Trilogy number one: Sam and Emily

Scarred Love

.IV

I'd lived in La Push for a total of one month and seven days. And I was loving it. Leah and I were back on very good terms again which was good, but Sam had been popping by a lot more often and each time I found myself blushing, or getting nervous and fidgety. Not a good sign.

It was just crazy. I felt some sort of... some fort of... some fort of pull towards him. Like you get when you stick a magnet to the fridge, it practically flies out of you're hand. Well that was what was happening to me, and I was doing everything in my will power to NOT go to him.

So I baked. I spent more time baking and I found myself making enough food to feed an army. So I began selling things at the Port Angeles markets every fortnight. Leah came with me once, and nearly died of boredom. When I'd asked her the next time she made up some excuse about yoga.

I found those Saturdays quite enjoyable, and people often came back to my stall for my cakes and pies, seeing as I put them at a reasonable price.

The issue with Lou had blown up like crazy around town. It all happened. She gave her virginity to Paul, he dumped her the next week, parents got involved, Lou refused to go to school for weeks until her parents decided to go away with the family for a few months, leaving Kim alone and in my company, as she came around quite often these days. Even though I was a few years older then her, the age gap wasn't really noticeable, as she seemed a lot older then she was.

I sat in my chair behind my table, labelling a few boxes of cakes when a shadow dropped over my table.

I looked up and almost gasped.

"Sam?"

"Hey!" He said smiling. "You're house was empty and then I remembered what day it was, and I decided, well. I could use a few more pies."

"Oh. You drove out here for some pies?" I asked, frowning.

"That and – well uh... I was wondering..." he took a deep breath. "?" He said it all in one breath and I had to shake my head to understand it.

"What? No. Sam. No, you're my cousins ex! I only just got her back!" I found my will severely slipping and it was like a knife to my heart to say no to him.

"Please Emily. I know, that it sounds bad. That – I know she's my ex and your cousin. But I've never felt this way in my life. Please Emily. One movie. We can go as friends." His face looked so crestfallen already, and my palms sweat as I tried to decide whether or not I should go.

"As friends," I said quietly, handing him a box of pies and taking his money.

"I'll pick you up Friday, at seven."

And that's when my life changed.

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I stared in my mirror before turning to Kim, "how about this?" Kim looked up from her thick novel, and beamed.

"Perfect!"

I looked back in the mirror, it was Fall, but also insanely could because of our location, so I found myself in black jeans, a white stretch cotton shirt and a red cotton jacket with white pom poms hanging from the cute thin hoody at the back. My hair was braided out of my face, and the boots I borrowed from Leah – though I didn't tell her what for – looked great.

When I had told Kim about my date, I had expected her to judge me. She didn't. Instead she came over and lay out various outfits, smiling the whole way through. And now here I was, Friday night, waiting for Sam to show up.

"I got a text from Lou," Kim said quietly, as she always did. "She loves London. I think shes finally starting to feel better again. But she isn't the same as she used to be, even over the phone I can here that."

"She's on the mend now, and that's all that matters. Those boys were very stupid and immature."

Kim nodded, "they still laugh about it. Even when I'm sitting right there – because I have an assigned seat next to Jared in History- and I think they deliberately say it out loud. But, I feel really bad because even after everything I still really really like Jared."

I laughed softly, "Kim it's normal. As much as those kids are rude punks they're cute. You can't help it."

Knock knock knock.

I let out a squeal and slapped my hand over my mouth while Kim giggled. "I better get home then," she said, following me downstairs.

I nodded but paused in front of the door, my hand to afraid to open it. "Oh god Kim this is a bad idea isn't it!" I whispered. "Leah would hate me if she found out."

"Emily, life is full of choices, sometimes what may seem bad for others, is the good one for you. Now go have some fun for gods sake. And open the door, I wanna get home tonight not tomorrow."

I nodded and opened the door, smiling as I saw Sam standing there in dress pants and a crisp blue shirt, holding a single rose. "Hey," I murmured.

"Hi," he was grinning like the Cheshire cat.

I blinked twice, "oh this is Kim, Kim, Sam."

She blushed and nodded once, before mumbling about leaving and practically grabbed her bike and flew down the drive.

"She's shy. Um, give me one second." I put the rose in my thin vase with the flowers I'd picked this morning and grabbed my bag before meeting him on the porch. I followed him to the car, "so um, what are we seeing?"

"I thought we'd just decide when we got there, in case you had anything you wanted to see." He opened my door for me, before closing it again and came around the drivers side. "And then I thought maybe we could grab dinner after."

Not long later we found ourselves looking at the movie listings before deciding on I Am Legend and needless to say it was an absolutely amazing movie. Except for when the dog died.

"So dinner?" Sam said stretching as the credits rolled, people got up and began leaving so I did the same. Nodding I let Sam lead the way and before long we were outside a small diner, cute and cosy. Our hostess lead us to an available booth, all the while checking Sam up and down before turning her snooty nose on me as we sat.

"So what can I get you guys tonight?" Her nasally voice made me cringe.

"I'll have the uh..."I glanced at the menu, "the chicken fillet and salad please."

She scribbled it down before looking at Sam, "and what can I get you?" I almost laughed out loud but stopped myself as Sam said:

"The same as Em. But twice the size if you could." The hostess nodded, glared at me and then laughed; most likely to go gush about how hot her customer was. Hey! I work in a diner I know what goes on back in the kitchen.

"So...You like the movie?" Sam asked as he fiddled with a wilting flower in the middle of the table.

"Yeah it was god. Will Smith is a great actor."

"Yeah." He frowned at the flower, and just as I opened my mouth to speak – he did. "Look Emily I had two reasons for asking you out with me tonight."

"Okay?"

"Reason one; to spend time with you, obviously. But reason two..." he practically crushed the flower in his palm. "You are going to need to be very open minded. The elders told me I have waited to long, and for me being around you just isn't enough any more."

I held my hand up, "stop rambling and get to the point Sam."

The waitress came at that moment to deliver our dishes, bending low in front of Sam when placing his plate in front of him. When she left Sam growled. He legit growled. Like an animal growl. I frowned at him.

"Emily..." he rubbed his eyes. "Emily I'm in love with you."

I dropped my fork and stared at him wide eyed. "Excuse me?"

"I love you," he stared at my face, fire burning in his eyes as I felt my heart pumping a mile a minute.

"Take me home Sam. Right now." I grabbed my bag and stood up, storming out of the diner, waiting by the car. Sam and I both got in wordlessly, the drive silent. And then he jammed the car to a halt.

"I told you I needed to talk to you. And I do, that was just the beginning-"

"You said tonight was us as 'friends' and then you go and say that!"

"But there's more Emily, I swear there is so much more. And you need to listen to me, I mean I didn't believe it myself but the elders put a lot in perspective for me, they taught me everything. I had no one to go through this with. I'm the first of our kind in a long while." He gulped, "I'm a werewolf."

I stared at him blankly.

And then I burst out laughing.

"Wow Sam, way to lighten the mood. You just made me forgive you. But we're halfway home now so we may as well keep going." I waited for him to laugh and start the car, but he just stared at me with this lost expression that made me gulp. "You're joking right?"

He sighed and started the car driving in silence, while I sat there trying to think if he was pulling a continuous long joke, or he actually meant it. Or he was delusional and needed to be in a psyche hospital.

When we pulled up outside my house, he stopped the car, got out, practically pulled me – but gently- out of the car and dragged me into the woods. So I did what any sane person would do. I screamed.

He spun around in shock before clamping his hand over my mouth, "why in the hell are you screaming!" He demanded.

"YouffDraffnginMuffimfWommfs," it came out like jumbled garble, and he removed his hand. "You're dragging me into the woods, at night. Why else would someone scream!"

An amused expression flicked across his face before he rolled his eyes, and began directing me more gently towards the deep dark forest behind my house. "I'm going to show you I'm not joking."

I slammed to a stop, "what the hell? What do you mean?"

"I'm going to phase for you."

"Phase?"

"Wolf terminology. For changing, now come on." So I stumbled along behind him as he marched into the woods before he stopped abruptly and sat me down on a log that was definitely rotting, seeing as it cracked a little under my weight. "Now wait here, and please for the love of god, don't run away screaming, I promise, I would never hurt you." He placed a hot chaste kiss to my forehead before stripping off as he walked away.

I don't know what I was more shocked at seeing, his bare ass or the kiss.

I wrapped my arms around myself as my teeth chattered, the cold air whooshing through, flicking my now loose braid around my face. I huffed in annoyance as I unsuccessfully tried to shift it out the way.

"This is crazy," I muttered. "Sam I'm leaving, seriously. I can't even see you and-AH!" I slammed my hand over my mouth as a gigantic bear – no wolf – no bear – wolf – bear – ugh what the hell was it? A wolfbear. Yes. A gigantic black wolfbear appeared fro behind a bush, its dark brown eyes glowing in the moonlight. It was huge.

"Its a – Its a – b-!" And I took off running. Like any sane human being would, all the while screaming for Sam to run for his life and that the lame joke was over.

I finally realised I was running in circles, when I smacked into the same stupid fern from before. "My god, I'm going to die," I wheezed out, screaming when warm arms pulled me to face them, and stopping when I saw Sam. "Oh my god, did you see that thing? What the hell was it, Oh my god, I thought I was going to die, we have to get out of here right now!" Where did cool calm collected Emily go? Oh that's right, it left when she saw that big monster!

"Emily, would you please just stop talking." I opened and closed my mouth like a fish before waiting. "That wolf was me." I felt my body go cold and frigid he was telling the truth.

"You...you...you turn into a wolf," I whispered in shock. "Oh my god what is the world coming to!"

"Come on. Let me get you home and can explain more from there okay?" I nodded dumbly and allowed him to lead me out of the woods and up to the house. I unlocked the door after a few minutes of fumbling with the key, walking to the kitchen and collapsing at a chair at the table. Sam sat across from me.

"This concerns you more then you think Emily," he began, toying with an apple. "Like I've told you, I am a werewolf, the first in La Push since a very long time ago. But a few others will be joining me soon. I've see the signs. Jared Cameron is next. And I'm fairly sure his friend Paul will be also-"

"Wait, how do you even know that?" I demanded, coming out of my stupor state.

"You've seen them, how they snap at people with one word, that they've been growing a hell of a lot faster then a lot of the guys in their year? I have no doubts that within a few weeks, Jared and Paul should be in my pack, god knows I need the company thats for sure."

"B-but why are you a wolf? I mean is that why you broke up with Leah? Because, she was into that whole supernatural stuff."

Sam sighed, "I turn into a wolf to...to protect La Push."

I looked at him like he had two heads. "To protect La Push from what? The sun?"

He smirked before getting his serious face back again. "Well...There is a reason why we phase." He took a deep breath. "Vampires."

"Vampires?" I choked out.

"Yes. Vampires are the reason why we phase, something just wakes up in our blood and its like...well you turn into a wolf. I protect la Push from possible vampire attacks."

I glared, "there's vampires in La Push!"

He visibly stiffened at the idea, "no. But there are in Fork. A family of them. They claim to be good though, they drink off animals instead of humans. Anyway I can't attack them, years ago our ancestors signed a treaty with them, they can't come onto our land and we'd let them live in peace."

"So you're a werewolf because of some vampire clan in Forks that supposedly don't munch on humans...Okay." I breathed and squinted my eyes. "So why did you dump Leah?"

The pained expression in his face nearly made me keel over and cry, but he replaced it with a mask and took a deep shaky breath. "There is another things shape shifters do, we imprint."

"Imprint."

"yes imprint. When the elders explained it to me I thought they had been smoking something other then their tobacco. But then it happened. The day I saw you in Summer. The first time we met," an almost blissful look appeared over his face. "I had to break it off from Leah, it wasn't fair to her. When I loved you so much more."

"You don't even know me," I whispered.

"I don't need to. Imprinting gives you the correct push into the right relationship for you. And to the person who'd best carry on the gene. I imprinted on you Emily, and I don't regret any minute of it."

"So you don't regret tearing my cousin apart then?" I snapped, standing from the table.

"Of course I regret that bit!"

"If you weren't a wolf you'd still be with her!" I yelled.

"I would have ended up with you, we are meant to be Emily, regardless of Leah."

"Well," I threw my hands at my hips, "I don't care, Oh Powerful Shape Shifting One, because Leah is my best friend, my sister and my cousin and I refuse to hurt her like that! Get out-" I was caught off guard when he practically threw himself at me, wrapping me up in his strong arms and fusing his lips to mine, kissing me roughly but gently at the same time. What shocked me was my reaction. Throwing my arms around his neck I threw myself into the kiss, my body tingling all over as his hands roamed up and down my sides, gasping as we hit a wall.

His lips left mine so I could breathe before tracing down my jawline to my neck, sucking lightly as his hands toyed with the hem of my jacket that was still on. My hand traced his chiselled defined chest, as I found thinking becoming increasingly difficult, I nearly forgot my own name I'm sure.

He hit an especially tender spot, causing me to make a sound I'd never made before in my life. His hands slid under my jumper and shirt, staying at my waist, his hot thumbs grazing up and down as I shuddered a shiver, goosebumps popping up everywhere. I felt his smirk against my neck, before he made his way back to my mouth, kissing me more gently then before, taking his time thoroughly exploring my mouth.

"Sam," I gasped when he pulled back, what just happened hitting me full swing in the face. He moved in against but I pushed backward, moving my face. Sliding out from between him and the wall, I leant against the table for support. "Sam. We – we – we can't."

"Emily," he whined, reaching out for me as I stumbled back.

"I can't hurt Leah."

"You want to be with me. That little show there was quite enough proof for me, so why can't you just let yourself be happy!" He growled it. "I love you and I won't let you go!" My heart swelled at the words, but my mind was reeling. This was absolutely crazy.

"Get out! Please, god, just get out. And don't come back Sam." Those were my fatal last words. Before I knew it there was a rippling wind, a loud roar, before a massive pain went up my left side, and everything went black.

A/N.

Hoping you enjoyed it. R and R :D

Theme song for my little kissing scene, It Will Rain by Bruno Mars.