|"A new kind of life."| |Chapter 4.|
A/N: The parentheses thing… Yeah… Those are like side bar thoughts.. Like how a person will be thinking something and then another thought interjects? Or how there's some thoughts that a person might have that the person won't admit to even themselves that they've had or are having? (therefore parentheses)… Except with 'Crowley, it's more like multiple layers of his/her personality, conscience, morality, compassion… It's all been tossed into a dryer full of thoughts and feelings and set on tumble, so poor Crowley and his/her thoughts and feelings don't know which way is up or how to separate who he's/she's been for the past couple of centuries from who he/she was before and who she's actually always been all along AND HOW Crowley really does not want to admit any of it… The parentheses represent a struggle between thoughts and emotions similar to what HUMAN BEINGS deal with all of the time.. (So there are human (or somewhat human) Characters that might also have thoughts that get represented in parentheses at times as well) and there will be times where Crowley's thoughts will be shown as stand-alone lines that will have an indication that Crowley thought it, and sometimes Crowley's thoughts will be in italics or even bold as his/her many layers are explored (also… I will show other Characters' thoughts in the same way because everyone has inner struggles and monologues and moral conflicts that they deal with..)… So hopefully this helps make the parentheses thing make more sense… I'll be pulling away from the parentheses thing as far as Crowley goes shortly as Crowley finally settles into a role he's/she's comfortable with…
ANYWAY… Onto the story… And as always.. Please review. Reviews equal carrots and my super cute baby plot bunnies need something to eat.
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"Well, Moose.. Let me tell you a story.."
"I really haven't got time for this." Sam groans in frustration.
"Don't worry, Cass is babysitting… Ah… well.. How to begin?"...
"When Adam and Eve fell for the ways The Serpent had tempted them, GOD was ready to just exterminate mankind and start all over again with a clean slate, right then and there… And trust me… You do not want to know how Plans D through F of the blueprints for mankind would have come out looking like."..
"Of course that's not really the point, the point was, GOD had been ready to outright kill the very beings he had commanded his angelic children to love even more than they loved him… And only one angel, one out of an infinite number of angels, stood up to GOD, their own Father and said 'No.' and it wasn't Michael or Gabriel or even your precious little Castiel who stood against their own Father's command, because only SHE saw that order for what it was… It had been a test… A test of an angel's ability to actually CHOOSE to do as they had been instructed… And SHE was the only one who had gotten it right as everyone else had CHOSEN to not follow the first order of loving Mankind even more than their Father… So many of her brothers and sisters praised her for she had truly been wiser than them all in her choice to love Mankind more than anything."…
"But several of her other siblings HATED her, for shining a spotlight on their own shameful inaction. And of course as you've seen, even Heaven is not exempt from harboring corruption and hypocrisy. The angel was betrayed by one of her own sisters, someone she had loved dearly and naively trusted above all others of her kin. Her sister, wrapped her in chains and threw her into a corner of Hell that even GOD himself hadn't known existed, because the traitorous angel had carved out that special little Hell, just for her sister… All to get her out of the way, all so Lucifer's plans could unfold just the way he had wanted them to, without anyone wise enough to question the possibly corrupted orders of their 'superiors', standing in the way… Even Michael, had not been strong enough to stand in the way of what would come for he was always a 'good little soldier' who NEVER questioned orders, especially when he was told that those 'orders' were from 'on high'… No, Michael didn't exactly have superiors, but he did have brothers and sisters that were his equals and if they said that they were passing along an order from 'on high' then… Who was he to question that order?.. It was like his sister passing that one test had taught him absolutely nothing… Well, it goes without saying that there were several orders that should have been considered 'questionable' and even more that had not even been legitimate orders from 'on high'.. So Michael fell into the trap that his corrupt brothers and sisters had laid out for him.. By failing to question anything, he had failed his Father's test once again."…
"Michael let himself get played into believing in and following every order that he was told had come from 'on high' and therefore HE himself ended up unwittingly creating nearly all of the parameters within which the Apocalypse was able to be started, thus creating the very path that would lead to his own imprisonment in The Cage right alongside Lucifer… But enough of that, because you already know how THAT particular part of the story went… Anyway, the sister, who had been betrayed and imprisoned, had broken free from her prison in Hell and had fled to the surface and assumed a new identity, she took the identity of an abusive drunk of a man who had sold his soul for the vanity of three extra inches of an organ he should have just learned to keep in his pants in the first place. Then she went back to Hell where she pretended to be one of THEM and worked up the ranks… But she constantly worked in silent diligence to do what she could to fuck up Zachariah's, Lucifer's, Azazel's, Lillith's, Raphael's and Abaddon's plans along the way… Without ever revealing who she really was, of course…. Because after she had broken free from Hell, her Father had come to her and shared a great many secrets of what the future would hold and like the smart girl she was, she had learned to question EVERYTHING, even when she had heard it from her Father herself, but after a long drawn out argument where both father and daughter made their very valid points heard, the daughter was convinced that the path her Father was ordering for her to take was the right one, of course the fact that she had been told she would get her revenge against those who had betrayed her or turned their backs on her when she tried to return home, may have helped a bit… Well, she may have been wise, but she was NOT above being petty and vindictive or above sinking to their level."…
"I've followed that path for over two centuries now and I've suddenly realized that along the way, there were things that I had forgotten to question… You reminded me, that I've always had the power to divert from that path to do what I need to do. And so here I am… In all my glory… I know I'm not the prettiest of girls but this vessel I'm in has been good to me… So now that I've divulged all that I safely could to you, Sam Winchester… Do you believe that you can trust me now?"…
"I don't know.." Sam replied "You still haven't told me who it is you really are…
"My true name is Satanael, but most beings just call me Satan."
TBC..