Chapter Four...I think it sad but, I think you'll like it! The Way We Get ByPart One was...Ehhh. I was happy to see Alli and Ziley...But it still doesn't make sense to me. Maybe next week will explain. You what I'm really tired of? The same Gigantic promo! Like I get it! Look, can Degrassi have its primetime alone without this? But I like the show just not "in love" with it. I could never love another show...Never!Anyway, you can read!
Disclaimer-I do not own Degrassi nor the song mentioned but, I do own a best friend but she doesn't know it...Yet...
Clare
"What about this?" Eli asked.
I opened the door and Eli held a white collared shirt dress, a black vest and black lacy leggings.
"Okay." I pulled him inside the dressing room by the black tie he was wearing and he closed his eyes before trying to hand me the clothes.
"Are you okay?"
"What? Yeah. I'm fine."
"So, how come your eyes are closed?"
"Oh. That? I just thought-"
"You're not going to go blind if you look at me, Eli."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes! I promise you,"
He sighed and opened right eye before giving out a sigh of relief and opening the other eye. "okay. I'm still alive."
"Are you trying to be funny?"
He shook his head and stared at me."Eli, it's not nice to stare,"
"Clare, who couldn't stare at you? You're-"
"I'm what?"
"Nothing. Nothing,"
I knew he was going to say "Beautiful" but, not now. Why couldn't Eli be normal with his friends? Would they judge him or something? My friends don't judge and they just want to see me happy and if Eli does it, then, they're all for it. I put the clothes on and my black ballerina flats. He just sat there on the seat all mute. Okay. Something's wrong and I want to know. I will find out...
Eli held my hand as we walked down the sidewalk and he still hasn't said anything. If he doesn't want to be with me, he can just say it. I can't take it anymore! He's frustrating! Hot one day, cold the next like you aren't the weather! Just tell me what you want! I released his hand and he looked down at me. "What's wrong, Clare?"
"Do you want to be in this relationship?"
He let out a breathy sigh and I nodded. "You don't. Then, we should stop wasting each other's time," I began to walk away until a hand grabbed my wrist. "Clare, you can't go,"
"I can too! You don't want me, I can find someone who does," I jerked his grip away and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Clare, calm down."
"Don't tell me what to do. You don't own me and if you think you did, we have some problems here,"
"I never said I did. You have to stop assuming and listen for a minute,"
"Fine."I said, looking away and dropping my arms to my side. "Fine. What do you have to say?"
"We both know you don't want this little tantrum you're trying to pull, Clare."
"Tantrum? I am not having a tantrum!" I yelled, waving my hands around. People walking by looked at us before going by. He gave me a look and I sighed. "Okay. I kind of am,"
"So, what's really wrong?"
"Eli, can we go to the park and talk about this?"
"If you want but, will you kill me when no one's watching?"
"Eli, no. There are way too many witnesses," He took my hand and walked us across the street and inside the park. Once we found a bench, we sat and I began to speak.
"I just thought since you were silent and all, that you really didn't want to be here...With me, so, I just thought you didn't want to be in this relationship with me anymore,"
"Clare, why would I leave you after three weeks?"
"Because, you usually do leave a girl around three weeks...And I'm making you wait so, I just thought you were bored with me,"
"You're different than those other girls, okay? You have absolutely nothing to worry about,"
"I do too. A lot of girls keep asking me if you've dumped me yet and it's way too much pressure,"
"I thought you didn't care about what people think,"
"I don't. Just too much pressure, Eli. I can't stand it,"
"Well, ignore them. They're only jealous,"
"Yeah. You're right. Do you wanna go?"
He nodded and stood up before helping me up.
."But, I wouldn't want to end something if I think I'm in something good,"
"Eli...You think you're in something good? With me?"
He nodded before looking away to hide the blush forming on his cheeks. "Eli, it's sweet. You don't have to get embarrassed," I reached up to kiss his cheek only to be ambushed into a kiss on the lips. His hands rested on the small of my back after my hands rested on his shoulders. I pulled away after he slipped his tongue in my moth and after the sudden gasps. My head laid on his chest and I sniffed smelling Eli's scent.
"Clare, I'm sorry if you thought I was going to break up with you,"
"Eli, don't be. Just me being silly, that's all,"
"But, I like it when you're silly. It makes me smile," I blushed, hiding my face in his black button down."Are you blushing,Clare?" I nodded and he chuckled. "I knew it," I lifted my head up and gazed into his emeralds.
"How did I get so lucky?"He whispered before kissing my forehead.
"I don't know. Maybe you'll get even more lucky soon," I teased before letting go of him and smirked like he would do.
"Oh, really?"
I nodded."Really, Eli. I want to,"
He mouthed an "Oh" before taking my hand and walking back to Morty. "Clare, I want you...So badly,"
I bit my lip and he loosened the hold on my hand and opened the passenger door for me. I got in and he shut the door behind me before I rolled down the window. "I know. I know. But, you'll have me soon in the near future," My hands supported me as I leaned my upper body through the open window and he leaned down and kissed me passionately before my hands went on the nape of his neck. His hands went on my sides to support. I felt like he would have pulled me out and made out with me on the hood...in front of all those people. He pulled away and I was breathing heavy and he licked his lips before sighing happily.
"We really haven't said "I love you." yet,"
"Yes. We have,"
"No. We haven't officially. All we did we're saying we were in love with each other,"
"So, what are you saying?"
"Nothing, really. Just trying to get it out there,"
I smiled before sinking back into the seat and rolling back up the window.
After hours of driving around and talking up a storm, Eli and I decided to stop at our place but, he had other intentions. "Eli, where are we?" I asked as we walked along the dirt path.
"You'll see. I want you to see this place before I drive you home and it gets dark," He explained before kissing my temple. I looked around and my heart nearly popped out of my chest as I looked at the place.
"Eli...When did you find this?" I asked as I ran over to the abandoned church. It look like it had burned down at some point of it's lifespan but, I loved it.
"Well, while you sleep sometimes, I look for some new places for us to be...Us,"He explained before coming up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. "Supposedly, this place burned down in 2001 but, I knew your parents had been fighting and i thought you would need a place to get away from everything and maybe even everyone including me...Sometimes,"
"Eli, I do need space but not all the time. You didn't have to do this,"
"I did too. Think of it as an early, early, early three month anniversary present."
"Thank you,"
"No. Thank you," His chin rested on top of my head and I smiled as we looked at our place lovingly, probably thinking the same thing.
How were we going to say "I Love You" to each other? At that exact moment? Or when the time comes?
My head rested on Eli's shoulder as he drove me home. The sun had set and there was soft music playing on the radio. I notice what song it was and sand softly along with it .
"If she can act, she can sing," Eli teased before looking down at me and back at the road. "What is this song anyway?"
" 'She Will Be Loved' by Maroon 5. I love this song,"
"Why?"
"What do you mean?"
"Everyone has a reason to love a song, what's your reason to love this very song?"
"Well, the reason is it reminds me of..."
"Of?"
"Of you. I don't know why but it does,"
"Aw. I'm special,"
I giggled and my hand rubbed his knee. "I don't wanna go home. I want to be with you,"
"Clare, as much as I want that, you can't. Your parents would hunt me down if they think I corrupted their precious daughter,"
"What do they care anyway? They're always fighting and using me as a pawn in there relationship. I'm glad I have you," I snuggled up against his arm and he sighed.
"But they're your parents you can't just say things like that."
"But I can. Eli, your parents actually pay attention to you! I'm just some little thing to use so, they can back at each other! I wish I had your parents. If I could I would trade someone for better parents than mine,"
"Clare, I can't believe you said that." He whispered.
"Eli, I can't take it...Knowing one day that my life would crumble and no one would care."
"I would care," He whispered pulling to a stop right in front of my house. "I would care and I would be there,"
"Eli, you're only saying that. "
"No. I'm not. I..."Nothing. I sighed and unbuckled the seat belt before unlocking the door and opening it. "Good night Eli. Thanks for the day off," I kissed his cheek before getting out and closing the door. Come on. Eli, get out of the hearse and tell me what you had to say. I walked up the path before I heard a door slam. I looked at the front door and saw my dad walk by, not even acknowledging my existence.
"See you later, Dad!" A car started up and it pulled off in a hurry. I heard footsteps behind me and I was about to scream when Eli whispered,"It's only me,"
I turned around and my head buried into his chest before I began to sob. "Clare, d-don't cry. It's going to be fine,"
"No! It i-isn't! Eli, I'm wasting my time with them! I want to run away!"
"Clare, please listen to me. You run away and who will I run to when I'm down?"
"Adam." I stated, lifting my head up and he wiped away my tears with his thumb.
"Clare, no. I don't want you to run away because..." He trailed off and looked away before back at me.
"Because what?"
"Because I love you, Clare."
My heart fluttered and a tears of joy began to roll down my cheeks. "I love you too, Eli." He hugged me tightly before I asked,"Can you stay with me? Tonight? My mom should be leaving soon to go somewhere,"
He nodded."You need someone other than Alli and Alexx to comfort you, of course I will. I have get some clothes though,"
"I know, Eli. I'll leave my one of my balcony doors open. Just please come back,"
"I wouldn't forget, knowing that my love is crying herself to sleep when she needs me." He let go of me and gave me a warm smile before kissing my forehead. "I'll be back, okay?"
I nodded before hugging him one last time and walking into my house slowly. I closed door before seeing my mom rummaging through all the stuff and whatnot and I asked, "What are you doing?"
She looked up and smiled faintly before walking over to me. "Clare, Dad and I decided that we should all move so, he can be close to the office,"
"W-what? W-when was this decided?"
"When he got home from work, honey. It'll be fine,"
I felt sick. I slid down the wall to the floor and began to cry. What about me? My life? My choices? I don't want to move. If I did, that meant leaving this house I loved dearly, leaving Degrassi behind...Alli, Alexx, Wes, Drew, Adam...Even Connor and Dave! But what hurt me the most was a certain green eyed boy...My love, completely sad at that fact of me moving away, across town and going to another school? He was going to be devastated...Everyone will be.
I tried so hard on this chapter...No, I didn't! I put alot of effort in this chapter though! Clare, you can't move away! What about Degrassi! What about Alli, Alexx, Drew, Wes, Adam, Connor! Dave! Especially what about Eli? I'm so sad now after writing this.. :( but, I have to read something to make me happy. Oh! Check out my other stories...Reviews please?