Chapter 4

"You have got to be kidding me," Sirius roared at Lily.

"Yeah this is how I get my laughs," said Lily flatly.

"You have to tell James!"

"No I don't and keep your voice down this is a hospital," Lily hissed.

"You were attacked, you have to tell him. Do you know how worried he is about you?"

"Of course I know," snapped Lily. "Anyway it wasn't a bad attack, a few cuts and bruises. I'm fine and if James knew…look he thinks he's protecting me and if he knew they were attacking me anyway then all of this would have been for nothing and I don't want to do that to him."

"You're both as thick as each other, you know that right?"

"Noted. I don't see why you're here anyway I didn't ask to see an Auror."

"Generally when the wife of an Auror is attacked we are informed, you're lucky you got me and not Prongs."

"Yeah I'm real lucky," said Lily rolling her eyes as she pulled on her jacket. "And like I said it's only a few cuts and bruises…"

"Yeah I know that's just because you hex like you did at school…almost felt sorry for the poor bastards."

"It's not the first time it's happened and it won't be the last, just leave it!" Lily ordered.

"Hold on, how many times have you been attacked?"

"I've lost count."

"How many since Prongs left?"

"Five," said Lily. "I mean it Sirius don't you dare say a word to him."

"He's my best mate."

"And I'm the victim of a deatheater attack, you have to keep all information confidential," smirked Lily.

"Damn I knew we shouldn't have let you help us study for the Auror theory test," muttered Sirius. "Fine, you know I can't tell him."

"It's better that he doesn't know," said Lily softly. "You don't know what it will do to him, he thinks he's protecting me."

"You know what I think," said Sirius. "But you're alright?"

"I'm fine," said Lily touched by how concerned he was about her, even though he had just been shouting at her.

"You sure?"

"Yes."

"Okay, call me if you need anything."

"I will."

"Okay if you're being discharged I need a copy of you're chart for my report," said Sirius.

"No, you can't. Don't file a report," said Lily panicking. Sirius didn't know she was pregnant but if he got his hands on her chart he would know.

"I have to," Sirius sighed. "James won't find it, I promise."

"It's not that it's…you just can't have my chart."

"Why? What's on it?" asked Sirius snatching the chart before Lily could. He quickly scanned it. "This better be a joke."

"I wish," Lily laughed bitterly. "Fate has a sick sense of humor, I'm pregnant."

"Who is the father? You're only 9 weeks gone," Sirius demanded. "After everything…James is tearing himself apart over you and…"

"James!" Lily shouted. "He's the father, but cheers for all but calling me a slag!"

"I never said that!"

"You implied it," she snapped.

"What are you going to do?" asked Sirius seriously. "Are you keeping it? Are you going to tell James…you can't keep his kid from him."

"I don't know what I'm going to do," said Lily honestly. "And I would love to talk to James about it but he's the invisible man that follows me but if I even so much as try to acknowledge he is there he holds his breath. So don't even think about giving me a lecture about this, I'm going to make this decision on my own because James made his on his own without asking me."

"If you told him you were pregnant he would be there, you know he would. He would never abandon his own flesh and blood…"

"Just his wife," snapped Lily. "You have the chart, file your damn report. I'm going home."

"I know you're there James," Lily said sadly that night as she opened the back door and said on the steps looking out at the stars. "There is no' one else around, can't you please say something."

Silence.

"Please James I really need to talk to you, just say something please," she said as tears ran down her cheeks.

Silence.

"Right thanks," she muttered. Then suddenly she felt his round his shoulder and he pulled her into him. Instinctively she burrowed her head into shoulder. Then she looked up, he was still wearing the invisibility cloak. "I'm hugging air."

Still silence.

"You can't say I didn't try," she said. "Stop following me, it doesn't prevent a damn thing."