"Why was it good that he would overthrow his own father?" Erwin asked.
"In my early years, under Uranus's rule. My preference of men to women didn't leave me very high on the totem pole. I was beaten almost daily as a child. Mostly by Cronus and his small cult of followers, Cronus himself used his father's whip on me until I was a bloody mess, and no one helped me not my mother nor my father. My brother could only fix me up afterwards and he would always tell me 'They only know violence, our race is a proud one. They believe if they show they are superior to others of their kind that they themselves hold the power.' and I always thought, "Why must violence rule our hearts, why not love?'" Eren said.
"That's where those scars are from?" Levi found himself asking. Eren gave him a startled look that softened into realization. He gave a flirtatious smile to Levi, and Levi found himself blushing slightly and then scowling at himself.
"You saw those, hmm?" he asked jokingly, then suddenly becoming serious. "I have to admit that yes, they are because of Cronus and his cult. When I grew older though,one day instead of just taking it like I always had, I just snapped. I don't really remember it all that well, however, when my vision cleared I was standing in the midst of their bruised and broken bodies and all the older titans were staring at me. My brother quickly grabbed me and pulled me to our rooms where he made me bathe and change. They were okay, being immortal has it's perks we heal very quickly and almost nothing can truly kill us. They left me alone after that though, and so did many of the others."
Levi looked at the man as he stood, still in tattered pants and without a shirt. His tea-green eyes so bright though holding so many years of pain. Levi stood and approached him as he stumbled slightly and winced with pain. He caught the taller man when he began to fall.
"Thanks Levi, I just thought that I am being a horrid host, you need breakfast. It's early in the morning, I'll start again after we've all had something to eat." Eren said.
"Where's the kitchen Eren, I'll make food for us all." Levi said softly.
"As you have experienced, this place isn't the safest to wander. Especially for a mortal being, such as yourself."
"How did the child get in then?" Erwin asked.
"Don't be foolish, Mikasa's not mortal. She is the offspring of Athena and an Elven man. They live at the bottom of the mountain, just outside of the village. The meadow behind their house is as far as I can go, I met with Athena there after she gave birth to Mikasa and gave her to her father Gideon. She told me to watch over her and make sure no harm came to either of them, and of course I agreed. She was the daughter of Metis, she secretly saved her from forever residing inside of Zeus. Bringing her as a fly hidden in her armor was smart thinking."
"So this is a God's child? She doesn't look so terrifying." Erwin said as he looked over Mikasa skeptically.
"She is indeed. I did not truly believe it at first either, she never seemed to notice my presence in her life over the years. Never a curious glance or an awkward question to her father about the man in the meadow. I watched her father marry a woman from the town and have another child with her. I watched as she slowly became an outsider in her own home as her father tried to forget the God she came from. Then one day as I sat in the meadow and read a book she found me, she asked me what I was reading and who I was. She asked about the chains I wore and then she finally asked me why I had always watched but never spoke to her." Eren explained after Armin murmured he would get breakfast for everyone.
Levi helped Eren to a high backed chair and Mikasa crawled from her seat and into the injured man's lap. Levi frowned and opened his mouth to tell her to get off of him, but didn't as Eren waved it off. He carded fingers through the girl's hair and she stuck a thumb in her mouth as she slumped against his side. Levi finally began to wonder about her age, she couldn't be older than seven but had to be older than four.
"How old are you Mikasa?" Levi asked gently.
"I'm five and three-quarters." she answered.
"Does your father know that you always come to visit Eren?"
"My father doesn't care what I do. Maria tells me I'm a waste of space and not worthy to live in the same house as my baby brother."
Levi looked at Eren and saw the anger in his eyes as he gripped the chains holding him to this place. He looked at the girl in the Titan mans lap and how unafraid she was of the raw anger the man emitted.
"Mikasa, you are always welcome to just stay here you know." Eren whispered.
"I have to see the world for both of us until you can come with me." She whispered back.
Eren sighed and the door opened to reveal Armin with a cart of food. The door closed behind him without anybody touching it. Levi noticed that he had a separate plate prepared that was on the second shelf of the cart. It had cheese and fruit along with bread, he brought it to Eren along with another goblet of wine. Eren softly pushed Mikasa off his lap and towards the cart, where bacon, sausage, waffles, pancakes, and other breakfast items were. Eren noticed the look Levi gave him and shrugged.
"I have never been comfortable with eating meats. Even though I have always known it was necessary for my creations to eat animals, I couldn't get passed the realization that it was once alive. Breathing and experiencing life just like I am in this moment. I also find that eating meat make me less of who I am, it was all I ate at the time I was on a rampage., I have also found that I am less than who I really am if I eat meat."
"Less of who you are?" Erwin asked.
"Yes, I am more cruel and unforgiving. I believe that is a reason why so many of the other Titans were horrid. My brother and I never really ate meat as children, because my brother became sick after consuming it."
"So if I stuffed a piece of sausage in your mouth, would you go crazy and kill us all?" Erwin asked hypothetically.
"Not immediately. I would become sick first, that's one thing my brother and I have in common. The sickness that would consume me is some scary shit though. I ate meat once as a child and became sick, I went from healthy to anorexic in a matter of days. That's when I first met Amaltheia, Epimetheus took me to her and though she complained, she took care of me. My stomach was emptied of meat and she made me drink horrid concoctions. Then when I became better, I grew worse. I was violent and a terror to the island as a child." Eren explained as they ate. Mikasa sitting in his lap once again. "Later in my life I was forced to eat meat at a banquet held by Uranus. It would've been considered an insult to his hospitality if I didn't. So immediately after it ended I went to Amaltheia and she fixed me up as quickly as she could, though it didn't help with my after effects. I moved onto a desolate island to avoid hurting anyone before my mind was taken over again."
Levi swatted Erwin when he opened his mouth to ask Eren another question, and, after one of Levi's more nasty glares, he shut up and ate. They became quiet, only sounds being their chewing of the rich food. Levi watched as Eren wiped Mikasa's face with a napkin and her slight fight was useless against the Titan along with the sleep overtaking her. Eren handed the plates to Armin and stood, carrying Mikasa to one of the plush couches. He placed her on it then lifted a hand and in an eye blink a plush pillow was in his grasp, he did it again and a fluffy cover appeared. He made her comfortable as she slept and kissed her forehead before he went back to his chair. Armin handed him a turquoise dress shirt and new black pants and he put the shirt on then went into the rooms shadows to change into the pants.
When he returned he looked just as beautiful as the day before when Levi first laid eyes on him. Levi then realized that this man would forever be beautiful, just like the child sleeping on the couch and the boy serving him tea at the moment. They would stay young and beautiful while Erwin and him would grow old and eventually die. However, Levi envied them he couldn't possibly think to live for centuries and watching people die all around him day in and day out.
"You just realized it, right?" Eren whispered from his station at the fireplace.
"Realized what?" Erwin asked.
Eren's eyes met with Levi as he turned his back on the fire. They held knowledge in them but in their pits was an indescribable sadness that Levi couldn't fathom.
"You realize that immortality is a lonely thing. That without knowing that someone will absolutely be by your side for your entire life and share in the discoveries you make. That life itself becomes meaningless. That you will forever be trapped in a pit alone and afraid. That the rules of this universe will one day catch up to you and you will eventually die, not peacefully either, no, it will be bloody and painful. That is why I gave my creations short lifespans, so they can love and experience life then die peacefully. Not like I will one day, maybe even soon." He whispered into the now silent room.
