I tried really hard on this chapter but I'm not sure its as good as the other ones. Anyways, please review!
"I could swear that I was in a train wreck last night. That's the only explanation for this headache." Stella moaned into her pillow the next morning. I continued brushing my hair and putting on my make-up in the bathroom.
"Well Stell, that's what you get for drinking last night. At least you guys had enough sense to designate a driver." I mumbled while putting on eye-liner.
Stella and Joe had apparently strayed away from Kevin last night at the club and gotten some wine to drink. By the time they got back to the mansion Stella and Joe were completely plastered. I could tell Kevin was pissed about their drinking but he let it slide and made sure Joe and Stella didn't pass out on their way to the mansion.
"Please save the lecture for when this pounding in my head stops." Stella moaned again. I ignored my best friend and focused on my reflection. I turned with disgust from the mirror and tried to not think about my stringy hair and oddly shaped face.
Instead of thinking about myself I went out to Stella's bedroom and opened her blinds despite her protests.
"Come on Stell, we're burning daylight." I said in a chipper tone. I grabbed Stella's arm and dragged her out to the poolside.
"It's too bright!" Stella yelled dramatically while shielding her eyes from the sun. I smiled and continued into the kitchen. I caught my breath for a moment when I saw my favorite Jonas at the table reading the paper. Well, at the moment he's my least favorite Jonas. He's was also the one starring in my dreams last night.
"Where is Joe?" Stella asked a little disappointed.
"He and Kevin are still asleep. Apparently they had a late night." Nick said with a slight smile. Stella frowned and went to go watch TV in the living room. Thus leaving Nick and me alone. I purposely avoided his eyes and headed over to the fridge.
"Macy?" Nick called quietly. I decided it was time for fake-Macy to take over.
"What's up Nick?" I said perkily. I've never been so annoyed with my own voice. Nick looked a little taken aback by my demeanor.
"I wanted to ask you what happened last night…" Nick said cautiously. I sighed and grabbed a water bottle out of the fridge before turning around to Nick.
"You were there silly! I'm pretty sure I played the piano and you sang!" I said joyfully. Nick gave me a confused look.
"You seemed upset." Nick stated. It took all my effort to keep a smile on my face.
"Well I wasn't." I said quietly. Nick nodded and smiled, not at all looking convinced.
"Umm, okay. Oh, by the way, you were awesome on the piano last night! We should do it again sometime." Nick complimented. He flashed his rock star smile before leaving to join Stella in the living room. It almost killed me to hear those words now. Right after I finally decided to let him go.
"Thanks Nick." I whispered after he left. I then fled from the kitchen and out of the mansion. My vision became blurry as I found my way to the pool house.
I finally made it to my room before collapsing on my bed and bursting into tears.
(Flashback)
I waved goodbye to Stella as she drove away from where she had dropped me off. I neglected to tell Stella that I had moved after my Dad dumped my mom and me. Actually I neglected to tell her that my Dad had dumped my mom and me.
Anyways, ever since then I've just been having Stella drop me off at my old house. I'd rather walk to my apartment then admit to Stella why my mom and I moved.
I sighed and looked around before beginning my walk. When I finally got home, my mom was nowhere to be seen. Big shocker there.
"Mom!" I called. She didn't respond. I dropped my backpack to the ground and listen to the silence around me. It was deafening.
I walked down the hall past the bathroom and the first bedroom. I finally made it to my mom's room. When I opened the door I cringed at the sight.
My mom's room smelled of stale pizza and body odor. Unpacked boxes were strewn around the room; dirty clothes were left on piles on the ground. Dishes were left broken on the floor, most likely thrown against the wall by my mom. My eyes finally settled on her. She was lying down on the bed, staring at the ceiling.
Tears were stinging my eyes. She wasn't like this before. My mom used to be so happy, and so full of life.
I hate my father.
Once when I was young and true,
Someone left me sad-
Broke my brittle heart in two;
And that was very bad.
Love is for unlucky folk.
Love is but a curse.
Once there was a heart I broke;
And that, I think, is worse.
-Dorothy Parker
"Hey mom, I'm home." I whispered. I sat next to her still body on the bed. I could hear her slightly breathing.
"So guess what happened at school today?" I asked. Silence.
"You know that boy I'm always talking about? Nick Lucas?" More silence.
"I accidently sprained his hand today." I laughed quietly. My mom didn't even blink.
"I told you he's famous right!" I smiled. My mom rolls over. I smile again at her. She opens her mouth to speak.
"I don't care." She says coldly before turning her back to me again.
I silently let the tears begin to fall.
"Oh." I stated, "Okay." I waited for another moment before getting off the bed. I silently hoped she would stop me before I left. But as usual, she said nothing.
Again the deafening silence settled in. I almost wished I had left it that way to begin with. But this time I let the silence overtake me. A loud reminder of words to remain unsaid.
"What's the difference between Apathy, Sympathy, Empathy, and Pity?"
I don't know who cares?
Ok, I'm sorry that sounded insensitive.
That probably made you sad. That makes me sad.
You poor thing
"So what happened with your mom?" Stella asked. I jumped a little at the question. Stella, Nick, Kevin, Joe and I had all gathered around the T.V. for morning cartoons. Stella and Joe were both laying on the couch in opposite ways while Kevin sat on the floor and I shared the couch with Nick. I finally got myself looking presentable after my minor breakdown. Up until now it had been quiet.
"What are you talking about?" I questioned quickly. Stella gave me a weird look.
"You said you two had gotten in a fight." Stella explained. I exhaled and smiled.
"Oh! Yeah, my mom and I are fine now." I answered. Stella nodded then turned back to the T.V. I glanced over at Nick and caught him looking at me. He quickly turned away.
"Why were you guys fighting?" Kevin asked, only half-listening.
"Um," I began nervously, "I didn't clean my room, or something stupid like that…" For the first time in a while I silently hoped that no one was listening to me.
"Isn't your Dad usually the clean freak?" Stella questioned. That question physically pained me to answer.
"Y-yeah…um…he wasn't there when the fight happened." I answered almost inaudibly. I started messing with my bangs so no one would see the tears in my eyes.
"Where was he then?" Nick asked quietly.
I tried to hold it in, but that last question took me over the edge. I mumbled something unintelligible before walking out to the pool and down to the beach. I then started sobbing.
For me, breaking down in tears twice in one morning is a very strange occurrence. I'm not usually one to cry, but the question Nick asked rang very true.
Where is my Dad?
There are almost 4,000 species of mammal in the world, only about three percent of which stay with one mate throughout their life.
However, in the black darkness of the deep sea, a tiny male anglerfish detects and follows the scent of a female of his own species. Once he finds her, he bites his chosen one and hangs on. His skin fuses to hers, their bodies grow together. They mate for life.
Now if two ignorant little fish can stick together through the bad times and the good, why do 50% of all first marriages in America fail? Are people no smarter than a fish? Or is the fish just too stupid to let go?
I sat curled up on the beach trying to control my breathing before returning to the mansion. I know I would have to think up an explanation for my sudden exit but for now I'm just trying not to cry.
"Mace?" A voice said behind me.
OOOH! Who is this mystery person? (You probably have a really good guess.)
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