Omg! The reviews and stuff I'm getting for this are simply amazing!!
I can't believe it. And I'm sorry if I made you cry, I was crying too and my parents started shouting at me because I was typing soo hard because I felt Mitchie's anger lol
Also, I totally know how I'm ending this!! I know that's a long way off but, it's a good thing because I was totally like "how am I going to get them together?" and stuff like that but, now I do! Well I might not end it like that…depends if you guys want a sequel or not but, with the rate this is going at the moment then, I may put the two together so it will be longer.
Italics are flashbacks and thoughts
Chapter 4- Trying To Forget
The light breeze felt good against her skin. The sun was hot…too hot. She couldn't even concentrate on what was in front of her because she was simply too hot. It didn't help that she was in an area that did not have any shade whatsoever.
The other problem that was stopping her from concentrating was him. She had told him she wanted time alone but, here he was, standing in front of her with that stupid smirk on his face.
"Mitchie! Didn't expect to see you here!" he chuckled; flinging the towel he was holding onto his shoulder.
"Yeah…of course you didn't." she said sarcastically; trying not to look at his shirtless self. But, it was just so amazing that she couldn't help but stare at it.
"You can stare." He smirked. She turned and blushed. "Look, I know you wanted to be alone but…" he paused and smiled. "Is it my fault I wanted to be with my gorgeous girlfriend?"
Mitchie smiled up at him. "So…what the boyfriend wants the boyfriend gets?" she asked grinning now.
"Basically. But, right now, I'm going for a swim and you can continue your attempt at a new song. Although, I know it'll be hard because you'll be staring at me the entire time." Mitchie made to push him but, he quickly turned and dived into the water.
"Jerk!" she shouted giggling. She watched as he resurfaced once again with a pout covering his face.
"That was mean." He continued pouting as he doggy-paddled his way towards the waters edge. "Come here?" he asked.
She sighed and nodded before placing her book and pen down and walking towards where he floating. She sat down on the edge and dipped her legs into the water. She groaned slightly at the coolness the water emitted. Shane smiled at her and moved between her legs; her eyebrows rose.
"What?" he smirked once again. He stood where he was (the water was shallower here) and leant forwards to kiss her gently. She smiled into the kiss. "Mitch?" he asked as he pulled back.
"Yeah?" she asked back slightly dizzy from the kiss. He leant forward and placed his forehead against hers. She could feel his hot breath on her face as it tickled at her skin.
"You know the other day when I told you I loved you?" she nodded with her forehead still pressed against his. "I just want you to know that I really meant It." she could hear the sincerity in his voice and knew what he was saying was true.
"I know." She whispered leaning forward and kissing his sweetly on the lips. "And I want you to know that I love you too."
Her eyes were filled with water again. Why did she have to think about that? He had obviously been lying when he told her he loved her even though he tried to make sure she believed him; which she did…stupidly.
The sad sigh she emitted raised the other girls head. Caitlyn was worried about her friend. It had been two days since she had found out the truth and she had barely said two words to anyone since then.
"Mitchie?" Caitlyn sat down gently on the edge of Mitchie's bed. Mitchie continue to hold her childhood teddy bear against her chest tightly as she glared into space. "I'm worried about you." Caitlyn whispered. Mitchie raised her head.
"I'm sorry Caitlyn." She whispered in reply. Caitlyn moved forwards and wrapped her arms tightly around Mitchie. "I just…want to forget."
…
He looked terrible. Worse than terrible. He didn't look like 'Rock star Shane Grey' at all. Instead he looked more like 'Has been Shane Grey'. The stubble had grown even more around his chin, his hair had now frizzed back into the natural curls that hung around his head in straggly sections. His eyes were extremely blood shot and the bags under them had seemed to double in size in the last two days.
Nate shot Jason a nervous look but, Jason didn't notice; he was too busy strumming away at his guitar singing a song about birds. Nate sighed and stood up.
I guess I'll do it alone.
"Hey Shane, wanna go see the girls? I'm just heading over there."
"No." Came Shane's raspy reply.
"Come on man! It'll be good for you." Nate sighed frustrated.
"What'll be good for me is if you leave me well alone!" Shane hissed.
"Whoa dude! I'm not the one who got you into this trouble. You could have told him no but, you didn't!"
"I did it for the band!" Shane sighed angrily and stood up; pacing back and forth. "What do I do?"
"Apologize profusely." Nate stated standing up and placing a gentle hand on Shane's shoulder. "And maybe shower." He said waving his hand in the air and lying on his bed.
"I guess I could try that." Shane mumbled.
"Oh, to turn the shower on you turn the tap on." Jason said from his seat on the couch. Shane gave him a 'what the hell' look and Nate slapped his hand to his head. "What?" Jason asked dumbfounded as Shane left the room.
…
"Just go say sorry. Tell her you didn't mean to hurt her. Say sorry again. Tell her you didn't know how much you meant to her. Then say sorry a few more times." Shane whispered to himself as he made his way to the girl's cabin.
"Shane!" he turned at the sound of his name and groaned. "Shane! I haven't seen you for days, are you ok?" her small hand went up to touch his cheek before flicking a strand of hair from his face. He smiled at her. She looked so small to him today. Her usual curly blonde hair was tied up into a high ponytail with the curls cascading at the back and her usual outfit of jeans and a fancy looking top had now changed into sweatpants and an oversize t-shirt. Her feet were placed in sneakers instead of heels or cute dolly shoes; a new look for Shane to see her in.
"Sorry Remi. I guess, I've had a lot to think about." She watched his eyes flicker towards the cabin then down to the ground in shame. She nodded sadly. He looked at her small sad smile and took a deep breath. "I'm really sorry Remi. I didn't mean to hurt you either."
She smiled. "You didn't hurt me Shane. You've done nothing to hurt me but, I wish you would have told me everything about your past with Mitchie otherwise, I would have avoided that question or made up some story." He nodded and she tip toed to kiss his cheek. She stood up straight once more and saw his eyes flicker with worry towards the cabin once again. "She's hurting. She won't even talk to Caitlyn."
"She hasn't spoken to you?" he asked, his eyes never leaving the cabin as a light switched on.
"Why would she? I knew she wouldn't exactly like me when I first arrived because of your history and it's obvious she still has strong feelings for you." His eyes looked back to her and his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"How do you know?" She shook her head at his stupidness. Smiling she tip toed again to kiss him on the lips this time. Her arms wrapped around his neck loosely and his arms encircled her waist.
"It's obvious. You're Shane Grey. You're handsome, smart-ish, tall, dark, tanned, you can sing amazingly, you can dance…ok and you're sweet and sensitive. You're everything a girl could wish for." He smiled weakly and nodded. "Plus…it's in her eyes. Whenever you're near her or whenever someone mentions your name her eyes glisten. They get this twinkle…this shine." This time she smiled weakly up at him. He wrapped his arms around her tighter.
"I'm a jerk aren't I?"
"Yeah," she nodded. "But, at least you're my jerk." She whispered as her lips once again attached to his in a slow sensuous kiss.
Pulling apart he smiled at her once again. "I better go…say sorry."
"Of course. I'll see you at lunch yeah?" he nodded and walked towards the cabin. She watched him walk apprehensively towards the cabin door for a moment before turning on her heel and running off towards the lake.
"Ok here goes…" his hand reached forward to knock on it; he was shaking. Just as his knuckles were about to brush the wood on the door it flew open; causing him to stagger back which then led to him falling down the steps that led to the cabin.
"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry." Mitchie said quietly. She glared.
Shane slowly stepped to his feet, rubbing the dirt off of him and wincing a little.
"It's ok, you didn't…" he stopped when he saw her face. He had never seen her look so angry; except from the other night of course. "Mean it?" he squeaked.
"Oh no I didn't! Then I saw it was you and I changed my mind. In fact, I wish you fell harder!" she stood fully in the doorway and glared down at him.
"I came to apologise." He mumbled not looking at her; he couldn't stand the look in her eyes…the hate.
"Apologise? For what Shane? What could you have possibly done to apologise for?" she asked sarcastically, adding a sweet, innocent smile on her face.
"Mitchie…" he stepped forward looking at her now.
"No! I don't want to hear it Shane ok?!" he looked away from her ashamed. She glared down at him through her tears. "I am not going to cry over a jerk like you anymore!" she shouted. She gulped and looked at him, pleadingly. "Just leave me alone Shane please?" she whispered. He looked up and gave her a pleading look. "I just need you to leave me alone ok? Please Shane…I want to forget you…" she whispered still begging.
His eyes glazed over and she looked away wrapping her arms around herself and licking her lips. He nodded even though she wasn't looking.
"Ok," he whispered. "Just know that I always cared for you and I never meant to hurt you." He choked slightly. She nodded and walked back into the cabin. His feet turned and he walked a few steps away. Shane stopped walking and turned to look back at the cabin. "I love you." He whispered, wiping his eyes.
Mitchie looked out of her window and watched as he walked away.
…
"Then what happened?"
"I left. She wants me out of her life so, I left." Shane sighed and strummed on his guitar.
"You left without a fight?" Nate asked shocked. The boys were currently sitting outside their cabin. Nate and Jason were quizzing Shane on how things went with Mitchie but, he didn't want to answer.
She wanted to forget him?
"What the hell was I supposed to do Nate? Huh?" Shane shouted over at him. Jason put his hands on his ears.
"Guys! Just quit it for once!" Jason shouted over the bickering Shane and Nate. They looked across at him bewildered. "Urghh, seriously, Shane you could have told her the truth; the whole truth, you could have run after her and told her you love her."
"I don't love her," Shane mumbled under his breath.
"Yeah sure. Anyway, you could have explained everything but, you didn't. And that's that. Nate leave it alone. He's your friend and needs your support. He chose not to fight for her and now, we help him get over her." Nate and Shane looked at him like he'd grown two heads.
What has happened to him?
Since when did he get up from the coo coo nest?
When did I say I wanted to get over her?
"So, what we should do is…invite Mitchie round! Maybe she could help with the situation and I miss her. Maybe she'll make me a birdhouse."
There he is.
"Great plan Jason…you keep thinking about that and we'll think of a plan B ok?" Nate pulled a face at Shane who laughed.
"He's getting odder everyday…" Nate mumbled to Shane as he walked past.
Shane chuckled and began strumming away at his guitar once again.
"Yours was the voice I heard inside my head,
The reason that I was singing,
I had found you, and then I lost you,
You were the missing piece I had,
The song inside of me,
I had found you
And I loved you…"
He murmured to the tune of 'Gotta Find You.'
He continued strumming the tune as he looked around the grounds. Then his eyes caught sight of a group of girls. Caitlyn, Lola, Peggy, Ella, Tess and Mitchie were walking around their cabin singing, dancing and giggling. He smiled at them but, his smile faltered when his eyes landed on the girl at the back. Her face had a small, distant smile on it. It wasn't her usual. It showed him that she didn't want to be there, she wanted to be somewhere else.
He knew that what they were doing was not helping her.
It was not helping her…forget him.
He sighed and stood up before walking into the cabin.
Her eyes watched him and as the door closed, one stray tear fell from her eye.
The last time I cry over him…
An update! Again! I just love updating this for you guys! The next couple of chapters might be a bit boring; just showing how Mitchie's dealing with everything and their will be Shemi (Shane and Remi) moments. But, don't worry! They won't be interesting.
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Hopefully you'll get another update on Sunday or tomorrow. It just depends how long my job interview is (nervous!) and it depends if I'm doing anything in the afternoon. Also, Sunday's going to be busy because I'm going to see Boyzone in concert (LOL) and I don't know what time I'm leaving.
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