Merry Christmas everybody! I love you all so much and I hope everyone has a blessed holiday with their families! I hope you all get to wish on the brightest stars, dance with the sugarplum fairies, play with some nutcrackers, and rock around the Christmas tree! Enjoy the magic!

Kendall sat at his window, watching snowflakes flutter to the ground to join the thick layer of sparkling snow that already covered the ground. It was a winter wonderland out there right now, and he was stuck inside his stuffy house. He loved his house, and he loved hearing his mom singing in the kitchen while she baked loads of Christmas cookies. But his friends were out there, probably having snowball fights in the parking lot or riding the carousel at the mall and doing Christmas stuff, all without him.

Kendall sniffled and wiped a tear away. He was having weird thoughts all of a sudden. He was afraid that they didn't even want him to join them on Christmas, or that he was ruining their Christmas. He wouldn't be able to take the guilt of ruining their Christmas, especially after they were forced to put the band and touring on hold just so he could get better.

It made no sense that he was so upset right now. After all, he was supposed to be so cool and confident. He never sat on a pity pot like this, or worried about his friends hating him for stupid reasons. But the only reason why he was always so confident was only for Logan, James and Carlos. And since they were off having fun at the mall, Kendall allowed himself to crawl into his bed, pull the covers over his head, and cry.

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"Ugh!" Carlos cried in frustration, kicking a mechanical elf right in what would be his mechanical nuts, if elves were anatomically correct that is. Logan stared at the Latino, half amused and half alarmed, from where he was perched on a bench, sipping on a peppermint mocha.

"Carlos, what was that about?" The pale boy asked dully. He took another sip of his drink and tossed it to the trashcan, finding the normally creamy and delicious drink to be tasteless right now. The cup bounced off the side of the trash can and landed on the floor, resulting in the lid popping off of the cup and causing steaming chocolate to pour all over the marble flooring. A sea of people glanced at Logan distastefully and stepped around the mess, and Logan sighed. There was a reason why he never played basketball.

"I'm mad," Carlos replied, watching the elf's movement's stutter for a moment from the abuse before resuming his high-pitched caroling.

"You're not mad, 'Litos. You're sad," Logan said. "Don't worry, I feel the same way." The mall just was not the same this year. They were surrounded by cheery, healthy shoppers. All of the red twinkling lights looked dim. The Christmas songs blaring through the speakers were annoying. Carlos hadn't even wanted to walk through Santa's toyland or ride the little train or even the carousel. They simply weren't in a Christmas mood, because they missed Kendall so much it hurt.

"I miss him," Carlos said, giving up on trying to maim the poor elf. He plopped down next to Logan and put his head on the taller boy's shoulder. Logan wrinkled his nose and rolled his eyes, but decided to ignore the creeped-out stares of passerby and let the Latino stay there.

"Me too 'Litos," Logan whispered.

'Where's James? He's been shopping for hours," Carlos complained. He was, for the first time in his life, sick of the mall. He wanted to go home now.

"I'm right here!" James shouted, practically skipping over to them with his hands full of festive-looking bags. "What are you guys doing just sitting here? Shouldn't you be shopping? This place is filled with last minute deals!"

"We're not really in the mood," Logan said sadly, and the smart boy could literally see the excitement draining out of James' twinkling eyes. He felt bad to crush James' spirit but the mall wasn't half as much fun as they thought it was going to be.

"You guys aren't still pouting because of Kendall, are you?" James asked, lodging his lanky body between the 2 littler boys.

"Maybe," Carlos said. James sighed and set his bags down. He hated seeing his little buddies in such a rotten mood.

"Why? I mean, I know it really sucks not having him here but do you really think Kendall wants us to mope around this whole time? We aren't the sick one. We can enjoy all of this. And yeah, it's not fair that Kendall can't but we should take advantage of it for him, shouldn't we? Besides, we are supposed to be shopping! Kendall deserves like, a million presents and so far I only have…" James peered into his bags and started mock-counting. "4...6…13…I only have like 15 so far, I need some help." James looked at his younger friends with huge puppy-dog eyes, making them smile at his endearing little speech.

"We know, it's just hard," Carlos said. "Nothing is fun anymore. Every time I look at something, I think of Kendall. Kendall would have begged us to go on the bungee trampoline jump with him, and the rock climbing wall. He would've helped me beat up that stupid elf, and made me talk to that really hot girl over there that keeps staring at me."

"What girl?" Logan asked, turning around in the direction that Carlos was staring longingly in. "Oh. She's hot."

"Wait, what?" James asked, following their eyes to see a brunette in a red plaid shirt and dark-wash skinny jeans. "If you don't want her Carlos, she's mine!"

"She's nobody's!" Logan scolded, grabbing James' shirt and pulling him back to the bench. "We are here for Kendall, remember guys?"

"Oh right, my uplifting speech," James said, regaining his concentration. "Cheer up guys, we even met Santa! Kendall is going to love this picture!"

Carlos and Logan couldn't help but crack up when James pulled out the photo of all 3 grown boys piled on top of Santa's lap. While they were all grinning wildly and holding on to Santa's beard and hat to keep from sliding off, Santa was cringing in pain.

"That's classic," Logan said, wiping away a tear of laughter from his eyes. "I just want to see Kendall laugh again, you know? It's been so long since I have really heard him laugh. I miss it. I want him to come back."

"What do you mean?" James said, sliding the picture into his pocket.

"The Kendall before he got sick," Carlos said, answering for Logan. "It's almost hard to remember that Kendall. It seemed like a lifetime ago. But he was always so crazy and lively. He laughed all the time and argued with Gustavo. Now he barely even talks."

"Well, we won't have to worry about it anymore because this will get him smiling and laughing again," James said confidently. "He's going to be opening presents all day. Now let's go shopping." James hauled the small boys to their feet and dragged them to store after store, trying to find the perfect gifts for Kendall. They didn't stop until the mall closed, and when they were finished they were up to at least 30 awesome presents.

"I can't wait for Kendall to see all these presents," Carlos said with a yawn, looking at the bags of goodies beside him. He was so anxious to see the blondes face when he saw the amazing stuff they found him at the giant mall.

They rushed home best they could on the snowy streets. They left the gifts in the car for Mrs. Knight to wrap later and burst through the front door.

"I'm home!" Carlos yelled, and Mrs. Knight shushed him from where she was knitting on the couch.

"Kendall is sleeping baby, hush up," the mother said quietly from beside Kendall's lax body. She rubbed his shoulder and adjusted his blankets lovingly.

"He's sleeping?" James asked, running into the house so quickly he bashed into Carlos, sending the shorter boy stumbling forward. "It's only 9 0' clock."

"Yeah, he's not feeling so good," Mrs. Knight said, putting down her project so she could stroke his blonde hair. "He spent all day just lying by the tree pretty much. He loves this tree so much, boys. He kept staring at it, couldn't take his eyes off of it."

Carlos, Logan and James smiled sadly. Kendall looked peaceful, but his pink lips were tugged down into an upsetting frown and his cheeks were flushed. Something was bothering the blonde, even in his sleep. They were so excited to tell him about their day and show him pictures of them with Santa, but now they were just worried.

"Come on guys, let's get those presents and wrap them up for Kendall while he's asleep," James said. He finally got his friends happy and now they were sullen again. It was getting frustrating.

The boys nodded and reluctantly left Kendall for the car. Mrs. Knight gave James a sympathetic look and the brunette sighed and gave a small smile. He was tired of being depressed, and he knew Kendall was counting on him to be upbeat and keep the younger boys occupied, so he turned on his heel and bounced out the door to spread some Christmas cheer.

A/N Ok what the heck was that ending lol? Sorry about that I have to go party with my family. At Buffalo Wild Wings. Lol I have a crazy family. Sorry this was so short, I just really wanted something for you guys to read on Christmas Eve! Does anybody else love the mall at Christmastime? The bungee trampoline jumping is the best! And when Logan bounced the cup off the trash, lol I do that all the time.

Please review they are… Well the most amazing presents ever! Merry Christmas, loves!