A/N: hello : ) apologies for the long wait and for this chapter's length.. this is almost a thousands words less than the last one and i am sorry for that but i couldn't make it any longer .. this way there is no any cliff hangers and such things that you my lovely readers don't like because you don't know when a new chapter would be updated..

secondly: a huge thanks to everyone who reads this fiction.. i am sorry that some of you stopped reading, i am sorry I cannot please your expectations.. well .. i don't really care.. to tell the truth i only care about those who stick with me and support me and i will be forever grateful for you all for that :) i still love this fiction, this is the best idea i think i have ever had so.. yeah.. that's simple..

third: this chapter is not beta-d .. i am lazy to send it and i don't want to drag it anymore.. so here it is.. apologies for any mistake you may find.. i am not perfect. nobody is.. perfect is boring.. lol

fourth: i have no idea when i will be able to do more.. i will be trying to update all the other stories as well.. i have got a bunch lol so watch out.. and keep the fic on alert..

fifth: because i still have something to say.. i warned everyone in the very beginning .. there is something that is going to turn out in this fic and some of you may not like it.. in this chapter but mostly in the next it willl all make sense but some of you already can guess what this things is..

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- Chapter 4 –

"No!" Kendall's voice is clearly hearable for Elizabeth. He is arguing with someone again. It's been only two hours ago when she's let him alone with Gustavo, the famous producer and star-maker, and there's been several times when both Kendall and Gustavo ended up in Elizabeth's office debating about something.

"Give me a moment" Elizabeth puts the phone aside though she is in the middle of an important negotiation; she knows she needs to fix the dissidence between Gustavo and Kendall, again. She has known that it won't be easy to work with Kendall but it is a little bit much already. Two hours and work just not gets any further.

While Elizabeth sighs and shakes her head the two continues their loud conversation stepping into the room. Elizabeth doesn't know what it's all about this time.

She clears her throat and then surprisingly Gustavo and Kendall go quiet and look at her.

"What's wrong this time?" she asks calmly still.

"I really want just a little change." Gustavo says pointing at Kendall.

Kendall lifts his hands and turns his palms toward the ceiling and with a wondering tone of his voice he asks, "Why do I need to accept any kind of changes?"

"Because I am the pro and I know what looks we can sell you with and you signed the contract." Gustavo's higher tone shakes the room. Kendall groans remembering at the contract.

"Again the looks?" Elizabeth stands up from her seat and walks around her desk. "We once discussed that he is fine this way. He doesn't want to change and I understand that."

"Thank you." Kendall says grinning in satisfaction but his grin freezes off when Elizabeth continues. "But Kendall, I told you that you have to start accepting compromise does exist."

"What?" Kendall frowns and Gustavo laughs. "See kid?"

"No, stop it, both of you." Elizabeth's voice rises before another argument would get started.

"About ten minutes ago I told you Gustavo. Some little changes can be acceptable but drastically changing his looks is unnecessary. He has got a good look anyway, his hair that you wanted to cut in the first moment, can be his brand. It makes him a little boyish and still with his music it perfectly harmonizes with the picture that we want to convey. It's mature enough and yet thousands of teen girls can go crazy for him."

"Hah" Kendall again pokes his tongue out at Gustavo.

"But you said something about compromises." Gustavo says to remind Kendall that it is not over yet just like that.

"Yeah." Elizabeth continues to Kendall. "Look, Kendall. I know you want to be yourself and I understand it. Though we give some new, fashionable clothes and teach you how to speak or walk or even sit, you won't be someone else."

"My hair stays. I accept the clothes and such things but NOT my music. Nobody can change that."

Elizabeth frowning turns to Gustavo. "It wasn't even about the looks this time, huh? You just wanted to avoid the real topic. Told you that whatever Kendall wants with his music that's final."

"They wouldn't be big changes." Gustavo begins. "I heard him playing. It was great. The lyrics are good and so is the music that he puts under it, but I'd add some things here and there and would get rid of some not really good things at other places."

Elizabeth looks questioningly at Kendall who sighs and shrugs, "we can work it out."

"Good." Elizabeth smiles and swings both men toward the door with some waving motions of her hands. "Now, someone needs to work here." She giggles. Gustavo quickly rushes out of the room half loudly talking to himself under his nose that this Kendall boy does not know a thing and such. But Kendall stays at the door and smiles back at Elizabeth murmuring a quiet "thank you."

"Takes nothing." She replies still smiling widely. "Told you that I'll do anything to get you there where you deserve to be. Just really, learn to compromise, okay? This world does not work without it."

"Okay." Kendall answers sighing and taking a look at this gorgeous, successful and confident young lady in front of himself, for who knows how many times he has done it today, but he is still amazed.

"You're staring." Elizabeth snaps him out and he shakes his head.

"I'm sorry. It's just.. you're so amazing.. it's hard for me to stand here and not pull you in for a hug."

Elizabeth raises an eyebrow at him. "Why would you do it?"

"You…uh.." Kendall mumbles kind of uncertain how to express it. He doesn't know it himself why, but he just feels the urge to hug Elizabeth. "You know you looked so … so young and so yourself when your friends were here. I wish you were like that more. Not like I don't like the way you are standing here now smiling at me." He quickly adds. "But it's different. Here, among all these people, carrying this huge weight all alone, you must pick up a different attitude and it's something that amazes me all the time I see it. Because it must be hard to be so sure and have all of this confident that you do have. I wish I had it myself. And on the other hand, I'm kind of jealous that you can be like this in your work and you have your friends who you can let yourself free a bit with. I don't have any of those."

"Oh Kendall." Elizabeth feels her heart melting by the blonde boy's words. "You know such less but whatever. You know what I think right now?" She asks taking a step closer to Kendall and grabbing his left wrist softly. Kendall eyes her moves and gives the "I have no idea" look. Elizabeth's eyes deeply penetrate Kendall's as she lifts her other hand and caresses Kendall's pale skin, and he waits for her to say something, to finish her speech.

After an easy blow of an air Elizabeth goes along. "You want to hug me because you need a hug yourself." And before Kendall could react she snuggles up against his chest deeply sniffing in his scent and loving it with everything she has got. Kendall slowly moves and his arms wrap around her, just as Elizabeth's around Kendall's waist.

The fact that she noticed just proves my right. She's been through it, too.

The office door is open; therefore there is a clear sight of the hugging Kendall and Elizabeth for everyone that is on the corridor. But actually nobody looks there. If they did they'd know to ignore the scene because Elizabeth's rigidness can defy even her dad's if it comes to her private life. She does not allow gossips going round in her office, she always make sure of working with only people who respect her much that whatever they may see that is not for their eyes if otherwise not said.

But Kendall doesn't know about it and in the fear of someone seeing them he pulls apart sooner than it'd be enough of hugging Elizabeth. "People can get this wrong." He says before the young woman would be able to open her mouth.

"Not here. I only work with people I trust and know well enough to do anything in front of them." She says tucking her blonde hair behind her ears and checking the time on her watch on her left wrist. She's never messed up her schedule so much in her life like she's doing it since she's known Kendall. But this is the first time that she doesn't care about the delays. The clients can wait for now.

"Anything?" Kendall asks giggling and raising his eyebrows.

Elizabeth laughs, "no, not anything but a lot of things. Did it feel any good, Kendall?"

Kendall shivers by the sound of his name from her mouth. This happens every time when there is that soft tone filled with caring. "Yeah, it did. Thank you. You know me so well already."

"I'm sure you are getting to know me as well. You're smart enough. And I feel that you have assumptions. But keep your curiousity low, okay?"

"Sure thing. You made it clear in the morning. I accept it. We'll help each other and that's all. Without knowing anything specific. Actually, that's a really good way of helping. No judge and no bad intentions, just the helping hand."

"Exactly." Elizabeth breathes relieved that she doesn't have to talk about personal things again. Kendall understands it, because he's going through it, too. And it helps her a lot. Helps her thinking about the thing that Carlos always says, that she's not alone with her problems, there are other people out there, too, and if Fate gets them into each other's way, they can grow a lot together.

"Well, I think I should be … " Kendall wants to say good bye for now when he hears Gustavo yelling from someone after him. Elizabeth laughs and so does Kendall. "Is he going to be like this always?"

Elizabeth nods and bends her head but then looks back at him, "see you later, Kendall." And she steps backward.

"Later, Elizabeth, Miss…uh.." Kendall mumbles messing in his hair and shoving one hand into his pocket as he turns round.

"Oh Kendall?" Elizabeth calls after him and he turns back with a wide smile.

"Yeah?"

"Tonight.. I know it's Tuesday but I have kind of neglected my friendship with Carlos and James and I thought we could go out for a drink and I'd be delighted to have you there as well."

"Sounds like a plan. I'm glad to go. May I bring a friend myself?" Kendall asks thinking instantly about Logan, and that they would need some catch up, too plus they could get some friends in Carlos and James.

"Of course." Elizabeth nods. "I'll send someone for you."

"Oh no, that's not necessary." Kendall challenges.

Elizabeth holds up a hand, "don't argue with me Mr. Knight. I said I will send a car for you and your friend so I will do that way. Around ten would be okay? You can get home from here and change and whatever you'd like to by that time?"

"Yes, sure. Thank you Miss." Kendall smiles in embarrassment of being under the control of this gorgeous young lady.

"Good. Go then now. See you soon. And don't forget about the compromises. I must do some work before this place gets out of control."

"I'll be trying. Bye Elizabeth." And with that Kendall is going, taking the steps fast and he is disappeared from Elizabeth in a short minute.

By the end of the day Kendall is tired and worn out but also he's excited to see Elizabeth with her friends again. The thought of her like that makes him giggle. She was very cute with them.

As he is walking upstairs to her office in the hope of finding her there still many nice girls pass him by winking and turning after him but Kendall just shakes his head and goes along. He misses the girls around but on the other hand he already knows that now he's got other things to focus on. He's got this thing to turn his mind off and he doesn't want to cause himself unnecessary problems with sleeping around with unknown girls that can make his life harder later when he'll be famous. If he can get there.

So despite of the tickling feeling down there every time a girl winks at him, he just ignores it or better he thinks about Elizabeth. With her Kendall wants to be something else. Something sweet and something that they wouldn't have with anyone else. Because they have so much in common. So much to hide and to be afraid of, even though they don't know about the other one's issues, they both can feel it and they both know that they would be wonderful together.

And Kendall wonders how that happens that he has made the day without the voices coming up and causing him a headache. Probably because it was too busy of a day and I have not really had time to think. Which means.. now that I … no.. keep calm Kendall…

His breathing is getting heavier but he is trying to push the thought back. He must learn to forget the voices so they might never come back again.

But what if he keeps thinking about them because without them he is lonely?

No.

You can make it.

There is nothing.

How? Again how? Like in the morning. They are going to be back at the worse time. Not now when I might be able to handle them. But fuck no.. if they came now I wouldn't be able to handle them either.. look what you're doing, this is insane…

He is taking the stairs too slow. Something slows him down. Something pulls him back.

It's about to start.

And there it is. Are you scared of going up there? Why are you scared now when you made the first day?

I'm not scared.

Oh you are.

No!

Silence.

He stops at the level where there is a little resting area halfway between the two floors.

Why do I keep thinking about it? It just brings them back. If I just could not think about them instantly when I have nothing else to do….if I only could…

You can't make that. You'd miss it… you like suffering Kendall. You're doing it to yourself. You have always done it. You never asked for help, you always wanted to go through it alone and look where you are? Nowhere. You couldn't reach a thing alone. You're weak. What would your dad say now, Kendall?

That gets him.

He's nearly crying as he is thinking about all the past years. He could have asked help. He asked some kind of weird ways but he got help and he was fine.. nearly fine… but never fully over it.

Dad. I'm weak. I'm sorry. I really am. The fact that I wanted to kill myself several times. That I wanted to get out of life … just proves that I'm weak.. that I cannot make a thing alone… that's why these voices are here… so this way I'm not alone.. even though they are driving me crazy.. I'm not alone … and I don't have to do this alone …

Again silence.

The voice came and again has made Kendall see the truth.

Kendall just somehow keeps forgetting that the voices are not real in fact. That it's him talking to himself inside of his mind, so after all he's doing it all alone. He helps himself as he has always done. Now he cannot seem to recognize this fact.

This is what he is so scared of. These attacks can get him any time of the day and he breaks down and cannot go along normally till something snaps him out.

"Kendall, are you okay?" a soft voice calls him and Kendall looks up. He did not even notice that he was staring at the ground.

"Ana, hi." Kendall fakes a smile.

"Are you feeling okay? What are you doing here? Why didn't you use the elevators?"

"Oh I … I was only a floor lower… uh Gustavo has gone and I wanted to check if Elizabeth.. uh Miss Scott is still here, you know.. and thought a little walk won't do anything bad." He explains quite confused. His head aches and feels like a mess … like someone mixed up everything there… he hates that he cannot control these attacks.. they are totally random and they come too often again… but why? Why now when everything is so good? This is the question coming up all the time when Kendall is at his mind again. These attacks are too intense and they are for nothing more but destroy him with whatever kind of manner.

The sexy model girls passing by….

He knows it was the reason .. and that he couldn't stop himself from missing the voices. The girls reminded him of the life earlier and that was everything but not right even though he didn't want to do anything bad. He knows the voice asked him if he was scared of going up to Elizabeth because of what he'd have done to her if it was his earlier self. He'd have seduced her and got her into his bed enjoying the relief that he can make a girl happy despite of everything.

I am indeed scared of going there. I am scared of loosing it and doing something that I would regret later. I cannot do it to her. She is here to help but not that way. She's been sent to my way to help me in a different way. I mustn't screw it up. I must grab the chance and I must trust myself. I can do it. Just think about the things you see in her, Kendall. She's so different. She makes you feel a way that no one else can. She pleases you and she assures you of her trust in you in a totally new way.

"Kendall?" Elizabeth asks and Kendall again looks up surprised. He searches for Ana. She is standing behind Elizabeth.

"You seemed out of the world Kendall, and you said you were heading to Miss Scott, so here she is. Excuse me now."

"Thank you Ana." Elizabeth lets her go and she turns back to Kendall who did not notice that he was lost in thoughts for so long that he made Ana worried.

"I must go for a negotiation at one of my other companies but I'm still here so you can tell, what's wrong?"

Kendall stares at her for a moment and does not say a word. Don't be scared.

"Just wanted to be sure then tonight?" He asks finally.

Elizabeth's mirrors the clear relief. Kendall can sense that she was truly worried for him. It feels so amazing for him to know. "Of course. Just get yourself and your friend ready in a few hours. I quickly make this thing over there and then I'll be gathering the guys, too."

"Okay." Kendall answers looking at the beautiful young woman and feeling a bit of shy as she is holding his arm with her soft hand. Kendall cannot help but wonders what her skin would be like against his own while they are …. No. Stop it. Stop having these thoughts. She trusts you already, you don't have to prove anything.

"I must go now, to get my friend and … you know.. see you later, Elizabeth." Kendall with a weak smile breaks out of Elizabeth's grip and waits for a few seconds in the hope of a reply.

"Sure thing. I gotta go, too. See you." She sends a mind-blowing smile of hers to Kendall and makes her way down the stairs. Just when she gets like two steps away her phone is already ringing and she is back at her world.

And Kendall is there alone in his own, again.

He sighs and shuts his mind off. He doesn't want to think of anything but this wonderful day he had filled with music and many other things that will lead him to the place where he wants to be. It was really good. I only wish it could be easy like this every day.

But it won't be. The voice wakes up again in his head. Kendall shakes it off with a shrug of his shoulders and goes in the footsteps of Elizabeth down on the stairs.

Just ignore it. You can make it. Everyone has got fears, don't think that you are alone. Just don't let it get you. Just think about your goals, Kendall. He is thinking this way and his luck that he is successful. He can push the bad thoughts and doubts back and fate helps him again with another push when his phone rings in his pocket.

Logan. Kendall looks at the screen.

"Hi." He greets his friend with one word but that one is more than enough for Logan to find out that his friend is tired and kind of upset.

"Hello Mr. Soon-to-be-famous, what's wrong?"

"Ha." Logan causes a tiny smile to Kendall. "I am just tired. This day was very crowded and loud. Man, this producer I must work with is so fucking loud. He is shouting at me all the time without any reason, damn."

"Elizabeth?" Logan wonders.

"Oh, no." Kendall laughs again. "This guy, Gustavo that Elizabeth has got me to work with me on my music."

"Ah, I see." Logan laughs as well. "Just stay strong, man. I know you don't like compromises but … "

"I really don't know why everyone thinks that I'm not the compromising type. Yes I am that type. I just need a good compromise that I can live with, damn."

"Hey-hey. Calm down."

"Okay, sorry. I am just really stressed and have a lot in mind. I should get home and play songs all night but I cannot now."

"You were playing all day and it's still not enough? And why can you not?" Logan asks curious.

Kendall sighs, "music is never enough, Logan, and I wasn't playing all day because majority of the day went by with building up an outlook image for me, there was just a little music."

"Okay, I see your point then. So why don't you just go home and rest?"

"Because I promised to Elizabeth that I would go out with her and her friends tonight for a drink." Kendall says and makes his way down on the street but a familiar man cuts his way and motions to a car parking next to the sidewalk. "John?"

"What?" Logan asks hearing Kendall saying a name he doesn't know.

"Give me a moment, Logan." Kendall puts his phone away from his ear and reaches out to shake hands with the driver that obviously Elizabeth has ordered to wait here for him. "Hello, John. How are you doing?"

"I'm great, Mr. Knight. Yourself?" the driver asks ever so polite.

"Likewise, Sir. Elizabeth has sent you for me again, right?"

"Yes, Sir. So may I give you a lift?" He motions toward the car again.

Kendall blows out a light sigh. "After all, I have to be quick tonight. Thank you, John." With that John moves to open the door for him and Kendall gets in.

As he takes the seat and John starts the car, Kendall returns to Logan on the phone. "I'm sorry, Logan. John is the driver that Elizabeth sends after me all the time to take me everywhere, so I'm on my way home now."

"Oh, do you even get a personal driver? Nah… where this world is going?" Logan jokes. They both laugh freely and then Logan continues. "Anyways, I was calling you because I have this night off and thought we could finally hang out together but if you … "

"No, wait, don't even finish that .." Kendall cuts Logan off. "I'm glad you say that because I wanted to ask you if you could come with me tonight."

"What? Why?"

"Well, you are my friend. We haven't met in ages and besides all of that I don't want to be alone with her."

"You won't be alone. Her friends are going to be there, too, aren't they?"

"Yeah, they are but still…you know … I am not really part of that company yet and what if I will be left out or such… ah you know.. they seemed really nice today…"

"You met them already?"

"Yes, this morning. One of them even tried to flirt with me." Kendall laughs and in the knowledge of Logan not seeing him even blushes thinking about the fact that a hot guy like James liked him that way.

"Oh."

"Oh?" Kendall murmurs. "It's all you can say, Logan?"

"I just….never mind…" Logan goes quiet.

"He is really nice anyways. And her other friend, Carlos, so is he. You'll like them, we can be even great friends if things work out well. Or you can be more…with James.. if you want…"

"What?" Logan's voice almost breaks Kendall's tympanum as he loudly asks.

"Dude, chill. I'm joking. But be prepared if you come he will flirt with you, too."

"Damn, Kendall. That does not help." Logan groans. "You know I cannot deal with people flirting with me.. I cannot flirt back."

"Then you will just go with it. Logan, grow up and accept it if someone tries to approach you. Nah, so are you coming then?"

A bit of silence comes but then Logan answers, "yeah. Where do I have to go?"

"I'll pick you up now." Kendall answers and asks John if it was a problem to go for his friend. Of course it is not a problem for him.

"I'll be there in ten minutes. Get ready."

"Okay, boss." Logan laughs. "See you in ten."

"Bye."

"This must be it." Kendall tells to John who parks the car in front of the huge apartment complex. Kendall thought it was his flat being too big for himself only but as he is standing outside and admires the building where Logan lives, he doubts it now. As Logan said earlier he is living here now alone and those apartments seem great already from the outside. I wonder what it's like from inside.

Kendall wanders up to the entrance and searches Logan's name and the button he has got to push to make a call up to his friend's flat.

As he presses the button the answer is right there, "Kendall?" Logan asks.

"Oh yeah. Logan is it you? Really? Do you live here?"

"Haha yeah I do. I'll be down in a minute."

"Okay. Waiting for ya." Kendall releases the button and steps back out onto the sidewalk. Young girls and boys pass him by. Kendall assumes they are on their way home from school.

That reminds him of the times when he and Logan was going home like that. Best and inseparable friends as young freshmen in high-school, then sophomores and then in their last year together in the first month of their junior year. From then Kendall was alone. He had friends but they never meant that much as Logan did, as he does now, too, even though they have been in touch only through phone during the last week, and almost fully lost connection in the last couple of years.

Since Kendall's been in LA he says a huge prayer for Logan's closeness again. Only the knowledge, that he still has got his old friend, makes him happy in a way and keeps him going – wherever his way is leading him actually.

"Kendall?" Logan's voice comes from behind and Kendall turns to see his best friend's huge smile and opened arms. He does not hesitate at all and approaches him. They meet in a tight brotherly hug. "Damn, Logan. It's been far too long when someone hugged me like this." Kendall says quietly so only his friend can hear. He really has missed a really good friend's closeness and now that he can hold onto it literally, it feels so good, better than anything lately.

"So good to finally see you, too Kendall." Logan says and pats Kendall's back as they pull apart.

"Yeah. We have got so much to catch up on, but not now." Kendall rushes Logan to the car and quickly introduces him to John who's been waiting for the young men.

"We need to get back to my place so I can take a shower and change and might eat something and then we need to be at … where do we have to be, John?" Kendall asks the driver who grins at him.

"At a nice club not so far from your place, Mr. Knight."

"Ah, yeah. Of course Elizabeth's made sure of me not being late, huh?" The driver just quietly nods at Kendall's question and with that they all get into the car and John makes it to Kendall's apartment.

"So, Logan, how was your day?"

"Dude, it was insane. I have got so much to study and the hospital and oh just now found out ten minutes ago that my cousin Camille is going to visit me. Me, and not our aunt, she wants to stay at my place because it's bigger and more comfortable and such."

"Sounds like you are going to be busy in the next couple of weeks then. How long does she stay?"

"For a month I guess. At least she is planning to. If she gets a job or you know finds the love of her life she might stay here for ever…of course not in my apartment..at least I hope she does not."

"Oh Logan." Kendall sighs laughing. Logan raises eyebrows at him and Kendall only shakes his head. "You have not changed at all. Chill. Damn. How old is she?"

"22..why?"

"Well, she can come and hang out with us if she wants. It will be fun, don't stress over your own relatives even."

"I'm not stressing over it I just say it is not the right time at all. I am in my final year of the college and I cannot let myself get lazy or I never will be a doctor, damn it Kendall."

"Well. You are definitely stressing my friend and I won't let you to take it all out on that poor girl. So tonight we are going to have fun. Just the way we would have had if you would have been there with me in the last couple of years. We must catch up on so many things, dude."

Logan blows out a heavy breath and sits back in the seat, "enough about me. How was your day? Your life is just now turning to be something very exciting. I am really curious."

"It's been great. Really, there's not much to say just yet. I mean.. I hope I can make it. I'll do my best for sure." Kendall says and sadness is noticeable in his voice.

Logan puts his hand onto his shoulder, "what's wrong Kendall?"

Kendall sighs. "Every time I think about it… that whether I can make it or not, dad instantly comes to my mind, you know? He was always there these times to say "yes you can make it", and now he is not here. Now when I would need it the most to hear him. I think about him very much lately."

"Oh Kendall.. you know I feel you, right?" Logan pulls him in for another hug.

"I know." Kendall sniffs. "I'm sorry for bringing it up by the way. You lost them both and … ahh.. I suck.. I am sorry."

"No. Man, you only want to suck!" Logan jokes.

"Idiot." Kendall pulls apart and punches Logan in the arm trying not to look down at the front of his pants where he is feeling the tension growing already by the mention of sex. "To be sucked, might. You are the one who want to suck..you can come to me.." Kendall giggles and earns a punch from Logan.

"How long has it been Logan?" Kendall asks settling back to his seat.

Logan shrugs, "way too long ago, dude."

"Seeing anyone at the moment?"

"Mr. Knight." John's voice cuts their conversation. "Sorry for disturbing, we are here."

"Oh no problem John, thank you. Then I suppose I can count on you for the rest of the day, right?"

"Yes, Sir." John nods and moves to get out of the car.

But Kendall places a hand onto his shoulder, "please stay. We can get out by our own power. Thank you, John. Let us know if we are taking it for too long."

The driver nods and with that Logan and Kendall gets out of the car.

"Must be a good feeling to have a personal driver." Logan says catching up on Kendall who's made it to the entrance already.

"Must be a good feeling to own millions in the age of 24." Kendall throws at Logan who stops for a second and shots a confused look.

"The place where you live shows it Logan. You never told me that your parents were that wealthy." Kendall explains.

"Oh, well. You'll know how it feels very soon, when you get famous. And I am not that rich. I have spent majority of the money on that flat plus on my studies and I have helped out my aunt as well, a lot of times. So yeah, I still have got some but not as much as you think I may do."

"Okay. I'm sorry if I'm a dick sometimes.. just really so much on my mind." Kendall sighs and opens the door. They make their way up to his apartment as Logan replies.

"No worries. I understand, you know. So where we have stopped?"

"Oh, I asked if you are seeing someone.." Kendall grins.

Logan shakes his head and lifts one hand to go through his hair with his long fingers. "Actually no. I haven't even looked at anyone like that in a very long while."

"Why is that Loges?" Kendall asks when they step in the door and the nice flat appears in front of them. Kendall immediately feels comfortable, which feels weird for him after the things happened in the morning. But on the other hand it's now different. He's scared of going out because he doesn't know how things would end up if he gets out at night. Then, in the morning, he wanted to get out because in the flat he was alone and his mind was flooded with dreams, memories and he could hardly bear with them.

But now, it's good to be there. He loves this flat and when he is calmed it's a great shelter from the world's dirt. It's clean and white.

"I don't know, dude. I don't want to get my heart broken or.. whatever. Nice place anyways." Logan answers while Kendall throws his belongings down and makes his way to the inside of the flat.

"Yeah thanks. I need to take a shower though."

"That's okay. Do you have any food?"

"Yeah, go to the kitchen and make yourself home. But wait. Why would you get your heart broken with getting a boy or a girl?"

"Why would you? You know I still find it weird that you don't have anyone."

"Fair point. Later I tell you. And we will continue this talk about you and your relationship issues. Not that I am a big pro of the topic but still.. "

"Okay, go and shower. I guess your boss doesn't want us to be late."

"Yeah, she indeed does not. I will be right back." With that Kendall goes to take his shower and Logan makes it to the kitchen.

While Kendall is in the shower Logan cannot help but wonders how good looking of a young man has Kendall become. But then he quickly rushes this thought away. No way that he would tell him that he kind of had an impossible crush on him when they were younger. That was past and it was only because they were teenagers and Logan just then started to discover his sexuality and found the boy, who had been spent the most time with, very attractive.

And I still do.

Logan thinks chewing on some half heated spaghetti but he also knows that Kendall is not into that kind of thing so he won't ever mention this thing otherwise he'd cut every connection between them.

The reason of Logan being alone all these years is not some high-school crush he had on his best friend. It's just the thing of being scared from people who you let in and then they leave after they get bored or discover something in you that they don't like.

Logan has had experience with too many of those kinds of people. He has been trying to get to know new people, even date with some but somehow it never actually worked. Most of them have been girls but there have been a few guys as well. Logan is playing on both areas. By his own admission he couldn't change only one side because both genders' have their own specialties that they are worth to be loved for.

But no, Kendall is forgotten. He shakes his head again.

"Why are you shaking your head?" Kendall asks coming out of the shower and approaching Logan without a noticeable noise and smelling from a shower.

"Oh nothing. I was just wondering about what you said. That we are going to talk about things." The brunette replies.

Kendall frowns and takes a sip of orange juice he pulls out from the fridge. "So after all do you have someone in mind, now?"

"No." Logan shakes his head once again and puts the plate into the dishwasher.

"Had enough?" Kendall asks putting the juice back to the fridge.

Logan nods. "Thank you."

"Takes nothing. So?"

"What so Kendall?" Logan turns around and makes it out of the kitchen and explains, " I just cannot seem to find anyone that would understand me. You know I am complicated."

"Yeah I know." Kendall laughing says and goes after him checking his looks in the mirror on his way.

"So then does that mean you have been trying?"

"Yes, I have." Logan hops onto the sofa but cannot stay there because Kendall pulls him up immediately.

"We need to go, like right now." Kendall says when Logan frowns at him.

"Where did you find that out that we need to go just now?"

"I got a text message while I was dressing up." Kendall answers and blushes.

"Oh Elizabeth, huh?"

"Haha," Kendall laughs and heads toward the door. "Come on and yes. It was her."

Logan rushes after Kendall and asks, "and what did she exactly say?"

Kendall grinning steps out of the apartment and puts the key into the door while answering. "Just sent me the time I need to be exactly there."

"Bossy type she is. How are you going to deal with her?"

"I don't know Logan, I don't know." Kendall laughs. "Let's go."

They make it to the car and soon they are on their way talking mostly about their days and forgetting the relationship thing for now.

"Hey, Elizabeth!" Carlos shouts through the bar as he spots the young woman sitting alone at a table and sipping some drink.

She stands up and greets Carlos and James with a warm hug, then they all settle into their places waiting for Kendall and his friend that they don't know yet.

"How is everything going guys?" she asks taking another sip of her soda.

"Still no alcohol, Elizabeth?" James questions and earns a light poke from Carlos followed with a strong look of the eye. James immediately adds, "sorry, forget it." And he bends his head.

But Elizabeth just shakes his head and reaches across the table to take James'. "It's okay. You don't have to apologize. I don't drink still and it's good that way."

"So, everything's great. How did things go with Kendall?"

"Ah Carlos. He is so talented. I secretly heard him playing today again. I didn't tell anyone but I just needed to sneak out and take a peek to see how he was doing. And he was so amazing. I love how he is playing. I swear to everything that's saint Carlos that he can make me forget the world with his voice. I don't feel insecure, I just feel me and I feel young and I already love it that he is around, and that I can take some peeks like that in the future as well."

James and Carlos exchange a look. "Are you falling for him?" Carlos carefully asks.

Elizabeth blushes and looks down at the glass in her hands. "Not actually for him… I don't know..for his music for a start.. I guess."

"His music is him, you know that, right?"

"Carlos." Elizabeth sighs. "I know. I just don't want to accept it, not yet. It's too soon. I hardly know him yet."

"It's all good for a start, Elizabeth. I'm incredibly grateful for life for getting this guy into your life." Carlos says and Elizabeth shyly smiles. She feels like a teenager with her first love growing deep inside of her hurt heart, and for the first time in her life she does not want to cease away the warming feeling that a man cause. However now that she is thinking about it deeper she knows that before Kendall there was no man that could have grabbed her attention and interest the way Kendall has done. But anyways, whenever she felt happy, felt her hear filling up with warmth by any kind of little joy, she wanted to make that feeling stop. She felt like she didn't deserve it, to feel that.

But now, with Kendall it is different. Everything is so else with him.

"Hello everyone." Kendall snaps Elizabeth out of her thoughts and cuts James and Carlos' light conversation that they have gotten in to seeing that the young blonde Elizabeth has gotten deeply into her thoughts and they did not want to snap her out of the trail.

Elizabeth looks up smiling and stands to greet the newly arrived guests. "Hi." She holds out a hand and Kendall gorgeously smiling back at her nods not wanting to let Elizabeth's hand go anytime soon.

This will be an interesting night. This is Kendall's last thought before he turns away to pull Logan closer and introduce him.