't have gone psycho, and they'd both be here with me right now."
"But if you did that, you would be a completely different person than you are today. Everything that has happened to you has made you so much stronger than you would be otherwise. As horrible as they were, those events shaped who you are. You can't change them-you can only start over and come clean."
Nobody said anything for a while, until Edward broke the silence.
"Bella? Are you ok?" Edward asked me quietly.
"Yeah, why?"
"Well, you're crying"
"No I'm not"
"Then what's on your face?"
Just as he said that I felt raindrops start to hit my arms.
"It's raining" I smiled. I've always loved the rain. It always brings life and everything smells so new after a storm.
"That's impossible…it NEVER rains here" Edward exclaimed as he started to climb off the rock. I followed him rather slowly as I looked over to see the other three running to the car. Edward helped me off the rock and I just stood in the slow rain.
"Are you coming to the car?" he asked me
"In a minute. We aren't getting that wet yet, and I need this"
He gave me a funny look and I just turned my face to the sky and felt my hair begin to get wet. I started to spin around and dance. I hadn't gotten to play in the rain in such a long time. This was exactly what I needed.
After a few minutes I finally let Edward lead me to the car. We were met with jackets being thrown at us as we entered the car. We weren't that wet but I heard the phrases 'get sick' and 'let's go get coffee' as we began to drive.
We pulled up to a Starbucks and ran to the door. The guys ordered our drinks and Rosalie and I went to sit down. As we were walking to the table I got an idea for a song and grabbed napkins on my way to the table. When we sat down I pulled a pen out of my purse and went to work.
"Bella, what are you doing?" I vaguely heard Rosalie ask me. I didn't answer, however. I needed to get this song written before I forgot it. I didn't even notice the guys sitting down.
"What's wrong with her?" I heard Emmet say.
"I don't know, I tried to ask her and she didn't answer. I tried to look at what she's writing and she pushed me away." Rosalie said with a shrug.
I felt a head peak over my shoulder and I didn't push it away because I knew it was Edward. Besides, I was done with the song anyway.
"Sorry, I had to get that down before I forgot it."
"Can I read it?" Edward said.
I just handed him the napkin and saw him smile as he began to read these words:
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming cleanLet the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
I knew Edward would be the only one that would truly understand where it came from, but I didn't really care. When he was finished he handed it to the other three and we sat in silence while they read it.
"This is really good, Bella. Did you really just come up with it?" Rosalie asked me.
"Sort of. Edward and I talked about some stuff at the park and then it started raining. While I was just standing in the rain I just thought of all the reasons why I like the rain-it brings life, it nourishes, and everything after a storm just smells new. I guess it could also go with baptism, now that I think of it-but that's not what I had in mind when I wrote it. It's kind of about wanting to leave the past behind and move on."
"Wow, that's deep…and very poetic" Edward said.
"Why, thank you…we should probably go put music to it, huh" I suggested
At that we left to head back to the apartment to work on my new song. One down one to go-then I can get into the studio.
It was the last day in February and Rosalie and I were at our apartment. The guys had an interview and photo shoot today so we weren't meeting up with them until tonight to watch a movie. It was 9:30 AM and I was sitting in the living room playing around on my guitar trying to come up with my last song. Rosalie came trudging into the room looking very tired.
"Did I wake you up? I'm sorry if I did" I said to her.
"No, you're fine. I didn't even know you were in here until I looked in your room. What are you doing?"
"I'm trying really hard to get my last song done. I have music for it, but I can't come up with any lyrics for it that fit." I told her.
"Well, do you want to go get breakfast somewhere? I can see if I can help. The last song we wrote together turned out well" She asked.
"Yeah, that sounds good. Let's go get dressed"
About 30 minutes later we were walking out of the apartment and walking to our favorite breakfast spot. It wasn't that far from our apartment and it was a nice day. Besides, I figured we should enjoy the time we had left where I wouldn't be stalked by paparazzi. We both ordered pancakes and eggs after we sat down and started talking.
"So what is the music like that you have?" she asked me.
"Well, it's a little upbeat, and it's happy. I kind of want to write a song about a first experience, like a kiss or something, but we both know I have no experience in that area." I told her.
"Well, I guess you could guess…" she trailed off.
All of a sudden, I smiled. Rosalie looked at me like I was crazy.
"You do know I was joking, right? You can't guess about something like that." She said with an incredulous look on her face.
"Hey R, remember junior prom back when you and Royce were dating?"
"Yeah….where are you going with this?" she asked me
"I just came up with a line for the song. Remember how you told me that it started raining while ya'll were walking to his car?"
"Yeah, how could I forget? We danced in the rain in our prom clothes." She smiled slightly at the memory.
"I don't know why, but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress-fearless" I said quietly.
"OO I like it!" Rosalie smiled.
"Ok…I'm going to need you to tell me about the kiss that happened that night..."
"Ummm why?" she blushed a little
"It was your first kiss…I just need to know what was going through your mind and how you felt before it happened…please? I would use my own experience but I don't have one yet" I then started to do the puppy dog eyes I know she can't resist. Plus, I knew the 'I've never been kissed' card would get her to cave. And cave she did.
"Fine" she said.
We sat at the table talking until we were done eating and then we started to walk back to the apartment.
Later that night, I had successfully finished writing the song and we were headed over to meet the guys at their house. When we arrived, I rang the doorbell and Riley answered.
"Have you two thought about my proposal yet, ladies?"
"Riley, quit hitting on them will you? You're WAY too young for them" Jasper said as he Emmet and Edward came to the door.
"Fine." Riley said sadly. At this, Rosalie bent down to his level and "whispered" in his ear.
"Riley, how about we be your bestest friends in the whole world?"
At this his eyes lit up and he shouted a "OK!" as he gave us both hugs and ran off.
"Figures that the first guy to hit on me would be an 10 year old" I said with a slight laugh.
The guys laughed lightly, none of them noticing the hint of sadness in my eyes…or so I thought. We all started walking to the couches to watch the movie and Edward held back to talk to me.
"Are you ok, Bella?" he asked me sincerely.
"Yeah, I'm fine" I said, not meeting his eyes. I started to walk off, but he caught my arm and stopped me.
"Isabella, what's wrong?"
"It's just, I wrote the last song today and I had to ask Rosalie about her first kiss and one of her dates because I didn't have any experience to draw from on the topic I wanted to write on. It's frustrating because I'm 19, haven't been on an actual date, and I've never been kissed"
What did he do? He laughed.
"Edward, it's not funny!"
"Yeah, it kind of is. Don't worry about it, Bella…it will happen."
"GUYS!" we heard Emmet shout.
We walked to the next room to be met with a very impatient Emmet.
"What took you guys so long?" he asked
"Oh, Bella was just telling me that she finished her last song today." Edward answered.
"Really? Ooo play it!" He said excitedly.
"I didn't bring my guitar…." I hadn't noticed that Edward had left the room until I felt something poke me. That something was a guitar.
"Use mine" Edward smiled.
"I had to borrow from Rosalie's life for this one" I said as I sat down and started to play the newest addition to my CD.
There's something about the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I want to ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin' me want you
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I`d dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
So baby drive slow
'Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It's fearless.
Oh yeah
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I would dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Nobody said anything for awhile, and I was really starting to worry that they didn't like it or something. I finally looked up at them from the guitar and was met with the sight of Emmet looking at Rosalie and the other two smirking at him.
"What is it with you two and the rain?" Emmet asked, still looking at Rosalie.
"Um, it's fun….duh" I said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"I think that is the perfect song to add to your record. Now you have a few different genres on there and it will show off your diversity." Jasper said. Is he really the youngest? He seems so much older.
"Thanks, Jas" I smiled.
We made plans to start recording everything tomorrow. As we all settled in to watch "".
I couldn't wait for tomorrow.
Yeay chapter 4! Let me know what you think... :)