Controlling her wolf was a challenge that she had not been prepared for, at first it had been extremely hard but with Samuel around to teach her it soon became easier and easier to do. By her fourth full moon she had full control of her werewolf. She had showed steady progress so no one worried about how long it was taking. They knew it was because of how dominant she was.
Bronwyn worried about SeoHyun and her self-esteem. She knew the pack was trying to help boost her confidence with compliments and praise and those things helped but Bronwyn had a bad feeling SeoHyun didn't have a good opinion of her appearance, didn't believe she was anywhere near as pretty as she really was.
She sighed as she walked towards the spring fed lake where she, Kara and SeoHyun often met. Kara was working on extra homework in hopes of graduating with SeoHyun so it would be just Bronwyn and SeoHyun. She got closer and heard the younger girl singing in a language Bronwyn had never heard before and could only assume was Korean. The tone of the song wasn't what Bronwyn would consider happy but with the language barrier she couldn't be certain then she abruptly switched to singing in English and the sad, self-deprecating words broke Bronwyn's heart. She wondered if Charles had ever heard this piece and if he had, did he ever pay attention to exactly what SeoHyun was saying. Would he have demanded a translation of all of the lyrics of this song? Would he have sought more help for her if he knew exactly what she thought of herself? How bad her self-image was? She didn't know but she hoped to God he would as much as it seemed that he loved her. She came out of her hiding place as the song ended.
"That is a beautiful song, SeoHyun, did you write it?" She asked.
"Yes," SeoHyun replied self-consciously. She had done her best not to ever sing that piece where others could hear it because she didn't feel like going into a detailed explanation about what the song meant and why she ever wrote something with such a self-derogatory tone.
"Please don't tell my Da about this song… I don't want to have to explain it to him." She all but begged.
"SeoHyun, if he doesn't know how you feel he can't help you get passed it." Bronwyn said.
"Bronwyn please… don't tell him or mom about it… they do so much for me already I don't want to be more of a burden to them." SeoHyun was desperate to keep this song a secret.
SeoHyun's pleas had Bronwyn very concerned about her, why was she so intent on her parents not finding out that this song ever existed?
"You need to let him hear it, need to give him every word so he can help you find a way to deal with the pain, the things that inspired you to write this song." Bronwyn insisted. She couldn't understand why SeoHyun was so intent on keeping this a secret.
"You're probably right, but… I don't… I can't do that… I can't…"
Bronwyn hugged SeoHyun as she began to cry, her heart breaking for the younger girl she held in her arms. SeoHyun was in such a vulnerable place in her life which made it even harder for Bronwyn to understand why she wouldn't go to her parents for comfort and reassurance.
They split up that evening and Bronwyn couldn't quit thinking of the words SeoHyun had sung, the ones she understood and wondering what the ones were that she couldn't understand. How bad was SeoHyun's self-esteem? Was she contemplating suicide? Bronwyn wasn't sure why her brain jumped to the horrible thought of SeoHyun attempting to end her own life but it did.
She nearly ran into Bran on her way home and apologized profusely.
"Bronwyn what's wrong?" he asked gently.
"Nothing, I'm fine" she lied.
"Bronwyn, lying to a werewolf isn't a good idea." He said.
"I'm worried… but I can't tell you why." She said "I sort of made a promise to this person."
"Worried about who, or can you not tell me that either?" he asked. What she had said was the truth as far as it went but it still upset Bran to think there was a reason for a member of his pack to be as scared as Bronwyn was about another pack member.
"I promised I wouldn't…" she then thought about it "It feels underhanded but I need to tell someone about this. I promised I wouldn't tell Charles or Anna but I assume I can tell you and you can do with the knowledge what you see fit."
"Come to my home, we will talk in my office." Bran said.
They arrived in his office and sat around the fireplace and she told him about the song she heard SeoHyun singing in the clearing and her sudden, and she hoped irrational, fear that SeoHyun would end her own life.
"Bronwyn this is a very valid concern that Charles and Anna need to know about. I know you promised SeoHyun you wouldn't tell and don't want to lose her confidence but if you have the slightest suspicion that she is self-injuring or worse contemplating suicide, her parents need to be aware so they can get her help." Bran said clearly worried by the whole prospect that this was happening and he wasn't aware of it. "I will bring your concerns to Charles' attention myself so you can honestly tell SeoHyun you upheld your word to her. She can tell if you lie to her; so it's best that we keep it so you can truthfully say you didn't tell Charles of this, I did. She can get angry at me all she wants but it's my job as her alpha and her grandfather to see to her wellbeing."
"Okay, Bran." Bronwyn sighed "I still feel like I betrayed her trust telling you."
"Don't feel bad, in this situation I needed to be aware of what she is going through so we can extend help to her."
Bronwyn was shocked when Charles entered the office as she left. She assumed Bran summoned him mind to mind in order to get him there so quickly. She said a prayer that she hadn't just ruined her friendship with SeoHyun and, by extension, Kara as she left to go home for the night. She wasn't sure she would be able to sleep but she had to try there were big tests the next morning.
To Be Continued…
