Chapter 4
I lay there staring at the night sky several nights ago my little cousin had become a married woman. The night before that Sting had asked Ryos and I if we were considering having our own children than I had found a dangerous letter within Skiadrum's collection of books. Within that letter I had found several dangerous truths that could lead to the demise to my own kingdom. I sighed, this wasn't a burden I could actually pass on to Artemis. I rose out of bed walking towards the closet to find the most battle ready dress, this wasn't going to be an easy mission to head home on my own. Slipping on that outfit I headed out towards the door passing Ryos's door, gulping I pushed the door open slowly. If he was sitting on the ledge of the window sill I would leave here if he was sleeping I would steal my knives back. Taking a breath I tiptoed inside the room glancing around where he was already asleep. "Where would he keep them?" My mind thought glancing around the darkened room littered in books. He definitely took after his mother in this section. I glanced towards the draws nearest his head. "Not that close." I sighed as I walked towards the dresser closer to me while opening them with no avail. I sighed moving around to the other side of the bed opening the draw to the dresser where several knives decorated in gems laid in wait for me to collect them once again. A symbol.
A symbol of my own insecurity. Not only a symbol either. It was something I would need to carry without him there. "I'm sorry." Fell from my lips as my hands carefully braced the knives preparing to move it into my weaponized pockets. I felt arms wrap around my waist pulling me down towards where the arms had come from. "You promised we would do this together." The voice sounded genuinely angry and confused as I glanced back towards a glowing angry flashing red eye while the other was hidden under matted black hair. "I know...but this is something that I've got to do on my own. I can't let anyone know." I whispered wanting to console him that I wasn't doing things behind his back so badly. But the problem there was...I really was. "Why?" Was the only word he said as we sat there on the bed his arms locked around my waist so I wouldn't be able to move anywhere. I may have had a knife within my hand but around him I was degraded to weaponless. I would never use it against him. And he knew that. "I can't bring you...this mission isn't for you." I whispered my hands shaking wondering if he had figured out what my true motive was. "Than it's not something for you either." He explained as I shook my head. "This mission has everything to do with me, the reason this even exists is because of my own existence therefore by default this entire mission is mine alone." I whispered as his arms grew tighter around my waist as if he was tempted with the thought of not letting me leave. "Ryos. It's important to me for you to not know." I whispered as he didn't even look at me. "Celestine. It's important to me for you to stay safe."
I paused glancing at him that wasn't a wish I could guarantee. "Take care of your brother and my little cousin they both have very dominate flamboyant souls they'll need you." I whispered beginning to get out of his grip as a sudden movement caused us to flip positions. "Do you not think that I hadn't found those letters yet?" He growled as I looked up towards him feeling tears prick my eyes. "Please, don't make this hard. It's something that I have to do, by myself." I whispered as he shook his head, taking the knives from my hand and setting them back on the night stand. "Don't you think it's already hard to begin with? Seeing your already magical fiance sneak into your room to steal knives of all things. It's so easy to figure out what you're doing." He mumbled back his face looking highly disappointed with me. I took in a breath. "If you knew then you should already know why I can't bring you on a mission like, like that." I whispered as he shook his head.
"Why than should it be that I should let you go on a mission like that?"
"Do you even understand?"
He bent his head down next to mine causing me to flinch, I could hear his heart rate changing as if he had already knew from the beginning. "Of course I do...that's exactly why I can't let you go kill your own mother." He whispered as I felt the tears rush out it wasn't something that I wanted to tell him. "I can't let you do that." He whispered as I wasn't sure if I wanted to nod or scream at him for making that situation harder. I bit my tears back preparing to talk him out of stopping me as he tore down the walls of strength that I had structured the night before while getting ready to make an attempt on my mother's life. "W-what about..." I paused not sure if I was ready to make such a statement. "I'm sure nothing I could say could make your resolve change...but please make another one more powerful that erases the other that would keep you to stay." He whispered as I bit my lip. "I can't...w-what about when we have kids? What will keep her from attacking us...or even worse them? What will I do?" I whispered my voice stuttering and shaking as I attempted to tell him about the resolve I've already made, one that didn't include him. "We won't have any of those worries if you wind up sitting in jail on results of terrorism." He sighed his hand tracing down my face.
"But we wouldn't have to worry about any of those problems if my mother-"
"No we would have to worry about twice as many problems. I know how you're feeling. That
woman acted as my step in mother when I really needed one and she knew that my mother, Skaidrum, would be crying that she couldn't be with me." He said as my eyes traced his entire figure wondering how he could ever be so strong to attempt to bare all of this weight always on his own. "Let's make it a simpler topic." I sighed glancing towards the edge of the bed only to realize that was were my knives were. "Remember what you said about kids?" That wasn't a simple topic!
I felt my heart skip a beat.