Okay, just a warning I may have forgotten to mention; there will be self harm and self abuse. I meant to add that to my summary but I completely forget.
I sat in the bathroom to cry for about a half hour before I glanced up and looked around. His bathroom was very childish; rubber duckies, pink bunnies on his shower curtain and for his soap. I scoffed slightly and stood up, about to leave when I saw his razor. Thoughts began rushing in my head and I shook a bit. I found myself grabbing it and investigating it. I ran my finger over the blade then froze. He had a razor in his bathroom. Not the shaving kind. I unlocked the door and Ryuichi was standing there with a fist up and his eyes wide open. His eyes fell to the razor in my hand and he started to cry.
"I-I'm sorry!" he sobbed. I blinked in surprise as he fell to his knees crying. I knelt to him to wrapped my arms around him and he cried bitterly. "I'm sorry..." "Shh Ryu-kun..." I whispered gently. He gripped my shirt as he cried and I glanced at the razor in my hand. I closed my eyes and held him until he fell quiet. "Why didn't you tell me you-" I started to ask when he pressed his lips to mine. He was kissing me deeply and I started kissing back with red cheeks. He looked up at me sadly and sighed.
"Shuichi loved Yuki. And it hurt because Shuichi got hurt. Hurt, hurt, used, hurt, ignored. I didn't like seeing Shuichi get hurt...it hurt..." he sobbed; wiping his crying eyes. I sat there silently and he stared at me in pain. "S-so every time I saw a bruise...I got a line..." I grabbed his head in my hands (being careful because I still had the razor) and I kissed him deeply. "Ryu-kun; I'm not being hurt anymore..." "Shuichi's lying...there's a bruise on his wrist..."
I gasped and pulled away; staring at it. Yuki must've bruised me when he grabbed me! Ryuichi stood up, completely hurt. "Did...did Shuichi go back to Yuki...? Does Shuichi like being hurt...?" he asked in a painful voice. I started tearing up and shook my head like mad. "No! I didn't go back; he followed me and I-" "Shuichi...saw Yuki...?" "He grabbed me! I told him to let go, pushed him away for you and I-" Ryuichi's face went from hurt to emotionless and I lost my voice. I stared at him and he scoffed. "Yuki...Yuki Yuki Yuki...I'm so tired of Yuki..." he muttered as he walked out of the house. I stared silently after him and felt tears well up. "Damn it...Yuki..." I sobbed faintly. I stared at the razor and shook my head. "N-no! I'm not gonna..." I stared at it and I felt the tears in my eyes roll down. "But I...I hurt Ryu-kun..." I whispered hurtfully. "I hurt Yuki...Yuki...Yuki, I..." my voice faded away and I slammed my eyes shut.
I don't remember what happened next, except for opening my eyes in Ryuichi's bedroom. I couldn't see Ryuichi anywhere and I sat up slowly; both wrists in immense pain and only then did I realize what I did. "No!" I screamed, staring at them. "No! I-I didn't want-nooo! I burst into tears and painfully gripped my head. I heard someone enter the room but ignored it; heart broken over what I did. I couldn't bear to bring my head up, to look Ryuichi in the eyes. I couldn't do it!
"You damn brat..." Yuki's voice said softly. I froze completely and slowly raised my head up. Yuki was staring at me with slight tears in his eyes and my heart stopped. He sipped his tea with shaking hands and sat by me. "Ryuichi called me...he wanted to confront me but when I showed up he couldn't speak...he was crying over you...you damn brat; do you realize what you've done...?" he started to sob. Yuki was...crying. "Yu...ki...?" I breathed. I couldn't believe he was here with me. He stared at me with tears rolling down and I started crying again. I threw my arms around him and his snaked around my waist and we cried together.
"Is Shuichi gonna get better...?" Ryuichi asked from the doorway. I looked over at him and opened my arms (while still hugging Yuki and he began blinking in confusion. "Come here...I need a hug..." I whimpered and Ryuichi joined the hug. Surprisingly; Yuki held us both and everyone started crying. When Yuki let go of us we all let go and they both grabbed one of my hands; gently massaging above my wrists. I closed my eyes to stop the next river of tears. I was sitting with both the men in my life and I couldn't bring myself to look up any longer. My heart ached. I didn't know who I loved more...
Allllllright! Time for another contest (because it's been a while) so tell me; who do you think Shuichi will end up with? Who will be his White Knight? You have until Saturday, 10am US/CDN Central Time!
Those who guess correctly will get a fanfic written just for them. The loser(s?) will be receiving kisses from Ryuichi and Shuichi. Have fun!
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