Giving Up

by PrettyinPink33

SEQUEL TO "I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP" What happens when the gang reaches its lowest low? As those involved in the horrible tragedy that shook their world are punished, everyone is tested as major secrets are revealed, & souls are broken in ways never thought possible. What will the end be for the people who used to envision endless life together? It's becoming hard not to give up...

4. This Is For You, Nimmie

I hate getting readers' hopes up with an update only for them to realize it's an author's note. Trust me, I would hate me too, and this this isn't the place to talk about this, but at this point...I don't give a shit, because what I'm about to say destroys me, and yet means so much to me.

johnnycakewasgolden, a That '70s Show fandom author, who was an amazing writer and who loved EricxJackie and HydexJackie fanfictions, passed away yesterday morning. I had never met her in real life, but she was one of my best friends. We told each other everything.

She had severe sleep apnea, and needed a pacemaker at night when she slept. Sunday night, she went to sleep without it, and never woke up.

The pain I feel right now is unbelievably hard to deal with for three reasons: first reason is because she was such a beautiful, caring, funny, energetic person who deserved three thousand years on this earth. She loved her parents, her sister, her friends and her boyfriend dearly.

The second reason is because some people, in real life and even on this website, were giving her a hard time, and she was upset by this. She was very strong and brave through it all, and yet she had unhappiness in her because she had a lot of stuff going on in her life. She had even attempted to commit suicide before, and my heart lurches in my chest when I start to question whether her death was truly and accident.

The third reason is because the last time we talked, about three weeks ago, I promised her a Skype session. She always wanted to talk because she needed someone to talk to and I was always blowing her off because of being busy. I now wish so greatly that I could go back and talk to her, tell her how much I loved her, how much she meant to me, and how much love she put into this world.

You truly never know what you have until its gone. I am in deep shock, and I am still expecting her to text me tomorrow telling me that she is fine. Not joking.

All I can ask ofyou guys is to remember Nim, keep reading her story, and keep her and her family in your thoughts.
Nim, I will pray for your parents, siblings, and Isaac, and most importantly, may you rest in peace surrounded by the love and admiration by all your friends and family who are down here on earth. I love you so dearly, Nimmie. I wish you would just come back to us.