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Jaspers Pov:
I went outside and sat on the porch waiting for Lana to come home. After about 2 hours she came walking through the trees
``lana´´´i said standing up and walking towards her and her attitude was obvious Don't talk to me
``Jasper´´ she said her voice ice cold making me flinch
``Please just listen´´ i begged and her gaze shifted to me while she stood still.
``no´´ she said and walked inside with me following...Alice and Edward was looking between me and Lana.
``Lana´´ Alice said standing up and Lana stopped looking at Alice trying to hide her annoyed expression
`´Listen to him...please´´ she said doing puppy eyes and Lana sighed looking between me and Alice.
``fine´´ she mumbled and looked at. I rushed to her side.
``um my room?´´ she asked nervously and i smiled slightly and nodded
``uh...i will be right up´´ i said and she nodded walking upstairs. I turned to Alice
``am i gonna say something wrong?´´ i asked nervously making her giggle
``Yes but she will laugh it off´´ she said. i nodded and ran up the stairs. Lana was standing by the window looking out
``Why did you leave?´´ she asked not turning around. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair
``I...expected you to be scared...or disgusted´´ i said and sat on the bed. She scoffed and slightly laughed
``Ive...seen worse´´ she whispered looking down and i blurted out
``tell me...´´ she looked at me with pleading eyes
``i cant´´ she whispered and i looked down
``why?´´ i asked her and she walked over and sat next to me.
``i guess...i am scared...everywhere i went they would ask me...i would tell thinking they would understand but they didn't..they would ask me to leave with disgust in their voices. I dont think i could handle if...you would look at me disgusted´´ she said looking at me through her lashes making my breath hitch
``i would never´´ i said pushing a piece of hair behind her ear and she looked down in disbelief
``i dont understand...why i feel like this´´ she said not raising her head.
``me either´´ i said looking at her waiting for her reaction but she kept looking down
``You can trust me´´ i said and held her hand making her look up at me
``I cant trust anybody´´ she said letting go of my hand. Rejection filled my body and she stood up
``i am sorry´´ she said and walked out quickly. I followed after her
``i am not gonna let you down´´ i said hopping she would stop
``you cant promise that...and even if you didnt let me down...i would let you down and that would hurt more´´ she said reaching the bottom of the stairs.
``well i am´´ i said and she turned around with a confused expression
``why do you care?´´´she said sounding doubtful
``its not like that Lana´´ Edward said standing behind Alice by the couch. She looked at him unsure.
what is he taking about?
``she thinks your gonna use her´´ Edward said to me and i looked at her. She looked at Edward angry
``can you blame me for thinking that´´ she said through gritted teeth and he shook his head
``of course not´´ he said and turned to me but his gaze shifted to Lana
``he would understand´´ he said and Alice nodded
``Lana please dont go´´ Alice begged her and reached out for her hand and she took a step back
``i dont belong here´´ she whispered looking down.
``yes you do... i know you feel it too.´´ i said and took her hand in mine
``i dont belong here´´ she repeated trying to remove her hand but i held on tighter
´´you belong with me´´ i whispered pulled her closer
``you..don't understand i am...a monster´´ she whispered in disgust and her eyes looked pained. How could someone so perfect be a monster?
``Lana i think its time to tell Jasper your past´´ Edward said and Lana nodded looking terrified