Hey, I'm back with another chapter for y'all! This chapter is the ever beloved Dock Scene in book number four. But did you ever wonder what would have happened if Fang hadn't let Max run away after he kissed her? It's an unanswered question...Until now of course!!
This is another in Fangs POV. Sorry if you all get sick of it, it's just I love writing the book from another angle. I think it's more interesting to hear what the quietest flock member has to say, don't you?
... (Fangs POV!!)
"...Cause we're shallow and self serving?" She said, and I could practically hear the hope in her voice thinking that I would just let it go. But I wasn't just going to give up that easily. I rolled my eyes and took her hand in mine.
It felt so weird feeling her hand. It was so soft, not at all like the Max you would normally see. She seemed so tough, like she could take on the world all by herself, which if you think about it, she kind of is, but just add me and the flock in there too! Anyways, she always seemed so hard, you would never guess that she was really so soft, and I noticed she was kind of small too, as I compared our hand sizes. Mine was much larger and tougher, covered in previous scars from all the battles we'd faced throughout our horrible lives, but you would never guess such a strong girl could seem this soft, this fragile.
"You're..." I started, and struggled for the right words. What was I going to tell her? She was so beautiful, and sometimes so very sweet. I could practically tell that she already liked me too, but she always had to be so stubborn! Why couldn't she just let us talk normally about feelings and stuff?
I mean, I know I'm not the kind of guy who could just talk about his feelings like that, but we had to at least try. Things had been really weird since that night in the cave when she flew away. That I still don't understand to this day, but anyways, I'm not gunna rant about that right now. But like I was saying, ever since we kissed, it felt kind of weird. She wasn't as great around me and now the flocks back together; she seems so much more different towards me. We used to be so close, but I can still feel us drifting apart, if only by a very small amount.
"You're..." I remember saying, so I decided to carry on with the easiest "...such a pain!"
"What?!" I heard her ask incredulously. Before I knew what I was doing, my face quickly swooped down to attach her lips to mine. I could feel her trying to move away to speak, so I put a hand on the back of her neck and pressed my face closer, if it was possible, to hers.
I still remember the first time she kissed me, about a month or so back. It was on the beach and she thought I was dying. She quickly got away from me embarrassed, and not another word was spoken about it. Then when I had kissed her at the cave, and she's flown away, it left me wanting more out of the kiss.
Out of the two, make it now three, times that we've kissed, she's never responded. My brain started to churn around when I began to wonder if maybe I could make her respond in some way. I remembered when we had been staying at Anne Walker's house, and that girl Lissa had thrown herself at me. She kept tilting her head around, making me want to kiss her more. Maybe I could try that with Max...
Still kissing her, I could feel her distractedly trying to think of something else. I moved away slightly, only to tilt my head and throw myself back into the kiss a little more exuberantly than before.
She seemed to notice the kiss more this time, and I could feel her slightly return out kiss. I wrapped my arms around her, my hands sliding flat along her back, to just under her wings. I think that might have been a wake up call for her, because her lips suddenly stopped moving against mine, and she pulled back gasping for air.
"I, uh –," she began, before trying to leap up. She was going to try and run, well, fly, away again. I couldn't let her keep doing this. My arms unravelled from around her but I gripped her wrists tight to make her sit still, my face still very close to hers.
"Max, please don't run away. Please" I said, almost begging her. She wouldn't look at my face, but she sat still now, not attempting to get up and run away. I kept staring at her for a moment, watching her as she looked out amongst the sea, determined to look at anything she could so as not to look at me. That was about as much as I could bear.
My hands crept forwards and I placed my palms on each of her cheeks. She seemed to stiffen slightly and I felt my heart twist around in my stomach, though I was careful not to portray anything on my face. Keeping me hands pressed against her cheeks, I slowly brought her face around to look at mine. This time she couldn't look away. My eyes captured her sweet chocolate brown ones with such intensity that she seemed to not even be able to give herself a second to look away. I kept my gaze and began to whisper to her.
"Max...What's wrong? Why do you run away, every time I try to kiss you?" I whispered, our head very close together, when I could feel her trying to turn her head away. I held my hands tighter against her face so she couldn't, and kept looking at her.
I watched as her eyes filled and as she blinked, a tear escaped and rolled down her cheek. It was enough to make my heart break, to see my angel cry. But I kept her face towards mine as I moved my thumb across to wipe away the tear that had escaped, and used the other hand to capture the one that was about to fall.
"Tell me, why do you run?" I said again, more urgently this time. Her eyes flickered down and I could tell she was trying to tell me something, but couldn't word it right. "You can tell me, whatever it is!" I encouraged and she nodded. Well, I say nodded, but I could only feel her trying to nod as I was holding her so tightly.
"I was...I am...scared. I mean, every time we do kiss, it could lead up to something of a relationship. And then we have to tell the flock. But what if something happened or we didn't want to be together, it could break up the flock again, and I couldn't make them go through that again. I don't want to go through that again. It hurt so bad the last time, that I swear if anything like that happens again..." she trailed off and I looked into her eyes.
"Max, I love you. I'll always love you and always look after you, and the flock. I couldn't split us up ever again, even if something did happen between us, which wouldn't happen anyways" I said, and her eyes glistened again, but were half filled with hope as well as tears. "I mean, I'm not asking for the whole like, eternal togetherness as such, just, boyfriend and girlfriend doesn't seem that bad, does it?" I asked and she smiled slightly, and brushed away her tears.
"I suppose not" she said, with a smile in her voice. I smiled back and kissed her lips roughly, before kissing down to her collarbone and back up, continuing a good three times before she was even able to catch her breath.
"So Max, will you be my girlfriend?" I looked her deep in the eyes and pressed our foreheads together, making sure when I breathed, I could breathe in her breath, and the same going for her. She seemed to be at loss of breath again, so she just nodded, taking my head with her. I chuckled silently and leant closer to her. And for the first time in my life, Maximum Ride leaned forward and kissed me. I know you're thinking that this wasn't the first time she kissed me, but you have to believe me. If you compared what kissing she was doing to me now, and what she did back then, you certainly would have called that a kiss. I'll leave you with that thought...
Okay, I'll leave you with that 'cause I think it's time I got off the computer as I've been on here all night. So enjoy this next chapter and please review! I'm getting stuck for ideas now and would really love it if people can recommend what chapters they want me to do next! Thanks!
