Chapter Four

Light flinched as the hand landed on his head, and glanced up fearfully at Beyond.

"I'm sorry I-" Light began, but was interrupted by Beyond.

"I am not angry, I am disappointed," Beyond said quietly, "You felt you could not ask me about such things so you had to sneak about at night? You should know by now that I don't get angry with you for asking questions."

"I'm sorry," Light replied and realised he truly meant it, this new information had changed everything hadn't it? "I just… Thank you for not telling them, thank you."

Beyond was startled then as Light's crying increased and he shifted closer to Beyond and almost hugged him. He sighed and wrapped his arms around Light, if he had known telling Light this information would have this effect he would have done it sooner, but perhaps Light had needed to find out for himself.

"You are thanking me?" Beyond asked, wanting more of an explanation to such startling events.

"You let my family believe I was innocent, and spent so much time convincing them I had merely run off somewhere," Light whispered, "why are you doing so much?"

"Because just like L I was curious as to whether Light Yagami still remained under that Kira exterior," Beyond explained, "it seems he does."

"What?" Light gasped, his grip tightening on Beyond's shirt, almost as if he was using Beyond's presence to remain somewhat grounded.

"Light, you would never have thanked me for such things when you first arrived here. Particularly as you now know that your entire life has been erased," Beyond replied, a hand rising to brush through Light's hair. "You are not as Kira as you once were."

Despite himself Light couldn't help laughing slightly at Beyond's words.

"See, you are even laughing at my poor humour now," Beyond added smiling, "lets get you back to bed, you will have a long day tomorrow."

"…" Light's face suddenly looked up at him in apprehension.

"You still used a computer without permission and didn't tell me what had been bothering you," Beyond replied, "just because I wasn't angry doesn't mean you won't be punished."

Light tried to glare up at Beyond, but he didn't have the strength and he leant against Beyond once more. He didn't resist as he was coaxed up onto his feet and back along the corridor. He walked sheepishly next to Beyond and was very grateful they didn't meet L on their way back. He didn't want to have to explain the tear tracks still visible on his face.

Light held onto Beyond's arm as he made to leave him alone in his bedroom once more.

"What are you going to do to me tomorrow?" Light asked, and flinched as he saw Beyond's face darken. Beyond's anger was palpable.

"Do to you?" Beyond whispered bringing his face close to Light's, "Have I ever hit you since your first day here? What makes you think I would do anything to you because of what you did tonight?"

Light swallowed and backed away as he shook his head, falling backwards onto the bed. Beyond followed him down and towered over him, he looked so angry now.

"I have tried so hard to be fair to you Kira," Beyond hissed, "even though I hated everything about what you had done, and the way you did it; and why? Because I thought underneath all that evil there was someone worth saving, someone who would be worth being around. You disappointed me tonight, but now you have angered me! Do you really always think the worst of people? No wonder you look down on everyone."

Light flinched and fell sideways onto the bed; his fear drained from his face and was replaced with simple exhaustion.

"How could I not think the worst when you become angry so quickly... You scare me," Light whispered, shrinking in on himself, he hated being this weak, hated admitting these things. Doing so to Beyond only made things worse, "Despite you saying that I can ask questions, or request things; the times you get angry at me are so unpredictable. And you have threatened me with some very severe punishments; I don't know what I can say. I'm tired of worrying about whether what I say will be alright or not. Punish me for this if you will, I just don't care anymore. As I found out tonight, there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop any of this."

Beyond sank down onto the bed and stared down at Light thoughtfully. It seemed Light's mental state was beginning to either break up, or Light was about to become completely enclosed in his mind. Beyond hadn't realised Light had been under this much stress. Perhaps it was time for him to reveal some information about himself, perhaps it was time to level the playing field somewhat.

"Light I was lying," Beyond sighed, "those threats were the only way I had to keep you under control. You are so wilful that it was the only way, I didn't want to have to physically harm you, but I knew the threat would be enough."

Light's face jerked round to look at Beyond, he looked vaguely hopeful and very surprised.

"Do you really think L would ever have let me do things like that to you?" Beyond added, "you were so caught up in yourself you can't really have thought about it properly. Even if I had wanted to I never would have been able to."

Light slowly sat up and shifted slightly closer to Beyond, he was staring at Beyond with an intensity Beyond hadn't seen in him before.

"Shall I tell you a little about myself Light?" Beyond murmured, looking down at Light, "I have murdered people too, but unlike you I used my bare hands. I thought I wasn't murdering them because their date of death was when I was killing them. It took L to show me where my reasoning was wrong. I wanted so much to surpass L that I forgot the basic things. Forgot just what being human meant."

Beyond smiled as he saw Light's gaze becoming much more stable, and yet that strange hope glimmered in their depths along with that fierce intensity. Beyond couldn't fathom why Light was looking at him so hopefully, but then there were always things about Light he couldn't fathom, that of course made him interesting. Light was so very interesting to him.

"I wanted to infuriate L so much that I set myself on fire," Beyond said, deciding to tell Light the whole story, he laughed quietly as he saw the shocked look on Light's face, "I wanted to give L a case he couldn't solve, and if that meant my death so be it; to my annoyance I was saved by L's operative on the case. I was forced to live, and to live with my crimes. However that did give me what L calls 'a chance at redemption', and now I have a chance to give that to you. Why would I hurt you? How would hurting you truly help that cause?"

"You did slap me several times on the first day here," Light commented softly, finally daring to say something, he was still looking at Beyond with the expression that so intrigued Beyond.

"That was Kira I was dealing with not you," Beyond replied, "I had to force you to admit to what you were, it was the only way to ensure your cooperation."

"You make it sound as though Kira is a separate entity."

"Light you are behaving completely differently than when you first arrived," Beyond said quietly, "let me ask you this; If I was to hand you the Death Note now what would you do with it?"

Light looked at Beyond in shock, was he being serious? Beyond stared back at him with his unfathomable black eyes; it seemed Beyond was being serious. Light gave it serious thought, but stopped as a hand suddenly landed on his head.

"If you even have to think about it," Beyond laughed, then you have proven my point."

"What happens now?" Light asked, leaning forward so his face was obscured from Beyond.

"I assume you mean your role here and our interactions?" Beyond said calmly, Light nodded slightly, "your role won't change, but I might go a little easier on you. I won't make any more empty threats, but I still expect obedience from you. After all do you think that what you did with the Death Note was right?"

From the sag of Light's shoulders it was obvious that he still did, but perhaps there was some doubt now in his mind.

"Light, answer me," Beyond ordered, some of the softness his voice had just had leaving it.

"I do," Light whispered, he sounded apprehensive.

"So now I hope you can understand just why I am not going to let you disobey me. You road to redemption is much longer than mine. Don't be scared of me any more though Light, I will punish you for mistakes, but you don't have to be permanently scared of me."

"Does that mean I can say what I want now?" Light said, "And do more of what I want?"

"As long as you don't insult me or anyone else yes," Beyond replied, then he thought for a second, "There is a limit to what I will let you do, no computer or other technology, not yet. Feel free to do what you want aside from that."

Silence descended for a moment as Light considered B's words, he wondered what he could get away with now… which was probably why he did what he did next, well one of the reasons why he did what he did next.

Light shifted closer and kissed Beyond briefly on the lips. He gasped as he was suddenly forced backwards and pinned to the bed. Light wondered why he had done something as stupid as kissing Beyond, it was one of the few things that Beyond would probably slap him for now. Yet he found he wanted to do it again, no matter what that might incur from Beyond.

Despite all that had happened he enjoyed Beyond's company and, even though he didn't have much experience in these matters he wanted more. Perhaps his time in confinement was affecting his brain he didn't know, but he didn't care. If Beyond's threats had been false then perhaps there was hope.

"If that was in jest…" Beyond muttered leaving the obvious conclusion hanging in mid air.

"It wasn't," Light whispered, "I am not stupid Beyond."

Light's eyes widened in shock as Beyond's mouth met his, his cry of surprise only helping Beyond plunder his mouth more easily. He responded with fervour fighting with Beyond for dominance every step of the way, until with a small noise of annoyance Beyond bit down slightly on Light's tongue. Light twisted his head away as he looked up at Beyond in shock.

"You bit me."

"I am never going to let you be dominant in anything, particularly not this," Beyond replied coolly, "I can leave now and we never discuss this again if you can't live with that."

Light looked to be giving this a great deal of consideration, but then he knew just how total Beyond would want his control; he had to deal with this in everything else in his daily life after all. He wondered how extending it here would be any different.

"I understand," Light whispered, he gasped slightly as Beyond smirked down at him before Beyond was kissing him once more. This time he gave in and let Beyond guide him in his movements and was rewarded with a deepening of the kiss while a hand suddenly began to traverse his body and learn his sensitive spots. Fingers running across Light's chest and grazing his nipples.

"I think I am extremely grateful you caught me breaking the rules tonight," Light gasped as Beyond finally pulled away, his hand still pressed against Light's chest.

"You won't be in the morning," Beyond replied.

"You are still going to punish me for it?" Light asked, he seemed surprised.

"I will always punish you if you do something I disapprove of," Beyond replied, "although in the future I may change my methods."

"I don't like the sound of that," Light said.

"I don't care," Beyond laughed, then he descended and began to kiss at Light's neck, his teeth gradually coming into play until Light's skin was covered in small bite marks and bruises. From the groans this elicited from Light he didn't seem to mind, or hadn't realised just how extensively Beyond had marked him. Beyond didn't know quite where this had come from, but to know how Light reacted to such attention interested him as much as Light's other actions. He wasn't sure he was capable of love, but he knew he was willing to try if he got to see more of Light this way.

Beyond smiled down at Light, and the glazed expression in Light's eyes, before pulling away and sitting at the end of the bed; he wondered if he was taking this too quickly. Knowing how emotionally distressed Light had been tonight, in the morning his reaction could be very different.

"Why did you stop?" Light asked, his hands rising to try and coax Beyond back down.

"I do not believe Light's answer," Beyond said quietly, "if you still feel the same way in the morning, then this can continue. However if that happens I am never going to give you another chance to back out. I do not want to rush Light into something that is merely a passing feeling."

"I do wa-" Light began sounding indignant at Beyond's disbelief, but Beyond covered his mouth with his hand.

"Consider this me being kind to you," Beyond laughed, "I don't do this often, so don't squander it. It's not often that I will give you time to think over a decision. In fact I don't think I have ever given it to you before. Now don't argue with me any more."

Light sighed and nodded before collapsing back onto the bed, he looked despondent.

"Light if this truly is your decision one night isn't that long to wait is it?" Beyond said calmly, "If you don't have patience I will only have to teach you patience. Believe me you don't want that."

"You can be so cruel," Light whispered.

"That is never going to change," Beyond said smiling as he stood up, "Either way you answer I will accept it. Now go to sleep Light."

As Beyond left Light wondered just what he should do now. He knew he wanted Beyond, but now he was able to think more rationally did he truly want Beyond when Beyond would have complete control. He didn't like giving Beyond control, particularly not in this; he was suddenly glad Beyond had given him time to think. However he wasn't sure he would be able to come to a decision.