Since my muse keeps getting inspired, I've decided to keep this one open for a while. At least til I find the perfect ending.

Disclaimers: Kingdom Hearts is not mine.

Forgiveness

I never meant to.

If there was one thing I can say about this whole mess, it's that I never meant to do this.

I never wanted immortality, Kai. I didn't want it, I didn't ask for it, and I want someone to take it away. … This isn't the first time I've told you about it before you died. You're sitting there, my hand in yours, looking at me as if I'm completely insane.

Trust me, I have been. I'm not crazy now. I… I just want it to stop. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it never works! You still… you still die. … Please don't cry. I'm alright. I'm… I'm not crazy. I can prove it. I can prove it to you.

Kai, look under your shirt. No, I don't mean it like that! I mean, look on your stomach. A few lifetimes ago, you… you bled out because someone stabbed you. I… I'm not going to say who it was but… you still have the scar. Please look. Please look for me.

Now she sees it.

Please… please don't be scared. I can promise you that it didn't hurt you very much. You were… too out of it to know what was going on. Kai, please. I need you to listen to me. I need you to… t… to help me. There's one way we haven't tried yet, one way that…

The scars carry over, Kairi. They always carry over. Here, look. My arm. Look at my arm. You see that long scar going up my vein? That's… from a suicide. OW! What was that for?! Why'd you hit me?! … I'm sorry. … I didn't… get to say I was sorry. I… hurt you in that lifetime. I left you behind and… well… Kairi… you got to live to eighty.

Heh, yeah. You were still pretty cute as an old lady.

… I'm sorry I wasn't there. I… uh… well, I was there in spirit? … if this is hurting you, if this… explanation is too much, then I'll be quiet. We can just keep sitting here on the pier and we can look at the sunset. We don't have to do anything else.

… Huh? You believe me? … R-really? This… this is the first time you've ever believed me before! The other times, the other times I've told you this young, you said I was nuts! This is great! Maybe this time we can stop-!

… Mmm? Kai… Kai, why'd you…? … Dammit, this isn't the time for… Yeah, alright, you can lean on me. It's alright. I… Heh… Alright, the happiest lifetime? That's what you want to hear? … A good memory… Alright, lean back and I'll tell you. Just let me wrap my arms around you.

That's it, just like that.

You know how we're eighteen right now? Well, one of the other lifetimes we had together, at eighteen we got married. … Don't give me that look, we had a reason. Let's just say that the next best day in that life for me was the day our daughter was born.

She looked like you. She looked just like you, red hair and everything. … Mm… we named her Skye. After me, naturally. Riku got mad and we ended up giving her the middle name 'Terra' for him. Skye Terra Minami. One heck of a mouthful, hahaha!

… We had a happy life then. We had everything we ever wanted. … Can I just leave it like that? Please? I don't want to remember what happened in that one.

… Kai… I have to tell you something. I know you're smiling at the idea of us… being together like that… but… you've never lived to old age when you were with me. The only times you've lived to old age was when you were with Riku.

OW! What the hell?! Why'd you hit me-! … Oh. … Kairi… You know, don't you. That I'm leaving? … No wonder you were so upset… when did you find out? Ah… Riku told you this morning? I oughta…

Mmm? Take… you with me?

I wish I could. Kairi… you mind… forgiving me? For not saving you? I… I can't stop crying in the night because… I know it's my fault. So… please… do you mind giving me your blessing? Something to remind me why I'm going? Give me one last smile, even, it's not that hard to do. Please. Yeah… just like that, that makes me feel a lot better. Like… I can keep walking. I can get over this damn depression, even. Heh… … Kai? What are you…?

… Thank you. I'll bring it back to you one day; I'm not one for stealing good-luck charms.