Hey! I'm so excited---it's unreal. I'm going to the REDJUMPSUITAPPARATUS concert tomorrow night with Ally, Judy, and Emily. OMG----ahh. Other than that---here is the 4th chapter in the story. Please review it. I'll love you forever and ever! iloveyouguys---julia

---Chapter 4 "I've Gotta Find You"

"He's real Katie. I'm telling you—he's VERY real. It wasn't just some crazy thing that I dreamed up in my head." I told Katie as we walked down the hall together to my locker. "Sure he is. I just can't believe you didn't get his number or something if he's Mr. Perfect. You should have, you know." She replied to me.

"I didn't have time to do that! My mom interrupted us after he walked me home." I told her, looking in front of us.

Then, suddenly, I saw Zack across the hall, talking to a guy that looked exactly like him, his twin obviously and a couple of other guys too. I gasped, causing Katie to say, "What? In such shock there Ms. Lovey Dovey over Zack?" I ran behind her, trying to hide from him.

"No! He's right over there!" I yelled to her, trying my best to whisper, to make my hiding better not to recognize. "Which one is he? The one in the blue shirt?" She said, startled from me being behind her hiding, and trying her best to find him in the crowd.

I looked over her shoulder to see who was in the blue shirt. It wasn't him. It was his twin, I could tell. "No, he's the one in the orange one." I said, seeing him turn around and walk toward us.

She looked shocked. "Whoa, you weren't kidding. He's hot." She said, looking over her shoulder at my nervous face. I flicked the back of her head with my finger. "Back off. I told you he was real." I said, as she said, "Owww! Hey, watch it!"

We both laughed and then walked as soon as the coast was clear. He had walked down the hallway, and he wouldn't see me. But, somehow in my heart, I regret not letting him find me. I sorta wish he did…

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I looked around my school for her all day today. I didn't find her anywhere. I guess she doesn't go to my junior high. But, I thought I would give it a shot. I just want to see her again, SO much. It's like I miss her sort of. I can't explain how I feel, but it's like that. I miss her. "So, have you found that chick you were looking for yet?" Cody asked me as we walked down the hall. I can't believe he called her a "chick".

"She's not just some chick alright? She was… REAL. I don't know how, but she was just so different than everyone else around here." I replied, almost yelling at first, but then softening my voice.

"But why are you going to all this trouble to find her? I mean, looking for her in the halls at school, and on the street this morning you stopped a lady with a walker and asked if she knew her." He said, as we walked down the crowded hall.

"It's just because…I mean…well…" I said, struggling for the right words to say to my brother, because I mean, we were in public you know. He looked at me in this weird way, and then said, "Well? What? What's she like Zack? Why do you want to find her so badly?"

I sighed and then said, "Well, because she's real, like I said before. What she and I had was…I don't know. But, we had something, that's for sure. I just can't let something like that go, you know?" I told him, hoping that nobody in the halls had heard me talking about her.

Cody smiled slightly, and then said, "Ok Zack, I hope you find her. Good luck. I mean that—sincerely." I smiled and then said, "Thanks. I really hope it all works out too." We both walked in separate directions down the hall, and I was still hoping to find Marissa SOMEWHERE…