A/N: This chapter will contain a bit of sexual action between Shuuhei and Renji. I hope I got everyone in character . Anyway, enjoy!
To everyone's disappointment, the search for the hollows that day turned up no results. There had been no attacks and no one had felt any spiritual presence except for their own. Byakuya had contacted the captain commander and asked if the location was correct, and it was. Perhaps this just wasn't a good day for hollow-hunting.
After the sun went down, the four shinigami began their slow walk back to the hotel. They were all quiet, lost in their own thoughts. Suddenly, Rangiku's loud, cheerful voice broke the silence.
"I saw a pretty good looking club around here earlier! Anyone want to check it out?"
Now, all the shinigami were tired, worn out, and frustrated that their mission wasn't starting off very well. However, clubs were known to make you forget all your troubles, to make you enjoy a couple of hours, no matter how messed up your life was. And so, Renji, Kira, and Shuuhei were all for the idea. Byakuya, not a fan of loud music, drinking, and crowded areas, continued on to the hotel alone, while the other four began to search for the club.
"Oh, here it is!" Rangiku exclaimed, and led the way to the doors and inside.
The music was indeed loud. So loud it was extremely hard to hear, even if you shouted. Young human men and woman were out on the dance floor, moving to the beat of the pounding music, if there though it was pretty hard to find a beat. Off to the side was a small bar, and next to it were some comfy looking armchairs.
"Come on!" Rangiku yelled over the noise of the music, and grabbed Kira and Renji each by an arm and pulled them in, Shuuhei trailing after.
An hour later found Rangiku dancing with a tall, muscular man with long reddish-brown hair that fell down his back, all black clothing, and a tattoo of a snake on his upper right arm. Rangiku had been dancing non-stop, and many different men had gathered to watch the beautiful woman dance and wait for a turn. They were practically drooling.
Renji and Shuuhei were dancing together, and a group of girls, almost as many as the men that were watching Rangiku, had gathered around them, gazing with lust. They were also practically drooling.
Kira, however, was not dancing, nor had he been since they had arrived. A couple of girls had asked, but he turned them down politely and went to sit in an armchair. He didn't look like he wanted any company, so none found him. His eyes were locked on Renji and Shuuhei, watching them move rhythmically. Oh how he wished it could be him dancing with Shuuhei, holding him close, kissing him softly….
The blond lieutenant looked away, tears in his eyes. Stop it, he told himself, blinking quickly. It would do no good to think about these things. It wasn't going to happen, plain and simple. Shuuhei loved Renji, that was easy to see. It was Renji who held his affections, not Kira. Would it ever be him? Kira doubted it. Watching Shuuhei and Renji dance together, looking into each other's eyes, made him believe they were more in love than ever.
Be glad they're happy, Kira told himself, trying with all his might to do so. They're you're friends. As long as they're happy that's all that should matter. Kira knew he was being selfish, but it was not hard to be. Shuuhei was sweet, caring, and incredibly sexy. He was everything Kira dreamed of having, everything Kira wanted. He was someone other than Gin.
When Gin Ichimaru was still with the Soul Society, he and Kira had had a very close relationship. Kira had loved his captain deeply, and believed that Gin loved him too. He did anything Gin asked, and admired him above all others. Each kiss they had shared, each tender moment, made Kira feel alive, made him believe everything was all right as long as he had Gin. Gin was all he needed. And it was a lie, all a lie. Gin never cared for him. His captain's betrayal had hit Kira hard, and sent him into a deep depression for a long time. His world as he knew it had shattered, and there was no one there to pick up the pieces. Until Shuuhei came along.
Shuuhei and Kira had always been friends, but when Kira became involved with Gin, he saw less and less of Shuuhei, and they slowly grew apart until they would go weeks at a time without talking. Kira was always with Gin, and didn't have time for his other friends. And, even after pushing Shuuhei away, even though he never made the effort to be with him, to talk and hang out, even though he had tossed him to the side like a dirty sock, Shuuhei came back. It was Shuuhei who brought Kira back to reality, who made him believe that life was worth living again. Shuuhei had been there for him, day in and day out, was always ready to listen and give Kira a shoulder to cry on. It wasn't long before Kira found himself falling for Shuuhei, and falling hard. He thought that after what had happened with Gin he wouldn't ever love again, but Shuuhei had changed that. However, he knew that Shuuhei was with Renji, and had made himself forget his feelings for his friend, to pretend that he didn't need Shuuhei to like him in that way, that loving him as a friend was enough. He'd kept that up for a while, but now it seemed he wanted Shuuhei more than he had ever wanted anything in his life. How the hell he was ever going to get through this mission he wasn't sure.
Three hours later, Rangiku, Renji, and Shuuhei were back at the hotel. Kira had decided to take a walk for a little while, and said he would be back shortly.
In their room, Shuuhei and Renji plopped down on their beds, exhausted but happy. A night at the club was just what they had needed to lift their spirits. Shuuhei, however, couldn't get rid of the feeling that something was wrong. Something that had to do with Renji. Although the two had danced together practically the whole time, and Renji had smiled and acted like everything was great, Shuuhei had the nagging sensation that something was wrong. Looking over at his boyfriend, he found the red-head staring into the distance, eyes clouded over. Is he thinking about me? Shuuhei wondered, though he knew somehow Renji was not. The thought that worried him most was that Renji might be thinking of someone else.
"Renji?" Shuuhei murmured softly, and watched as Renji snapped out of his trance, eyes coming back into focus.
"Yeah?" he asked, looking over at his boyfriend and smiling. The smile though, didn't seem to reach his eyes.
He loves me, he loves me, he loves me, Shuuhei tried to convince himself, attempting but failing to get rid of the feeling that something was off between them. He got up and walked over to Renji's bed, sitting down next to him. Renji seemed to stiffen a bit, but Shuuhei forced himself to ignore it.
"I love you," he whispered, leaning close to Renji. "I love you so much."
"Shuuhei," Renji began, biting his lip. He had to tell Shuuhei about Byakuya. He couldn't keep going on like this. It wasn't right, and it filled him with guilt.
"Shuuhei," he began again, and turned to face the other, palms sweating. However, before he could say anything more, Shuuhei's lips were on his, kissing him deeply, fervently. Renji couldn't help but moan softly into the kiss, his eyes flickering closed as Shuuhei pushed him down until he was lying back on the bed, Shuuhei hovering over him. Shuuhei's eyes were needy, and Renji couldn't deny him these kisses, couldn't deny him love.
He sighed softly as Shuuhei kissed his collar bone, then down his neck, feather light touches. Then their lips were together again, and god, he tasted so bloody good, but still Renji couldn't help imagining this was his captain, that this was Byakuya doing these things to him, drawing these moans from him.
Shuuhei pressed his body against Renji's, his tongue licking the other's lips until Renji opened his mouth, letting him in. Their tongue's battled, fighting for dominance, and Renji's hands found Shuuhei's hair, though it wasn't the long, silky, raven locks he longed for, and tugged on it almost painfully, pulling Shuuhei closer. Shuuhei broke away to plant soft kissing across Renji's jaw, and Renji let out a soft sigh that was almost a purr, enjoying Shuuhei's lips on his skin. He imagined Byakuya doing this to him, Byakuya kissing him so intoxicatingly; Byakuya's hands all over him, touching and caressing him, making him feel so completely blissful.
Renji let out a gasp as Shuuhei's cold hands slipped under his shirt, making him shiver. Then his shirt was off completely, and Shuuhei was staring down at the perfectly toned and muscled chest and stomach, a slight smirk on his lips. He was the one doing this to Renji, making him feeling these things, no one else. All traces of worriment and doubt that Shuuhei had had before had flown out of his mind.
The 9th division lieutenant lowered his head and licked one of Renji's pert nipples before taking it into his mouth and sucking hard.
"Nng!" Renji let out a strangled gasp as Shuuhei's tongue played with his nipple, caressing it teasingly. He bit down gently, and Renji's head fell back, eyes closed, mouth open in a silent moan. Shuuhei smirked, then licked over where he had bit soothingly, keeping his eyes on the expression on Renji's face.
After doing the same to the other nipple, Shuuhei kissed Renji lightly one, twice, three times, hands finding Renji's hairband and tugging it out until beautiful strands of crimson locks fell around Renji, framing his face and making him look even more sexy, if that was possible. Their lips met once more, and they settled into a night of passion and desire.
It was late when Kira finally arrived back at the hotel. He'd been out walking for longer than he thought he would, and when he reached his room it was dark and silent. Kira turned on a light, so as not to trip on the way to his bed, and let out a soft gasp. Shuuhei and Renji were lying on Renji's bed, arms around each other, Shuuhei's head on Renji's bare chest. Though a blanket covered them up to their waists, it wasn't hard to tell they were both completely naked.
Kira drew in a shaky breath and forced himself to look away, quietly making his way to his bed. He flicked off the light, and lay there silently, tears running down his face, until he fell asleep.
A/N: Okay, I really don't think I'm good at make-out scenes. Oh well, perhaps I'll get better. I feel kind of bad for Kira. And Shuuhei. . The next chapter is going to bring some big changes for everyone, and it will probably be the most exciting chapter yet. ^^
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