No one leaves….."Back to December"

Brenda couldn't believe that Mona knew. She wasn't at all worried that she would tell anyone, because she trusted her, but if Mona knew, who else could tell? After kissing Lola goodnight, Mona prepared to leave.

"Mona?"

"Yes."

"How…did you know?"

"I've been around you, since she was a baby. I've watched her grow up. She's getting older Brenda, and she's starting to look like you. I see it, because I'm around her more than anyone else. I don't think he'll be able to tell yet. But he will one day."

"But how did you know, he was her father?"

"Besides the eyes, your reaction to him. Is he ever coming back?"

Brenda shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know, but he's working with ASEC now."

"Relax, he doesn't have a clue. I'm not sure why, you don't want him to know, and I won't ask. But your secret is safe with me. I also think it's best, that we don't mention it again."

"Yeah…..."

Mona smiled. "It's going to be ok." They hug, and Mona leaves.

After Brenda closed and locked the door, she walked over and sat down on the couch. She never in a million years thought, she would see Jax again. And in the beginning, she didn't care, she just wanted to hurt him, like he hurt her. And for a long time she didn't feel guilty. But looking into her child's eyes, his eyes, everyday started to weigh on her. There were times, when she wanted to call and tell him, but she knew Jax would use every connection he had, to take her. She decided to just keep that secret. And it was easy, because he was an ocean away, but now he's working with ASEC.

She sighed. She hoped and prayed they didn't work directly together. But regardless, she had to take Mona's advice, she had to stay calm, and pretend like everything was as it seemed.

She got up, turned out the lights, and went into her room...

Jax had been working for ASEC for a couple of months now, but Brenda never saw him, in fact she hadn't seen him since the night he left her apt. He sent her an email every now and then, but that was it. And it was always charity related. She didn't even know, if he had a place in Rome. She hated having him anywhere near Lola, but she had to admit, he was having a positive affect on the organization.

Brenda was on set, getting ready to record a commercial for the organization. She was in hair and makeup. A woman named Megan, was doing her makeup.

Brenda was sifting through her emails, when she heard Mickal's voice. "What are you doing?"

Megan looked up. "Doing her makeup, you don't like it?"

"I would if she was going to the club."

Brenda looked up, and in the mirror. "Oooh nooo! This is not going to work! What have you done?"

Mickal shooed Megan away. "I'll do it. Brenda, go find a sink, and wash this off."

Brenda got up, and went into the bathroom. After washing her face, she made her way back over to Mickal. He started applying her makeup. Megan stood by and watched closely. Mickal told her, that Brenda needed to look fresh faced, not overly made up. This is for charity, not an ad for the strip club.

Brenda was going through her emails, when she heard Megan squeal. She looked up.

"There is that new hot guy that works for ASEC. He is one amazing looking human being. Yum Yum Gimme Some."

Brenda looked over and saw Jax approaching. Mickal looked down at Brenda. She could feel him looking down at her. "It's fine, Mickal. We are fine."

Mickal looked up at Jax, then at Brenda. "Ok."

Megan looked confused. Jax finally made it over to her.

"Hello, Brenda."

"Hello, Jax."

"If you have a moment, once you're done, I would like to speak to you."

"Ok."

"I'll be in the director's office."

"Ok."

Jax walked off.

Mickal sends Megan away.

"I wanted to ask if you were ok, with him working here."

"Yeah, it's fine. I hardly see him. And he's been doing a wonderful job. We've talked, and we're fine."

"Good, because he is so fine and so smart. I didn't want to have to be mean, to a man that gorgeous. That would be against everything I believe in."

Brenda laughed.

He finished her make up, and she headed to the director's office.

She knocked on the door, and was told to come in. She saw Suzanne, who was the President of the organization, going over something with Jax.

They looked up. Suzanne motioned for her to come in. "Have a seat Brenda. I have some good news."

She looked at Jax and then back at Suzanne, as she cautiously took a seat.

Suzanne continued. "I wanted to share this with you first. We are gearing up for a huge charity event. This one is bigger than anything we have ever had, and we owe it all to Mr. Jax. We are having a concert to benefit ASEC. Not just a little benefit, this is huge with a number of big acts, already committed. The concert will be in London, with the majority of the profits going directly to the organization. And it is happening pretty fast. We have two months to create some buzz. Of course there is radio, but we also need you."

"And no one knows about it yet?"

"No. We have changed today's format, because we have to get the word out."

Brenda looked at Jax then Suzanne. "I am really happy about this concert, but I think we need more time."

Jax leaned back in his seat. "Yes, it's soon. But we have to take advantage of the weather, because it is an outdoor concert. Look Brenda, it will be a lot of hard work, especially for you, because you are the spokesperson, but I promise, it will be well worth it. I think it will raise a lot of money."

"Basically, this means I will be traveling a lot?"

Suzanne twirled her pen. "Yes."

"I have a seven year old, or have you two forgotten? I don't want to leave her."

Jax sat up. "Take her with you."

"I don't know. She doesn't mind some travel, but-."

Suzanne interrupts. "You'll be on Jax's private jet. He'll be going on these press tours with you."

"What? Whoa, I didn't know that."

"Brenda, you are going to be on a private jet. You can bring your child, and Mona if she'll come. Come on, this is the type of exposure we've been needing. Think about all those kids, that are relying on us."

Suzanne knew just how to get to Brenda. Brenda sighed. "I can't let them down. Ok, I'll see what I can work out."

Suzanne smiled and stood up. "Great, now I'll go tell the rest of the team. Well the ones that are here. I'll send out an official email tonight." She leaves, leaving Jax and Brenda alone. Jax could tell that Brenda was worried.

"It will be fine. I could get Lola a tutor."

"No, I can take care of that."

"Are you ok….with working...so closely with me?"

"Of course." Brenda rolled her eyes. "We are the best of friends."

Jax laughed at her attempt at sarcasm. "Brenda, it will be fine. It will demanding, as far as the interviews are concerned, but I'll be there to help you out."

"Jax, I am really excited about this concert, but do you honestly think we can work together?"

His blue eyes look into hers. "Yes..."

Jax and Brenda spent the next few weeks, working closely together, getting ready for the interviews. And it turns out, Jax managed to get a lot of the interviews on the weekend, so Lola didn't need a tutor. Their first public appearance was on a Wednesday. Mona stayed with Lola, so she wouldn't miss school. Brenda was incredibly nervous. She would be traveling alone, with Jax. Yes, they had been working together, but other people were always around.

Jax had a car pick her up, and bring her to the airport. He was already in the plane, when she arrived.

He stood up, when he saw her entering. He smiled. "Hello."

"Hi."

"You can sit wherever you'd like."

"Is that where you are sitting?"

"Yes."

"Ok, I'll sit over here."

Jax laughed. "Brenda, are you ok?"

"Fine Jax."

She made her way over to her seat, which was in the first set of seats, in front of Jax.

"Brenda, you don't think it's odd that we aren't sitting by, or near each other?"

She shook her head. "No."

Jax chuckled. "Ok. Well, would you like something to drink?"

"Water please."

"Ok." He pressed a button, and a very refined looking guy came out. Jax requested a bottled water for Brenda, and nothing for himself.

The guy came out, and sat Brenda's glass down, and poured her water into it. He also placed a cloth napkin on her lap.

"Sir, you didn't have to do that, I can drink it out of the bottle. And I didn't need a napkin."

The guy looked at her as if she was crazy, nodded and left.

Brenda turned and peeked over the seat at Jax. "I feel like I should have worn an evening gown on this flight. How dare I drink water from a water bottle?"

Jax laughed. "It's just a courtesy."

"He looked at me like I was trash."

"No he didn't."

"I disagree."

"Brenda, why don't come, and sit back here with me? You wouldn't have to strain your neck."

"No, I'm fine." She turned back around. A couple of minutes later, she turned around. and peeked over the seat again. "Jax, when was the plane last serviced?"

"Right before we got in it."

Brenda's eyes got wide. "Was something broken?"

Jax laughed. "No, just a checkup."

"Brenda, you really should consider moving, you really are going to strain your neck. I don't bite."

She sighed. "Ok." She got up, and sat down in front of Jax.

"See, now isn't this better?" Brenda looked on as he sifted through, a couple of stacks of papers.

"ASEC business?"

"No."

"You've been working a lot lately, haven't you?"

"Yes, I have to have something to keep me occupied."

"Jax, where do you live?"

"I live out of a suitcase."

"You need a place to call home."

"I have my hotel rooms. My home was wherever Josslyn was, but she isn't here anymore. I'm fine with the way things are."

"You're going to get tired of living out of suitcases."

"Maybe so. But I'm sure it won't always be like this, but for right now it works for me."

"Ok, well go ahead and submerge yourself, in your fun paperwork."

She leaned back and put her headphones on. Their was a TV facing her. She picked a movie, and started watching it. Before long she was asleep.

Jax made a quite a few phone calls, as he made his way through, the huge stack of papers. He eventually packed them up, and leaned back. His eyes rested on Brenda, who was still sleeping. He took in the curve of her lips, and the beautiful planes of her face. It had been a long time, since he actually looked at her. She had always been beautiful, but somehow she surpassed what he remembered. He missed everything about her, but most of all he missed having her in his arms. He had never stopped loving her. He was angry with her for awhile, but he never stopped wanted, or needing her. He had packed away all of his feelings, but the day he saw her at that luncheon, was the day he knew he had to get her back. He made a terrible mistake all those years ago. It was no coincidence that he was going on these trips with Brenda. Things like this, didn't just happen, he had to make them happen.

At that moment Brenda's eyes open. She stretched, and looked over at Jax, who quickly looked away. She took off her headphones. "How long do we have?"

"Any minute now."

"Great..."

Jax and Brenda have made it to London. They checked into their hotel rooms, which were right next to each other. Once Jax finished freshening up, he knocked on Brenda's door. She opened it.

"I'm almost ready."

Jax walked in and closed the door. Brenda went back into the room. Minutes later, she returned. She was fumbling with the zipper on her skirt.

Jax looked on, as she continued to struggle with it. She turned and looked at him. "Are you going to help me out?"

He stood up, walked over, and slid the zipper up.

"Thanks, even though I had to beg."

"You didn't have to beg. I didn't know if it was ok to touch you. I was taught that you shouldn't touch a woman, without her permission."

Brenda looked at him for a moment. "Jax, I was a having trouble with my zipper, not my bra. I think you have lost a few brain cells, in the last eight years."

Jax laughed.

Brenda looked in the mirror, and then turned to him. "How do I look?"

"Good."

"Ok, let's go."

They quickly headed out of the door, and down to a waiting car. Brenda and Jax are on the way to the TV station.

Brenda is going over her notes. "Jax, I think you should do the interview with me."

"No, you're the spokesperson."

"Yeah, but I think it would be better, if we both did it. You don't have to do them all, just this one."

"I'm not prepared to go on camera."

"Jax, yes you are. You are always prepared to go on camera. I don't know a man, that dresses as sharply as you. Look sweeth-….I'm sorry."

"Brenda, it's ok. I'm sure you have called me worse."

She grinned. "Yeah, you're right, but come on Jax, it will be fun."

Jax sighed. "I don't know."

"Jax…come on! Just this one time. Please!"

"Ok, just this one time."

She smiled. "Great." Minutes later, they pulled up to the TV station, and exited the car. Before Brenda could stop herself, she reached up, and adjusted Jax's tie.

Jax grinned. "Is it straight now?"

Brenda quickly pulled her hand away. "I'm sorry. Old habits…..but come on, we are going to be late..."

The interview went off without a hitch. They managed to squeeze in several more, by the end of the day, they were exhausted. Exhausted but pleased…

After reaching the hotel, they went back to there respective rooms. Brenda showered, and changed into a tank and some shorts. About ten minutes later, she heard a knock at her door. She wrapped a towel around her hair, and opened the door. It was Jax. He followed her in. They didn't want to go anywhere for dinner, so they decided to order room service.

Jax collapsed on the sofa, and Brenda sat in the chair. She pulled her knees to her chest.

"Miss Barrett, we make a pretty good team."

"Yes, we do, Mr. Jax."

"Brenda, I know it has to hard, being forced into this situation with me. I appreciate how good you're being about it."

"Jax, it's fine. I was a little nervous at first, but it's actually been ok. And you are doing some wonderful things for this organization."

"Thanks, I appreciate that."

*knock at the door*

Jax stood up. "I'll get it."

Brenda took a moment, to go into the bedroom, and call Lola. Jax was in the living room setting everything up. He overheard Brenda talking to her daughter. He smiled, he always knew she would be a good mother, and she was proving him right. He could tell she meant the world to her.

Brenda walked out of the bedroom, and found Jax sitting at the table, waiting on her.

"You didn't have to wait, I'm sure you must be starving."

"I was trying to be a gentlemen."

Brenda took a seat across from him. "I wish you would have thought about that, on our wedding day. Because you were not gentleman then."

Jax didn't see that one coming. "Brenda, I thought we were making an attempt…. at leaving that in the past."

"I'm sorry, it just slipped out. Jax, I've been angry with you for a long time. I'm not completely over it, but I'm trying. I apologize, we are supposed to be moving forward."

"You know if I could take everything back, I would."

"I know, let's just eat. I don't know why I said that."

Jax opened a bottle of wine, and poured it into their glasses. They eat in silence. This whole situation had turned uncomfortable, and it was all because of her big mouth.

"Jax, I'm sorry I said what I said, I don't want this to become awkward."

Jax stopped eating and looked up at her. "I don't think you really need me on the press tours, I don't want to be a distraction."

"You're not a distraction. I have really enjoyed working with you. I just made a stupid comment. Can we just forget I ever said it…..please?"

He shrugged. "It's forgotten."

"Now, let's finish eating."

They finish eating, and almost finished off the whole bottle of wine, in the process. They moved to sofa.

Brenda sat her glass down on the table. "Jax, how in the world, did you end up marrying Carly?"

Jax laughed. "It was just one of those things."

"Were you on drugs?"

"No."

"You….actually…fell in love with Carly?"

Jax shrugged.

"Was it all that you hoped, and dreamed it would be."

"Worse."

Brenda burst into laughter. "Ok, ok, ok….but I'm sure you two, had some good times too?"

"Yeah, for little while, maybe a couple of months."

Brenda laughed.

"I would have divorced her a long time ago, but I stayed because of Josslyn." He looked off. "She was my everything."

The smile left Brenda's face. "I'm…..sure she was."

"I miss her."

"I know."

Jax leaned back on the sofa, and decided to change the subject. "Are you seeing anyone now?"

Brenda picked up her glass, and drunk some wine. "No."

"Do you mind if I ask why not?"

"I don't mind. I'm just not, doesn't seem that important right now." She looked over at him. "What about you?"

Jax shook his head. "No. Remember….I haven't even found a home."

Brenda grinned. "You need to work on that."

He looked over at her. "Yeah, I do."

Brenda removed the towel from her head, and threw it on one of the chairs.

Without thinking Jax reached over, and ran his fingers through it. "It's almost dry."

Their eyes lock for a moment. Brenda looked away. "I think we should get some sleep."

Jax nodded and stood up. He walked over to the door, with Brenda following. He opened the door, and turned around. "Goodnight."

She looked into his eyes. "Good…night" Jax didn't move, he wanted to he just couldn't. His eyes moved down to her lips. Jax leaned down, he was so close, she could feel his breath on her lips. She pulled away. "Whoa…Jax."

He apologized and left, closing the door behind him. Brenda stared at the door for a moment. She was still angry with Jax for what he did, but a part of her still loved him, in spite of everything. She sighed, and walked toward the bedroom…...

Part 2

It's the next morning, and Brenda is preparing to leave. *knock at the door* She walked over and opened it. It was Jax, and he was standing there dressed, like he had walked off of the pages of GQ magazine.

Brenda had on a Pink sweat suit. "Really, Jax?"

"What?"

"We are going back to Rome, not to a meeting."

He laughed. "Are you ready?"

"Yeah." A bellhop came in and gathered her bags, they all head downstairs….

Brenda and Jax are on the plane, headed back to Rome. Brenda was looking at a picture of Lola, on her phone.

She was sitting next to Jax, he looked over at it. "She is beautiful Brenda."

"Yeah, I miss my baby." At that moment Brenda realized who she was talking to, she shoved her phone in her purse. She was getting too comfortable around Jax. She had almost started to forget, that he was Lola's father, but maybe that was a good thing. Mona did tell her, to act as normal as possible.

"Brenda, about last night-"

"Jax, nothing happened, just let it go." She looked over at him, and grinned. "I'm just so sexy, you couldn't resist, especially after a whole bottle of wine."

Jax laughed. "Would you like something to drink?"

Brenda smiled "I don't want anymore wine, I'm still trying to get over last night."

"Water?"

"Yes, that would be fine. I'll take a bottled water, no glass."

Jax grinned. "Ok." He pressed a button, and ordered their drinks.

The steward came out, and handed her the bottled water. And opened Jax's, and poured it into his glass. He left.

She opened the bottle, and drunk some. She looked on as Jax, pulled the glass up to his lips. "Jax, you are drinking water out of glass, you are so extra right now."

"Look, I don't give you hell, for drinking out of a bottle, don't give me hell for drinking it out of a glass. I'm in my nice suit, give me a break."

She smiled. "Point to Jax." They both laugh…..

Brenda and Jax went on four more press tours. By the end, they had become friends again. There was nothing awkward, about their relationship anymore. They had develop a certain level of comfort around each other. Brenda still made sure she kept Lola and Jax apart, other than that, everything was fine.

Eventually the time had come for ASEC's benefit concert. There were six acts set to perform. Some of them Brenda knew, and some she didn't. Mickal knew them all, and he was so excited. Brenda brought Lola, but her and Mona would be in a sky box, with the other executive's children. Brenda would be watching on the side of the stage, along with other ASEC representatives. In between the acts, there would different ASEC messages appearing on a huge screen.

The concert was a huge success. Brenda stood on the side, and watched it with Mickal and Jax. The final act was set to perform, and it was Taylor Swift. Brenda knew of her, but she really wasn't into her music. Mickal loved her. Jax felt the same way Brenda did. He didn't know any of her songs, but the people loved her, and to him that all that's mattered.

Brenda looked on as she performed. She was really talented. Mickal told her that she wrote her own songs, which impressed her, because she was so young. And a lot of them, were really catchy.

They looked on, as Taylor gave a little back ground information, a on song she was getting ready to do. She said it was about love and regret. "Someone requested this song. It's been eight long years, and if he could, he'd go back and change what happened. Ok, this song is called, Back to December. If you know it sing along."

Brenda looked over at Jax, who was staring straight ahead. Maybe she heard wrong. Her focus shifted back to Taylor.

As she started to sing, the large crowd started to sing with her.

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life tell how your's family?

I haven't seen them in awhile

You've been good

Busier than ever

We small talk

Work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

It still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

As the lyrics were sung, she looked over at Jax, who was still watching Taylor sing. Maybe she was mistaken, but how many people, went through a break up eight years ago. She looked out onto the stage, then at Jax, who didn't seem phased. She dismissed it, as just a coincidence, and turned her focus back to the stage.

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

At that moment Jax grabbed her hand, which caught her off guard. He guided her away from the crowd.

Brenda looked up into his eyes. "Jax, what's going on?"

Jax put his hands into his pockets. "I dedicated that song to you….us."

"I didn't think you knew any of her songs."

"I didn't, but I took the time to listened to a couple, and this one made me think of you."

They stare into each other's eyes. "Jax…."

"Listen Brenda, I made a mistake, and if I could I would do it differently, but I can't. I've never gotten over you, and I want you back."

"Oh, Jax." She sighed. "Jax, Jax, Jax, you don't understand, before you go confessing your love, there is something I think you need to know."

"I don't want to know."

"No, I think you will want to know this."

"Brenda, if it happened eight years ago, I don't want to know."

"But you-."

"Brenda, do you love me?"

She suddenly got quiet, his eyes are on her. Tears fill her eyes. "Damn it Jax." Tears trickle down her cheeks. He reached over, and wiped them away. She looked up into his eyes. "Why did you have to come to Rome?"

"Brenda, if you don't…..I understand."

"Jax…Lola-."

"Look, go be with your daughter. And once she's in bed tonight, come to my room so we can finish this conversation."

Brenda noticed that Taylor had finished, and the concert was wrapping up. "Ok."

"I'm serious Brenda."

"Ok, because we really do need to talk. And this is not the time or the place."

"I agree."

He leaves, and a stunned Brenda heads to the sky box….

It was early evening when the concert ended. Brenda took Lola to dinner. Mona went back to he hotel to rest.

Brenda looked over at Lola. "Did you have fun at the concert?"

"Yes, but it was too loud."

Brenda laughed. "I'm assuming you like playing, with the other kids the most?"

Her eyes lit up. "Yes! It was the best fun ever."

Brenda looked on, as Lola told her all about the games they played. As Lola spoke, she would make these facial expressions, that reminded her so much of Jax. She started feeling extremely guilty. She was depriving her daughter of her father. All of a sudden she felt really selfish. She did all of this to get back at Jax, but in the end, she was hurting Lola the most. She had to tell Jax…..

After bathing Lola and putting her to bed, Brenda showered and dressed. When Brenda finished dressing, she walked out into the living room. Mona was up watching TV.

Mona could tell something was wrong. "Brenda, what's wrong?"

"I think I'm going to tell Jax."

"Why?"

"Because it's wrong to keep, Lola from her father."

"Brenda….are you ready for the fall out?"

"No, but it has to be done."

"When are you going to tell him?"

"Tonight. I want to tell him, before we leave London. It's so exhausting, trying to hide it."

Mona sighed. "Good luck."

Brenda stood up. "Thanks, I'm going to need it….."

Jax was sitting on the sofa in his hotel room, drinking a glass of wine, when he heard a knock. He threw on a shirt, walked over, and opened the door. It was Brenda.

"Hey."

"Hey, come in."

Brenda walked in, and Jax followed her over to the sofa.

"Would you like something…wine, water?"

"No, I'm fine."

"Brenda, I'm going to get right to it, I told you how I felt, but I still don't know how you feel."

Brenda had not even thought about that, her mind was on how was she going to tell him, he was Lola's father. "Jax…..I don't know what to say."

"Just be honest."

(Honest? Lola is your child, I lied. Honest enough for you?) "Jax, I spent years not liking you, and then all of a sudden you are back in my life. I didn't like it at first, but it hasn't been all that bad. I've accepted what happened, it doesn't stop it from hurting sometimes, but I've accepted it."

"But do you still love me, because if you do, nothing else matters."

Brenda felt her heart racing. "Jax…you don't understand. I…"

"Brenda, just answer the question."

She looked into his eyes, and they were so full of love and hope. "I was so hurt by what you did, and I tried to convince myself, that I didn't love you anymore. And when I saw you at that luncheon, yes a part of me wanted to slap you, but the other part wanted to run and jump into your arms." She reached over and caressed his cheek. "I really missed being able to do that. I missed you, and I still love you. I never stopped, and I have tried to forget you, but-."

Jax reached over and put a finger up to her lips. "You've said enough. You still love me…..that's all I need to know….."

He pulled her over, and now she is sitting in his lap. He pulled her hands up to his lips. Their eyes are locked, in an intense gaze, as he kissed them both. "Jax, please, there is something we have to talk about."

"Not tonight." He slid his hand up the nape of her neck, his eyes never leave hers. He leaned forward, and pressed his lips against hers. They both moan, and the kiss is deepened. Their tongues touch, sending waves of heat and need, throughout their bodies. Brenda straddled him, without breaking the kiss. Jax slid his hand up under her shirt…cupping her. He broke the kiss, and moved down to her neck. She let out a soft moan, as he pulled the skin of her neck into his mouth. Her head is swimming, from the feel of his mouth on her skin. She reached down and pulled at his shirt. He helped her remove it. She pushed him back on the couch, and her lips find his chest. He rubbed her head, planting small kisses on the top, as her lips sweep across his chest. He pulled her back up, and their lips meet again. Jax stood up, and she wrapped her legs tightly around his waist, as he made his way into the bedroom…..

Jax placed Brenda on the bed. She sat up, he reached down, and pulled her shirt off. His lips quickly find the buds on her chest. She moaned his name, and pulled at the string on his pants. He stood up briefly, and removed them. She took him in, his body was just as she remembered it…perfect. She pulled him back onto the bed. They share a quick passionate kiss. Brenda got out of bed, and Jax sat up. He started kissing her stomach. She placed his hands on her pants, and he guided them down her legs.

The only thing that's left, is the piece of silk covering her love. Jax reached over, and pulled them slowly down her legs. He guided her back onto the bed. He stood over her, pulling one leg up to his lips. He made a pathway up, until he found the loveliest of spots. Brenda felt his warm mouth against her, she let out a deep moan. She ran her fingers through his hair, as he made love to her with his mouth. Jax didn't stop until she cried out. He planted a couple of kisses on her thighs, and made his way up her torso, until they were face to face. She caressed his face, and ran her other hand down his body. She felt him in her hand. Jax's body was perfection, not an ounce of fat on it. She smiled. "You're beautiful."

His blue eyes dance in the moonlit room. "And you're breathtaking, and I missed you." He positioned himself, as he held her gaze. Brenda gasped, as she felt his body slowly enter hers. Jax was not a small man, but he knew how to use what he was given. Jax moaned as he felt her love grip his. She dug her nails into his back, as he made love to her. A tear fell down the side of her face, which did not go unnoticed by Jax. He reached up, and wiped it away. He then leaned down and pressed his lips against hers…...

Brenda's head rests on Jax's chest. She felt his breathing steady, he had fallen asleep. She didn't come here to make love to him, she came to tell him Lola was his child. She had to tell him, but it wouldn't be tonight…..

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