A/N: So I just want to make something clear. I know there's mistakes in this story and trust me when I say I try to make each chapter better than the last. Just please, bear with me on this. ALSO, I would like to make a shout out to Liz-in-a-teacup who is a pretty awesome person. ^.^ Her character will be joining part of this story so please enjoy. Again, thanks to the people who reviewed/favorited/followed so far, I do appreciate it! ^.^ Hope the beginning of the chapter isn't too confusing!

Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Call of Duty or the characters except Natalie, Alex, Manuel, Allison, Madison and Liz-in-a-teacup owns Lieben.

Warning: This story might/will contain romance, humor, angst, hurt/comfort, sexual content, strong language, light yaoi (boy x boy), blood, gore, and mentions of rape.

You have been warned!

OoO- Same time, just switching POV.

XxX-Later on that day or time has passed by

·Hate Isn't Far From Love·

Chapter 4: What's wrong with me?

"You're not ready for this." Ghost harshly whispered into my ear.

"I can assure you I am, Sir." He groaned before turning back to Soap.

"Ready for your first mission with the 141?" Roach asked. His face covered with a mask and goggles. I took a deep breath.

"Of course." Roach, Soap, Ghost, Yuri, Price, and I all got on the helicopter.

"Let's go, Nikolai!" Price ordered.

There's a massive pounding in my head and my ears are still ringing. "Keep your eyes open, Tricks! We're here!" Soap yelled. Roach threw his arm around my waist, trying to help me up while Yuri kept a rag to my head trying to stop the bleeding.

"Here we are, I'll pick you up in one hour. Good luck my friends." Nikolai said. We got off the chopper and quietly walked through the forest.

"No tangos in sight." Soap confirmed.

"Move forward." Price ordered. We got closer until we reached the buildings.

"Two snipers on the roof top." I warned.

"Take them down before they spot us." I nodded, aimed and shot.

I was tired, I couldn't even keep my eyes open. They're voices were far away, yet I can still feel Roach's arm around my waist. My legs gave out on me and I fell to the ground.

"No! Tricks! keep your eyes open!" Soap yelled. I felt someone pick me up bridal style.

"M'just going to take a quick nap." I mumbled.

"No, my lady, please stay awake." Yuri pleaded. I slowly opened my eyes and everything was a blur.

"Roach..." my voice cracked, he looked down to look at me with worry filled eyes.

"Yeah?"

"How did I do...on my first mission?" My vision went black as soon as I asked the question.

"Nikolai, we got what we needed. We're on our way to the extraction point."

"Copy, I'm on my way, Price." We ran back through the forest, Ghost turning back to look at me constantly. Something was bugging me in the back of my mind but I simply ignored it, I can't risk being distracted. A shot rang through the air.

"Shit!" Yuri stumbled, we instantly took cover behind the trees and logs. I looked up to see the Russians firing at us. "Take fire!" Soap yelled. We fired back but there was too many of them.

"Nikolai! We have been compromised! Where are you?!"

"I'm on my way, I'll arrive in three minutes." I was shooting and throwing grenades when I suddenly realized something and stopped.

I looked around me and froze, didn't I have a dream similar to this? I turned to see Ghost a few feet away from me, a M1911 strapped to his leg. My blood drained from my face, my breathing getting faster, I stood up trying to get away.

"This can't be it." I whispered to myself.

"RPG's!" Soap yelled. All of a sudden, there's an explosion close to where I'm standing, closing my eyes at the sudden pain in my head. The next thing I knew, Ghost was on top of me, my back to the ground. An RPG flew over our heads and hit a tree nearby, causing the ringing in my ears to get more painful.

"Tricks is hit! I repeat, Tricks is hit!" He yelled. I wish he didn't though, the ringing in my ears already hurt due to the explosion and him yelling wasn't helping at all. It's a wonder how I'm not deaf. "What is wrong with you?" He growled.

"Just help her up! Nikolai is here-c'mon!" I heard Price yell. I can feel something warm slide down my face but I'm in too much pain to care.

"J-Just let me go, I'm fine." I mumbled and tried to push Ghost off me. Ghost simply ignored me and tried to help me sit up, Yuri placed his hands under my arms and dragged me back inside the chopper.

"Yuri, grab the towel over there and try to stop the bleeding!"

"When is she going to wake up, Lieben? It's been 3 bloody days." There was a sigh.

"I don't know...Sir." She sounded annoyed-wait, what? She?

"Maybe you're doing something wrong." Ghost's voice rang throughout the room, clearly irritated.

"Maybe she just doesn't want to wake up." A low growl came from Ghost.

"Just do what you were brought here to do." He hissed. I swear I almost 'Oohh'ed at that but decided against it and kept my mouth shut.

"I'll do what I can. As soon as she wakes up, I'll report it to the Captain-"

"You can report it to me and I'll tell the Captain."

"Yes, Sir." There was a set of footsteps before the sound of someone opening and closing the door. "You can report it to me and I'll tell the Captain." She mimicked him. I slowly opened my eyes, blinking a few times trying to adjust to the bright lights in the room. If I didn't know any better, I could have sworn I was in the hospital. I looked at the nurse next to me who was writing something down on a clipboard and frowned. She was young and had powder pink hair with pretty blue eyes, not really your average nurse. She turned to look at me, holding a staring contest with me for a few seconds.

"You know, you could have woken up ten seconds earlier to save me an argument with your Lieutenant." She glared down at me.

"M'sorry." I really wasn't though, if I would have woken up when Ghost was here, he would have probably yelled at me some more. She sighed and looked through her papers.

"So how do you feel?"

"My head hurts a bit." I admitted.

"Well my files say you were hit by a...rock." I frowned.

"Did I? Well I did-OW!" I looked up at her in disbelieve. "Did you just hit me on the head...with your clipboard?!"

"Oh hush, I didn't even hit you that hard. Anyways, are you serious? A rock? I've treated people who have been shot and stabbed but not someone who was simply hit in the head. With a rock. You were out for 3 days because of a damn rock." My face heated up in embarrassment.

"Well it's not my fault! It's not like I could have avoided it!"

"Yes, you could have avoided it actually."

I paused. "...What?"

"It says you were distracted, if you would have paid more attention, then you would have noticed the RPG headed your way and move to avoid getting hit. But you didn't," she explained as she (not so gently) took the bandages off my head. "There. It took three stitches but your fine. You'll most likely be able to go out tomorrow." She threw the bandages away and continued to write on her clipboard.

"Great." Yeah, I was really looking forward to Ghost's insults again. Then again, how come he sounded like he actually cared when he was arguing with the nurse just seconds ago.

"Well, I'll be back to check on you later. I got to go report this to your...Lieutenant." She turned around and left the room. I glared down at myself, my blood boiling at the thought of being out for three fucking days because of a rock. No, not because of a rock-because I was distracted. I angrily fisted my hair (which was kind of a bad idea since it caused my head to hurt more) and took a deep breath; I'm a professionally trained soldier. What is wrong with me? Distracted because of a stupid dream! How am I going to explain myself to Soap and Ghost? I let out a loud moan before slamming my hands down my sides.

The week before the mission was better but also strange. Everybody asked about the (not so small) bruise on my arm, I simply shrugged and told them I didn't remember. Soap didn't believe me but didn't ask any further questions. Roach somehow took the truth out of me, when I told him what happened, he instantly apologized countless of times. Saying it was his fault, he told Soap what was happening and Ghost must have thought I went to Soap to complain. I told him not to worry since it wasn't his fault but he just kept apologizing. The good thing though was that Ghost's training was less harsh, either because he felt bad for what he did to my arm (most likely not) or for some other unknown reason.

Another surprise was running the course for General Shepherd. After all, Ghost did say we were going to do that in a couple of weeks, four weeks didn't even go by when all of a sudden Ghost wanted us to run it in while Shepherd watched us. I know this might sound crazy, even stupid maybe but, I don't trust the General. I just don't. The way he looks at you, the way he acts and the way he speaks. Plus, have you seen his moustache? Just, no. Anyways, I don't tell anybody any of this.

Now the strange part is Ghost. I mean yeah, I know he's been strange since the first day but this is different. Every time I was alone, I would feel someone staring at me. When I looked around me I would find Ghost looking in my direction, but, something even more strange is his behavior when Yuri is around me. Yuri flirts with me, a lot. He doesn't even try to hide it, he's always teasing me, always finding a way to make me blush or laugh.

It doesn't matter where we are or who's around, he does it anyways, and Ghost always gets in a worse mood when he does all that. Especially when we're in the mess hall, Soap, Ghost and Nikolai would come join Roach, Yuri and me on the table. Ghost would act like he wasn't listening or like he didn't want to be there but it seemed like he would always lean a bit closer when Yuri turned to quietly tell me something, his hands would turn into fists and his body would tense when I laughed or blushed at whatever Yuri told me. He would angrily stand up, excuse himself then storm off the mess hall. Leaving everyone confused, except Yuri who would burst out laughing. When I would ask him what was so funny, he would just tell me to forget about it. It confused me, there's no reason for Ghost to act that way, like he was jealous. It makes no sense.

I was out the health center the next day, just like Lieben told me. Roach by my side the whole time while Yuri gave me an enormous hug the second he saw me.

"I'm glad you're out, my lady. I would have gone mad if you left me." He smirked down at me.

"Thanks, Yuri." I laughed.

"Tricks!" I looked up to see Soap walking toward us. "I'm glad you're out, mate. We've missed you."

"Thanks Soap, I'm glad to finally be out." He gave me a quick hug and have me a serious look.

"Would you please follow me to my office?" He asked.

"Yeah, sure." I turned back to Roach and Yuri.

"Well I'll see you guys later?"

"Of course, my lady." Yuri nodded.

"Sure, meet us in the mess hall when you're done?" Roach asked.

"Yeah, see you guys there."

I walked back with Soap to his office. When I got inside, I noticed Ghost was already sitting in one of the chairs with his arms crossed over his chest. I felt uneasy but I was strangely glad to see him.

"We just have a question, Tricks." Soap said as he took a seat behind his desk.

"Okay." I nodded.

"Ghost mentioned that you seemed distracted before you were hit, you know, on the mission."

"More like daydreaming..." Ghost added. I looked at Ghost then back to Soap.

"I will admit that I got distracted." I nodded again.

"May I ask what was on your mind that almost got you killed?" I bit my lip.

"I can't remember." Soap was thoughtful for a few seconds.

"You know, mate. You seem to be forgetting things lately," I tried to keep a straight face. "First, you can't remember how you got that one bruise on your arm and now you can't remember what got you distracted..." I didn't know what to say. If only I could tell him that it was Ghost to blame.

"Sorry...?" Ghost sighed and turned back to Soap.

"Just keep in mind, stay completely focused when you're out in a mission."

"Yes, Sir." He nodded.

"You're dismissed." I turned back and left.

OoO

Tricks turned back and left. "You didn't actually believe that, did you?" Ghost finally spoke. I sighed.

"No." He stood up from his seat and crossed his arms over his chest again.

"There's someone I need to talk to you about." I raised an eyebrow.

"Who?"

"Yuri."

A/N: I hope this chapter was better than the last. :I

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