I'm sorry, very sorry for the late update. My list of problems have grown more than usual (EX. Falling off a STUPID horse and landing flat on my head) so I don't know if I can update this Thursday either, but I'll try.
So you ppl r aware, an evil evil friend of mine uses fanfiction. Her name is Dazzling me since 1918, and she's the one leaving me all those incredibly stupid reviews. Plz ignore her, she hasn't even watched bleach, no matter how hard I try to get her to BLEH STUPID TWIN. Anyway she's been leaving random reviews on all my stories and it's really annoying lol, so just ignore her. YEAH U READING THIS, TWIN?! I'M TELLING THEM U SUCK!! WATCH BLEACH!
ANYWAY.... I'm sorry I'm so very good at... rambling on and on... it's a flaw lol.
Momo stared aimlessly out the lonely window of the small room. The bright moon reflected in her brown eyes, she sighed at her own helplessness. Toshiro was still gone, and nothing could calm her uneasiness. No matter how hard she tried, through the hours that had passed she hadn't been able to sense his spiritual pressure.
As she closed her eyes, infinite blackness was not her welcome. Images of memories flashed before her, Toshiro's wide teal eyes, Aizen standing above her, looking so superior and uncaring. And then the worst, her friend succumbing to Aizen's will, bowing down and throwing away his own honor, all for her sake.
How could she continue like this? How could she ever bear to live with this day after day? The man she had trusted, admired, and... had even.... loved. He betrayed her and everyone else. Aizen didn't hesitate to harm her, in fact he found pleasure in it. How could she ever... find herself able to trust anyone anymore..?
Irritated, Momo leaned forward and grasped her head in her hands, laying on her side across the couch. She might've trembled, she might've cried, but Momo was so caught up in her own confusion that she wouldn't have been able to tell. It engulfed her so much she didn't realize the door had opened until she heard the voice.
"Get inside, you." A hoarse voice ordered. Something ruffled and feet stumbled on the floor as someone was pushed through the door. Momo sat up, startled, as the door closed once more. Her eyes widened in surprise when she saw a messy head of silver hair and a small form laying on the floor, shaking as he attempted to stand once more.
"Toshiro!" Momo jumped up and scrambled to him as fast as she could, and knelt to his side just as he got to his knees.
Breath came unsteadily from him and his crystal-like eyes fluttered open and closed. If he had tried to say anything, Momo couldn't tell. Slowly, he fell forward, only to be caught in Momo's thin arms.
"Toshiro? Toshiro, what happened? Are you okay? What did they do to you?"
When no response came, she realized that her hand had landed in a thick, dark material. It shouldn't have come to a surprise to her when it turned out to be blood, but Momo caught her breath anyway. After she regained her composure, she stood up, leaning her nearly unconscious friend on her shoulder.
Once he was comfortably laid down on the cushion of the couch, she ran to the sink, grabbed some towels and filled a cup with cold water.
A million worries rushed in Momo's head, but she tried to focus on what she had to do. Pressing the white towel onto the many small wounds on Toshiro's body. When the blood flow was slowed enough, she brought the water to him and held it to his mouth.
"You need to drink, okay? Please?"
Toshiro's half opened eyes gazed emptily at the floor in front of him, but his hand still came up and took the cup from her. He drank from it for a long time, and then set the empty cup down on the small table. Breathing deeply, he leaned down further and a small groan escaped from his lips. Momo pressed a wet towel to his forehead and whispered softly, "Please tell me what happened."
Toshiro only stared at the ceiling from his position lying on the couch, sighing deeply. After a while, his serious voice came steadily, hiding any emotion. "They were innocent people."
"What?"
He turned his face away and stared off in the other direction. "They were protecting their loved ones, willing to sacrifice themselves to do so."
"Who was?"
"That family, they were doing the exact same thing that I'm doing now." His voice trembled slightly, but Toshiro kept his composition and remained gazing the other way. "And I... I..."
"...I killed them."
Momo widened her eyes and fell back as Toshiro turned over to his side, still facing away from her.
"They were trying to keep the ones they cared for safe, their family. Isn't that the same... as me? And I killed them, so then what does that make me?"
"I.. Toshiro. .. That's what Aizen had you do...? Just kill innocent people? But why? Why would he want you to do something like that?!"
Toshiro didn't answer, he didn't say another word. Momo helplessly looked at his turned back, and felt frustration and sadness well up inside of her. She almost gave in to the tears that wanted to spill from her eyes once more, but then blinked and shook them away.
I thought I wouldn't be able to trust anyone ever again. That's something that I never thought would change...
... but now, I think that, there is someone...
She stared at her friend's back and noticed herself almost smiling.
Toshiro has always been there for me. He's never done anything against me, and he would never betray me.
I...
... I can trust Toshiro.
Whoooo, Well that wus a very short chapter, but most of my chapters are short anyway. I didn't like it very much, but I'm hoping I can speed things along to the parts where things will REALLY get good. Just wait till I get to Rangiku.... Yaynessss......
Now, I haven't exactly been having a very good week, and my head STILL hurts. So please, oh please, make my life better and review me. Also, I'm sure lil shiro chan will appreciate it too. He'll be happy to know that ppl care enough to review this story, especially since its centered around him.
.... or is it that... quite possibly... YOU WANT TOSHIRO TO BE DEPRESSED AND IN PAIN?! IS THAT REALLY WHAT YOU WANT?!
Okay fine then, don't review, but then don't blame me when you realize that you've just caused both me and Toshiro great suffering, and neither of us will ever recover from your heartlessness. Just wait until that comes back to haunt you.