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"Last I checked I'm already in my birthday suit. You on the other hand are wearing way too much for my liking. Take it off now!" she said sternly pouting at the vampire who'd now intertwined his hand with hers, pressing himself in between her thighs.

"Seriously you are making it very hard for me to contain myself?" he gestured to his crotch wriggling his eyebrows.

Bonnie hadn't seen that move in so long she couldn't help the giggle that erupted from her. She felt silly she was acting like a school girl and with Damon Salvatore none the less.

She didn't even know why she'd decided to come back when she did. It had been the strangest thing, a weird innate call, like the air shifted outside her apartment and something was beckoning her back to mystic falls. It was scary because she loved her new free life but she did want to see Caroline again. She just hadn't felt the time was right till tonight. That's who she thought she was coming to see but as she drove past the welcome sign to mystic falls something internal made her stop and walk up to the boarding house, to the window. Placing her frame up against the gigantic window it had hit her like a tonne of bricks seeing the tears roll down Damon's face as he stared into the fire, whisky in one hand and a letter in the other.

From then on everything she'd done had been on autopilot, impulse took over. She didn't know why it bothered her seeing him like that but it did. She then had the urge to see the cocky little shit that got a rise out of her when she was a teen. She wanted to see the twinkle in his menacing yet attractive eyes. She wanted to face the way they widened so that you could seen the crazy thoughts churning in his gray blue eyes. She needed to see the way he stared her down invading her personal space, his lips turned to a lopsided smirk, hands ravelling in her curls to unnerve her. His whisky, spicy and earthly smell assaulting her senses so there was no chance of ignoring him. She wanted to hear that husky voice that dripped with his sarcasm infuriating her every time he opened his mouth and causing Stefan to turn fatherly supervising them both, eyes rolling like he was on a dizzying theme park ride.

Damon was the one thing in life she expected would never be knocked down by what life threw at him. He had fought, planned, dreamed, waited and stayed just as devoted and in love with the same woman for 145 years. A women who didn't love him and he'd bounced back from that. For some reason it scared her to think that finally something had snapped him. That one day it had all gotten too much and that passion be it bordering on psychotic at times, and his persistence had been crushed by events.

Once upon a time she would have thought she'd loved to see him in such a state after the pain he'd caused to others, especially her. However now that it had finally happened she realised it had never truly been something she desired.

She needed to see that man who was like a child in a temper tantrum when asking her to do one thing or another. Unlike with the others she was never a push over with him she realised that now, remembering the countless times she'd said no to him and told him to go fuck himself. It was about time again she made him smirk like back in the good old days.

And now here they were butt naked well she was he was still in his darn boxers to her complete annoyance. Never the less here they were in the forest which years ago would have been a total no no. She'd come so far and was proud of herself. She was even more thrilled she got to show someone as extrovert as Damon she wasn't a child anymore. Although he seemed to be insisting he never saw her like that anyway which had shocked Bonnie because really apart from when he needed magic, just like the rest of them he didn't seem to be sensitive to her feelings. He didn't seem to know her needs or be that aware of her pain and troubles at all. Had she been wrong?

She didn't know what was going on in his ancient mind but she was surprised at his welcome for sure. It was still strange yet exhilarating to see Damon's looking at her as a woman when he examined her up and down appreciatively. She still looked the same age though so she didn't know what had gotten his attention now.

What happened while I was gone? She thought. They had been at each other's throats before. He exasperated her more than anymore on the planet. No she'd go as far as to say the universe including parallel alternative dimensions. She genuinely used to want to set his arse on fire. She though t she hated him for taking Grams, Elena, Caroline and even Stefan away from her. Although now she had gone away and had time to reflect she realised he wasn't all to blame and they had a lot in common for sure. He was still maddening though but she realised now that's what made him special, defined him. He was good and bad a balance and so was she. If he were soft all the time, wasn't witty and instead completely serious god he'd be more like Stefan who she loved but Damon was unique.

Sometimes she analysed and thought back on why she was mad at him. What she found was completely vexing to her. A lot of the time she was angry at him because of the sympathy she couldn't help feel for him. She understood him and could relate to him. It used to drive her crazy that someone so reckless, so quick to kill, still in moments made her feel for him, know him.

In any case right in this moment they weren't at each other's throats they were just at each other period. Bonnie jolted out of her thoughts realising Damon was gaping into her emerald eyes. He had just pecked her nose and begun to speak.

"Sheesh what have you been up to while you've been away? I've been waiting to see this side of you irrupt for years. In fact I used to spend a lot of my time trying to provoke it. So you'd stop thinking you were so powerless and insignificant next to blonde and princess. Oh FYI before I forget I now refer to her as Stefan's Siamese twin. It's something you need to know since your sticking around now."

Who said I'm sticking around for good? She innately thought annoyed at his assumption but quickly smiling as that was Damon for you.

"I mean what? Who made you let lose?" Damon paused on his last words and felt the green eyed monster rear itself. Has there been someone? Someone who got her out her shell? The thought of it not being him hurt a little.

"Year I guess you could say when I moved away I could be me because no one knew my past. I met some nice people who didn't push me to be anything in particular. And there was this guy Alex and..."

Damon growled ripping himself off her body. He knew he was being possessive and she was probably going to think he was being freaky but he couldn't help it. He'd thought about her so much when she was away and all these feelings he'd known were brewing but suppressed were erupting all at once.

"Are you with him now?" he was in her personal space grabbing her shoulders tight and pulling her off the blanket to stand up. Not being able to help the fact she was cold he considerately placed her in the velvet blazer, before going back to being pissed. "Well are you? Did you let this random guy touch you? What were you thinking you've had no protection without us and you've gone and let some random guy into your life? Do you not think you should have at least called Elena and Caroline and told them about such a huge development? You even a virgin anymore?"

Damon winced why he was brining up her virginity and from the look on her face she was quite surprised he knew that about her. Now he sounded like an idiot. What was she supposed to have done? Waited all this time and for what? It's not like she'd have waited for him. When she left the only contact they shared was when she threw him telekinetically into walls or slapped him in the chest when he said something inconsiderate to Elena or Caroline. Why would she wait for a man who only recently realised how deep his feelings for her ran? God this was humiliating and he couldn't even think about his cool facade right now because the need to know was stronger.

"um Damon ow that hurts." Bonnie gestured to the way he held her arms. She knew he wasn't trying to harm her but she was quite startled by this reaction.

"You're pissing me off Salvatore and if you don't want an aneurism which I feel you've obviously forgotten how lovely they are, you'll get off. You're acting so strange. I get when Caroline's being protective over me but this is just surreal and Alex if you'd let me finish was this great gay guy I met who gave me a makeover. He just helped me chill without trying to hit on me all the time. As for my virginity don't act like you're the virgin mary Damon. I am 22 now and I really thought that losing my inhabitations, to lose control would involve losing my virginity but I'm a woman in any case without all that."

"Wait what you're a woman but your still a virgin. I'm no expert honey but...Wait what the fuck is with that ring in your finger?" Damon all but yanked the royal purple crystal with Celtic engravings on it off. He was almost calm after she said she wasn't with anyone but a ring. Hell no! "What are you married now? Engaged? Didn't feel your friends deserved to know? Deserved to come?"

"Okay seriously what the hell is with you? You've never paid an ounce of attention to me before or cared if I live or died. As long as Elena was okay everyone else in the town was collateral damage. So excuse you! You have the audacity to think you have a right to tell me what I should do or say to my friends? You know however annoying you are I never thought I'd come back to find you being such a worrisome old man!"

Is that how I came across like I'd sell her out just for Elena? Is that what people think is most important in my life?

"Where do you get these stupid moronic ideas? You silly little witch! I was always aware of you. I knew who you were before I freaking knew Elena for god's sake! Your family was the only constant in my life even if you guys didn't know who I was. I watched you carefully after grams death to make sure you didn't harm yourself or over do you're magic. I tried to let you vent your hate on me so the pain would lessen for you. I never harmed a hair on your head not because I didn't notice you existed but because I genuinely didn't want to hurt you. Do you think anyone else would get away with the shit you pull on me? Their hearts would have been ripped clean out in an instant. Whenever there was danger of a threat to Elena I thought about the impact on you too. I saw you as a friend even if the feelings were one way. I most certainly had your back whenever we went into a fight. Did you really think I asked for your help and then would have left you in the middle of danger after putting in the position in the first place? I went in knowing I'd look after everyone involved? Some more than other yes because frankly Jeremy used to get on my last nerve. Still you remember the masquerade ball when we all teamed up? It was Stefan, you, me, Alaric and Jeremy and our plan to trap Katherine? Don't you think I had all of your backs? Elena yes was always at the forefront of my mind but you were running in the background I just was less willing to see it. You always amused me and I had great pleasure from our conversations. I looked after you in my own way and I wouldn't have risked your life for Elena's not really I would have tried to save you both. You make me down right pissed witch. You get right under my skin you infuriating stubborn oblivious woman! WAIT what did you call me?"

Bonnie ignored most of what he said. She always had that ability as a teen when he presented her with one of his long winded monologues. She wondered if Stefan found his rants as amusing as she did. He'd sure been hearing them a lot longer than she had. But secretly some of the words had registered and were swirling in the deepest contours of her mind. She just wasn't ready to address them.

"Oh do I need to say it slower grandpa? And bullshit you would have thrown your own brother under a bus for Elena! It's a good thing I left who knows what you would have let happen to me if me more danger came Elena's way and you needed a witch again?" She didn't even think about the words she was saying. Or why she kept saying Elena. She hadn't intended to be mean but then again she didn't think her words would affect him.

"Listen to me little witch take it back or I'll drain you dry."

"Damon I am sorry I ... ever came back." She said huffing and puffing.

"That's it judgey! Your damn sure not leaving again!" Damon pounced fiercely, only to recive a little brain aneurism and be thrown into a tree.

Damon rose faster than her eyes could register. He stalked predatorily yet sexily towards her, head tilted smiling. Bonnie had hands on hips and Damon couldn't help think she looked amazing in that blazer, staring into each other's eyes intensely Bonnie's chest rising and falling. Damon's did the same as her let out a guttural growl and his nostrils flared. They both suddenly looked each other up and down landing on each others eyes again. They smirked and simultaneously let out a bellowing laugh collapsing to the floor as Damon clutched his stomach and Bonnie clenched her sides.

"Ah witch I've missed you! It's been dull as dishwater around here without our banter. FYI you know I wouldn't have harmed you then right I was just playing?"

"meh it's k seeing you too I guess."

"Witch!"He whined as she giggled at his playfulness although he wondered if she really meant the part about leaving and him throwing her into danger for Elena. That stung a little.

"Okay surprisingly I have missed my pain in the arse. You and I may have had our problems but we had fun conversations and well it was the only time I felt anything other than cold after grams died. No one quite infuriates me the way you do. But I don't hate you at all. And FYI I definitely would have lit you on fire but only playing. I would have only aimed for your shoes you're still wearing, which by the way creates an odd image indeed." She winked at him.

"I'm special to you that's why."

"I guess you are like my own tantrum baby. What mama can live without her baby?"

"oi very cute but I'd rather be your baby daddy." He wouldn't lie hearing that he really was a part of the people she cared about meant the world to him. In the last few hours he'd felt so much. He'd felt Jealously; anger; love; appreciation ;protectiveness ;worry; relief; excitement; caring, loyalty, adoration, pain ;tentativeness. All feelings that he hadn't felt in 4 whole years. He'd been so numb and lifeless but he realised it didn't have to be that way now.

"Did you really hate me back then?"

"Sometimes I used to think yes. But the rage amplified by my powers made me see things out of context. When I had time to think I realised we all made mistakes and forgiveness is the only reason any of us are still standing. I care you know if your okay or not. I always protected you as well as everyone else in battle and I realised it, you barged your way onto my friendship list a long time ago all be it forcefully hehehe. That's how I know I could never hate you."

"I care for you too Bonnie you have no Id..."

" woah woah alert the media what did you just say? Next you'll be telling me your baby brother and you are BFF's and you regularly have slumber parties." she ruffled his hair.

"Are you teasing me witch." God this is great. Being like this with her. I never thought it could happen for real. Although I wish she'd let me finish my sentence. Well she's staying so I have time to tell he right? No show her how I feel.

" yes yes I am vampire? So how's everything been really? No ladies debauchery with the ladies tonight then? You seem a little down when I came by the house?"

"oh so you are just pitying me?" his heart sank and he got defensive and angry.

Bonnie grabbed his face in her hands forcing ocean blue eyes to stare into emerald ones. "No you darn moron. Wow 100 odd years on this planet have you learnt nothing? When can I see my cocky homicidal friend, my eternal pain? Where's he got to? Why can't you pay attention? You're a strong confident guy and there's nothing to pity. I just wanted to see the guy I know. You know the pesky one who always makes me think of shish kebabs and slow spiralling fires. You seemed off that's all. Are you bipolar or something?"

"Calm yourself my bipolar companion. You're just as passionate and emotionally insane as I am. Is it wrong that I love it so much?"

"Hehe well if it's wrong we are both wrong together as I love it too hehehe."

"Hey talking of hormones there a few things I still need do to you right now."

"Oh really." she wriggled her eyebrows.

"Ah my wriggle moves. Yep it does make people look even more sexy."

"Mmm I don't know if it would work on Stefan. Speaking of how the epic Bella and Edward these days? They still rar rar two against the world?"

Damon chuckled so hard tears came out.

"Don't wet yourself sugar lips."

"Did I mention that I really have missed you? I thought I was the only one to have their romance play havoc on my upchuck reflex." He chimed.

"hehe once or twice hehe. As for Romeo and Juliet I gave up on watching chick flicks the minute they got together. Otherwise it was like an overload on cheese for me. They are cute though. But I never wanna be whipped or fall into a dull pattern you know?"

"EXACTLY. Like you read my mind you little chocolate goddess. I need someone who has the spark and thrill for life that I have. Someone who wants to embark on adventure with me. Not to simply go on in mystic falls living in a little house being nagged to go to work. God did I mention Stefan has a job these days? He's a teacher. He and Alaric carpool to work. Oh yes there goes my gag reflex again. Seriously it's like watching the Brady bunch."

"No way I have to see those two. Maybe drop in on a lesson and be a whiney student. Oh I can't wait. And huh I always thought the perfect person for you was a baby sitter."

"Oh I'm in and that's it little witch your last comment has exploded on me like a vervain bomb. You must pay." Damon tackled her gently tickling her.

"Damon off now hehe can't breathe hehe will wet my self hehe and that's not sexy hehe."

"No!" He tickled her even more and started to blow raspberries on her belly. "Say the magic words and maybe I'll stop."

"Haha I haha I don't know the magic words."

"Well that's no my problem." He chuckled hard.

Soon petals started to attack Damon's bare chest and he giggled like a little girl.

"Truce!" he yelled

"Thought so hehe hey how is care bear by the way?"

"There's plenty of time for you to catch up with them but like I said this is us time."

"Us against the world!" Bonnie said in superwoman voice raising her hands in a pose.

" adorable but now I wanna get back to our..."

"Romp in the woods."

"Hey that's my line hehe and yes but first you didn't answer my question." Damon turned serious "your good but you didn't distract me that much, the ring?"

"Well I joined a coven when I visited England. They were a peaceful bunch only wanting to get the most out of nature. It was amazing at night just the starry blue black sky and candle light. The humming of the grass swaying it was truly euphoric and hallucegenic as we chanted. Your body heats and your mind is in a total trance. You feel light headed and at peace, more alert like your sensitive to everything around you. Your body and senses feel every little thing. It was like heightened metal sex. After that I thought about ..."she made a popping noise with her mouth... "My cherry so to speak."

Damon listened intently his fists clenched. "I met this guy and thought okay let's do this. Time to lose my worries about it all together and just go for what I want. However as we were fooling around it wasn't that I was embarrassed but I just realised it didn't feel right because it wasn't my time. It was like an innate warning against it like nature said no. But the coven rituals were more than satisfying. The connection you get through it it's like being one with nature. I felt every sting and thrust of the thunder, the coolness of cold rain that contrasted and caused friction with the hot sun on my flesh. It was indescribable.

Damon gulped it sounded amazing.

"I've never connected with anything that way. Sex has been the only way because people don't talk to me much either."

"I could show you. Well with the two of us it'll be even more intimate. We can share an amazing experience if you'd like?"

"I was in the moment you opened your mouth honey."

"Okay but you have to do as you're told."

"Man reprimanding and chastising me already yes yes yes!"

"Hehe you can be cute sometimes you know?"

"Hey I'm fit as hell not cute and what's this about ne looking like an angel? I'm gonna have to do something about that."

TBC...

Review if you like it they were meant to have sex in this chapter but got long so next chapter? Also didn't know whether to keep her a virgin or not? Realistically after so long she would have probably lost it but then I thought its sweet if Damon gets to be the guy? Sorry if they were OCC or Bonnie seemed mean because that's not what I intended. She's just meant to be more confident and at this point she'd oblivious to how Damon feels about her. She just thinks Elena's his world still.