Chapter: 4 Realizations

Stefan's pov

We finally got back to the bording house, I decided to go get some food for the house with, Elena and Sage, then maybe stroll around for a bit, knowing that Sage hasn't been in the regular world in a while, and apart from that..

I thought that maybe if I left Bonnie with Damon, they could get along. And I actually trusted them alone, knowing that Damon was human now.
And he wouldn't hurt her.

He cared about Bonnie, and she was on his good side.

As Elena opened the door, we found, Bonnie and Damon sleeping on the couch.

Her small curly head was on Damon's chest, as he sat with her, with his sleeping head on top of hers.

Elena couldn't help but smile and giggle softly, "Aw! I feel like taking a picture, Sage could you hand me your phone?"

He chuckled, "Here ya go," He handed her the phone, "Damon is becoming whipped."

I laughed, as Elena took the picture, she beamed.

"I can't wait to show them this!" She began to laugh.

I smiled at them both, I always thought Bonnie and Damon made a very beautiful couple.. but in those times I thought my brother couldn't love a human or anyone..

But now, he was capable , knowing that he loved Elena in the past. But now he accepted the fact that we were together.. At least I felt it and he showed it.

If there was a chance that Damon, could change.. then I would hope, that Bonnie could change him...

"Let them sleep, for now let's put the food back." I said picking up the bags, Elena still smiled. I softly kissed her forehead, as she looked at them.

"Stefan, I really hope Bonnie could change him.. While we're gone.." She whispered, resting her head on my shoulder.

I grinned, "I was thinking the same thing, love." I replied, kissing her softly.

She smiled and picked up the bags, "Com'on."

I followed, leaving behind one witch and a new human..

Bonnie's pov

I couldn't tell if it was a dream.. or if it was real..

But all I knew was that, I was surely having the time of my life..

I was outside, by a river, that gleamed against the brightening sun.

I felt arms wrap around my waist, "Beautiful sight..." He whispered..

I giggled, "It is.. This river is just beautiful.." I replied.

He laughed, his body vibrating against mine, "No, I mean you.. You're a beautiful sight." He purred in my ear.

His voice was like velvet, soft and memorizing, it shook chills in my body..

I turned around and wrapped my arms around his neck, "I love you.." I said kissing him on the forehead.

He grinned, and kissed my lips, making my heart beat fast, and my mind twirl with pleasure and love.

I held him closer, now wanting to let him go.. to never let him leave me...

I woke up, the short dreams caused chills to run up and down my spine..
'Why did I have a dream like that..? With Damon?' I thought..

I took in my surroundings, I was in the living room, on the couch, Damon was sleeping beside me, his mouth slightly opened.

I couldn't help but laugh quietly, his face seemed peaceful and didn't have that hardness as usual..

I stared at him, looking at his lips.. the ones I kissed in my... dream..

I didn't get it, why did I have this type of dream?

It wasn't usual, and it certainly didn't make sense with Damon in it..

I tried to take the dream out of my head, and sat up and stretched.

I stood up careful not to wake Damon up, but without luck, he opened those midnight eyes..

"Bonnie?" He mumbled, rubbing his eyes.. 'Gosh, he looks adorable when he does that.' I thought.

I laughed, "Yeah, It looks like we slept in." I answered, smiling at him.

He smirked, that one that made my heart flip.

"You sure did." Sage was standing at the doorframe, along with Elena and Stefan.

"Guys! When did you get back?" I asked, walking over to Elena and hugging her.

"Two hours ago actually." Stefan said smiling.

"How long have we been asleep?" Damon asked, now fulling awake.

"Probably five hours." I said, yawning.

Damon raised his eyebrows, and said, "Well.. Did you guys bring dinner.. I'm actually hungry.. Bonnie and I only have strawberries with.. what is that? Nukella?"

"NUTELLA!" Elena and I exclamied, Damon would never get it right.

"Oh, yeah that." He said scratching his head, I couldn't help but look at him.. He changed in so many ways he wasn't the same Damon..

It was strange.. But yet, I liked it.. A little too much, I was afraid of not keeping that promise I made myself..

'No, Bonnie. You will not fall for Damon!' I said to myself, then immediately regretted it..

Because Stefan was looking at me wide-eyed and bewildered..

"Oh, crap." I mumbled under my breath..

Stefan's pov

'No, Bonnie. You will not fall for Damon!' Bonnie said in her mind. I was absolutely shocked, Bonnie loved Damon? Or at least was actually falling for him.. I looked at her, her big brown eyes seemed embarrassed, she quickly turned away, blushing.
I was going to talk to her...
I tried to not think of her thoughts, so Damon wouldn't notice, and thankfully he didn't

"Bon, you want to help me cook?" Elena asked, putting on her apron.
I smiled at her, she was so beautiful and sweet, I sometimes couldn't help but melt in those blue eyes..

Bonnie grinned and nodded, "Sure." And she headed in the kitchen with Elena, leaving me and Damon alone. I looked at him smircking, he sighed and seemed annoyed.

"What? What's your deal." He said, huffing and sitting on the couch, letting his head rest and closing his eyes.

"You and Bonnie? Sleeping on a couch. Together?" I asked, standing in front of him.

He raised his head, smirking as well, "Well apparently, the little witch is a nice girl. I like her, but it's not what you think. Oh wait, I don't care what you think." He said sarcastically.

I rolled my eyes, "You know you like something about her. At least, like like. I rather not go into second grade terms, you care about her on the highest level." I replied knowingly.

He glared at me and stood up, "I'm gonna go check out the food." He said, and walked out.

I laughed, and turned on the TV, he was going to admit. One of these days while, Elena and I were in the dark dimension.

Bonnie's pov My head still rang with the fear of Stefan now knowing. I knew he wasn't going to tell Damon but, it still worried me. Now that Stefan thinks i'm in love with Damon. But I'm not... or am I?
I mean i've only got to know him more today, this couldn't be and WOULD NOT be. I would not give in to myself, I will not fall for Damon.
I was going to try everything I could to not fall.. During my determined thoughts, Elena was cooking, as I was just cutting some garlic.

"So, Bonnie.. What happened with you and Damon today?" She asked, smiling secretively.. 'Was she kinda happy about this?' I asked myself.

"Um, nothing much, we just had lunch and hanged out.. We were watching a movie and fell asleep, then you guys came back." I answered nervously.. To me something like that with Damon salvatore, was like a once in a life time thing. My heart just sped up from reliving earleir today in my head.

Elena grinned, "So, you guys are in progress?"

I nodded, "Hopefully, we could be friends.." I said, 'Oh, Bonnie you know you want more than that.'

She giggled, "I'm sure you guys will." And she went back to cooking.
Was Elena okay with this? Not that Damon and I were 'Something' but she seemed to be absoulutly fine with finding us sleeping together on the couch, in a couple way.
I knew Damon loved her, I knew he still cared for her in many ways, and probably he would never get over her. And I knew at one point, Elena had an attraction to him. I was all confused, not knowing if I made one move, that It could ruin a friendship I would have to try my best to control my emotions towards Damon.
And right at that momment, Damon walked in the kitchen inhaling the new kitchen smell of pasta and tomato sause.

"Wow, pasta tonight?" He asked, lounging against the counter.

I couldn't help but stare at his body.. how perfectly scuplted it was, how his arms were toned, and his long legs, and chisled chest.. 'Bonnie, Stop! Don't go far.' I said to myself, again trying to met my mind win.

Elena smiled and nodded, "Stefan said that as a human you both loved pasta." She said laughing.

I chuckled along, Damon came by me, and glanced at the garlic, "If I was dracula, I would be dead by now." He said pointing at it.

I laughed, 'Gosh, I love this side of him..' I thought to myself.

I continued to cut the garlic, but I felt his glance on me.. Just by him looking at me, made me nervous and self=consiuous.

Soon, we were done and the food was served.

Damon ran to his chair, and began to eat, without blinking. Elena and I laughed, the pasta was delicious, and just savoring.

Damon had three plates of it, not caring if he would gain weight.

Stefan smircked at him, "Tommorow you're gonna be huge." He said.

Damon laughed sarcasticlly with the food in his mouth, "Damon!" Elena exclamied.

I laughed, I felt.. happy, being here with them, being with my freinds..

Amd deffiantly, feeling happy with Damon. He was so different, it was bizzare. How he changed, you could tell in his eyes, that he had more life in him.. I just didn't know how he changed like this.
When did he decide to be cheerful?

I didn't have a clue...

Damon's pov

"That. Was. Amazing." I said holding my stomach, now that I was human.. I couldn't stop stuffing my face, three plates of pasta, and five picsies of garlic bread.

Stefan rolled his eyes, "Look, I'm heading to bed, you should do the same." He said heading towards the stairs.

"Goodnight, brother." I said sarcasriclly.

He sighed, "Night, Damon." And he went vampire speed upstairs..

I still missed me being a vampire. Now I was a human.. A human, that had to eat ALL the time, and BREATH all the time..

But somehow, I felt postive about it, knowing that the little witch would be helping me with it.. She was so beautiful, the way she was cooking in the kitchen, her big red curls hanging around her face..
Sometimes, she would blow her hair back, it was adorable.. If I could I would just softly hold he behind her small ear.. To just feel her tender skin, that looked as if it glowed..

'Ok, get a hold of yourself, Salvatore. The little witch is to good for you.' I said to myself, I could never be with Bonnie.. I still.. cared for Elena, at least I knew I would do anything for her..
But yet I would do anything for Bonnie too..

Bonnie, was a girl that was so above from me. And so was Elena, I was too low of a person for them.. They were angels..
And I was a demon, a nightcrawler. At least now I was human, but nothing could change the things i've done in life.. How I took lives without even blinking..
Bonnie wasn't for me, she wouldn't hurt anything or anyone, she was a brave girl, and smart, and beautiful.. and that didn't equal to me..
I just sat on the couch thinking of her, remembering today, how she was actually funny, and sweet..
How, during dinner, she had a little bit of sause on her bottom lip.. how my lips craved to kiss it away...

"So, you must've loved that pasta." Bonnie said grinning as she sat on the arm rest of the couch.

'Damon, relax..'

I chuckled, "I'm a fat human now," I said smircking.

She laughed, and Elena came in the living room yawning, "I'm gonna go to bed, goodnight guys." She said and seemed to give Bonnie a secretive smile..

Must've been a girl thing..

"Goodnight." We both said, as she went upstairs.

Bonnie yawned, looking as adorable as ever.. "I think I should go too.. but, tomorow Elena and Stefan are leaving.. and I just want to get on better terms.. Damon, do you want-"

"Yes," I knew exactly what she meant, and that was enough for me.. I knew we couldn't be more, but to have her as a friend.. Was all I needed..

She smiled brightly, and held out her hand, for a shake..

I couldn't help but chuckle, and bring her to my arms, hugging her..

I felt her freeze in my arms, then reluctantly, she hugged me.

To feel her in my arms was like no other thing, to hold her this way.. My newly beating heart, beated against hers..
I inhaled her hair, smelling like strawberries and vanilla.. Her long waist, and narrow hips..
It was as if, I was just falling more and more for her.. not being able to control myself..

She sighed, and pulled back and smiled. "Friends." She said softly, holding my hand, "Goodnight, Damon."
and she walked upstairs..

I stared at her, amazed at how beautiful, smart, witty, and beyond words she was..

Bonnie Mcoullough, was a girl that I actually... loved... But I knew, and still would, try to now fall for her..
I knew she didn't deserve me.. All I could get from her.. And if that was it, I would rather have her as a friend, than not have her at all..

I went upstairs, passing her room, I saw her sleeping on the bed, her bright red hair, sprawled on the white sheets..
My hands ached to just touch her again..

But know I couldn't that way, I went to my room, and layed on the bed.
Just staring at the ceiling, how I wished to have her by my side, to just smell her sweet scent, and to just feel her..
I wanted her.. I fell asleep, having her in my thoughts, dreaming of her...