CPOV

I was so confused. Looking into those eyes was like watching the summer play over again. I saw me when I was truly happy. I desperately wanted to get back to that; my life had been a living hell since school started again. But Jace…I needed him too. I couldn't just leave him. He had been there for me when I needed someone.

But Sebastian…he was what I really wanted. I knew that now when I was staring into his eyes. I wanted to kiss him so bad. But I couldn't cheat on Jace, not again. Jace means a lot to me, I admit that and I care for him like a girlfriend should. Yeah sure, I get jealous when other girls flirt with him, does that mean I should stay with him. Damn, I was so confused.

So I did the only thing I could think of. I flew out of Sebastian's lap and ran out that door like hell was chasing me.

SPOV

What was going on? First she comes over and takes care of me like a nurse then she is running out the door. Did I do something wrong? Should I have lied when she asked what Jace and I were fighting about? Oh well, can't change the past.

I stood up and wrung out my shirt in the sink. I caught a glance of movement and just realized it was me in the mirror. My lip was split and that was a gash on the side of my head, just behind my ear.

Lovely

After a long walk home, Sebastian walked through the door to find his mom sitting at the dinner table. "What took you so long?"

He glanced over to the clock. 4:30, he should have been home half an hour ago. "Um…one of my teachers wanted to talk to me after school."

"It's your first day?" She raised her head and cocked an eyebrow.

"Yeah she wanted to help me catch up with the lesson we are learning."

"Ok…come here will you?" Sebastian walked over to where she was sitting and turned his head so she couldn't see the cut behind his ear.

"What happened?" She asked lifting her hand up to lighting touch the cut on his lip.

"Nothing, just a run in with a door, that's all." Sebastian quickly lied avoiding her gaze. His mother could always tell when he was lying; he never knew how she did it. He was usually a fantastic liar. But she could see through it all.

"Did you get into another fight?" She said quietly.

Sebastian didn't want to answer the question and disappoint his mother once again. He just stared at the ground, anything but into his mother's eyes.

"Sebastian, I thought you said if we came back here you wouldn't get in trouble again."

"I didn't get in trouble." He said bluntly.

"You know what I mean. What was the fight about?"

"A girl,"

His mother let out a laugh, "Men, they always fight over women, like they are a prize or something. Your father was like that, he would fight other guys for me. I hated it, knowing I was the reason other guys got hurt. Even if I cared about them, even if they meant something to me, he wouldn't care. He just thought of it as a game, win the girl."

His mother hardly ever talked about his father. He left when he was so young.

"Then why did you marry him?"

"I loved him, even though he did that stuff, I loved him. He made me feel whole, I was safe when I was around him. He could listen to me for hours without getting bored. He was so patient… but then he just up and left. I don't know why either…he just left."

It broke his heart to hear how sad his mother was without his father. Then he realized he was doing the exact same thing to Clary. He was hurting the people she cared about. That needed to stop. He had to let go of the thing that meant the most to him.

Clary ran all the way home. She didn't care about all the strange looks she was getting, all she cared about was figuring out her feelings. She cared about Jace, but she didn't love him. Then there was Sebastian. He was so perfect. He was there for here at any moment. He was someone she could truly rely on. She could be so open with him. He never judged her. She knew he had done worse things in his past.

He was the obvious choice. Maybe they could rekindle what they had over the summer. Or just start new. Well, first things first, she had to break up with Jace…break up with Jace… The more she said it in her head the more she hesitated about it. Bloody hell, why did love have to be so complicated. She decided she would talk to Sebastian tomorrow to see if he was still interested in a relationship. Part of her was hoping he would say yes…but another part was hoping he would say no.

High school, some people call it some of the happiest moments of their life, others would rather be shot…twice than go back there.

Well for three unfortunate teenagers, high school is practically a stroll through hell.

Clary entered her high school just as the bell for class rung. She had been thinking about what to do about Jace and Sebastian so much that she had totally forget about school. As she stumbled into class everyone was staring at her. The day basically went by like that; Clary kept dozing off during class, which brought her teachers much anger. She was usually a very bright student, everyone knew something was up.

SPOV

I have to be the biggest coward on the face of the planet. I had been waiting for Clary in the hallway. I needed to talk to her. I saw a dash of red and knew it was her. She didn't even look up at me, was she ignoring me? I was about to reach out and grab her arm but something in the back of my head stopped me. Huh, that was weird; I hardly ever listen to myself. Yesterday I was thinking about it, I had to do the worst thing I could think of…

CPOV

No, I had not been avoiding Sebastian, I just didn't notice him. I needed to talk to him though; I needed to get all this drama over with. At lunch I saw him sitting at our usual table. There was Jace, clearly not even looking at Sebastian, Isabelle, Simon, Magnus, Alec, Mia, and Sebastian. I hadn't really spoken to any of my other friends; my mind had way too clouded. When I sat down Jace and Sebastian looked up at me, expectantly.

"Sebastian…can I have a word with you?" I said quietly. Ok, I admit I'm probably going to just wing this whole conversation.

Sebastian nodded and followed me out of the cafeteria.

"What's up carrot-top?" Sebastian asked with a smirk.

He usually doesn't smirk, it looks weird on him. Usually Sebastian was so nice and considerate. But now there was something different in his eyes, something mischievous and mysterious.

"I… I need to tell you something."

"Yeah I kind of figured. Well, I'm all ears."

Sebastian usually wasn't snarky, but now he was just being an asshole. I just ignored it.

"I want to be with you…"

"What about Jace?" Sebastian seemed unaffected by what I had just said.

"Forget him,"

"No, you should be with him." Sebastian's eyes never left mine. They seemed never ending, just dark obsidian abysses.

"But…but I love you." I decided to just lay down all my cards.

"No, you don't."

"How can you say that? How can you tell me who I love or don't love? Only I can do that! I love you!"

"Well, that's too bad. I hope you can find someone who can love you back."

That just broke me. How could he just say that like it was no big deal? I could feel the tears building up in my eyes, I couldn't let the boy that just broke my heart watch me cry. So I just spun and walked over to the closest door and went through it, not looking back.