Hello! Sorry this chapter came in late. I had a competition I had forgot all about and it took all my time. The next chapter will be on time, next Sunday. After that, I'm not sure if I'm able to update this story so often, the material for my exams is coming after two weeks and I just know I'll be too stressed out to focus on this. Actually, I'm already stressed out, a lot. So don't kill me if there's a six-week gap before my next post (chapter 6). Just that so you know, I'm not abandoning this fic, ever :)

NOTE: The first three chapters were re-written, so if you haven't read them already, please do so.

Chapter Four: How Do You Define Happiness?

Ciel moaned when a warm hand caressed his cheek gently. He leaned a bit against the warmth and tried to open his eye. The bright light made it sting and he hid himself under the soft blankets. The hand landed to ruffle his hair and he heard Sebastian chuckle.

"Rise and shine, sleeping beauty", Sebastian said and Ciel bolted up, his drowsiness disappearing immediately. "Did you sleep well?"

Ciel looked at the smirking man next to him and frowned. It was bright, so it was way beyond Ciel's usual waking time. The night had been pleasurable, but to imagine he slept so peacefully in an unfamiliar bed made no sense to him. He didn't sleep that well even in his own bed.

"What time is it?"

"Almost noon. I would have let you sleep longer but we have stuff to do", Sebastian said and winked his eye.

"Stuff like what?"

"That's a secret", Sebastian put his finger against his lips, smiling widely.

"Tell me", Ciel demanded but the man just shook his head and walked away. "Sebastian!" Ciel tried in vain to yell after the man even after the door shut close. Ciel rubbed his temples and let out a low growl. He hated secrets, really, really hated secrets. They were no good. Ciel had never understood people who loved surprise parties. What was the point on scaring the shit out of people only to party for a couple of hours? Did anyone ever think about the consequences? How the person would be afraid to open every door for the rest of his life. How was that a good thing?

Ciel slowly dragged himself out the bed and changed his clothes. Sebastian had picked some clothes to him, a clear blue shirt along with a white undershirt and black jeans, but Ciel ignored the clothes. They looked new and surely wasn't his. He had told Sebastian not to buy anything for him anymore, but the man just didn't listen.

He dressed to his own dull clothes and put the ring to his thumb. The blue rock welcomed him as the sun light hit it. Ciel had to admit, the ring was truly beautiful. It had been with him only for a day, but Ciel knew he didn't want to ever let it go. It was part of him now. One thing was unclear for Ciel though. Why was Sebastian so nice to him? It made no sense. Sebastian bought all kinds of things to him but didn't seem to want anything in return. Or was he just waiting for the right moment to fulfill his plan.

Ciel stopped for a second. It didn't sound right; Sebastian didn't act like he was hiding something. The previous night too, Sebastian had promised he wouldn't do anything, and he didn't. He acted just like he had said, fought to get Ciel's trust. Another part Ciel didn't understand. Why was it so important to make Ciel trust him? Only to eventually break his heart?

"Ah, stop it", Ciel groaned and rubbed his temples. He had to stop thinking so negatively. Not every men in the world were bad. He just had difficult times finding them.

Ciel walked to the kitchen and what greeted him was a full course meal set in the table. His mouth dropped open when he saw the fresh salad, steaming meat along potato mousse and freshly baked chocolate cake.

"I didn't know what you like so I hope meat is okay", Sebastian said as he set the table. "I would have cooked something more special but I hope this'll do."

Water rose to Ciel's tongue as he smelled the food and he could only nod. He sat down and Sebastian set a plate filled with food in front of him. Just by looking, Ciel could tell that the food would definitely be delicious. He noticed Sebastian look at him warily and took the first bite. The meat was like heaven, the texture soft enough he didn't even have to bite it. The potato mousse was creamy and tasted a bit like butter, yet was still very light. Ciel knew for certain this was the best dish he had ever had.

Ciel noticed Sebastian smile gently but focused on eating, never getting tired of the taste. Way too soon for his opinion, his plate was empty and he looked at the remaining piece of meat with a watering mouth.

"Feel tree to take more, I'm sure there's enough", Sebastian said and Ciel didn't need another word when he snatched the piece of meat. "I see you are enjoying it."

"It's the best I have ever eaten", Ciel said, his mouth filled with food.

"I'm glad it suits your taste. What do you usually make for yourself?"

"Just something simple", Ciel said and took another bite. "Like pasta carbonara* or lasagna."

"I would love to taste some of your cooking", Sebastian said.

"I doubt you would. I'm not such a great cook anyway", Ciel said and smiled sadly. He had heard that enough times already, he didn't need Sebastian's opinion on top of that.

"Will you at least make me breakfast someday? Pretty please!" Sebastian looked like he was serious about his words and Ciel shrugged his shoulders.

"If you're not afraid of getting poisoned, sure, why not."

"That would definitely make me happy", Sebastian smiled and Ciel snorted.

"Like you're not happy always anyway."

"That's not quite true", Sebastian said and his smile dropped a little. "Actually, I learned to be happy just a little while ago."

"What do you mean?" Ciel asked, though he wondered if he truly wanted to hear the answer.

"You see, I lived in America for two years", Sebastian said and Ciel nodded. He hadn't known that. It wasn't so weird though, he barely knew anything about Sebastian. Not that he ever tried to get to know to him.

"What did you do there?"

"I took photographs. Mostly for some magazines, but a few self-portraits too", he turned around and pointed at a large black and white picture of London on top of a piano. "I took that too, the day I came back here."

"I like that picture", Ciel said and didn't lie one word, whilst he hadn't meant to say it so freely. Sebastian didn't seem to mind as he just laughed and nodded.

"Yeah, me too. It reminds me of how much I truly love this city", Sebastian said and turned back to Ciel. "Anyway, one day at work, I was asked to take a picture of this old couple. The woman had a week left to live, he had some sort of cancer if I remember correctly, and the man had Alzheimer's. They had been together for 72 years."

"Did the man even remember his wife?"

"Sadly, no. I would have thought that after 72 years you would remember someone, but no. Makes you think about how fragile people really are."

"I don't actually see how this has taught you to be happy", Ciel frowned and Sebastian laughed.

"Be patient. So, I was asked to take the picture of them. Due to circumstances, the picture had to be taken in the hospital. Can you imagine how difficult it is to take a picture in a hospital? It's so colorless, and when you add sheet pale people to it, it's a nightmare", Sebastian huffed and then smiled softly. "I had prepared myself to a difficult session, but when I got there, there were flowers everywhere. Someone had placed all kinds of colors next to the bed. It was stunningly beautiful. But what was even more beautiful was the couple."

"The smell of disinfect and death lingered in the air but it didn't seem to bother them. It was like they only saw each other. They looked so happy. The man too, it looked like he fell in love every time he looked at his wife. That's what I call true love. It was something I had never seen before, and possibly will never see again", a sad smiled appeared to Sebastian's face and he looked at his plate with moist eyes. "The woman died the next day, the man a few days later. They didn't even get to see their picture. I really wish would have been able to thank them. They really opened my eyes, made me realize just how precious life truly is."

"… That's… I don't actually know what to say…" Ciel said and poked the food on his plate. "It's hard for me to think that something so sweet can actually exist. I wish my boyfriend showed me attraction like that."

"He doesn't?" Sebastian said, his eyebrow rose and Ciel was too focused on his plate to notice a dark expression flash through Sebastian's face. "I would show you my love every day."

"What!" Ciel blushed and Sebastian coughed.

"I mean if I were your boyfriend, I would", for the first time Ciel noticed Sebastian starting to lose his composure. The man blushed slightly and averted his eyes before he rose off the table. "That came out sounding weird. I wasn't planning on hitting on you or anything."

Ciel was speechless, and fighting to keep the giggles inside when Sebastian bumped to the table and knocked over a glass of water. He cursed and tried to clean it but only managed to knock over another glass as well. It was refreshing to see the mister Perfect act out of character for once. This was too special moment to miss.

"I'm sure it would be wonderful to be your boyfriend", Ciel winked his eye and Sebastian blushed up to his ears.

"Really?" His voice was high pitched and he moved so fast towards Ciel he knocked over the chair and broke the plate he had been holding. At that moment Ciel couldn't keep the laughter in anymore and let out the loudest laugh of his life. This was a payback, and Ciel surely enjoyed it.

"Ha ha, very funny", Sebastian said dryly and turned to clean the mess. He hid the disappointment from his face and focused on the shattered plate. He should have guessed it was just a joke. "I hope we are eve now."

"We sure are", Ciel laughed and whipped his eye. "You need any help with that?"

"Sure, you can bring the trash can", Sebastian said and Ciel did as he was told, still snickering to himself. It all suddenly felt so much more comfortable. To see that Sebastian didn't explode when Ciel tricked him, made Ciel somewhat trust the man. At least he now knew that Sebastian wasn't short tempered.

"Well then, are you ready to go?" Sebastian asked after the mess had been cleaned up.

"Where are we going again?" Ciel asked but Sebastian just smirked.

"You'll see when we get there."

"There's no way in Hell that I'm doing this!" Ciel complained as he looked at a large roller coast in front of him. The device was large and almost reached the sky! Or so it seemed to Ciel at least. He had assumed that they would be shopping again or went to a movie or something, but amusement park never crossed his mind. Truth to be told, he had never been in one, and it made him feel very nervous.

"Come on, Ciel. It'll be fun!" Sebastian smiled and pushed Ciel to the line.

"Seriously Sebastian, I don't think I-"

"Just give it a try, will you", Sebastian said. Ciel pouted and tried to sneak away but Sebastian grabbed his hand to keep him in place. Ciel blushed deeply and tried to pull his hand away from Sebastian's but the man's grip was too good.

"S-sebastian! Let go!" Ciel hissed between his teeth and looked around him. "Everybody is watching!"

"Let them watch", Sebastian smiled and swung Ciel closer to his body so that he could wrap his hand around the boy's shoulders. "This day is just for you, don't let others ruin it."

"But... I..." Ciel couldn't find the words. Deep down he knew Sebastian was right; it was stupid to be bothered about other people's opinions. Ciel glanced quickly around him and noticed that no one was even staring at them. He let out a small laugh and focused on the roller coaster, listening to the screaming and rumbling as the wagons came down from the heights.

Maybe it wouldn't be so bad after all. These people seemed to enjoy their time, so why wouldn't he. Ciel took a deep breathe and focused on calming himself down. It would be fun, he just had to give it a change. He thought he had collected courage while they stood on the line but now that he sat on the bright red wagon, he started to feel the butterflies in his stomach again.

"Are you sure this is safe? What if I fall?" Ciel whispered.

"You won't fall, the rail will hold you on place", Sebastian smiled.

"What if this wagon gets loose and crashes to the ground? Wouldn't it kill us?" Ciel asked and moved on his place to see the wagon rock back and forth. "I can't do this..."

"Yes you can. Just hold still and enjoy", Sebastian smiled. Ciel had no time to protest when they started to move. Ciel startled and grabbed Sebastian's arm unconsciously. His grip tightened as they rose higher and higher until it was on top where the view was enough to take your breath away. Or would have, if Ciel didn't focus on the huge fall in front of him.

"Just relax", Sebastian said and assuredly squeezed Ciel's hand. The boy's eye was huge from fear and he shivered slightly. When the fall finally came, he screamed his lounges out. Ciel heard Sebastian laugh beside him in every turn while he kept his eye shut and fought not to throw up. The feeling in his stomach was strange, like when he was nervous, and he didn't like it.

The ride seemed to last forever but it finally came to stop. Sebastian smoothly rose up but Ciel stayed in place, his whole body shivering.

"Ciel?" Sebastian asked but the boy shook his head, eye wide.

"... again"

"What?" Sebastian asked and leaned closer to hear the boy's quiet words.

"I want to go again", Ciel turned his huge eye to Sebastian, his expression something between excitement and fear. Somehow the ride hadn't been as bad as he had thought, and maybe it would be more pleasurable the next time he went in.

"We can go as many times as you want", Sebastian smirked and helped the boy up. "We have the whole day."

The went to the roller coaster three more times, Ciel enjoying the ride more and more each second so that Sebastian had to eventually pull the boy away so that they could try another devices. Ciel grew to like the spinning and falling feelings more and more and urged to try all the equipment's. His eye sparkled in excitement and his cheeks were slightly red from all the running. Ciel was so excited, he didn't even realize that he held Sebastian's hand the whole time, pulling the man everywhere he wanted to go.

At the Game-Road, they tried different types of games. Ciel didn't manage to get even one price whilst Sebastian's aim was near perfect. He would have won in every game but declined the prices. Only when he found a cute little teddy bear with an eye-patch, he took it and gave it to Ciel.

"It looks like you", Sebastian smirked. He continued with high-pitched tone: "Hello, my name is Teddy Phantomhive and I'm having the best day of my life."

Ciel could only laugh at Sebastian's poor attempt to sound like him. It was a laughter that came straight from the heart and made Sebastian blush a little. The boy was stunning, his deep blue eye sparkled and he curled up, gripping his stomach as he laughed so hard. It was good to see Ciel opening up and laugh with him.

"God you're so stupid", Ciel laughed and grabbed the teddy bear from Sebastian. He brushed the soft fur gently and squeezed the small hands. Black eyes stared at him and the smile on the toy made him smile too. "It is cute though."

"Just like you", Sebastian smiled and brushed Ciel's cheek gently. The twitch in the boy's stomach was nothing even near the twists he experienced on the equipment's. His cheeks came beef read and he quickly turned his head away.

"Quit with the sweet talk..." Ciel started to walk away, Sebastian following just a couple of steps behind, a huge smirk spread across his face.

The whole day went by in a flash. Ciel had so much fun running through the equipment's that he would have forgotten to eat if Sebastian didn't pull him to a nearby restaurant. Ciel took it as his policy to try everything out, and that he did. They continued their journey through the park and they had only one place left: the Ferris wheel.

Ciel looked out the clear window as they rose higher and higher. It was already dark so the lights of the city sparkled like the stars on the sky. He looked so closely at the view that his nose was pressed against the glass. Sebastian sat calmly on the wooden bench and looked at the small boy.

"Are you having fun?" Sebastian asked and Ciel nodded. He pressed Teddy Phantom closer to his chest and smiled widely.

"The best time of my life." He didn't even lie.

"This was seriously your first time?" Sebastian asked and Ciel's eye saddened for a second before he turned his face to Sebastian.

"Yeah", the boy sighed and patted Teddy's head. "At least if I remember correctly."

"What do you mean?" Sebastian asked and the boy flinched. He turned his eye to the night sky and fell to his thoughts.

"I don't really want to talk about it..."

The continued in silence, the view changing as they climbed higher. Ciel calmly leaned against the class, his eyes following the little lights on the ground. Then suddenly the Ferris wheel stopped moving and Ciel almost fell to Sebastian's lap. Luckily, he managed to balance himself by pressing his hands on Sebastian's shoulders.

"Wow, careful there. I think you should sit down", Sebastian smirked but Ciel shook his head.

"I can see better this way", he leaned against the glass again and examined the view. The Ferris wheel moved again for a second and then stopped. Little by little it started to take them down and Ciel sat down when he couldn't see as far anymore. He squeezed Teddy's ears and looked at the ring on his finger, frowning deeply. It had bothered him the whole day and it finally came to the point, he couldn't keep it inside anymore.

"Why are you doing this to me?" Ciel whispered. He looked at the man in front of him who wore a surprised expression.

"I don't think I follow", Sebastian said.

"I mean, look at this", Ciel pulled his hand straight and pointed all around them. "And this", he shook the teddy bear in his lap. "And this", Ciel pointed at the ring on his finger. "Not to mention all the things you have done for me."

"Is there something wrong with them?" Sebastian asked.

"No! That's not the point! I mean..." Ciel swallowed and looked out the window. "I just don't understand."

"Understand what?"

"Why you're being so nice to me?" Ciel quickly glanced at Sebastian but couldn't bear to look at the man any longer. He feared he might see the same hatred in his eyes that he saw in Alois' whenever he questioned anything. Sebastian stayed quiet for a moment and Ciel felt the tension growing. Finally Sebastian spoke.

"Is there something wrong to treat you nicely?" Sebastian asked and Ciel puffed.

"Quit with the questions. I want answers."

"I'm just merely trying to understand you", Sebastian said.

"That's yet one of the things I don't understand. Why? Why do you want to understand me? It's just a week; you could do practically anything to me without me being able to decline!"

"Are you doing this unwillingly?"

"No, it's not that. It's just that you could, and I don't understand why you don't", Ciel scratched the back of his head and fondled the teddy's ear.

"You want me to treat you differently? To force you to do something you don't like?"

"No! Gosh, this is so hard to explain!" Ciel rubbed his eye. "I... It's just that... Gosh... Umm... Y-you said that you would make me want to sleep with you, right. So why haven't you yet?"

Sebastian sighed and looked closely at Ciel.

"I said that, and I still mean that", Sebastian said quietly. "I just think it would be meaningless if you did it against your will."

"Why do you care so much for me", Ciel said, his desperate eye trying to find the answer from Sebastian's.

Sebastian stayed quiet for a long time. Ciel felt his own heart beating louder every second when he waited for the reply. Would it be a trick again? Somehow he doubted that but there was just nothing else that made sense. He knew that Sebastian would tell him the truth but it would still break his heart if the man admitted the joke. Definitely break his heart.

"I have feelings for you", Sebastian then said, a small blush appeared to his face and he swallowed a bit. Ciel's mouth drooped open and eye widened as he tried to understand what the man just said.

"F-feelings? As... As in...?"

"As in special feelings. I know you have a boyfriend, I know my feelings mean nothing to you, but to me, you're everything", Sebastian looked at Ciel and leaned a bit closer. "For me it is enough to just see you every day. I took even same curses with you so just that I can see you at least once a day. I have already passed them, but it doesn't matter. All I see is you."

"Isn't that more like stalking?" Ciel asked but he didn't sound one bit angry. If anything, he was dumbfounded. Sebastian Michaelis had a crush on him. It even sounded like a serious crush. Ciel felt his face burning and his stomach packed with butterflies. He still kept his eyes at Sebastian who calmly stared back and waited for Ciel's reply to his confession. When he didn't get one, he continued to talk.

"Why I'm being so nice to you now, is because I know this week will be the only time I have with you alone. I have actually dreamed this to happen for two years now, and though our beginning wasn't the best way to start, the outcome is still the same. Undertaker knows my feelings so he must have planned this in advance. I have to admit, at first I was against it, but now I hope this time will never end."

"... Wow... I didn't know you think so highly of me", Ciel said slowly. An odd pressure appeared to his chest when he saw Sebastian's sad smile. It was somewhat heartbreaking to know that the man had to give up before he even got the change to try. "I'm sorry, I-"

"You have nothing to apologize for", Sebastian cut Ciel's words quickly. "They're my feelings, there's nothing you can do to change them. I'm just happy to be here, right now, with you."

Ciel blushed slightly and gave Sebastian a shy smile. Their eyes locked and Ciel could see the feelings flashing through Sebastian's red orbs. The man hadn't been lying, Ciel could tell. Sebastian's black hair sparkled from the lights and created a thin halo around Sebastian's head. Vaguely Ciel noticed that Sebastian had leaned closer to him. Or maybe it was Ciel who had started to move, he really couldn't remember.

Not that it mattered anyway. The only thing that he focused on, were Sebastian's hands that touched his skin gently. One hand rested on the boy's knee and the other caressed his cheek gently. Ciel could smell Sebastian's strong scent all around him and he closed his eyes. A small breeze tickled his lips when Sebastian breathed out and made Ciel chuckle gently. Ciel could sense that Sebastian was smirking too, when they leaned even closer. Sebastian slowly placed his lips over Ciel's and the boy immediately felt a spark of electricity go down his spine.

Suddenly the door opened and they bolted away from each other. Ciel breathed heavily, his cheeks slightly flushed when he looked at the opened door. A dark haired man stood outside and waved them to climb off the wagon. Ciel stood to his slightly shaky legs and stormed off before Sebastian was even properly out. He could still feel Sebastian's soft and warm lips against his. They had been slightly wet, maybe Sebastian had licked them a bit before they kissed. Ciel traced his fingers along his sensitive lips and sighted. It had felt awesome. Just a light touch and it all screamed that it was right. Like they were meant to be.

Ciel felt a sting of guilt in his heart when he thought about Alois. He felt like he had cheated in his boyfriend. It was true that Alois didn't care who he slept with, but Ciel never had any positive feelings towards the men. Sebastian on the other hand... He just couldn't bear to hate him, especially not after hearing his confession.

"Are you ready to go?" Sebastian startled Ciel form his thoughts and the boy blushed deeply, making sure the man couldn't see his face. It somehow felt awkward. Like the kind of awkward when you have sex the first time and don't know what kind of face to make afterwards. Ciel just nodded and leaded them out the amusement park. There was still five days to spend with Sebastian, and Ciel wasn't sure if he could deny the man any longer.

- To Be Continued –

*I'm not sure how you spell that in English. That's the Italian version, so if you know any better, please feel free to tell me : ) The same goes with the words of the amusement park. I used google translate to get the right words but as anyone can tell, that's not a very reliable source.

Thank you for reading, see you next week!