Summary: Alice and Jasper have taken Emmett and Edward to Alaska on a hunting trip. Bella hasn't gone to the Cullen house in a few days, but suddenly, she urgently needs to speak to one of them. But what about? (Includes mature themes! warning!)

This is a short story, probably around 10-15 chapters depending on how fast or slow the story goes, etc. It includes dark theme's so please don't read unless you can handle this...

I woke up on Carlisle's examining table. This time though a pillow was evaluating my head and I had a blanket over me. However, it wasn't all the way up and I could see I had a medical gown on. I cringed at the fact someone had dressed me while I was out.

People were in the room but I didn't look to see them. I knew all the Cullen's were back now as I could see them from the corner of my eye but I just couldn't face them. I couldn't face the shame this brought. They would hate me.

I fingered the blue cotton blanket with my good arm, trying to look interested in the gaps it portrayed.

Someone stepped up to the bed and reached to stop my hand. I knew that hand, but I didn't dare look to see his face.

"Bella," I nearly melted listening to that voice of his. My sweet angel was going to leave again. My heartbeat raced.

"Edward," Jasper put in before Edward could continue. "Go easy, her emotions are haywire…let alone her physical state." I think he tried to say it quiet enough so that I wouldn't hear, but I did hear it. And it hurt.

Edward sighed and continued. "Bella, please look at me." When I didn't, he reached forward and lifted my head. I flinched from his touch and pushed his hand away in defense. I could finally see his eyes. He looked hurt, absolutely devastated.

The tears overflowed from my eyes. "I'm so sorry!" I sobbed. "I'm sorry for hurting you!"

He stood there, seeming to recover from his shook. "Bella, you didn't hurt me. I'm just so angry and sad that you were hurt like this…"

I looked back down at the blanket, trying to move but being stopped. It seemed impossible as no one was touching me. I looked over to my arm nearest the wall – the hurt one – to see a bandage wrapped around the word and an IV in my hand.

I groaned and someone let out a small chuckle.

"Why do I need an IV? I'm fine!" Before they realized what I was doing, I reached forward and tried to pull the IV out.

Carlisle came towards me quickly and took my grip off of the clear tube. "Bella," He said sternly. "Please don't doubt your health. This has effected you not only mentally but physically too. Your body is trying to cope with the changes and your mental panic and hurt is having a big effect. Have you been eating and drinking properly?"

I shook my head in guilt, tears pooling down again. Why was it that I cried all the time now? "No…I didn't think…I was…too occupied…" I whispered.

Carlisle readjusted the IV then placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. "I promise Bella, we'll get you better. Whilst you were out, I fixed up the gash on your head – which occurred when you hit the floor earlier today – and carried out a medical exam during the sedation. I'm sorry Bella, but I had your consent before you were out."

"Sedation?" I was confused. Why had I been sedated?

Guilt swirled in his eyes. "Well, when you arose I was still stitching the wound in your head and you didn't seem to know who I was. Esme and Rosalie both joined me in comforting you but you didn't seem to hear us. It was my last intention, but for your safety it needed to be done."

I nodded and finally looked across the room. Alice sat cuddling into Jasper. Emmett sat on his own, but close to Esme. Rosalie was nearest to me. Edward was still stood right in front of me along with Carlisle.

Their expressions were all exact mirrors of each other. Concern, anger, guilt. I'd hurt them…

"Bella." The tone in Edward's voice made me look at him. "I'm very angry, not at you, but at Jacob. But I have sworn to my family, and I will swear to you. I won't hurt him. I will let the courts deal with him. But if they don't do enough I will personally rip his head off of his shoulders." He calmed himself. "I'm so sorry Bella."

This wasn't how I wanted him to act. I couldn't truly tell what he was feeling. Why wasn't he holding me, telling me it was okay? He didn't love me anymore…he was going to get rid of me.

"I don't want to be here anymore." I said quietly. I looked back over at the IV and clenched my hands into fists, ignoring the pain my wrists screamed. "I want…I want…" I tried to control the sobs. "I just want to be worthy…"

Before I could say another word, Rosalie sat down on the bed and pulled me into her stone arms and I buried my head into her chest. Why was it that she was comforting me and Edward was still as a statue, trying to contain his anger?

"Bella," Rosalie whispered in my ear. "You are worthy. This doesn't affect how Edward loves you…" She trailed off and the room went quiet.

"Edward?" I peeked out to see Esme studying her son. "It doesn't, does it?"

Edward stood there for a few moments, readjusting his jaw. "That mutt touched my girl. My innocent girl."

"Edward," Esme was firm now and I almost shrunk into Rosalie. "Answer the question."

He looked from me to her, a blank expression on his face. "No…but I wanted me to be her first…I wanted…Bella was supposed to stay pure…" He looked down at his clenched hands. "I wanted everything to be special."

Tears came streaming down my face and I turned back to Rosalie's chest. I gripped her tightly as my body shook with sobs.

"Edward!" Esme gasped in a whisper. "None of this was Bella's fault! You're supposed to be comforting her!"

"Edward." This was Carlisle now. "Come out into the hallway with me, we need to talk."

I didn't watch Edward go, I couldn't bear too. "He doesn't love me!" I screeched, hitting effortless at Rosalie's chest.

"He loves you, Bella." Esme came over and stroked my hair. "He just needs to wrap his head around the situation. He'll be okay soon, he just never expected this."

"Neither did I." I grumbled. How was this fair on me?

"I know, sweetie." She agreed.

I looked up to see Alice shaking her head in guilt. "I didn't see this, Bella…that mutt blocked my visions…If I'd seen it I would've stopped it…"

"It's not your fault, Alice." I held out my arms since I couldn't move with the stupid IV and she came gracefully into them. "I was the one who went to see Jacob."

"Why?" Emmett butted in and I looked past Alice to see him. What I saw surprised me. He wasn't smiling, he wasn't carefree and confident. He was hunched over his knees, balancing his arms on them to hold his head up as if he didn't have the strength. Pain was clear on his face and his big eyes were filled with ushered tears.

I chewed on my lip. "I hadn't seen him in weeks…Edward doesn't like me seeing him. So when you guys left to hunt, I thought I'd get away with it. I left not long after you guys did, and went down to the reservation. Jacob was there, smiling really big when he saw me. Though he seemed different, a little stronger and excited. We went to his room and talked and he asked me if I loved him. I told him my choice was Edward and that he knew that…"

I paused for breath. "He didn't like it." I admitted quietly. "He pushed me against the wall and started yelling about how I was supposed to choose him because he was warm and human. Then…"

I was trembling now and Rosalie hugged me closer. "He told me because I gave Edward my love, he would take a part of me Edward couldn't have – so they were equal. I didn't know what he meant…until…until I realized he wanted my purity. He was too strong…I tried to fight him but he had me cornered and held down." I made a sobbing noise in my throat and tried to continue talking. "Then he did it…"

No one spoke, then Edward came barging through the door, fear, anger and love written all over his face. He came towards me and for a split second I was scared, but he didn't attack me, he simply lifted me off of Rosalie and Alice and pulled me quickly against his chest.

"Oh, Bella!" He was crying vampire tears. "Bella, I'm so sorry!" He wailed. "I should never have left. Its okay baby girl, everything's going to be okay. I'm here. I love you." He kissed the top of my head gently, running his fingers along my back.

I smiled lightly. "Edward, I love you so much."

He rocked me back and forth, stroking my back and my hair. "I know baby girl, I know. I'm here for you; we're all going to get you through it. Mark my words. There will be justice…I love you so much too, for as long as I should live."

And just like that I was home. I was finally content in knowing he loved me, and with an exhausted smile at everyone, I slipped into another sleep. One without any medication. One only filled with an angel's voice humming my lullaby.

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