EDWARD POV

I sat on the sofa glaring at the dog as it sat looking at me.

Why the hell on any planet would someone name a dog Alan?

Well that's what Bella had decided to call it, and I hadn't argued, because I like sex.

He cocked his head to the side and barked, I ignored him, the only reaction being a growl rising in my chest. Renesmee walked in and the little sausage with stick legs started barking and almost vibrating with movement.

"aww." She gushed and bent down to pet him.

I laughed in disbelief, "oh don't are, that beast." I snapped and pointed at it.

"He has shagged, three pairs of my shoes, we've only had him four hours!" I yelled. Bella walked in and glared at me, picking it up and stroking him.

"Don't listen to dad, nasty daddy." She cooed.

Ness rolled her eyes, "I think you might be over exaggerating dad."

My eyes went wide, "Over exaggerating? Let me put it this way, if I took him to a show shoe, he would probably rip his dick off!"

"Edward." Bella snapped and Ness had to leave the room to keep from laughing.

Aimee walked in carrying shopping bags and I helped her with them.

"Thank you." She said and let out a long breath.

"You want a cup of tea?" I asked as we walked into the kitchen.

"Thank you." She whispered and sat down at the breakfast bar as I handed her a cup.

Anthony came in and kissed her temple as they started talking about the wedding. I sighed and went to leave when Ant shouted after me.
"Nice dog dad."

I turned and smirked at him, Aimee stifling a giggle. I walked back into the lounge to see Bella setting a ladder up against the wall. I frowned at her and pulled her off it.

She growled and I sighed, "You're not allowed in the loft."

Bella frowned and folded her arms, "What is there like a Jacuzzi and some loft girls wandering around naked up there or something."

I frowned, "You could fall through the ceiling."

She smirked, "It wouldn't hurt me.

I sighed and kissed her forehead.

"What are you going up there for?" I asked.

She shifted slightly and looked at the floor as my hands rubbed the tops of her arms.

"I want to put some stuff away; we don't need it... down here..." She swallowed and I pulled her into a tight hug.

"Okay sweetheart." I whispered and she kissed my cheek.

"Thank you." She whispered.

She walked to sit on the sofa and I wrapped my arms around her gently. I kissed her hair and she sighed happily.

"You want to go shopping this evening, we could drive to Seattle, go for a meal, lay in our meadow and star gaze." I trailed off huskily against her skull.

She giggled, "Are you trying to seduce me into letting you buy me a gift Mr Cullen."

I jumped over the back of the sofa and pulled her to lie on my chest. I pushed a piece of hair out of her eyes and she smiled at me happy expression.

"Its so good to see you smiling again." She whispered.

I laughed breathlessly, "You always manage to make me smile."

She beamed, "I think I'll take you up on the offer though, I need a dress for the wedding."

I winked, "You can have whatever you want my love."

She smiled and stood up, grabbing her bag and talking to Chris and Renesmee as they sat down and I pulled my coat on.

"You two can dog sit." She told them and threw ten dollars at them. I sighed, how old were they five?

Okay that sounded strangely hypercritical.

Even for me.

"Com on handsome." She whispered and took my hand. This wasn't good enough for me though. I grabbed her waist and threw her over my shoulder, carrying her out to the car. She giggled and banged on my back as I threw her in the car. I climbed in and blinked when she was suddenly straddling my lap.

"What are you doing?" I asked with a laugh.

She kissed my chest, "I think going into town can wait can't in, can't we jut send some time alone..."

I frowned, I knew why she was doing this. I caught her wrists as she tried to take off my shirt, she looked at me, her eyes caught.

"We need to talk about it Bella." I whispered.

She looked down and I moved to try and meet her gaze.

"My love..." I started and cupped her cheek but she pushed me away, climbing from the car and storming away.

"Bella?" I asked anxiously, calling after her as she started to run away from me. I ran after her, grabbing her waist as she made to run further.

"No don't touch me... don't." She sobbed and my heart broke, arms falling away. Was that it, she didn't want me anymore. Now I had failed her, denied her a child she would no longer have me.

The rain poured and she crumpled, holding her head in her hands and sobbing into the dirt.

I swallowed, "So that's it... you don't want me." I choked out.

She stood up and faced me, eyes wide and hurt.

"You'll leave me, you'll leave me like you did a century and a half ago... not being able to watch her grow up Edward..." I cried and I pulled her into a hug against her struggles. For really it was me who needed her comfort as well as her needing mine.

We had both watched as the our baby girl faded away, as she took her last breath in Bella's arms. As the part of my heart that belonged to her just turned to dust.

"We knew, the worst part is we knew." She sobbed, I pulled back to look into her face anxiously.

"I said, I said it felt wrong and I convinced myself as you did that it would be okay... that s long as we had each other it would be okay." She cried, "But it's not."

I swallowed, "It's not enough."

She shook her head, but her eyes snapped up as she had realised what she had said.

"Edward..." She gasped and took a step back towards me but I backed away.

"I'm not enough." I whispered.

She stumbled towards me but I backed away still, her finger tips brushing my bicep as she tried to pull me back.

"Edward don't..." she said and I shook my head. I knew she'd break my heart one day. that one day my luck would run out and I would lose her. Like a blind man losing his light I backed away from her, turning and running away from the sound of her cries. Knowing now that really I had nothing left to give, except the one thing I knew I never could.

No one could give Ellie back to her mother.

Not even me.

And the worst part was.

Now I realised Bella didn't want me back to try and give her anything.

She didn't want me back at all.

I reached the main road and ran further away from the house, the last thing I heard being the strangled cry from my angels lips, akmsot replying to my thoughts of everlasting love for her. Whether or not they were requited.
"Please come back."

But I couldn't. Like my lies had affected her when she were human her words however true or not true it didn't matter had cut me deep, and ironically it felt like I was bleeding to death.

Internally drowning in the loss that sloshed inside of me as I ran away from my life.

My former life to be correct.

For there was nothing left for me now...

Nothing.