okay I am so sorry I haven't updated. I haven't been on in forever, and when I did, I starting writing another chapter. after I finished writing it, I found this on my computer. Hmm. so I put it on, and I have the chapter I just wrote too so yay!
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Chapter 4: Edward
Edward's POV
For what felt like the millionth time in the past three days, I leaned my head back, and closed my eyes.
I was raining slightly, the canopy of trees above me kept most of the rain out, but mist sprayed through the leaves. Drops of water slid down my face slowly. I couldn't feel it. I was numb.
I took a deep breath, and listened through the trees. I could hear the soft sound of cars on the road, and closer to me, the sound of Bella's heartbeat as she slept. It was the most significant in the world to me. I listened closer, to the sound of her even breathing. My breath caught.
I can't live without her. The urge to stay, to stay with Bella, nearly overwhelmed me. I could stay, I could go to Bella, fall to my knees and beg her to forgive me. Tell her how much I love her, that it could not compare to anything else.
I can't leave again. Not only would it nearly kill me, but I couldn't do that to Bella. I hated myself for leaving her, and there is nothing I can ever do to make that right.
Through the trees, I heard Bella's heartbeat begin to race. She was waking up. Like every day I had been here, she woke up screaming, and the sound tore through me. I felt dizzy, and my hands balled into fists. My head spun, the sound ringing in my ears. I leaned forward and closed my eyes.
She stopped screaming, and her breathing became more ragged. Pain tore through me. I did this to her. It's my fault. I hated myself.
I snapped.
I jumped up, and the tree I had been leaning against snapped cleanly in half. I took me a minute to realize I had done it. I snarled. My eyes narrowed and my nostrils flared. I ripped another tree from the roots and threw it. It smashed into the ground, knocking another tree over.
No. Stop. This is stupid, I told myself.
I took a deep breath. I closed my eyes and concentrated on unclenching my fingers.
"Edward." I heard Bella say softly. My muscles locked into place, and my breath caught in my throat. She started sobbing uncontrollably. I couldn't see the forest. Everything went red.
I did this to her. I have to fix this.
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