RAWRZ! Howdy everyone! So I'm back! Uhm so I don't really have anything to say so I guess I'll just get to the disclaimer?
Logan: Hikari does not own Big Time Rush what so ever in any way, shape, or form. But thanks for thinking she does!
James: No one thinks that...
Hush up...
Now On to The Fic!
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Not wanted.
Useless.
Better off d-
"NO!" It's the first word I've spoken in over ten years and it's a word that I definitely didn't want to be my first.
But the dream. No. The nightmare I had...it felt so real. Too real.
Explain it to them.
I-in the dream, Carlos, James, and Kendall they...they beat me up. Because I'm a mute. I never sang the stupid song for Griffin, and in the end, the CEO kicked all of our sorry asses back to Minnesota. I had never seen the guys so angry before.
So angry at me.
Kendall, leader of the group that he is, spoke first and told me that I wasn't wanted around. That I never was.
Carlos called me useless. Said that he didn't need a retarded little brother following him around like a lost puppy.
And James? James told me that I was better off dead.
Nothing had ever broken my heart more than what James had told me.
"Logie? D-did you just talk? Are you okay? Did you talk?" I nod and crawl into James' lap, not caring that my tears were probably staining his shirt.
But James didn't seem to care. Instead, he just held me tighter and basically forced me to lay down with him, letting me rest my head on his chest. I could hear how fast his heart was beating, but I thought it was just because he was about the nightmare I had.
"Do You ever wonder,
When you listen to thunder,
And the world just feels so small..."
Hey I remember this song. This was the song that me, Carlos and James wrote last summer for a camp project. It sounds even better with actual vocals and not the crappy singing of the camp ensemble.
"Goodnight Logie. I l-"
I never do get to hear the ending of that sentence. I always end up falling asleep before James finishes talking. But I could've sworn that he was going to say he loved me.
Oh well. Guess I'll never find out. But tomorrow, everyone is going to find out that I can talk...Well...that I can sing. Which is basically the same thing but who cares.
Time to prepare for the verbal abuse that I shall recieve!
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Haha. Hell no. I'm tired and therefore, I shall prepare for a beatdown tomorrow.
Goodnight everyone! May rainbows invade your dreams while being shot out of a unicorns ass!
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So this was crap. But I had some serious writers block with this.
I just want to apologize for the really late update but I was in the hospital for reasons that shall not be mentioned. But just know that I'm back and hopefully for good!
Oh...uhmm I might delete this story. I don't really know but I guess we'll find out in two weeks eh? I'll also be posting randomly throughout the week so...yeah. Hope y'all stick around for that.
Again, sorry.
Until Then!
Love? Peace! Slash!
Hikari!