Author's Note: Okay guys so I promised you a longer chapter in my last update, and sorry if you guys felt like I left you hanging in the last chapter. I hope this chapter makes up for it. Let's figure out what our little Jamie will say shall we? - Live it Big Time CrazyMary01
Chapter 4 James' P.O.V
"Well I am James. I am extremely gay. I want dick not pussy. So until you can hook me up with a guy count me out. I will say it once more. I am gay." My jaw dropped and I stared at my best friend shocked. That wasn't the confession I was looking for. I was just looking for him to tell me the truth, and say I turn him on.
How else would he have gotten a hard on, and then moaned my name in the shower as he jerked off. Call me a weirdo but I actually watched as he did it.
I heard Kendall moaning in the shower. He must really be sexually frustrated to get so many boners every day. I mean from how tight his pants are how can you not notice the budges he tries so desperately to hide. I cracked the door slightly only to be greeted with the sight of Kendall's hand fisted around his cock. Damn he was huge. I couldn't take my eyes away from the sight but then his moans started getting louder, and I realized my pants had suddenly gotten tighter in my crotch. There's no way you can be turned on by your best friend. I turned to leave shutting the bathroom door.
That's when I heard something that made my dick twitch even more with interest.
"James" Kendall moaned. A brilliant plan had been forming in my head. If I could get Kendall to confess that I turned him on first I wouldn't have to feel so weird about the sight of Kendall jerking off making me all hot and bothered. I left the room. It was time to let Kendall sleep for my plan to be put in action.
"Um let's go to sleep." I said slipping into my own bed. Looks like I would have to come up with a new plan for him to admit he liked me first.
Kendall's P.O.V
"Um let's go to sleep." James said. He got off my bed and crawled back into his own. I felt tears sting my eyes as I listened to his breathing become more and more even by the second. I couldn't hold back the tears any longer, and the dams broke. I tried to be quiet. However it was hard when it only made you feel worse that you were crying over something you knew was going to happen.
I knew James wasn't gay, and that if I told him I was he would hate me. However even after telling myself that many a times it hurt to know that now it's actually happened. After all he wasn't just my secret crush. He was my best friend. We've been through so much together it was hard to just accept that from here on out I would probably be dead to him.
James' P.O.V
I woke up the next morning to see Kendall still sound asleep. While I was sleeping I had a dream. A wonderful one at that. It had been me and Kendall alone. I was teasing him. I was slowly stripping and smiling as I watched his eyes take my body in. I had woken up with a brilliant plan. I called it operation tease.
It was actually fairly simple. I would just be showing my aversion of clothing more than usual. At least while Kendall was around.
I wasn't going to be completely naked but I definitely wasn't going to leave my wash board abs covered for more than ten minutes, and my legs wouldn't exactly be covered either. Who knows maybe I'll walk around in boxer briefs just for the hell of it. However in order for my plan to begin this morning I had to work up a sweat.
Kendall's P.O.V
I woke up the next morning not fully remembering when I had stopped crying, and fallen asleep. I looked over to the bed across from me to see that James was not there. Wasn't that a blessing? I wasn't ready to face him as soon as I woke up. I walked out of my bedroom, and heard Carlos singing at the top of his lungs in the shower. I smelt my mom cooking in the kitchen. So nothing was out of the ordinary.
"Smells good mom." I said as I walked into the kitchen
"Thank-" she turned around to face me and stopped short. I knew she could tell that I had cried the night before. Hardly anything got passed my mom. She could even tell I was sick before I knew I was going to throw up. "Honey what's wrong. Were you crying last night?' he brow eyes flashed concern
There was no sense in lying. As I said before, hardly anything gets passed my mom
"Yes." I admitted.
"About what, tell mommy what's on your mind." What was I supposed to say? Mom I'm gay, told James last night. He may hate me, and hey now you do to. Of course not, so instead I went with a safer term.
"I'll tell you latter." She gave me a half smile then returned to making breakfast. I went into the living room wanting to watch some T.V before eating my mom's amazing cooking. Only to be greeted by the sight of James sitting on the couch in his shorts hot, and sweaty from his morning run. No surprise my pants instantly got tighter. Could my life get any worse?
"Hey Kendall wipe the drool off." James laughed. And shot me a smile. I quickly turned and walked away from him. Everything just needed to stop. Everything needed to be gone. He may not hate me now, and that's good I guess. However I needed to stay away from him nevertheless. I was sick of this. I wanted to able to hang out with my friends without feeling awkward because James has such a huge effect on me physically and emotionally.
Everything needed to stop. The sad part was the only way I knew it would end was by avoiding him.
Ending Note: So sorry it took me a while to update. School has been crazy. Be sure to review.- Live it Big Time CrazyMary01