Hello readers, I'm back! I just want to take a second to say thank you for all the amazing support! It means the world to me that so many of you love my story. All your reviews make me feel wonderful and inspire me to write more. Here is the next installment in this lovely story, as always I hope you enjoy!
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Four months later…
"Are you ready to go back out there Jane?" I ask, getting impatient with my wife. Today is our son's second birthday and all of the family is out back, including our son, waiting for us to bring out his present.
"I can't believe you let Korsak talk us into this." Jane grumbles as she picks up the adorable golden retriever puppy that we got Lucas as his present. I can't help but chuckle at the unhappy look on her face.
"Oh come on Jane, look at that face. It's the cutest, fluffiest face ever. You can't tell me you don't think he's adorable." I say, reaching a hand out and petting the puppy's fluffy ears.
"Of course he's adorable, but now we have two mouths to feed, double the responsibility, not to mention potty training for both!" Jane says and I frown at her. I take the puppy from her arms and head towards the back door. "Let's go Jane." I say sternly. "What did I do?" I hear her ask herself as she follows me out the door but I ignore it.
Lucas is running around the backyard trying to kick a soccer ball with his big cousin T.J. so he doesn't notice us walk out. Angela does though, and gasps when she sees the puppy. We hadn't really talked about getting another dog after Jo Friday sadly passed away, so I'm sure Angela is shocked by our decision to bring another dog into the family.
"Lucas, buddy, come see what mommy has." Jane says, heading over to grab him and bring him back. As soon as he spots the puppy and me he starts freaking out, wiggling in Jane's arms, trying to get free.
As they approach I kneel down and set the puppy on the grass, holding onto him so he won't run off. Jane sets Luke down, holding onto him as well so he doesn't accidently hurt the puppy. He giggles and buries his chubby little hands into the puppies fur and starts playing with it. "Puppy!" he exclaims happily. The puppy gets excited and starts licking Lucas' face, causing him to giggle more.
"Jane, don't let him do that, it's very unsanitary." I scold, pulling the puppy away slightly, Lucas is undeterred however, stepping forward and kissing the puppy on the head.
"What do you say to mommy Lucas? She bought you a puppy." Jane says to him, momentarily breaking his concentration from the dog. He looks up at me and smiles his giant dimply smile that I absolutely adore.
"Tanks mommy!" he says happily.
"You're welcome buddy. Tell your mama too, she helped pick him out." I say to my son. He turns his smile to her, repeating his thanks. "Tanks mama." He says as he gives her a sweet hug and kiss. The sight melts my heart. "Happy Birthday baby." I say to him, even though he's totally engrossed with the puppy again.
Jane and I stand back up and head over to our seats on the lawn with the rest of the family. We sit down next to each other and I take Jane's hand.
"What made you decide to get a puppy?" Frankie asks, and Jane snorts. "Well you can mostly blame Korsak for that. He kept feeding the little guy stories, videos and pictures about puppies. Pretty soon Lucas wouldn't shut up about a "pup pup". She makes quotation marks with her fingers around the name.
"The rest you can blame on Maura. Whatever this kid was, he gets." I smack her arm at this, but inwardly cringe because I know she's right. I have an issue with giving my son everything that he wants. I know its bad but I can't help it, it's how I was raised. Frankie starts to chuckle at the sheepish look on my face and the slight scowl on Jane's.
"If you didn't want to get the dog, then why did you Janie?" Frankie asks, and I know he's baiting her. We all know that I have Jane 'whipped' as they say and Frankie absolutely loves to tease her about it. Unfortunately Jane takes the bait.
"Because Frankie, whatever Maura says goes, and she wanted the damn dog so that's what we got." Jane practically growls out, making me feel rather attacked. I'm very confused by her sudden attitude change, and by everyone else's reactions, so are they.
"Jane honey, are you alright?" I ask softly, reaching for her hand, Jane having let go of mine a few moments ago. As soon as I touch it she rips it away from my grasp.
"No, Maura I am not alright! My brother keeps so kindly pointing out that my wife has me wrapped around her finger and when she says jump I jump!" Jane yells before hopping up off her chair and storming inside the house. I stare after in her disbelief at her outburst. I look over at Frankie and he has the same exact expression on his face. He mouths sorry to me with an apologetic look.
Slowly looking around me I notice everyone else has an awkward look on his or her face. Angela smiles to me apologetically.
"Maybe you should go talk to her dear. Obviously something is bothering her." She says kindly, and I nod slowly. I look over and see Lucas running around with T.J. and the puppy, playing happily and I can't help but smile.
"Will you keep an eye on him for me?" I ask her as I stand up. "Of course sweetheart." She says kindly. I thank her and begin my walk into the house. Jane is nowhere to be found on the main floor so I head upstairs towards our bedroom. As I approach I hear soft crying and instantly feel terrible. I slowly open our bedroom door and spot Jane sitting on the bed, head in her hands, softly crying.
I make my way over to her and sit down, pulling her to me. "What's wrong baby?" I ask, rubbing her back softly.
"I'm so sorry Maura. I snapped at you and Frankie like a bitch out there. I just couldn't control it and it came out." She cried to me, holding onto my waist like a vice grip.
"It's these damn hormones, they're taking over." She grumbled into my lap and I pause. Hormones? Jane must have felt me stop because she sits up and looks at me guiltily.
"What do you mean hormones? You're not on your period." I say to her, now more confused than ever. She hangs her head before answering me. "There's something that I have to tell you and I'm not sure how you're going to respond." She says quietly, and I almost can't hear her.
"What is it Jane?" I ask sweetly. She doesn't answer right away but I stay silent and wait for her to speak.
"I had it all planned out in my head, how I was going to bring it up to you and when, but I didn't anticipate how it would make me feel, and I sure as hell didn't expect the bitchiness and excessive crying." I'm still confused but I let her tell me at her own pace.
"For the past month I've been getting FSH and gonadotropin injections to make my ovaries produce more eggs." She says before looking at me skeptically. To say I'm shocked is an understatement. I really have no idea what to say right now.
"I want another baby Maura, and I want it to be my egg." She says with deep emotion. She has a small smile on her face and a few tears fun down her cheek.
"You, you-" I try and speak but I can't find the worlds I want to say. On one hand I'm extremely excited. I've been thinking about us having another child myself, and the fact that Jane wants it to be her egg makes me even happier, but on the other hand she did this all behind my back without consulting me. I'm not sure how to feel about that.
"Say something Maur." Jane says, desperation in her tone. It breaks me out of my inner thoughts.
"Why would you do this without talking to me about it? I ask and her face falls.
"This is something that you and I need to talk about thoroughly and make a decision on. What if I said no, that I don't want another child? What then Jane?" I ask, feeling slightly guilty at the look of complete and utter hurt on her face, but I'm unable to control my anger.
"I – I'm sorry Maur. I didn't think about it like that. I wanted to surprise you and make you happy. I really should have thought it through more. I'll stop going and I won't bring this back up if that's what you want." Jane says, and she sounds utterly broken. My heart wrenches at the sound. She moves to get up, tears streaming down her face, so I grab her and pull her back down.
"No, don't!" I say loudly, and she looks at me in confusion.
"Please stay, we should talk about this. And before say anything I do want another baby too, in fact I've been thinking pretty heavily about it since I cut down my hours at work." I say and she smiles wide.
I reach up and wipe the tears from her beautiful face before giving her a light kiss. "You really should have talked to me first about this, but I am happy that you're farther along in the process. That means we can try for our baby a lot sooner." I say softly, smiling at her.
"You still wanna do this?" she asks me, hope evident on her face.
"I do, I want to carry your baby Jane Rizzoli-Isles." She kisses me passionately at this. After we break we hug each other tight for a minute or two. I break away and look into her eyes.
"Let's finish this discussion later, we have a birthday boy to spoil, family to entertain and a puppy to name." I say happily and Jane chuckles.
"Okay, we'll talk later." She says before kissing my forehead and standing up. We make our way hand in hand back out to the family, greeted by smiles of happiness and relief. Lucas comes walking up. Holding the puppy and basically choking it trying to keep it in his arms, saying "mama, puppy!" with excitement.
Jane takes the dog and shows Luke how to pet him nicely and smiles up at me. I smile back as I kneel down to interact with my boy.
"Time for bed birthday boy." Jane says as she picks Luke up. He gives a giant yawn, trying to hold his head up. "Nooo." He says in response as he struggles to keep his eyes open. Jane chuckles at him as she walks towards me.
"Give mommy loves goodnight." She tells him as they come to a stop in front of me. He turns and reaches out for me. I pull him into my arms and hug him softy. "Give me a kiss." I tell him and he puckers out his lips, planting one on me. "Goodnight baby, I love you." I say, handing him back to Jane. "I wuv-oo mommy." He says sleepily. Jane smiles before taking him upstairs to bed.
I head into the kitchen to grab a glass of wine for myself and a beer for Jane before heading to the couch to sit down. I wait patiently while she puts him to bed and makes her way back downstairs to sit with me.
"Thanks babe." She says as she takes her beer, chugging half it in one gulp. "Sorry, I needed that." She says before setting it down on the coffee table and taking my hand.
"I really am sorry for the way I handled this whole thing. I should have discussed it with you first. You're my wife and the most important woman in my life, and my intention is to never keep things from you. You don't deserve that. I don't know exactly what I was thinking except that I wanted another baby. I want a little girl who looks like you, and who's tough like me. I can't get that image out of my head."
I have a huge smile on my face at her admittance. I would very much love to have a little girl who looks like me too.
"Maur, I wish very much that I could get you pregnant the old fashion way, but we're just going to have to search for a donor again. He has to be exactly like you in every way possible; your hair and eye color, similar build, same genius mind and preferably a doctor. He needs to be kind hearted and loving as well as strong and dependable. Oh and he needs to have fair skin and spattering's of freckles just like you. I want our little girl to be a mini Maura. We already have a mini Jane, now it's your turn."
I can't help the happy tears that are running down my face. I don't think Jane realizes how beautiful her words are sometimes.
"That sounds wonderful Jane." I say, leaning into her for support. She wraps her arms around me and kisses my head. I pull back a minute later and look at her.
"Don't ever keep something like this from me again, you hear me?" I ask sternly but with a smile. She smiles back and nods her head yes. "Good, now shall we head upstairs and take a nice hot bath together?" I ask flirtatiously.
"Yes please." She says before giving me a loving kiss, grabbing my hand and pulling me upstairs. I giggle at her rush to get us up there, but once the bath is drawn and we're both naked she slowly lowers herself in first, beckoning me in after, and wraps me tenderly up in her arms.
We stay cuddled together for a few minutes before Jane grabs the soap and starts to clean my body. She's so soft and loving with her movements, causing my love for her to deepen, if that is even possible. I love moments like this, where it's more intimate than anything physical we've done, the way she caresses my body as if its some sacred artifact that she worships. I nearly break out in tears when she starts planting small kisses on my neck.
"I love you so much Maur, and I can't wait to have another baby with you." She whispers in my ear, sending a shiver running down my spine.
"Me too Jane." I respond in a breathy tone.
"How do you think Lucas will act when we tell him?" she asks, resting her chin on my shoulder and tightening her arms around me.
"Based on his reaction to the puppy I would hypothesize that he will be very excited about the idea of a small person he can love, cherish and play with."
"Did you just analyze our son?" Jane asks with a snort. I turn slightly to glare at her. "I did not!" I defend.
"You totally did Maur, but that's okay because I agree with you. He absolutely loves the puppy, it was a great gift."
"Speaking of the puppy, where is he?" I ask, remembering I hadn't seen him since everyone left earlier.
"I made him a little bed with some food and water in the laundry room and shut the door. He should be okay till the morning. "Jane says casually. "Oh okay." I say and relax back into her embrace.
"We still need to name him." Jane says a few minutes later. After she does she reaches for the drain plug and pulls it, allowing the lukewarm almost cold-water to drain. We get out of the tub, wrap up in a towel, and head into our bedroom. We get dressed into our pajamas, Jane in a wife beater and shorts, me in my silk pajama pants and Jane's BPD T-shirt.
"Do you have any ideas?" I ask her as we climb into bed and cuddle up together. I rest my head on her chest and she wraps her arms around me. "For some reason when I think golden retriever I think either Duke or Charlie for a name. What do you think?" she asks me. I think on it for a minute and make my decision.
"I like Charlie. Our little puppy looks like a Charlie." I say happily, glad that we have picked a name for the little guy.
"Charlie it is then." She says before kissing my head softly. We lay there for a while; both becoming relaxed enough for sleep. Right before I fall into slumber I hear Jane mumble to me. "Night Maur, love you." I smile before saying it back and fall into a blissful sleep.
I wake up an hour later, being awoken by crying coming from Lucas' room, as well as Charlie whining downstairs. Jane stirs next to me and wakes up herself.
"Ugh, I'm too tired for this." She grumbles, sitting up in bed, turning on her bedside lamp. I look over at her with half lidded eyes. "Who do you want, Lucas or Charlie?" I ask her, giving her the choice. She growls as she crawls out of bed. "I'll get Charlie, you go get little man." She says. I chuckle at her as I follow her out the door. I head to Lucas' room while she goes downstairs, mumbling to herself about sleep and never getting any.
Lucas is standing in his crib when I enter and he holds his arms out for me to pick him up. He clings to me, burying his head in my neck when I pick him up. I rub his back soothingly as I make my way back to my room. I get into bed and set him down in the spot between where Jane and I sleep. He stops crying and curls into the comforter, getting comfortable. This has been a new thing for him, wanting to sleep in our bed. Jane says it's not a good idea but I let him anyway.
Jane comes in a minute later with Charlie in her arms. "What is with these damn boys? Can't we just get some sleep?" she says, but she has a small smile on her face nonetheless. She climbs into bed as well, setting Charlie down in the middle. He curls up next to Lucas as we all settle down.
"Night mommy." Luke says to me, resting his little hand on my stomach. "Oh thanks little man." Jane says teasingly. He's already out though so he doesn't hear her.
"Goodnight Jane." I say, leaning over to give her a tender kiss. She responds eagerly. "Night Maur." She says before turning off her light and settling in. I reach for her hand over Lucas and Charlie, entwining my fingers with hers. That's how we all fall asleep; my cute little family all nestled together.
Sorry this one was shorter, but the next one will be longer i promise. Let me know what you thought, it would make my day and help me improve this story.