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This is quite a long chapter…and it took me a while to write. It is actually quite hard to pick up all the hints that suggest what Jazz is feeling about certain situations….and his thoughts and emotions are important in this part of the story.

This part was one of my favourite parts of Midnight Sun, so I wanted to get the mood right. The majority of the dialogue is taken from Midnight Sun, although I did take some out, and added a bit of my own.

Chapter 4

The wait for Edward to come home from the hospital was torture, partially for me. I hate it when my family is all emotional, it gives me a headache, just trying to comprehend what everybody is feeling, why they are feeling this way , and how I might possibly make the situation less stressful. But you don't need to have my abilities to see that at the moment, Rosalie was pissed off at Edward. She hated moving, although personally I could not see why. When you never aged - and you were kind of forbidden to let people know the truth about you - moving was inevitable. I think she just liked to bitch and complain. But that was just my opinion, something most of the time my family didn't ask for.

Of course, Alice was worried. She loved Edward, like a brother, something that had taken me quite some time getting used to. At first, I must admit that I was jealous. They both have a unique gift, one that separates them from the rest of us. The ability to communicate without letting everyone else know what they are talking about. But when I feel Alice's love for me, I know. I know that while she loves Edward as a brother and would do anything for him, she loves me as a lover. And she needs me, more then she needs anything else in this world. She could move on - eventually- if something happened to Edward. But she find a way to die - or something of the equivalent - if anything happened to me. And that thought, in an odd way, comforts me.

Emmett was not mad, like I originally thought he would be . He was upset. Upset because he knew that Edward could do better. Upset because he knew that this could cause a major fight within our family. And this surprised me. I knew that he had a sensitive side, but it was a side that I rarely got to experience. A side that I wish he would sometimes show more to others.

And on top of all my siblings emotions, I had my own to deal with. I was unsure of how I felt. I was angry, yes. But being mad at Edward would be slightly hypercritical. I mean I definitely don't have a clean slate when it comes to " giving into temptation". But then again, I have never left a witness to my…well…lets just call them fumbles.

When Edward finally arrived, I knew that he was desolate, and angry. Angry at himself for exposing his family. Angry that he had not been able to control his emotions.

He walked right past us and sat down at the dinning room table. We all quickly followed, joined by Carlisle and Esme. We were all anxious to hear what Edward had to say.

I looked at my family, and sighed. This dinning room - seeing as it was obviously not used the conventional way- was often a place where we could share ideas, laugh and joke, and just be ourselves. Rarely did we sit at this table and have an argument. There was immense tension, I could feel it.

Edward looked up at all of us and paused for a moment. Then he took a deep breathe and started. " I am sorry. I didn't mean to put any of you at risk. It was thoughtless and I take full responsibility for my actions."

" What do you mean 'take full responsibility'? Are you going to fix it?" Rose demanded.

" Not the way you mean," he replied. He was trying very hard to remain calm. At the moment he seemed to be doing a good job at that. " I am willing to leave now, if that makes things better."

"No," Esme muttered, " No Edward." It always amazes how much she loves us, and how much she is willing to sacrifice in order to make us happy. I know that if her son would have lived she would have made an excellent mother.

Edward grabbed her hand and held it. " It will only be a couple of years."

But Emmett shook his head. " Esme is right. If you leave now that will be the opposite of helpful. We must now what people are thinking."

" Alice will tell us if something major happens." he countered.

It was Carlisle's turn to disagree. " Emmett is right Edward. The girl will be more likely to talk if you disappear. We all leave or none of us leave."

" She won't say anything ," he insisted. I let out a little growl. He was treading into dangerous water, and Rose was starting to get really pissed off with him. It was just a matter of time before she exploded.

" You don't know her mind Edward," Carlisle reminded him.

" I know that much. And Alice can back up me." He looked at her for reassurance.

" I can not see what will happen if we ignore what is happening," she replied. She was tired. It was hard for her when she could not see exactly what was going to happen. It deeply upsets her when she is unsure of what is going on. She had enough of everyone not being able to decide how they were going to act.

And apparently she as not the only one who had had enough. With a loud bang, Rosalie slammed her hands down on the table. " We can't allow the human a chance to say anything. Carlisle you must see that. Even if we decided to all disappear, it is not safe to leave stories behind. We live so differently from the rest of our kind. You know there are those who are begging for an excuse to point their fingers at us. We need to be more careful then anyone else ."

" We've left rumours behind us before Rose,"

"Just rumours and suspicions , Edward. Not eyewitnesses and evidence."

" Evidence!" he replied. And then he looked at me. But I nodded my head. I had to admit, Rose was making a little bit of sense. Which was part of the reason why I had not stepped in and calmed her down yet. There other reason was that from my experience people tend to express their true opinions when they were mad. And I knew that the only way this problem would get solved would be if everyone showed their cards.

But Carlisle didn't seem to think that allowing them to argue would be beneficial " Rose-" he began, but she cut him off.

" Let me finish Carlisle. It doesn't have to be a big production. The girl hit her head today. So maybe that injury turned out to be more serious then it looked. Every mortal goes to sleep with the risk of never waking up. And others of our kind expect us to clean up after ourselves. Technically, that would be Edward's job, but it is obviously beyond his control. You know that I am capable of control. I would leave no evidence behind me."

Edward suddenly became extremely angry. "Yes, Rosalie. We all already know how proficient of an assassin you are."

She growled back.

" Edward please," Carlisle said. Then he turned to Rose. " Rosalie I looked the other way in Rochester because I felt like you needed justice. The men you killed had wronged you. This is not the same. The Swan girl is innocent."

" It's not personal," she replied through her teeth. " It's to protect us all."

There was a moment of silence as Carlisle contemplated this. It was then that I realized that Rose was right. This was about protecting ourselves. And if something was going to threaten my family, partially my wife, then it needed to be destroyed. But I also knew what happens when things like this get out of control, and that is not something I ever want to experience again.

After a while Carlisle nodded, and Rose's eyes lit up. But I knew that she would not be happy with what he had to say. There were somethings that he never compromised.

" I know you mean well Rosalie, but…I want our family to be worth protecting. The occasional accident is a regrettable part of who we are. But to murder a blameless child in cold blood is another thing entirely. I believe that the risk that she presents is a nothing compared to the risk of losing the essence of who we are. Vampires that refrain from human blood."

Although Edward was trying very hard not to show it, he was ecstatic with Carlisle's decision.

But of course Rose was not happy. " I was just trying to be responsible."

" It's being callous," Carlisle corrected her. " Every life is precious." She pouted and of course Emmett comforted her. Sometimes I do not see what he sees in Rose. For she can be cold- hearted and self centered. But I felt their love. And it was as strong as Alice and mine.

" The question," Carlisle continued " Is whether we move or not." "No," Rose complained. " We are just getting settled. And I do not want to start high school again. And besides I like it here. There is so little sun, we can almost be normal for a change." Once again I have to admit that I agree with Rosalie, something that rarely happens.

" Well we certainly don't have to decide now. We can wait until it becomes a necessity. Edward does seem certain about the girl keeping quite."

Rose snorted. And Edward gave her a cold stare. But the mood changed, and I realized that Edward was no longer focused on Rosalie. He was focused on the other person in our family who was undecided about what should happen, me.

" Jasper." I looked into his eyes and searched his feelings. He was confused. " She won't pay for my mistake. I won't allow it."

" So she benefits from it then?" I asked. I know it was a little harsh, but he needed to see both sides of this situation. And he needed to hear it from someone who didn't only think about themselves. "She should have died today Edward. Killing her would only set things right."

" I won't allow it," he repeated with great force. That surprised me. Edward never argued against me. Perhaps there was more to this then I had originally thought.

But I shook my head. He did not understand. " I won't let Alice live in danger, even a slight danger. You don't feel about someone the way I feel about her Edward. And you haven't lived through what I have lived through. You don't understand."

" I am not disputing that Jasper. But I will not let you- or anyone- hurt Isabella Swan."

I stared at him, trying to gage his determination.

"Jazz," Alice interrupted.

I looked at Edward for a moment longer, and then turned to her. " Don't bother telling me that you can protect yourself Alice. I already no that. But I still-"

" That was not what I was going to say. I was going to ask you to do me a favor."

Edward let out a little gasp. Clearly she had seen something that had shocked him.

" I know that you love me," she continued. " And you know that I love you too. But I would really appreciate it if you didn't kill Bella. First of all, Edward is serious and I hate seeing you two fight. Secondly, she is my friend. Or at least she will be."

" But…Alice.." I stammered. She was confusing me. And frustrating me. Why would she be friends with that girl? Why would she want to be?

"Alice…" Edward chocked. " But what does this mean?"

" I do not know," she replied and then she stared at me. She sometimes did that, so that she could think about me instead thinking about something she wanted to keep from Edward.

" What is it? What are you hiding from me?" Apparently he knew as well as I did, that she was trying to not let him see something.

I heard Emmett grumbled. He hated it when they had private conversations.

But she keep staring into my eyes, obviously trying very hard not to give up.

" Is it about the girl?" he demanded. " Is it about Bella?"

Alice's gaze dropped. I knew that saying the girl's name seemed to have made her lose concentration. And Edward was now seeing her vision. A vision he may regret seeing.

" NO!" he shouted, as he got to his feet and knocked his chair over in the process. He must not have liked what he had seen.

Carlisle was up over to his side the moment that Edward got up.

" Every minute you are more decided " Alice whispered. " There is really only two ways left for her. It's one way or another Edward."

"No,"

Emmett was still confused as to what was going on. "Will somebody please let the rest of us in on this little secret."

" I have to leave," Edward whispered to Alice, ignoring Emmett.

" We have already been through of this Edward." Emmett demanded. He really disliked being ignored. " You have to stay here and deal with this."

" I don't see you going anywhere Edward. I don't even know if you can leave." Alice replied.

" I don't hear that," he contradicted. Obviously he was talking about somebody's thoughts. And I had a strange feeling that it was mine. And then he put his head in his hands. " Why are you doing this to me?"

He stood there for a second, listening to whatever Alice had to say. " You love her too?" he whispered. And then he shook his head. " No, I do not have to follow that path. I will leave and change the future."

" You can try," she replied, but she sounded skeptical.

" God dammit…someone tell me what is happening" Emmett demanded.

Rose sighed. " Don't you pay attention Em. Alice sees him falling for a human." she made a gagging noise.

" What?" Emmett laughed. " Is that what's going on?" he patted Edward on the back, but Edward brushed him off.

" Fall for a human?" Esme whispered, stunned. " Fall in love with girl he saved today?"

I sighed. I need to know what both Alice and Edward thought of this. " Alice, what exactly did you see?" She turned and looked at me once again. I bet she was thinking about why I would ask her something like that. I just need to know everything before I picked a side of agree with.

" It all depends on whether he is strong enough or not. Either he kills her himself-" she turned and looked at Edward, " - which would annoy the hell out of, not to mention what it would do to you, Edward-" she turned back to me, " - or she will eventually become one of us." I heard Esme gasp in the back round. But I was not really paying attention, I was thinking about what Alice was saying.

" Neither one of those is going to happen," he shouted.

Alice went on answering my question as if he had not said anything. " It depends, he may just be strong enough not to kill her - it will be close. And it will take an amazing amount of control. The thing that he definitely does not have the strength to do is stay away from her."

Wow …I could not imagine what Edward was going through. I knew that if I was him, I would not have the ability to control myself. And then I realized that I may have been wrong to go along with the idea of killing her . For I know what it is like to love someone, and I know how I would feel if something happened to her.

After a moment Carlisle spoke up. " Well that confuses things."

" I'll say," Emmett said. There was a hint of laughter in his voice. What he found amusing in this situation was beyond me.

" I suppose the plans stay the same," Carlisle continued thoughtfully. " We'll stay, and watch. Obviously…no one will…hurt the girl." He looked at me and Rose.

I nodded my head. " I agree." If Alice saw that he would love her, then I believed that it would happen. And I will not harm someone that anyone in my family loves.

But that was not really what Edward wanted to hear, and he stalked from the house, running towards the river. He needed to be alone.

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