A/N: Well, this chapter wanted to be written very quickly, so here it is...
Enjoy...
Danny was getting even more nervous when it looked like neither of the people in the room was willing to answer his question.
Gracie's mom turned to the little girl. "Grace, could you go outside for a moment? I believe that there's a vending machine down the hall, maybe the Commander can help you to get some candy?" She asked, looking pleadingly to the little girl and the serious man in the room.
Steve mustered up a smile and crouched to the little girl's eye level. "What do you say, Gracie? Do you want to go in search of something sweet?"
Grace didn't look too sure, but the small smile on her Danno's face convinced her. "Alright… I'll ask the nice lady outside if we can get some candy for Danno as well!" And with that, they both left the room.
Danny watched his little girl leaving the room with his friend and focused his attention on the woman standing in front of him. It was strange, because even though he couldn't remember her name, ever since she came into the room he knew that she was an important part of his life and that he felt very strongly about her.
She moved closer to the bed and lowering the railing, she sat down at Danny's side. "Danny, there's something we need to talk about…" She said, looking very nervous.
Danny couldn't help but to get nervous as well. "Ok, would you mind starting by telling me your name?"
She looked surprised. "Oh! Certainly! I'm sorry, the doctor said that you were experiencing some memory loss, but I never thought it was something this severe… My name is Rachel…"
Danny nodded. "Ok, your name is Rachel, and you're Grace's mum…" Asked Danny, trying to get confirmation on what little information he had. At Rachel's nod, he continued. "You're also Charlie's mum…"
Rachel nodded again, but before Danny could ask any more questions she interrupted. "Yes, but that's part of what I need to talk to you about Danny…"
Danny looked confused, but motioned her to go on. "Ok… Talk then… Somewhat this feels like a breakup talk…"
Rachel stiffened, but started talking anyway. "Alright. You and I met about 12 years ago, when you were a police officer in Newark. I rear ended your car and made up a stupid excuse to get you to give me driving lessons. A year later we were married, and a year after that, Grace was born."
It nearly broke Rachel's heart to see that Danny had no recollection of any of these events, and yet the sole mention of Grace's name made his face light up.
Danny interrupted her story. "Wait, if we met in Newark, why are we living in Hawaii now?"
Rachel sighed. "Danny, I will explain everything, but you need to listen to me, ok?"
Danny didn't look too sure. "Ok, go ahead…"
"Alright, Danny. After Grace was born we had a few good years…"
"A few good years?" Interrupted Danny.
"Yes, Danny! A few good years, what is wrong with a few good years?" Asked Rachel, getting irritated.
Danny shrugged. "Well, I'd like to think that I'm capable of doing better than 'a few good years'"
Rachel glared at him. "Well, maybe you would have, if it wasn't for your annoying habit of contradicting everything I say and your dangerous job!"
"What do you mean with that?" Danny asked with wide eyes.
Rachel took a deep breath and forced herself to calm down and look at Danny's eyes. "Danny… 7 years after we got married we were getting divorced…"
Danny was looking at her with a surprised expression on his face, but the fact that he hadn't interrupted her, encouraged her to keep going. "Two years after our divorce, I got married again… To Stanley Edwards. When he had to relocate to Hawaii, Grace and I moved with him… And… And that's when you decided to leave everything behind and follow…"
Danny shook himself and cleared his throat to try to make it work. "What about… What about Char- The baby… What about the baby?" He asked in a hoarse croak, lowering his eyes.
Rachel also couldn't bring herself to look at Danny anymore, hating to have to break this news to Danny again. "He… He's Stan's…" She moved to put her hand on Danny's shoulder, but he flinched away as if the touch burned him. "I'm so sorry, Danny…"
Danny shook his head, blinking rapidly. "Hey, you have nothing to apologize… In any case it's not your fault…" He said, looking at anywhere but in her direction.
Rachel withdrew her hand, moving away from Danny. "It's late… I'll leave you to rest… I'll send Grace in to say goodnight, ok?"
Danny just nodded, not trusting himself to talk to her anymore and watched her leave the room.
A couple of minutes later Grace and Steve came into the room, got Grace's things together and his precious little girl came closer to give him the best hug he could remember ever having. "I brought you some crackers, Danno… The nice lady outside said you could have them…"
Danny held her close. "Thank you Monkey… I love you…"
Gracie gave him a last squeeze. "I love you too Danno… And I'm sure Charlie does too…" She said with a sad smile, before leaving the room.
After Grace left, there were only Danny and Steve left in the room.
Danny could almost feel Steve looking at him, trying to figure out what was going out through his head, but Danny was just too tired to even think of talking about this whole mess. He only wanted to curl up in a dark corner and hide from the world for a while… a decade or two would be nice, but since he was stuck in a hospital bed with his observant friend watching his every move, he opted for the next best thing. "I'm tired, I'm gonna get some sleep…" He said, turning away from Steve and curling up on his side.
Of course Steve wouldn't let him be, so he moved around the bed to look at Danny's face. "Danny, do you want to talk about it?"
"Talk about it? What the hell is there for me to talk about, huh? It turns out she's not my wife! Tough luck… It also turns out the kid's not mine, as I initially thought… Well, one less mouth to feed I guess, right? Nothing to talk about!" His glare was literally dampened by the sudden tears flooding his eyes.
Steve's face seemed to crumple in sympathy. "Damn, Danno… I'm sorry…"
Danny shook his head. "Sorry about what, huh? There's no use feeling sorry for the loss of something that was not mine in the first place…" He said, trying and failing to stop some tears from falling. He scrubbed his hands angrily over his eyes. "Fuck…"
Steve crouched to get to Danny's eye level. "Danno, what can I do? How can I help?"
Danny looked at his friend, rubbing his throbbing forehead. "Could you get the nurse? Ask her to knock me out or something like that?" He asked in a voice full of tears.
Steve nodded and straightened himself to move to the door, but before he could move, Danny's hand latched onto his. "Wait! Wait… You must know! I know I'm not crazy, but I was so sure he was mine… And I could swear I was there… I swear to you, I was there when he was born! Please! Tell me that I didn't imagine being there when Charlie was born!"
Steve crouched again and squeezed Danny's hand fiercely. "You are not crazy Danno… You were there when he was born…" He said with a sad smile.
Danny's face crumpled, his breath hitching. "But… Why? If he's not… Then why would I be there?"
Steve reached out to gently pass his fingers through his friend's hair. " Stanley was out of the country on a business trip, he was too far away to make it here on time, and since Rachel needed you, you offered to be there for her. You're that much of a good guy…"
Danny chuckled, but it came out sounding more like a sob. "Well… being a good guy sucks…" He said, leaning closer to his friend.
Steve didn't bother trying to move away to get a nurse and decided to just push the call button. "Well, it doesn't look like it has stopped you before, Danno…" When the nurse poked her head, she took in the scene in front of her and with a reassuring nod to Steve, she moved out of the room.
The nurse came back to the room briefly to inject something in Danny's IV that made his headache start to fade and everything get fuzzy around the edges. He looked up as his friend kept petting his head awkwardly. "Steve?"
Steve tried to give him a reassuring smile. "Yeah Danno?"
"Why am I in Hawaii? What am I still doing here, if Gracie already has another family and doesn't need me anymore?" Asked Danny, in a small and sleepy voice.
Steve didn't falter on his hand's movement on Danny's head. "You're here because Grace needs you immensely, and because she loves you more than anything in the world. You're here because even though you moved to this pineapple infested hellhole, as you like to call it, to be with Grace; you've found more reasons to stay, for you, not only for Grace… You're still here because you've found family here as well…"
Danny blinked tiredly at his friend. "But I don't remember them…" He said, sounding sad and confused.
Steve lowered his hand to squeeze Danny's shoulder. "Don't worry about it, Danno… We'll remember for you for as long as you need us to…"
Danny reached out to pat Steve's hand and allowed his eyes to close, too exhausted to care about what else he had forgotten about his life, and hoping not to have any more unpleasant surprises.
TBC…
A/N: Well, I did my best to try not to show Danny as whiny or weak, not sure how good it came out...
As I said, this chapter wanted to be written right away, but in the future please bear with me, because I've got a couple of Hell weeks coming my way.
Thank you so much for reading, and I'd really like to hear what you think!
See you around!
