~Tony's point of view~
Driving was an easy task for me, had been for years. It was different now.. Ziva lay with her head resting on the passenger seat window sleeping. The dress she had on made her look beautiful but It was nothing compared to how she looked spread out on my bed begging me to let her cum.
My cock was hard again! Every time i thought about her I lost it.. I'll need to learn how to push down those possessive feeling's I have for her.
We couldn't work together and carry on like this.. I'd get arrested! I'd get one of us hurt or worse, i couldn't risk losing her forever over the crushing need i felt to have her mine.. all mine.
When we stopped outside her flat I just looked at her for a minute, she was so exhausted. I climbed out and closed the door quietly before walking around to her side.
I had to swing the door open and catch her before she fell.. I could do this. Taking a deep breath I opened the door slowly and snaked an arm in to hold her up before I opened it wider.
Trying to get the seat belt off would be a whole other hurdle. When I leaned over her to click it off she wrapped her hand around my throat making me freeze, she was disorientated and I didn't want my throat ripped out.
"Sorry!" She let go and laughed cupping my face shaking her head, she was so fucking beautiful.. "what are you staring at?" I smiled and clicked the belt off pulling her out of the car.
"Nothing, I know when to admire art" she rolled her eyes and bit into those perfect lips before she kissed my cheek and bent over into the car grabbing her bag.
Bending over in front of me.. fuck, I tried not to look and failed miserably. The dress showed off every one of her gorgeous features. When she stood straight again I licked my lips looking her over but she held her hand up.
"We need to find Gibbs, hold it together" she was playing me, bending over showing off her ass then telling me I can't fuck her! I watched her hips sway as she sauntered up to her apartment grinning at me over her shoulder.
I quickly locked up the car and followed after just catching sight of her as the dress fell to the floor. I quickly slammed the door closed so nobody outside would see her and growled in frustration.
She only giggled and walked away leaving me rock hard in the middle of her hallway, she didn't understand the power she held over me..
When I heard a loud squeal my heart squeezed before I ran into her bedroom. She was on the floor and burst out laughing loudly trying to hold her foot "what the fuck Ziva?"
She climbed on the bed still laughing and lifted her foot "ooh! I kicked the table, shit it hurts" she laughed again and shook my head at her.
She stopped laughing when she looked up and saw the bulge in my trousers "Really?" I grinned and shrugged throwing myself down on the bed pulling her on top of me. She straddled my waist grinning before she pressed her ass against me.
"Mmm, I love watching you twitch around unable to control yourself" she nibbled my earlobe and kissed down my neck slowly sliding her hands down my chest stopping at the button to my jeans.
"The way you taste" she popped it open and licked her lips tugging them down my legs "how you feel when you fuck me" I gulped trying to restrain myself from cumming right now.
Her soft fingers grazed my stomach working there way down before she lifted my cock looking up at me through her eyelashes. She was the one telling me hold it together and not even 5 minutes later she had my cock in her hand.
"Ziva! Can you just.. fuck" I wriggled around again trying to distract myself from taking control. She only chuckled before she licked the length of me and hummed in delight.
I was about to start begging like a child but she circled her tongue over the tip of my pulsing cock before she wrapped her warm mouth around me.
"Oh fuck! Ziva.. you're mouth feels amazing" she met my eyes again still bobbing her head up and down slowly, it was excruciating.
I knew what she was doing, she was getting me back for taking forever before I actually made her cum.The animalistic need in my stomach wanted her to climb up and ride me till we both couldn't breath.
She let out a moan that vibrated right to my balls making me hiss through gritted teeth. Before I even know what I was doing she was under me and I'd ripped her panties off.
I froze and looked back to her face, she didn't look pissed.. "sorry, I didn-" she cupped my face frowning in confusion, I didn't like seeing the crease between her eyebrows.
"What's wrong?" I shook my head in disbelief. She had no idea what was happening? I was fighting every fiber of my being to let her have some control and she didn't even care.
"I was trying not to control everything.. I was letting you.. I don't know?" She giggled and pulled me closer pecking my lips gently before her thumb ran across my cheek bone.
"Tony, you don't need to hold back. do what you want.. I want you, any way. I don't care" I relaxed and kissed her again. She had no idea how amazing she was.. like a breath of fresh air. No woman has ever wanted me for me. There has always been a motive or gain behind it. Not with Ziva.
I left her lips, kissing down her chest and stomach only stopping to wrap my arms around her thighs lifting her ass off the bed a little. She wriggled around and grabbed my arm making me look at her.
"You're going to torture me again aren't you?" The raw want in her eyes made my cock twitch. I never realized until this moment that our fucking has been mainly fueled by my possession over her.
"I'm not going to torture you, your incredible Ziva. You deserve so much better than me" before she could reply I ducked my head down and buried my face in her pussy.
She let out a whimper and gripped the sheets arching her back in pleasure. I watched as much as much I could before she started panting and wrapped her fingers in my hair holding me against her.
When she tensed up she held me tighter probably waiting for me to pull away and leave her begging for more. I wasn't, I wanted to watch her fall apart at the seams screaming my name.
"Ohhh! Please.. Tony!!!" When she started jerking around I clamped my arms around her thighs tighter holding her still, forcing her to ride the waves of crushing pleasure washing over her.
"Oh!! Ooooh!!! S-stoop!!" I loosened my grip but pulled her legs further apart leaving her burning clit alone while I licked up her excitement.
"T-Tony.. fuck me, I need you" she had no idea what that statement done..
I need you
She needs me!
Nothing was better than those words.. I quickly kicked my trouser's off and climbed back between her legs hovering above her. She didn't waste time and pulled my t-shirt off running her hands over my chest before she pulled my neck down stopping me from kissing her.
"And i don't want any one else, regardless to what I deserve" I grinned a little and she rolled her eyes locking her lips with mine. I grunted hungrily when I felt her tongue fighting for dominance but she could keep dreaming. She eventually gave in making me pull away laughing.
She grinned with a sparkle in her eye that made my stomach flip. Her fingers twisted in the hair at the nape of my neck holding me closer as she wrapped her legs around my waist.
"Fuck me Tony" I ducked my head down and nibbled her ear as I pushed my cock against her dripping sex but didn't enter her. She let out a frustrated groan making me chuckle.
"I want you to ride me" her cheeks flushed with colour making my grin widen even further. She arched her back brushing her sensitive nipples against my chest.
"You don't have to do that, take control Tony" my cock stiffened even more, she was mind blowing. I wrapped an arm around her leg pulling it up before I pressed my cock into her.
She let out a strangled whine trying to adjust but still rolled her hips trying to pull me in deeper. She didn't have to do that, I was desperate. I quickly thrust myself in till out hips met making her squeal pressing her finger tips into my shoulders.
While she was still disorientated and blind with lust I pulled myself out and pushed her onto her side laying down behind her. Before she could ask any questions I bent her knee holding her thigh up and pressed myself back in to the hilt.
"Oooh! That feels so much better" her body leaned away as she watched me slowly pull out of her. When I thrust back in she shot back against my chest moaning loudly.
I watched as her eyes fluttered open and closed while I pulled myself back out of her dripping pussy "t-tony.. please! More" I loved hearing her begging.. it brought out a weird animal instinct from deep inside my bones.
I gripped her thigh tighter and started slamming my hips against hers forcing my cock to brush against her womb. I could see her trying to figure out if she was enjoying it or if it was uncomfortable.
I wasn't waiting around for her to figure it out. I wrapped my other hand around her throat getting my lips close to her ear.
"I want you to cum for me baby, I want you're cum leaking out around my cock as your pussy squeezes me tight" she whimpered gripping the bed starting to struggle a little for breath.
My balls tightened and I cursed loudly slamming myself into her harder than ever. She let out a muffled scream and launched herself away from me as I shot my cum deep inside of her.
The animalistic flame burnt out leaving me panting staring at her as she gasped for breath "Ziva..." she held her hand up and coughed holding her throat. I instantly shot up and wrapped my arms around her pulling her onto my lap racked with guilt.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry Ziva I neve-" she cut me off shaking her head as she cupped my face and rested her forehead against mine still breathless "no.. it was good, too good! you nearly blew my head off"
I could still see her trying to regain control of her breathing and winced squeezing my eyes shut "I hurt you, I'm sorry"
Her arms wrapped around my neck holding me to her like a life source. I returned the hug but I knew what I done.. I got carried away and nearly chocked her to death!
I cursed at myself and she leaned back planting a lingering kiss on my lips "I'm your's, stop worrying about hurting me.. I could have got out of it if I wanted to, remember that"
She wasn't wrong, she would probably kick my ass in a fight. I never even questioned why she was so OK with giving up control while we were fucking..
I needed the control, it's what I wanted. But it was different with Ziva now, I didn't need it as much as it was just how I done things... force of habit maybe? I hurt her. I got carried away and no matter what she said I still done it. I should be ashamed.
"Tony.. stop grinding yourself down. It was a mistake and I'm fine, better than fine. That was inbetween the best orgasm I've ever had and passing out. It was weird and wonderful... and a little terrifying"
My eyes snapped back to her and I shook my head frowning "no, it's not OK Ziva. I never want you to be terrified when your with me! I'd never intentionally hurt you.. I could never!" She rolled her eyes and cupped my jaw again making me look at her.
"Exactly!! You could never intentionally hurt me so stop beating yourself up. We do have to get dressed though" she looked at her clock before grinning at me.
"Shower? We have around 30 minutes before its too late to go looking for Gibbs" i rolled my eyes at her and she grinned pecking my lips before she jumped up and walked into the bathroom pulling me with her.
I wasn't fucking her again.. not tonight! no way! After nearly choking her. When she pulled me into the shower I hissed trying to adjust to the roasting water. She only grinned and started kissing me again giggling when she felt me swell and bulge against her hip.
"Fuck me tony" I shook my head and pushed her against the tiled wall propping her leg up on the side "nope, I have a better idea" I stepped closer and pushed a finger into her pussy. She let out a moan and held my neck kissing my jaw and nibbling my ear.
"I don't want your fing- ooooh!" I sped up starting to fuck her roughly with 2 fingers and she moaned throwing her head back allowing me to start nipping and kissing at her neck with abandon.
She let out a soft whimper and held my the back of my head stopping me from leaving her neck. I chuckled and started sucking on the joint between her neck and shoulder.
I could feel the muscles in her pussy tighten and grip my fingers before she tensed up and screamed as her body started to spasm. Her leg buckled under her but I quickly held her against my body as she panted limp in my arms.
"I'll never be able to fuck anybody ever again! Jeez" I let out a proud chuckle but it was short lived. I couldn't stop thinking about what I done. I'd never even thought about how that went down with other woman I've been with. I didn't really care either but I did with Ziva and it felt horrible knowing I'd hurt her.
While she was collecting herself I pulled her off the wall and started running a soapy sponge over her back letting the water trickle down her spine. When I looked back to see her eyes closed I couldn't help but smile.
"Tony?" I hummed in response and she stopped me moving my hand "I don't want to stop this" I froze and felt her tense up. Ziva's never been one for sharing her feelings so I wasn't really sure how to take it.
"What do you mean?" She rolled her eyes giving me a bored look "fucking you, I didn't want to stop and I still don't" she couldn't look me straight in the eye making a grin climb onto my face. She may be opening up but she isn't happy about it.
"Well what would you suggest we do?" She shrugged as her face started heating up. I knew what was going though her head almost instantly "Ziva i couldn't stop this even it I wanted to. You're mine"
She relaxed and nodded letting out a giggle shaking her head "thank god" she let go of my hand and started kissing my chest. I knew what was happening when I felt her going lower and pulled her chin back up.
"We need to find Gibbs" she pouted her lips but nodded and i kissed her cheek climbing out of the shower.
Once we were both ready to leave she put some make up back on to hide the love bits and groaned in frustration. I couldn't keep the laugh in making her head snap round to me "what's so funny?"
I shrugged and walked over pushing her hair away from her shoulder to kiss gently. Her eyes closed and I grinned at her reflection in the mirror "what are we going to say to him?"
She thought about it for a minute and shook her head "I have no idea.. we could just be honest" I nodded and kissed her neck before I backed away to give her space.
20 minutes later we were outside Gibbs house and she looked at the door nervously "Ziva don't worry. Let just go" she nodded and we climbed out of the car without another word.
As usual the door was unlocked and nobody answered so I pushed it open "Gibbs?" Nothing. We walked to the basement door and saw the light. Working on that goddamn boat as usual.
When we walked down the stairs we were both shocked. He sat in the middle of the empty basement on a chair drinking whiskey with his tie hanging off his neck.
"Sorry" Ziva looked at me quickly before she walked down the last of the stairs and got closer "it's been one of those nights, I had no right to speak to you like that Ziva"
She relaxed and smiled a little pulling a chair over to sit next to him "Tony.." I met his eye and he motioned to the other chair.
"I know this is nothing to do with me.. but you tell me everything, I know what this will mean for you. Does she?" Ziva looked at me curiously and I nodded at him.
"She knows. It's not a problem" he nodded and looked at Ziva with a raised eyebrow "you're OK with this? Really OK? This isn't a game. Once that possession becomes uncontrollable i-"
"I know what I'm doing Gibbs.. you think I don't have the same feelings? He's obviously been struggling with this for a while so it's probably different but I understand" Gibbs smiled and looked between us.
"Well, I love you both. I'm not going to come between this but.. please be careful. It's a rocky road" I knew he meant well but I was thinking about him freaking her out.
The possession had been a problem but only because it's never been right. If it's mine it's mine and nobody else understand's. Ziva always has.
She knew just as much as he did and helped me a couple of times too. I will get jealous sometimes. I will protect her fiercely. But it's not all rainbows and sunshine. It's been a problem in the past but Ziva made me feel like it wasn't anymore.
It hasn't been long enough to pinpoint any of my feelings for her but I knew I loved her. I have done for years.
She's the only woman alive that knows every one of my flaws.
She's the only woman alive who ever will.