"Tegan….do you have a minute?" I asked her as she stood against a wall checking her phone. Tegan looked up at me and smiled lightly. "Yeah, of course Sara, what's up?" I looked around the recording room and gestured towards the door biting my lip, "No, not in here. I need to talk to you outside.."
Tegan gave me a suspicion glace but didn't question it as she followed me out of the room. We walked down the hall and I could sense Tegan's curiosity as she followed close behind me into the woman's restroom. I guided her into the biggest stale, and locked the door behind us. I stood there facing the door with my head hanging for a long moment, holding my breath. What am I doing? Why did I bring her in here? The voice screamed in my head.
I squeezed my eyes hard one last time, and quickly turned around to find Tegan staring at me, standing in the center of the stall. She seemed more scared than she did inquisitive. Her eyes met mine and we just watched each other before Tegan took a breath to talk, "Why are we in here? Is something…up?" I looked to the side and reached over to rub my shoulder. I tried to make words, but my mouth didn't want to move. I sat in silence starring at the wall, just standing there with nothing better to do.
She took a few steps closer to me and put both of her hands on my shoulders. She bunched my shirt in between her fingers and solidly starred into my eyes. Her hands on my shoulders caught my breath, and made my body stiffen and my cheeks become warm. Tegan looked around at my face and saw how nervous I was, so she took her hand and brushed her thumb lightly on my blushing cheeks. The butterflies that suddenly formed in my stomach were undeniable.
"Sara…what's going on?" Tegan arched her head to the side lightly shifting her jaw back and forth. I bit my lip at her and looked her in the eyes, not knowing what exactly to say, or do, or even think. Yes, I brought her in here for a reason, but now that we were here I was having second thoughts on the whole situation. "Tegan…I-" I stopped myself. What am I doing!? This is Tegan! My sister! This is ridiculous! I took a quick breath and put a smile on my face. I took both of her hands in mine and pulled them away from my face, and placed them at her sides.
"I'm sorry about this. Nothing's wrong, just forget about it. Let's go back to the recording room." I smiled at her again and turned around to leave. I reached for the stall door handle when I felt a hand grip onto my shoulder. Before I could react, Tegan pulled me from my shoulder around, pressing me against her. I caught my breath in my throat as my face held close in front of hers. Her expression was soft; unreadable. She was looking down, at the floor it seemed. Her arm that was on my shoulder now cradled me around my back. I couldn't breathe; being this close to her made me too nervous for words. Tegan looked up at me then. Her gentle, brown eyes found their way into mine, and made my heart flutter faster than it ever has before. I could feel my heart beating hard in my chest, and I'm pretty sure Tegan could feel it too because she half smiled at me and pursed her lips lightly. "I don't think we should forget it…"