ROFL I fully jumped when it was like someone added your story to favourites and one of my crutches fell and hit the teachers foot LOOOOOL. So this is chappy four :D :D :D
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But this has to be my last update for an hour or two :P Have early leavers for my fractured toe :P :P :P SOOOOOOOOOO...
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Paul's truck was pretty full. Rachel and Paul in the front, Embry and me in the back. I tried not to look at him, but every now and then, I'd catch him looking at me, I had to face the problem to get rid of it. So for now, my objective: Get over a stupid crush. Attempt one: ignore him, Results: Epic fail. It was too hard to ignore him, I was so aware of him. When we pulled up in the parking lot, I hopped out of the truck and closed the door without making a lot of noise or looking at Embry. I followed Paul and Rachel keeping my head down and saw another set of feet next to mine. I made the mistake of glancing up to see Embry next to me, looking away from me, I quickly looked down again before he noticed. The shopping centre we were in was pretty packed and I had never seen a shopping centre with carpet, well once, but when we were on holidays in Australia, Westfield Parramatta. There were so many shops, so much noise, so many prams! It was enough to make someone go mad. First we went to the food court, I only grabbed some garlic bread from this pizza place, but managed to show no interest in Embry. I noticed Rachel and Paul looking at me confused a lot, but I pretended not to notice. After we ate, we went to walk around the shops for a bit, Paul walked with Embry and I walked with Rachel.
"So what's with the silent treatment you're giving Embry?"
"Huh?" She had pulled me from deep thought.
"You're ignoring Embry, why?"
"Uh,"
"Hey, you two girls go look at clothes and stuff, Em and I are going to check out some stuff over there." Paul pulled Embry away and we were left alone. I get it. Paul was getting Rachel to find out what the problem was so she could tell him.
"Okay then, come on, I saw this dress over there." She pulled me towards a shop and I couldn't help but feel confused. She pulled a dress off the rack and showed it to me. "What do you think?"
I just looked at her through narrowed eyes. "I was under the impression you were going to interrogate me."
"Oh, you'll come around to talking about it when you're ready, but for now, we can stay occupied, boys only complain when it comes down to shopping for clothes."
I sighed. "Try it in a different colour, one that matches your eyes, that one just clashes with your hair colour."
She studied the dress. "Yeah, you're right."
That was how things happened for a while, just shopping, when we paid for our stuff at this store, we moved onto another one, after a long time, Rachel's phone went off. She flipped it open and studied the screen for a while before throwing it in her bag.
"Were going to meet up for coffee, lets pay for these and go."
We walked in silence for a while until I sighed. "Okay, if you tell anyone what I'm about to tell you, I will kill you."
She smiled. "Go for it."
"I'm trying to avoid Embry."
"Why?" she looked confused.
"It doesn't make sense, the way I feel around him or the way he looks at me, we just met, it shouldn't be this way, but after I met him yesterday, I felt like I couldn't trust myself anymore because I felt so different, I'm scared, not of Embry or trusting him, but of myself, I've always had my guard up, a thick mental wall in my brain that stops me from showing anything, but it's like, when Embry's there, it crumbles to dust and I don't feel strong anymore, I feel weak and vulnerable and I hate that."
She was quiet for a while, processing this. "Sort of makes sense." She finally said.
"It does?"
"Sort of, I mean, you're so used to being a...rebel? - Yeah, that's the word - that it's hard for you to change."
"Yeah, sort of." I laughed shakily.
"Have you ever thought of just trying?"
"Yeah, plus the reasons why trying won't work."
"Why wouldn't it work?"
"I don't plan on staying for long, people give up on me easily, I expect that, I don't want to build up something that will probably be over in days."
"Look, Syeira, your dad is really cool, he doesn't give up so quickly, you have nothing to worry about, besides, I think now, it'll be harder for him to let you go."
"Why?"
"He just got you back."
I sighed.
"Just give Embry a chance, when we met up with him now, do something nice, like smile at him, just be calm and be nice."
"Okay, I'll try."
"There you go." She smiled at me, I rolled my eyes.
We saw Paul and Embry leaning against the metal bar, Rachel's face lit up when she saw Paul, for the life of me, I had no idea why. She walked up to him casually and I took in a deep breath, when Embry faced me, I nearly lost my nerve there and then, but he was biting his lip, he was nervous, I smiled and walked right up to him.
"Did you guys have fun?" I said flashing a sexy little smile at Embry. His jaw fell wide open, as did Paul's, where as Rachel just laughed.
"Come on, let's get a coffee." She pulled Paul away and they walked towards the line.
Embry quickly recovered and smiled back. "What do you want?" he said looking at the cafe then back at me.
"Would you consider it stupid if I said I felt like ice coffee?"
"Not really, I mean if you want it, then you want it, but then again it is freezing outside, so it wouldn't be stupid, just... different."
I laughed. "I am very different."
"I can tell." He laughed.
It was hard not to laugh and smile with Embry, he was cool, but shy, a couple of girls who looked like they were in their early twenties asked him for directions and practically demanded he ask one of them out, the whole time he just focused on giving him directions and when they asked if he was busy tonight, he tried to sneak a glance at me and I again, pretended not to notice, so the girls backed off. Then there was the way Embry acted when a large group of guys approached me.
"Hey princess, can you give me directions?" one asked me, he obviously thought I was easy, I grinned at him.
"Sure, you can go to hell." I smiled sweetly.
"Oooh. Nope, I was thinking more like directions into them tight jeans of yours." He said. Ew. Gross. Back up.
"Tell me, does that actually even work?"
"I don't know, you're my first attempt."
"Well I already told you where to go, I can give you a one way ticket if you like?"
After that he backed off and we didn't get trouble from them again. All day, Embry stayed silent beside me, occasionally asking a question or two, but nothing much, Rachel tried to help me, though she could help by shutting up, but her attempts faltered. It seemed to me that as the day went on, he grew shyer of me, I was so annoyed by five o'clock, it really showed when we got back in the car and were stuck waiting for traffic to move in the parking lot.
"Learn to drive dumb ass." I muttered when this person nearly backed into my side of the truck.
"Wow, someone's pissed." Paul chuckled.
"I'll say," I muttered. "I just hate being in loud noisy places for so long." (does anyone else hate that? I do. I had to learn the hard way when I went shopping for a baby shower... OSHMYGOSH the pram stampedes are the worst :O rofl)
No one spoke again.
OKAAIII... chappy four :D off to go doctors... *sighs* ANYWAYYYS
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