Well here is the next chapter! Took a while due to school. Read on for the first part of New Moon.
Chapter 4 – New Moon (Part 1)
Sitting on my bed doing homework with Jasper, leaning against him, I took a deep breath. It was amazing. He smelled like a true man to me, the mix of leather, honey, and whatever cologne he chose to wear that day. Sounds like a strange mix but it was like heaven to my senses. It's still weird for me to think that we have been together for a month now. He is truly relaxed around me and I around him. He is sitting back right now, just relaxing while I work. I envy his never-ending strength, not having to sleep sounds nice. Don't get me wrong, I love to sleep, but so much work could get done if I didn't have to go to bed. Pressing back against him in a stretch I kissed his cheek.
"You know, I am rather envious that you don't need to sleep." He smiled down at me and then looked at my finished homework.
"Well darlin', never sleeping isn't as great as it sounds. I never get to escape the real world and just drift for a while." I smiled at that and closed my eyes.
"Tomorrow is Bella's birthday. Are you ready for it?" he sighed and softly banged his head against my headboard.
"I love the girl like a sister, but her obsession with being a vampire is driving me a little crazy. Add in her lust for Edward and his constant rejection of the thought makes for a hard day of emotions."
Taking his hand in mine I curled around to face him. "I know she hates the idea of aging, and I understand why, even if only a little. We were all once human, and I think we all kind of forgot what it feels like to not have tomorrow guaranteed for us." He gave me a hum in reply and I just let him think it over. Jasper has told me that I have an uncanny ability to make him think a different way.
"Illythia?" I opened my eyes. "Tell me about one of your other lives?" I smiled at that. About once or twice a week he asks for a story about my very long life. I had told him about living in Greece, France, and even Russia among many other places. I had travelled throughout Asia and Europe in my life before modern travel.
"There was one time, I lived in England. Sometime in the 1800's, it was around the time of Jack the Ripper." He pulled away and looked at me. Seeing the worry in his eyes I doubted this was the story he wanted. "Do you still want me to continue?"
"Darlin' you aren't going to tell me you met Jack the Ripper are you?" I smiled a bit at the thought.
"I did meet him actually. He seemed like such a nice man, but then I saw him at night and it was like he had a murderous alter-ego. …
Flashback Start
I had just gotten to the bakery for my day. Working for money was difficult back in those days as a woman. We were looked down upon when we had to work, but I didn't care, this was just another life to live before moving to another country pretending to be completely foreign to them. As I donned my apron, I noticed that one man was standing outside the shop. I unlocked and opened the door for him.
"Good day sir, would you like to come in and sit?"
He looked startled, like he had been spacing out looking at the shop.
"Yes miss, I would like a fresh baked scone if you have one."
I nodded and led him to an open seat. He sat and smiled at me with sincerity.
"Tell me, what is a beautiful young woman like yourself doing working? Shouldn't your husband be caring for you?"
I kept my work up and continued to keep the smile on my face. Sexism really makes me mad and there is nothing I can do about it in this country.
"I haven't a husband sir. No English man will take me, seeing as I am a foreigner."
This didn't seem to phase him as he continued to smile at me. 'Strange.' I thought, 'most people stop talking to me by this point and read the newspaper or something.'
"Well, that is shocking, although your accent is off you are still a nice young woman."
"Thank you sir, your scone." I set the scone down and tended to other customers. This routine continued for a few weeks until one night. I was locking up the shop to walk home when I heard a scream. I ran towards the source as quickly and quietly as I could-
Flashback End
"Wait wait darlin'!" I turned to Jasper in question. "Are you going to tell me he hurt you?!" Jasper was frantically looking at me. His eyes were slowly turning black from panic.
"Whoa Jasper calm down!" I took his face in my hands and turned him to meet my eyes. "I wasn't the one screaming so what's wrong?" he turned away and looked at the bed for a while. When he finally spoke it sounded broken.
"Why would you run towards the scream?" a whisper. That's what his question came out as. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair.
"Jasper maybe I didn't explain enough, nothing so far has been able to kill me, not my assassin, not Jack the Ripper. Look at me." Turning his face to me I kissed his forehead. He was calming, but I shouldn't continue that story. "Unfortunately Jasper my life before you was a gruesome and bloody one. You have your past as the Major, I have mine as a woman who cannot die. You couldn't have thought I would have a perfect life while fending for myself did you?"
"I can't stand the thought of another bringing you harm darlin', it drives me crazy to think of how many times you would have died in your life." I sighed and hugged him to me.
"I'm sorry Jasper, I won't continue that story until your ready to hear it." He nodded and buried his face deeper into my neck. I had quickly fallen in love with Jasper after we admitted to each other, and ourselves, that we are true mates. And in falling in love I learned he had many demons he faced on a daily basis. He felt he failed me, even though we didn't know each other then. "Time for me to sleep Jasper, do you want to stay or go do your Vampy thing?" he chuckled a bit and released me.
"I need to hunt, I will see you in the morning. Goodnight Darlin'." He gave me a sweet kiss and left through the window.
Bella's Birthday
Jasper picked me up from my house and we drove to school. Alice ran to us and hugged me. "Illythia! You have to come to the party tonight at 7." I nodded my consent as I rolled my eyes at her. As bubbly and energetic as ever. She skipped away and jasper and I strolled after her at a leisurely pace. She hopped over the railing and landed in front of Bella, who hushed her when she wished her a happy birthday. Jasper and I stood back as Jasper discreetly kept my scent close. I was fine acting as a calming agent for him, it made him comfortable and I was happy to comfort him like that.
"Jasper!" we looked over at Bella. "No fair with the… emotion thing!" Jasper just smiled at her.
"Sorry Bella. Happy," she glared at him, as if daring him to say it. "Nevermind." He finished and tugged me away to first period. Nothing more was said about the party until after school got out. Edward escorted Bella home and the rest of us headed to the Cullen house to get it ready. Esme had done a lot while we were away, and I just sat and chatted with her while Alice became the party dictator, finishing and instructing everyone what to finish. Soon enough Edward and Bella came downstairs. Alice was taking pictures and Rosalie seemed as uncomfortable around Bella as ever, handing her a present. I handed my present to Bella and smiled comfortingly, she knew Rose was not happy that she was around.
"Happy Birthday Bella! Open my gift." She took it and I actually got a smile from her when she opened it. She pulled out a cookbook with all of the recipes I was willing to divulge to her. I was a couple thousand years old, I have accumulated a lot of good recipes and I know that she likes to cook, even when she doesn't show it.
"That's great, thanks Lith." She gave me a one armed hug and then moved on to a present that Esme handed her. What happened next seemed to go in slow motion. Bella cut herself on the wrapping paper, triggering Jaspers hunting instinct. Edward did not make it any better by shoving her back into a table with glass on it. Alice tried to calm down Jasper while Esme held me back from going to him. She must have thought he wouldn't recognize me or something. Rose and Emmett dragged Jasper out, Alice followed and Carlisle sent Edward to comfort Jasper. I stopped Edward on the way out.
"Tell Jasper to send one of you in to get me when he wants to see me, ok?" he nodded stiffly and went outside. I went about helping Esme clean up the living room as best I could and comforting her. "Esme look at me." She continued to clean, looking completely heartbroken. "Esme please." She stopped moving and just sunk to the ground. Shoulders shaking in dry sobs. I walked over and hugged her to me. "This wasn't your fault Esme, no one died so there is no reason to be upset."
"It's just been so long since Jasper had a slip up, who knows how this will effect him! He could have hurt you too! If I hadn't held you back he… he…. Uh!" she hiccupped and pulled me closer. So she was worried about me?
"Esme Jasper could never hurt me, even if he tried permanent damage is not possible for me." She looked at me. "I have been killed by a vampire once, I don't even have the scar from where he bit me. Now lets get this done while Carlisle takes care of Bella." She nodded and we resumed our work.
"Lith." I turned to Rose. "Jasper wants me to take you home." I nodded, understanding their need to calm down from that episode. I got in the car with Rose and she silently took me home. We hugged and said goodbye and then she left. I went inside and made a fire and some hot chocolate. I would wait for Jasper to come. He would want to talk I'm sure, and in that talk he would try to convince me that he is to dangerous for me to be around. I would be ready for it, I loved him too much to let him go over something as stupid as this. I furiously worked on my latest project, a blanket. I was working so intently that I completely jabbed the needle into my palm. "Ah!" I quickly pulled it out and inspected to prick as a small bead of blood came to the top of my skin.
"Are you ok?" I quickly turned to see a despondent Jasper. I smiled at him
"Come look before it heals!" he slowly walked over and took my palm in his hands. A small blue light shone from the hole and as it faded so did the sting. The blood and hole were both gone when the light stopped. He looked transfixed on my hand. "That's how I heal Jasper. Now sit and talk with me." He sat down and just pulled me close. I lay my sewing to the side and allowed him to hold me. He needed this and I wouldn't prod him yet.
"I love you." He whispered into my hair. "I don't want you to ever see that side of me again."
"I know but that is a part of you," I looked him in the eyes, "and I love you just the same."
"I don't have the control. I can't control it! What if I try to drain you next?! What if I succeed…" So sad, his words cut my heart.
"You will know exactly how un-killable I am then." He looked at the fireplace and sighed. "Jasper I was drained by a vampire a few times in my life. Yet here I stand with a heartbeat and no urge to drink blood." He stared at me in a bit of confusion. "If you ever did succeed in draining me it would not take very long for me to heal and get back up as if nothing happened. That doesn't mean I don't feel pain, but my tolerance for pain is very high by now. You see? Even if you did harm me you won't ever be able to truly kill me, and I would love you all the same." After my little speech we sat in silence for a little bit before he took a deep breath.
"Edward has decided that we need to leave." This alarmed me.
"What?!" pulling away I looked him in the eyes. "What do you mean?!"
"He decided that Bella is in too much danger around us so we are leaving tonight. Disappearing from her life."
"Jasper I only just found you, I wont let you slip through my fingers after so many years of being alone!" My heart is pounding, if I need to go murder Edward myself then so be it but I would not let my newfound family be taken all because he wants to throw a temper tantrum! Jasper held me closer to his chest.
"I know, I know, I won't let him tear us apart either. You are mine and I'll be damned if I let you be ripped from my arms Darlin'." I calmed hearing him say this. So he felt the same way about this as I did. He kissed me, sweetly and then harder, pouring all of his passion into the kiss. "We just have to go around Edward." I nodded. No one would keep us apart, not after we found the one person we need. The one person made for us.
"Jasper, you will be gone for a long time wont you?" he nodded and gave me a small peck. "Make me yours, fully, before you leave." He seemed shocked and started to protest before I held my finger to his lips, "I know, but remember you can't hurt me beyond repair, at this point I think I can take any pain. Make me yours and I will be much less of a handful when you return to me." Contemplation. I could see in his eyes that this was a risky decision for him. In the end he agreed to my request, taking me and making me his in every way. When I woke in the morning he was standing by my window preparing to leave. I hugged him from behind as he buttoned his shirt. Turning and hugging me back we kissed for what seemed like the last time.
"Somehow I feel like this is how it would have felt to be your wife watching you go to war." He chuckled at that thought.
"I love you Darlin', and I'll be back as soon as I can." I nodded and kissed him quickly.
"I love you too, come back to me soon." And with that he was gone, I would definitely be kicking Edwards ass the next time I see him. 'Oh God, Bella!' I quickly got dressed and ran to my car. Driving to the Swan house I knocked on the door. Chief Swan answered and looked relieved to see me. Without a word he nodded and pointed to the stairs. I quickly took them and went to Bella's room, when I opened it I found what I feared. A seemingly comatose Bella, all emotion wiped from her face, only visible through the tear tracks on her face. Man do I have my work cut out for me. 'I'll fucking kill him.'
AUTHOr NOTE
Hey everyone! I apologize for how long it took me to get this out. I am currently on a plane headed home from Indiana on spring break! I hope this longish chapter makes up for the delay. I don't have the ability to really right a lemon for this but if anyone out there is comfortable enough to do it let me know and I would be very happy! Review if you have the time, let me know how this chapter adds up and if anything doesn't make sense. I will happily clear up any confusion seeing as what is happening is crystal clear in my head. Until next time!