A/N - So I did not expect to write Kara/Lena so early on but there you go. This story isturning out differently but hopefully for the better. Let mr know if you like it.
The Scars of Your Love Pt 4
"Thank you. I owe you, big time."
"Not at all. I know you'll be there for me when the time comes."
Lena Luthor & Kara Danvers
Kara's not sure if she's dreaming but she remembers immense pain and her screams until her throat turned raw. Fractured images of awaking to bright overhead lights and straps cutting into her skin, to stumbling out of her cell and attacking Lillian Luthor. Most of all, she remembers kind hands, glass green eyes and whispered words all culminating in a kiss to her temple as she's half carried, half dragged to a different room.
"Is she going to be ok?" She recognizes Jimmy's voice and struggles to open her eyes, needing to see where she was and how she could get back to where she needed to be.
"Hey..hey take it easy." Winn's voice joining the echoes in her head as she finally breaks through the haze and blinks her eyes open. "What..happened?" recognizing that she's back at the DEO, the sun bed revitalizing her cells, all traces of the kryptonite dust seemingly gone.
"You were captured by Cadmus and Alex went all Ripley and rescued you. You were in one of the holding rooms." Kara remembers hitting Lillian and then falling only to have Lena catch her. Her memories still so hazy as she recalls being lead to a room and a fleeting whispered promise to make everything right again followed by a kiss to her temple. She absently rubs the spot as she tries to focus on Winn.
"Anyway, Lena's joined the dark side even if she sorta, maybe helped us in the beginning and then she shot at Alex so not so sure about her loyalties.." Winn sees Kara shoot out of the bed and fumbles on quickly, "One shot went wide and the other just grazed her arm, she's fine, pissed and bruised but ..but really fine."
Kara can still remember Alex's heartbeat stopping, her blood coating her hands and that desolate feeling overcoming her because she needs to see Alex right now and its as if Alex understood that as she strides into the room, heading straight for the bed and engulfing Kara in a hug.
"Are you ok?", "You're ok.." Their voices overlapping as Kara tries to muffle her tears. "Kara, what's wrong?" Alex's protective instinct kicking in immediately as she pulls back, her hands wandering over Kara's form, trying to discern if her sister is hurt.
This wasn't suppose to happen, she was suppose to just see Lena, to send her message across time and to minimize her interactions in the past and therefore minimize the changes she was going to encounter when she went back. Only now, she's unsure as to what to do. She's so tempted to come clean and explain it all to James and Winn and definitely to Alex.
Some of her own memories also fading and being overwritten with new experiences that she's unfamiliar with and that headache back in full force. "It's..I'm..just overwhelmed. I'm ok."
"Are you sure? J'onn wants me on a plane to Norway but I can.."
"Its fine, Alex, I'm going to head home, pick up pizza and a few orders of potstickers and just rest." Its a plan in her head though she's almost sure that its not one she was going to follow through on. She needs to find out what happened with Lena and if that fails, she knows that she has to go back to her timeline and pray to Rao that she has not made things worse that when she left.
Alex looks at her, eyes narrowed and Kara stills herself, not wanting to shrink from the scrutiny and needing Alex to go on this mission like before. She reaches out clutching at Alex's hand, "I'll be here..when you want to talk.." She sees the gamut of emotions flit across Alex's face and holds her breath, willing Alex to understand that her revelation about herself was a good thing.
She's never been one to jump to conclusions and Kara could be talking about this new mission or the crappy end to the last one. Alex had wanted to see Maggie, to maybe, kind of, tell her that her assumption, that throwaway line, those words reverberating in her head, that maybe they had an element of truth to it.
And she's not sure she can have the conversation with Kara first. Maggie would not have judged her, she does not think that Kara would though she's not sure if she wants to even deal with that possibility. It would destroy her if Kara was disappointed in her. "Yeah, sure, I'll..debrief you on this mission and we have to talk about Lena Luthor.."
"What about Lena?" Her voice tinged with worry as her eyes dart to Winn and back to Alex, "Is she alright? Winn says she.." She sees Alex's hand unconsciously touch her arm. "Oh my god!...she shot you?"
Lena had kissed her, she had promised to help and Kara had trusted her, with her secret, with Alex's life and this knowledge was too much as she doubles over, trying to get air into her lungs, bombarded by memories past and present and some already fading.
"Kara! Just breathe...In and out, I'm fine and we'll find Lena and Lillian. They won't get another chance to hurt either of us or anyone else for that matter. I'll tell J'onn to take Vasquez while I get you home"
How does she explain that she may have had a hand in pushing Lena towards her mother, that if she had not come back, Lena would have done the right thing and stopped Lillian on her own. She can still recall those memories, hazy as they are but still there. Its like a touchstone for her, something to believe in even if she cannot recall any more what Alex wants to tell her.
"No, Alex, no. I'm just going to rest and not share my potstickers. Go..I'll be ok and I am here for you too, if you need to..talk." She gently pushes Alex off her bed.
Alex still looking so uncertain until J'onn strides in. "Good to see you awake, Kara. Alex, we have to leave now."
"Go, I'll be here when you get back." Kara says it with such certainty even though she really does not know if she can stay in this timeline.
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Turns out, convincing Alex was not as difficult as convincing Winn and James to let her be. They had insisted on accompanying her home and had been planning to stay until she literally pushed them out the door, the sun bed doing wonders for her strength as she easily carted them over the apartment threshold.
Finally having some time to think about her next steps only the pounding in her head intensifies and it feels as if pieces of her memories were being ripped apart, torn asunder and creating fragments of feelings and wisps of loss that makes her feel untethered.
She does not hear the knock on her door and only when it gets louder does see tilt her glasses down, her x ray vision revealing the one person she wants to talk to yet is also wary of. "Kara." The whispered name falling from Lena's lips sound like a plea.
She walks to the door but does not open it, her forehead leaning on the cool wood, not realising she's mimicking Lena's similar position. "Please, let me explain." Again, the words so soft and apologetic, like Lena knows she just there.
There's always been this pull between them, like she's caught in the gravitational arc of Lena Luthor, destined to circle around her, caught or wanting to be caught in the attraction. Finally opening the door as Lena stumbles into her arms, warm and for a second, all thoughts leave her head and she's a mess of sensations of touch and smell, then Lena pulls away.
"I don't have much time, my mother.." The last word a trigger for Kara as she remembers immense pain and something skirting the edges of black in her mind that she cannot grasp.
"She did something to me, took something..." Kara's hand goes to her head, fingers massaging her temples, as if the touch could bring forth some clarity.
Lena wants to explain her actions, trying to find some absolution from the one person she absolutely cares for. "I knew Alex was going to dodge or I hoped...even with that, my..my mother still suspects me but she also needs me now. Kara, I still want to help, you have to believe me, please." Words tumbling out as her hands clench into fists, knowing she should not reach out unless Kara allows her too. Right now, she just wants some from of recognition that she's doing the right thing.
"I...I think your headaches are your memories readjusting, rewriting themselves to the repercussions of your impact to the timeline and...if you don't return soon..."
"Then all of it will definitely change and I.."She feels physically stronger but mentally so exhausted as she blindly reaches out. Lena finally reacting as she guides Kara to the couch. "Kara, I can try and prevent the Cadmus attack on your sister but you need to go back and you have to trust me."
Lena feels like she's asking for the world despite putting her own safety on the line, she wants to take back her words, to just tell Kara to go back and hope that she manages to do her part and maybe change both their futures for the better. She has hope in her abilities and knows that she would do almost anything for Kara. Its not an easy admission or one she fully understands, this need to reach out and make a connection with Kara. To risk what she had carefully built based on this inkling, a wisp of a link to someone she desperately want to know.
"What if I don't remember this, remember you and what if.." Lena cuts her off, leaning forward, pulled by Kara's gravity, giving in to her own need to create a memory of her own. The kiss, soft and gentle, just a touch of their lips. Only, Kara 's more than ready this time as her hand goes around Lena's neck, pulling her closer, deepening the kiss as she leans back, pulling Lena over her.
Its a heady feeling, Lena's lips on hers, her tongue seeking entry and her hands splayed across Kara's chest. Kara's senses are all attuned to the woman in her arms, listening as her heart beats a staccato rhythm that only she can hear, her scent surrounding her, crisp and sharp. Most of all, its that familiar feeling of flying that first time. The thrumming of blood in her veins as gravity loosens its hold on her and she soars upwards, wind through her hair and a feeling of fearlessness.
Its like that for her now as realisation hits that she's fallen for Lena and by leaving her now, she might never get back to this point. Her own future as riddled with uncertainty as she has only one goal in mind, saving Alex's life regardless of the impact to her own.
So she pulls Lena closer, wanting to taste her, to live in this moment, praying that all these sensations are scorched into her memory, forged by the passion that almost overwhelms her. And Lena moans in response, hands exploring, skin on skin, pulling at obstructing fabric.
Moving towards the inevitable as Kara smoothly sits up, pulling Lena's shirt off and using just a bit of her Super speed to remove her own, then reverently slowing down as her mouth traces down Lena's arched neck, her mouth next to Kara's ear, words falling out in quick succession.
"Yes, God...Kara...Please.." want coating each word, spurring Kara on as her hand traces the tight muscles of Lena's stomach, feeling each intake of breath through the flex of muscles beneath her fingers as much as the displacement of air as Lena expels each word.
Kara's so close to the edge even as Lena's fingers grip her sides, heat and need entwining through her body, as her fingers dip into warmth folds, Lena's hips bucks and presses against her hand and all she sees are galaxies swirling in green embers as Lena calls her name.
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There's a serenity to them as Kara strokes Lena's hair, unconsciously timing it to her breathing, not stopping even as Lena finally breaks the silence permeating through the apartment, "You have to go back and see if we managed to stop Cadmus..."
"To see if you've managed to stop them, you mean.." Kara's voice wavering and fearful as she realizes what her actions to this point have entailed. She was going back to her future and leaving Lena to battle on her own against an enemy that had outsmarted them repeatedly. "I.." There are so many words fighting for prominence in her mind even as her hands itch to hold on and never let go.
It takes Lena's strength though to take the next step as she disentangles herself from strong arms, her words soothing Kara even as she does the unimaginable and loses all physical contact. She already feels bereft as she reaches for her clothes so carelessly discarded. "Its going to be fine, Kara...I can do this. You need to have faith in me."
Kara's eyes widen at the words. It was not about lack of faith. She truly believes in Lena, in her heroism and the fact that she was nothing like her Brother or Mother. She's the one that feels like a coward, like she's abandoning Lena as she had done to Alex, when she decided to travel back in time. "I'm the one who's leaving. I left Alex...and Maggie there.."
"To save her, Kara. You love her enough to change time." Kara notes the use of present tense and is amazed at the faith Lena is showing in her and the trust. "And I l...I'm going to help you succeed." The almost slip not getting pass Kara as Lena sees her eyes widen, so unfathomably blue. Lena knows exactly how she feels about Kara Danvers, she would do almost anything for her and had pledged her heart the moment Kara asked for her help.
She needs to do her part here and ensure that they really do get their chance in the future. Because just this one taste of Kara and what they could be has her hooked, absolutely and incontrovertibly addicted to her. It was really never going to go away and if she needed to help stop her Mother and Cadmus in order to get it back, then it was enough incentive to succeed. "You have to go back now. You've already spent too much time here, interacted with too many.."
Kara's always done better with actions as she rushes forwards, her speed rattling the table and couch and causing the curtains to billow but Lena does not notice as Kara has her in her arms, one hand on her cheek, the other around her waist as they actually hover a few inches of the ground. She does not even notice that because all she feels are Kara's lips on hers, a promise embedded in that kiss. To be together again, to get through this separation of time and space and to change all their futures for the better.
"I won't forget this..you." Its as much a promise as a declaration. The short time they had spent together imprinted on her soul, the experience ingrained in her consciousness. "I'll try and go back to the same time and place when we were ambushed by Cadmus." She wants to ask if Lena will be there, watching or if she would be safely ensconced somewhere else, waiting.
Lena wishes she could promise Kara more, give her a roadmap that they could follow and end up at exactly the point they need to. But too many variables were already in play and she's actually not sure if her interventions will work but she was going to try and save Kara's Sister and give this connection they have a chance to develop and deep down, she realizes that if need be, she would sacrifice all of it to save Alex because she knows, that's what Kara wants. "I will see you and I won't forget any of this either. Now please go."
Its not a kiss goodbye even if it feels like it for both of them. Like all the promises made, all the connections forged, all of it does not stand a chance against the tectonic shift of time.
Lena standing alone in the middle of Kara's apartment, her hands to her lips as she feels the slight shift in pressure as Kara speeds off, gearing up to reach Mach 2 and thus propelling herself forward in time.
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Earth 38 (Seven weeks from now)
Like before, Kara feels herself fading even as she notes instances of time flying past. She knows she has to speed up to reach Mach 2 but something is not quite right as she struggles to maintain her speed much less speed up. However, she does not have any choice anymore so she pushes past it, feeling like she's breaking apart not only because of the frequency that she's vibrating at but there's something embedded within her, pulling her apart as well. She knows that she needs to get back though as she forces herself forward, pushing past her limits to break through as she finally pushes past that temporal barrier and shoots up into the sky before streaking to the warehouse where she sees people she recognises though under such different circumstances.
Kara really tries to assimilate what she's seeing in front of her as her tableaux of memories overlays the current scene. The six people there a mixture of knowns and unknowns. She's relieved to see Alex, alive with that familiar pissed off look that signifies she's about to bring on a world of hurt. Maggie is there too, three officers standing next to her. But Kara's focus is on Lena who does not even look at her as she stands next to Alex.
It hits Kara then, its a standoff but the players are unexpected as she sees Maggie draw her gun, pointing it at her sister.
"Supergirl." Alex calls out her voice filled with the relief that Kara feels so acutely. But that feeling is short lived as she sees Alex raising her gun at Maggie and she cannot comprehend how this could have transpired.
She takes a step forward, already feeling her formidable strength dimming, That final push leaving her a hair's breath away from blowing out her powers. 'Alex.." her voice is weak but it triggers Lena who finally looks at her, eyes wide and unblinking. And she sees recognition there but there's something else, something deeper, more visceral that she cannot discern. Like a warning that Kara just cannot abide as she steps forward.
Like before, everything happens so fast as the officers react, their guns also drawn and aimed at Lena. Her hands are held out as if in surrender even as she finally speaks, "I'm sorry, Kara, I thought It was the only way." The words meant for comcfort even as two of the men fire.
Kara prays to Rao as she let's loose, reaching the tipping point as she propels her body to shield Lena and Alex, the bullets piercing flesh finally made weak.
End Part 4