Lets see. This chapter wont have so many tears. But it wont be in bella pov. i think that she should just go with jacob. she should forget about edward and the rest of them. lol sike im not gonna tell you what i think because then i will be telling you what im gonna do tell me what you guys think about this too because im doing this all by myself without any help. So please dont be too judge metal.

Disclaimer: Who owns twilight? Apparently stephanie meyer. I really wish i did i would have made a great book but i didnt so im just writing a faniction to entertain my self and every one else.

Edward Pov

I was crying like a little girl now. I didn't know what to do. The last time didn't no one besides Alice and Emmet knew how i broke down. I couldn't live with out Bella but i only must try. things were gonna be hard. Alice and rose text so many times and so did em and Jas.

I texted emmet back and told him i was at in the woods by bella house. I just sat there and remember every thing me and bella went i helped her when she broke her arm. how when i first fingered her when we were 13 she gasp and was afraid because it had wanted so bad for us to have sex but me and my dad carlisle had talks when i was around that age. he knew i loved bella and wouldnt hurt her. So he told me that it would hurt her really bad. And i saw how bella gasped when i put my finger in her she had shifted uncomfortably i knew my big dick would hurt worser for me to be young i had a big dick and big fingers. So i was always scared to have sex with bella i knew it would hurt her to bad. She was my tiny small bella. She was fragile and i couldnt hurt her. I just never told her this.

I remember how when we were 15 she tried to satisfy me by sucking me up because she was very tasteful and i always would eat her out. she was surprised how big it was. And when she tried she chocked then she finally got the hang of it.

Our first kiss at 12 was both was scared. But bella knew i loved her every since first grade. we met in pre k butwe were only best friends then. Until i grew a real crush in first. Emmet always said i just thought she was pretty but i loved her then i could tell i loved her. even if i was young.

I made so many mistakes getting mad at bella like this. now she was out of my life for good and it hurted so bad. Tears were streaming down so much.

I saw emmet jeep pull up withim rosalie,alice and jasper emerging towards i knew emmet couldnt keep a secret. When they came and saw me with the tears they all just stood there.

She had put a whole in my heart. That only she could repair. Everything seemed black.

Emmet and alice slowly came over towards me. while they walked towards me i grabbed a sharp piece of glass that i saw on the ground. And put it towards my neck.

"Man dont do it edward. Bella loves you so much and she didnt want to hurt you. she never did edward. why cant you just forget about what happen if you loved her so much." Emmet yelled to me.

"Yea he is right, bella thought you gave up on her. she never did give up on you. She said she would make things right. So why dont you make things right first?" Alice said.

Emmet and alice both was close to me now and emmet took the piece of glass out out of my hand.

He and alice both hugged me tight." You know i love you bro and i will not let you stab your self." he said with tears in his eyes.

"Im sorry i didnt mean to scare you guys. You know i love all of yall. But i cant get over bella. I will always only love her."

Jasper and rosalie joined and hugged me tight too. Every one just sat there abd cried for along time expressing how we fill about eachother through huggs and sobbs. the though of losing eachother was scary so i know i scared them to death we finalyy went to my house and they all promised not to tell my mom or dad about what i was gonna do because they all knew the feeling of losing your love one or soulmate. It was un bearable.

When we got to the house every one had red eyes and when i unlocked the door. My emotions were every where. I was angry and sad at the same time.

Bella was there with here head on my moms lap here eyes were so red and her clothes were wet from tears and her hair was messy. She was beautiful. I wanted to smile but couldnt.

I just stood there waiting for bella to wake up. She would because was always a light sleeper and would wake up from the door opening. when the rest came in they all just stood there. In shock.

Bella finally woke up and she saw me. She looked frightened.I knew i had to end things now. Because everything was out of control.

Bella pov

I woke to edward and the rest of my old friends looking at me. There eyes were locked to me i just got up and ran to the bathroom. Tears started to come down again but i couldn't help it. Everything was so wrong right about now it was scary. I heard a knock on the door. I called charlie to get jacob number. Than i called jacob to come and get me.

He said he would hurry and be own his way.

Edward tried talking through the door.

"bella. Im sorry but we need to end things now. You know things shouldnt be this way."

He was breaking my heart and he knew it. I just laad my head back and cried i didnt answer.

Jacob called and said he was out side. I unlocked the bathroom door. And staggered out. Edward grabbed me and looked in my eyes just through my eyes i told him i understood that he gave up and that i had to leave. He just let me go and look sad as i walked away.

I had tears in my eyes and everyone else looked confused. Jacob was in the drive way he got out and hugged me. I cried into his arms knowing that he knew my life was over and left .Left my whole life behind.

I had to end things with jacob too.

"Jacob, the only people i ever wanted to really hang around is my five best friends. Without them i have no friends or a life. So take my advice say sorry to yours friends and dont make any mistakes like i did."

"so thats it" Jacob asked.

"Yes please understand jacob i love you i dont know how but i i need time."

He dropped me off and before he left he said something that made my heart hurt even more.

" I always acted like that because i nevefr had the type of friends you had i was jealous . i always loved you. I just couldnt admit it because you didnt love me back. But i realize the friends i had are true friends that i will never find anyone like them. No matter what."

"Jacob" I said.

He looked at me with tears and his eyes and drove off.

I Just went in the house. my whole life had changed ina couple of months. Not even to months. i was a big loser.

Edward pov

"Why didnt you stop her you goof?" Alice shouted at me.

She gave up is all i thought i tried.I told her i wanted to end the things that was going on and bring every thing back to how things were but she just told me through eyes that she was leaving. Now what did i have nothing she chose jacob. The way he comfort her when she left hurted so bad i didnt have a life anymore.