Okay so next week I will be unable to update,

I know that this news is tragic but don't you fret,

I will be updating 2-3 times next week to try and make up for it,

Sorry for the inconvenience,

Now where were we?

Oh yes I remember!

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"Really? I remember when that happened," Penn said her face showing a genuine smile. I wonder if she would tell me about other past events or if I will end up being reminded not to live in the past.

"Why do you think that was what I remembered first?" I asked. Penn look reluctant to answer the question but after a few seconds of hesitation she quickly answered me.

"Well swimming has always been important to you so maybe that's why or it could be that it was from your first lifetime so take your pick," Penn said jokingly.

"So, do I really have to dress up to meet my brother?" I asked not quite fond of the idea.

"Did you not see how out of place you looked in your jeans and a t-shirt yesterday," Penn asked surprised. To be honest I hadn't taken much notice to how they had dressed but now that I thought about my mother and Penn had both been wearing gowns and my Dad and Jared had both worn suites.

"Oh no! You don't always wear fancy stuff do you?" I asked yet another stupid question.

"The horror even on casual Fridays," Penn mocked me and we both laughed.

"So I guess that's a yes then," I said my voice no longer as peppy.

"Oh come on it's not that bad come on let's take a look at your closet," Penn said as she pulled me into my fairly large closet. "Which one catches your eye?" Penn asked me gesturing around the closet. Instantly my eye's are drawn to a navy blue lace dress that had a tight fitted bodice and lacy tiers came out and cascaded to the ground starting from the waist. I pointed to it in awe.

"That one," I said and Penn smiled at me widely, as if she had known that was what I would have picked that exact dress.

"Flawless isn't it and only you would be able to pull off a dress like that," Penn commented taking the hook off of the rack and hanging it up on the inside of the bathroom door.

I walked in to try it on and then an alarming thought crossed my mind I had never tried on a dress like this before at least not in this lifetime and I had no idea what I was doing. Then another wave of dizziness came over me as I sat down on the toilet seat lid.

"This is so heavy," complained as I walked out of Penn and I's room and into the hallway where Jared stood watching me hold up my dress in the front. I think it amused him to watch me struggle.

"Need any help Lucy?" he asked as light flowed through the window illuminating his smug smirk damn him and his good at everything ways, I wish Penn were here so I could ask her to help me lace up the back of the dress but she had to head out early it was here engagement party the first one I would ever be attending I felt so sad that in the end her husband the love of her life would eventually die and she would live most likely close to well forever. Because of this I had a dress made specifically for this occasion it was going to be my first dress that wasn't a hand me down and I think if I never found mister right it would be okay I would simply marry this dress. It had dark navy blue lace and oh it was stunning.

"Shut up can you just please lace this up for me," I asked and he chuckled in his deep voice and then gestured for me to turn around and I did so as his fingers danced across my back as he easily laced it up. "You know one day the trends will change and ladies won't wear just dresses we will be able to wear pants without being judged just you wait."

"Oh no doubt however it won't happen in your lifetime on earth," Jared said smugly as he helped me down the stairs. My hand clasped in his.

"Then maybe I will have to come back," I said.

I found myself back on a closed toilet seat. So that is were this dress is from or the design inspired by at least.

"Are you okay in there?" Penn asked me from the other side of the door.

"Just another memory," I wonder why I was remembering now? Why couldn't I see this earlier was it a sign because I had seen Daniel in dreams before I met him seriously though what could it possibly mean? You know what it doesn't matter I can worry later. I struggled into the dress and then walked out holding up the front similarly to the memory.

"What did you remember?" Penn said as her fingers smoothly began to lace up the back of the dress. I found myself going over the memory yet again.

"Just the dresses origin I said I didn't go into details the moment seemed privet and I didn't want to share to much. Penn got quite probably remembering her husband. I know I shouldn't ask but just as she finishes and starts to lead me to breakfast the words slip out of my mouth.

"What was he like?" I ask her.

"Who?" Penn says dose she really not know or not want to answer.

"Your husband," I say and her eyes seem to change shade a little they seem lighter.

"His name was Edmund and he had light hazel eyes with chestnut hair he was really sweet, kind and caring," Penn relied and although she didn't say much it was enough to know that she missed him and I could tell that if she said more she might cry. We sat down only for a boy a few years older then us to sit down opposite us he had dark hair like mine his eyes were few shades lighter though and he had pale skin similar to mine.

"Luce this is James your older brother," Penn said. James's had extended and shook mine firmly.

"I got here early and thought I would join you for breakfast," he said his voice reminding me of dads. As soon as I had thought it Dad and Mom sat down on either side of him making quick conversations with James and greetings asking him questions and such. I didn't notice much though as another memory came to me.

"Are you my brother?" I asked Jared as we lay and looked at the stars I look to be 5 at the time. We had our hands clasped together and we were both smiling.

"No," Jared said and then laughed.

"But you and Penn are siblings right?" I asked slightly confused.

"Yes," he said.

"Do I have any siblings?" I asked him curiously.

"Yes," Jared said his words followed by a yawn.

"Are you tired?" I asked him.

"Yes," I think all he was currently capable of saying right now was yes and no. I yawned noticing how tired I was and drifted off to sleep below the stars.

"Is Lucy okay," Jared's voice asked from beside me. When did he get here?

"She is fine she has been regaining some old memories is all," Penn said and then they noticed I had rejoined them, well mentally at least although physically I guess I was always there. It didn't feel like it though.

"That is marvellous," my mother said beaming.

"Well she must be glad to be reunited with the love of her life love and all because he's been moping around ever since she's been gone." James said and then everything went silent I believe some dropped something for all I knew it could have been me I was lost in thought sure I had met Daniel but from this lifetime I could hardly call him the love of my life and he wasn't here now anyway.

"What," I could hear my voice crack. "Excuse me I am no longer hungry," I said robotically as I stood and headed back to my room I heard someone follow me but was too lost to bother checking to see who it could be.

"Are you okay," Penn asked and with that I snapped as tears streamed down my face I didn't know why I was crying but now I couldn't stop.

"What... What did he mean?" I asked.

"Well before you had met Daniel you had been in love you know," she said looking at me patting the spot next to her on the bed as I sat next to her.

"With who?" I asked.

"Jared."

"I don't want you to go," I said wrapped tightly in Jared's arms.

"I don't want to go either but in a year when your 18 you will go home too," he said reassuringly.

"What if you find someone else," I say holding back tears.

"Never could I find someone better than you," Jared said smiling sadly at me he lifted his thumb and whipped away a tear that streaked down my face.

"Do you promise," I asked.

"Promise what?" he said in a whisper.

"To always love me," I said and looked onto his eyes.

"Always I promise," he said and hugged me tighter.

"Run away with me," I pleaded.

"What?" his voice braking as it rarely did.

"We could run and grow old together we don't need eternity we could just be happy here," I said desperately.

"Relax it's only a year and I will be counting down the days," he said and then he kissed me passionately.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

It turns out he should have been the one who was worried. He reached the end of his countdown only to be left empty handed and I know why because the old Luce found somebody else.

Daniel

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-Gray