Hello hello all, time for a darker chapter to appear in this song fic story. There will be a few things you'll notice so I'll explain here...

1- I am honestly so behind on Bleach I think any fan would die. I put in topics that would be spoilers for others who are being too, mainly hints of Hinamori being stabbed in the Fake Katakura Town arc, Hyourinmaru's form from Zanpaktou arc that I used information of how he looks and what happened as well as Toushiro's past from episode 239.

2- You will notice I DESPISE Hinamori's existence. I really do not like her character and if you like her, sorry if I make her off something she is not in your eyes.

3- To clear up the text differences...

THIS - is memory conversation

THIS - is song lyrics

THIS - is present text in story

Everything is in the other world, his memory, and his room. If it gets confusing sorry. And finally, I want to thank a friend of mine showing me this song to get me really into the mood to write this chapter. =)

Song- Don't Fall Asleep at the Helm

Artist- Sleeping With Sirens

Album- With Ears To See and Eyes to Hear (Thank youuuu Spotify for having them! =P)

Enjoy! Please leave a comment if you can =)

Chapter 4- Don't Fall Asleep at the Helm

The world was colder than it used to be, are you even supposed to feel any temperature in this place? It doesn't matter now; at least that is what Toushrio thought as he wondered in Hyourinmaru's world. One of the only friends he really had left him and betrayed him to believe in a man that uses her for trash.

"You call me naïve!? I'm not sleeping with the man that killed Captain Aizen!"

Her words echoed in his head as his soul wondered about in the ice world. His feet crunched in the snow as her voice ripped him apart. This all started because she just walked in at the wrong time, he wasn't expecting her to come over and see him in a compromising position in bed with Gin. He felt pathetic knowing her mental health was still so bad, Aizen disordered her mind so much there possibly was no way to make her wash out a fake death from her memories no matter how hard they tried.

"H-how….how could you do this to me? After so long I thought you were my friend Toushrio! How can you be with HIM! A MONSTER!"

It was funny a tiny bit, Gin only give his small smirk as she said that and pulled Toushrio closer to him, claiming him right before her eyes once more, no clothes just added to the burn of hose close they were. The ice captain watched as Momo's tears slipped from her eyes as she ran out, he pushed to break free but his boyfriend did not let go. He held him so close it pissed off the smaller of the two. He fought to be free but Gin only whispered in his ear somehow kindly to him. "You are mine."

I lost my heart, my home is the ocean.

The waves underneath will soon be my home.

Toushrio rubbed his arms; this world was getting colder and colder. His memories were starting a snow storm inside this world, and he was getting lost in it. He never felt like this since he was younger, when he only had his Grandmother while everyone else pushed him away because he was a freak. His white hair and turquois eyes….he hated it, he hated how he looked.

"Do you not remember what helped you that time?" A voice echoed behind him in the snow storm, it had belonged to his zanpaktou, Hyourinmaru. The spirit was in his human form, his dark teal hair and ice blue eyes looking at his master. "You asked me to remember when I lost my memory of you, now I have to do the same thing to you?" Toushrio looked down at his freezing crossed arms. "Master Hitsugaya, she is gone. You cannot think she'll come back."

"Shut up" Toushiro's voice softly snapped back.

I will fall asleep.

I'll close my eyes and dream of days when I wasn't all alone.

"Her mind is lost to his blade, to his aura, to his own mind. No matter if he is dead his darkness will forever clog her mind of what is reality. You must not blame yourself much longer on this, if you brood any further how can I know if you are my master after all this time?" The dragon's cold tone shot to the boy captain's heart. The boy would not let his darker fears make him cry, he wouldn't let it win.

"Momo was my friend, how can I just give up on her and let her be lost to that bastard?"

"There is nothing you can save. The Hinamori you know is dead. She was dead before you stabbed her in that battle-"

"She isn't dead!" Toushrio wasn't sure where the energy from his voice came from. Greif? Anger? Fear? Hyourinmaru only stared at his master, seeing him fall apart in front of him in this world of ice. "Yes we have our battles, our fights of Aizen being alive in her mind of this good man, even if she knows he had done wrong. She just relapses and she forgets but she can get help, I can help her again every time she needs because she didn't treat me like a freak when others did. It was only her Grandma and Hinamori there for me, they saved me so why can't I save them!?" A tear slipped to his crossed arm and he stopped moving. It was grief.

All that I know is gone

(Take what is left of me now)

"You are not alone; you do know this right Master Hitsugaya?" The dragon's voice was stern but it seemed softer toned as he saw the broken person in front of him. "Even if they are gone you have your vice-captain and even him. Even if I do not agree with his connection towards you I cannot let my master break into nothing. To lose your strength you lose yourself; what makes you a captain of the 13 Court Guard Squad."

"You are mine."

Fall deeper and deeper, the sirens are singing your songs.

His heart gave a weak flutter, the soft voice in his ear before he broke free to try and find her. The conversation while he threw on clothing with Gin, it now played in his mind.

"Why do you try with her? She is a bitch."

"She is not a bitch! She is my friend that I've known for a long time and you're the asshole that makes the situation worse by no letting go!" The look on the fox's face as he leaned back onto the pillows, the blanket revealing the fact they were having sex right before the situation ever happened. Toshiro remembered looking away

"Ahhh, so you live in a fantasy world too ya? You going to be like her and never want to wake up. To realize she is nothing but trash, not seeing trash is treating you like trash? Are you that stupid Suga-kun?" His voice was cold, what made it worse was red eyes were staring straight into his, Gin was mad at him.

I'll miss my breath, there's no more left.

I'll miss the sound of the wind at my back.

"You can keep fighting for her but for what? To have me deal with her whiney bitch self to ruin whatever good times I have with you because you feel bad? Please, if I did do that I just might hurl my guts out of how overly sweet you are with her, treating her like she is your own child. I feel truly sorry for you Suga-kun…I really do."

The depths have a number, they call you by name.

Fall asleep, Davy Jones calls you.

And with that the taller man just turned his back to his lover, leaving the half-dressed boy to stare at him hurt and confused. It was silent after that and so he finished getting dressed, but slower this time and when he finished he simply left, whispering how he'd come back later.

So fall asleep, fall asleep and dream.

"That man was right. Are you really going to live the fantasy that she can be saved?" The dragon soul was now as his true form, the ice dragon, standing tall with pride over the tiny captain. "If so then there is nothing more I can say."

"Hyourinmaru…forgive my actions." The boy spoke softly as the snow and ice storm began to calm itself down. "You might not like him, but you said the same thing in just different ways. I am not alone anymore. I do have Masumoto, even if she is lazy and just sleep and drink all day, and I have you to talk with and battle with, and I have Gin to…." He breathed out of his nose a soft sigh and left his arms down.

All that I know is gone

(Take what is left of me now)

"To console to even if he is a rotten bastard that is a form of darkness itself. His darkness comforts me though; it works the same way Grandma's light protected me even if I was losing control of my reiatsu and making her freeze every night finding you. I'm stronger now than I was those years ago; even if his darkness is the one thing to tame my fear f being alone it's better than having nothing at all."

Just like that Toushiro found himself back in the world of Soul Society, wandering back towards his room with life thrust upon him. While on his walk back to his room he saw the odd positives he had in his life of having a sexual fiend of a boyfriend taking him almost every night and day just to get a relief of some sort. Opening his door to his bedroom he found Gin's red eyes looking at him. Toushiro stood there and stared back at him.

"Ya made a decision have ya?" A nod. "Well, ya goin' to tell me or do I have to force it out of you?" The ice boy breathed in and spoke clearly.

"I will be tamed by your darkness and yours alone. Everything I know before you is a past but I'll hear the sirens of your darkness calling me back. You are my sanity, safety, and world." Gin slowly smiled and beckoned his tamed partner with a finger, and the boy did come to his call and crawled onto the bed. Gin ever so slowly grabbed this boy's chin and whispered on the sweet lips.

"All that you know is gone, and you are now mine until I'm done with you which will not be a very long long time. "With a tremble of the body before him Gin grinned, he had won over that bitch of a girl in the boy's heart with his darkness.

Fall deeper and deeper, the sirens are singing your songs.