Chapter 4: Broken

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A week or two passed, and I was still upset that I hurt Jacob. His words were repeating over and over in my head.

"And I promise I'll always love you. I promise."

And then, before that, he said…

"And I never break my promises."

I was over Edward. He left and took part of me with him, yes, but I got that part back.

But, Jake?

He was a completely different story. I loved Jasper with all that I had, but I couldn't seem to move on. Jacob still had his part of my heart, and I didn't think I'd ever get it back.

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When school was over, I decided to go to the reservation on which Jacob lived. I had been to his house many times now and knew exactly where it was, but since Jasper was with me, I had no idea how this would turn out.

I called Jake on Jasper's cell phone, and he didn't pick up. That was odd. He always answered the phone when I called. I hung up the phone before the answering machine could pick up and redialed the number.

Still no answer. This time, though, I decided to leave a message.

"Hey Jakey. I wanted to see if you were okay. I just needed to talk to you again. I'll do anything. I'm desperate. And I also wanted you to know that I do lo-"

The answering machine beeped and cut me off. He really needs a cell, I thought to myself.

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The next few days went by very slowly.

Jasper could tell that I was tense, but he never questioned why.

He was so unlike Edward, and that thought made me very happy, ecstatic almost.

"Whoa! Bella, what's gotten into you? You were so…so tense. And…and now, you…you're so happy! What's going on?" He wasn't yelling at me out of anger. He was just shocked.

"I…I was thinking. About how you and…Edward…are so different. Sorry. That must've overwhelmed you…" I trailed off. I thought it was funny how I still had trouble saying Edward's name out loud.

"Oh. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell. It just surprised me, that's all."

He put his arms around my waist, and I pulled him closer to me.

"It's okay, Jazz."

Air caught in his throat. I could hear him stop breathing. I gave him a concerned look and said, "What's wrong?"

"Oh…nothing. Nothing."

"Jasper! I can tell when you're lying. I may be clumsy and naïve, but I know when someone's not telling the truth."

"Well…" He trailed off like he was trying to find the right words. He seemed kind of sad.

"It's okay…Jasper, you can tell me anything. Do you still want to leave?"

"No…well…I love you and all, but I miss Alice. She loves Drew, though. And Jazz was her nickname for me. Sorry…it just hit the spot."

"Oh," was all I managed.

I chocked back a sob, but I eventually let it loose. I cried and cried as Jasper repeated the words "I love you" over and over. Suddenly, I felt as if they meant nothing. Just three little words to cause pain and torture.

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Jacob called back a few days later. He seemed depressed.

"Jake? Is that you?"

"Yeah. You left a message. Sorry. I would've called sooner, but I was out practicing with my new wolf form."

"It's okay. I miss you."

"I miss you, too. You said something when you left the message, but the machine cut you off. What was it?"

I avoided the question and replied, "Jake, can I come over?"

"Sure, sure."

And with that said, I hung up the phone and rushed out the door.

"Do you want me to stay here?" Jasper asked.

I nodded and said, "As long as you swear you won't leave, that you'll be here when I get back."

He nodded and stifled a sob.

"Jasper? You okay? I don't have to go…"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Have fun. I won't leave."

I smiled genuinely and ran to my truck. I hopped in quickly and noticed someone else was breathing. I let out a quiet scream, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw it was Jacob.

"God, Jacob! Don't do that! You scared the shit out of me!"

"Tsk, tsk. Let's not use naughty words, unless we're having s-"

I cut him off. "Did you know that I told you so has a brother, Jacob? His name is shut the hell up!"

I loved using that line. It made me chuckle, and Jacob laughed, too.

I looked out my windshield to see a very sad Jasper staring back at me through the front window of Charlie's house.

Jasper loved Charlie. He loved spending time with him, and Charlie loved spending time with Jasper. They were like they were actually related, so I didn't mind it when my dad pulled into the driveway as we were pulling out.

"Bella, are you two leaving Jasper here? You should all go out."

"Well, he said that since we had been spending so much time together, I should hang out with Jacob for once. He said he wouldn't mind staying with you."

Okay…so I was lying my ass off. Anything for him not to know the truth.

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We were at his house in about twenty minutes. We sat there in the truck silently until Jacob broke the silence.

"So what d'ya wanna talk about, Bells?" He said in a playful tone.

"Well, I love you." My heart sank as what I was actually about to say next popped into my mind, unwanted. "But I can't do this. We have to end this for good, once and for all. I don't think we should talk or see each other anymore. It's too hard when I'm sitting there with Jasper, and all I can think about is you."

I began to cry, and he put his arm around me. I thought I was broken when Edward left, but now I truly know the meaning of it. I was breaking Jacob. Not like just taking a little piece off the side, but straight down the middle.

"I-I-I'm s-so s-s-sorry, J-Jake." I was shaking violently, but he stayed calm.

"Bella…I know. So I guess you should go back home to your lover." He said the last sentence harshly, and I cried harder.

"Why, Bella? Why did you come all the way here just to tell me that?"

I stayed silent.

"WHY?!" He yelled, and I flinched.

I got out of the truck as quickly as possible and started running to nowhere in particular, just away from Jacob.

I looked back, and he had gotten out of the truck, too. He went in the opposite direction and said, "Goodbye, Bella…I love you."

And then, there was a wolf in his place.

I gasped, and he ran. I'm sure he didn't stop even when he was out of my sight. I sat down on the soft, green grass and sobbed.

I looked to my left and saw Jasper standing there, motionless.

I looked up into his eyes confused as to why he wasn't coming closer.

I guess he sensed it because he pointed to the ground and drew an imaginary line right in front of his feet. As he did this, he stated simply, "Boundary line."

I nodded and ran to him. He caught me before I fell to the ground.

"Go get your truck. Let's go home."

I smiled at the word home.

I realized then that I wasn't broken, just temporarily out of order.

A/N: Did you like it? I love Jacob and all, but yeah. This is how it needs to be. Review!