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Chapter four

D.P.O.V

-Flashback-

"Derek? Derek?" I can hear her voice calling to me. How can she sound like that? All kind and worried. I hurt her. I bruised her. I blink trying to rid the image of her pale pale skin stained with my finger prints. How could I do such a thing? I just didn't want her to leave; I don't know why I just couldn't stand the idea of her leaving me. But it would be best if she stayed away, if I never went near her again.

I feel a light warm touch on my shoulder. I jump. She gasps looking up I see her pure blue eyes, eyes that held nothing but concern, concern for me. I recoil from her touch. I didn't deserve to be near her. She should stay away where it's safer. She should go play with Simon he wouldn't hurt her.

"Derek, I'm ok." She says. Moving closer to me this time taking my hand. The hand that I held straight out from my body, fingers stretched the hand that I had hurt her with. I flinch but she just holds my hand tighter.

"I hurt you. You should stay away" I hear my voice as if from a distance.

"No I want to talk to you. I'm ok you're not" She pouts slightly as she comes and sits down next to me on my bed where I had been sitting in the same position for I don't know how long. "My mommy would always talk to me when I felt bad or had been scared by a ghost"

"I'm fine"

"You're lying" She says stubbornly and I realise then that she wasn't leaving. Or maybe I just give in. I like that she was willing to talk to me. The four days that I ignored her were hard. I wanted to play with her just like Simon. But I knew I couldn't today just proved that.

"I'm not safe go away" I don't bother sounding anything but rude.

"I'm fine" She was wearing long sleeves, no doubt to hide her bruises. I move quickly pulling up her sleeve with my free hand. She wouldn't let my other hand go.

"Look" I say pointing at her arm "that's not fine"

"You're just over reacting" She says "I bruise myself all the time and there is hardly a mark" She hadn't flinched when I moved. And she was holding hand but that was just because she was stubborn. That didn't mean she wasn't scared.

"I'm a werewolf" I say the words clearly, slowly looking her straight in the eyes waiting for her reaction.

"Cool" She say brightly not even pausing. I blink. Cool? "Do you turn into a complete wolf or do you just kind of do the half way thing like in films?"

"I-I-I haven't changed yet but a complete wolf" I hear myself stutter and answer her question. In too much shock to think clearly. Cool?

"Tell me when you do I want to know."

"I'm a werewolf, scary" I say regaining some of my sense. She looks to me as if I'm stupid.

"No you're not. You're the only one here who's made me feel truly safe."

-End of Flashback-

I remember thinking her words sounded too old for her but the look in her eyes when she said it had filled me with such pride and joy. She had then offered to bruise me if it would make me feel better about what had happened. I told her it wouldn't, and then we had just sat and talked. The whole time she had held my hand.

Now today she said I didn't scare her that I wasn't a monster but I knew what I was. She knew what I was that was why she went with them all those years ago. But

"I'm sorry that you had to go through that, I wish I could have been there."

"You don't know how much I wanted to be with you all these years"

She said that. Could I believe her? Did she mean that? Even if she did it was better she wasn't here, Simon probably didn't tell her everything, if he did there would be no way that she would be able to take my hand and talk to me the way she did. I was dangerous to everyone. I don't want to hurt her but I would. I need to back off, stay away if I didn't... I don't want to think what could happen. What I felt for Chloe, I had cared for her the way any eight year old would, she was my best friend a pack member all those years ago and now those feelings that had never gone away were back but different. Last night lying in bed all I could think about was how pretty, no beautiful she had become. My feelings were changing but still strong and powerful, I still wanted to protect her and that meant protecting her from myself and my feelings for her as they could lead to nothing but unhappiness.

I turn off the shower and quickly change into some clean clothes sniffing them first. I hated this puberty lock down I was under. My skin, B.O and greasy hair were not a good look and made me stand out even more than my size. Then I run down the stairs fighting the joy that wanted to spread through me at the thought of seeing Chloe again. As I hit the hallway I smell him. Andrew. Once a friendly guy who took us camping and talked football with me but now looked at me as if I was going to bite him. I had heard him and dad arguing over what to do with me. Andrew believed I was dangerous, I couldn't blame him.

"Hello Derek" Andrew greets me as I enter the kitchen. Everyone sat around the table, there was one empty seat, next to Chloe. I breathe in deeply before taking it. Dad was next to me and smiles at me before looking warningly towards Andrew.

"So we're all here. You ready Chloe?" Dad asks. I feel Chloe shudder next to me. I grip the sides of my chair and then decide to cross them, to resist the urge to take her hand like she had mine in comfort. Then lock my eyes on the fridge.

"Yeah" I hear her breath her voice shook slightly.

C.P.O.V

"We all remember that night right?" I ask, knowing everyone would remember that night but might not know exactly what happened. Since it had been only Derek and I.

"Derek told us" I nod. Kit had told us all to stay at home. That we weren't to go out or answer the door or phone even if we recognised who it was. He was going out to take down the Edison Group. That was why I had been sent to him, my dad had been taken by the Edison group after my mother had died so it made sense to go to the man who would get him back for me. I don't know what his plan was exactly, something about a siege with other supernatural's but it didn't work. The Edison Group came to the house. We had to run, Tori and Simon went one way Derek and I went another. We ran to the old factory where we were told to run to if ever spilt up. I remember being so scared; there was what I now know as an imprint. A man would throw himself into the saws over and over again. He sometimes still haunts my dreams. Derek and I were huddled in a corner hidden from sight, waiting for Simon and Tori or Kit to come a get us. I didn't believe they would ever come. They didn't instead they came. My aunt and father. They told me it was safe to come out to go with them, that I was ok. And I did. I will never forget the expression on Derek's face I pleaded with him to come with me but he refused.

"Dad will come for me" Was all he would say. I walked away crying but determined to help him I would get Aunt Lauren and dad to find Kit or contact kit to get him to come and get Derek. Then he would be safe.

"He told you I walked away with them." I nod feeling myself hatred grow once again I look down at the table I couldn't look at them. "It was only after we were out of the warehouse that I realised something was wrong. I tried to pull away tell my dad and aunt that something was wrong. That the people in the vans outside waiting for use were bad, but they just told me they were good people here to help us. I tried to run back warn Derek" I nearly choke on his name; this was the only thing I could feel even slightly proud of. "But they wouldn't let me, dad told them that they had me now so we should just go. They asked dad and my aunt if I was alone, they said I was. They hadn't heard Derek and I talking and when they asked if I was with anyone I said no too. I'm not saying it makes what I did right but..." I trail off. Swallow and start again. I sneak and look at Derek, his shoulders were tense and he looked pale, his eyes intense on the fridge. Simon was looking shocked and Tori didn't look angry. Kit had heard this before and smiled at me encouragingly, while Andrew looked pale. I had never met Andrew before I had heard his name before, when I was with them before but never seen him which was why I was confused as to why he looked familiar.

"They took me away. I didn't go home straight away I went to a lab first. The room was comfortable and I had everything I wanted but I wasn't allowed to leave without permission or a guard. T-t-they said they wanted to make sure I was ok after my 'ordeal'" I had done so well not to stutter but the more I told the more I remembered how I felt. Scared and alone. "Dad wasn't there he had gone away on work they said, that was normal enough. Aunt Lauren came by a few times to speak to me to tell me to take my medication like a good girl." Bitterness burns inside me as I remember what she had done to me. "I don't know what they were giving me but I believe it was to help control my powers. A couple of weeks later I was sent home. I thought then that I might be able to contact you" I don't know if I was talking to them all or if I was just talking to Derek. "but I wasn't allowed. I was still on medication and I was never on my own. Aunt Lauren moved in with me as Dad was hardly ever home. After a while they started to ask about you guys" I shudder. Derek's hands shoot to his sides.

"I wanted to know why they wanted to know anything. I thought it might be to see if you were ok but I knew I was wrong. That was confirmed when I heard Aunt Lauren on the phone later that night when I hadn't told them anything. She was talking about d-d-d-d-drugging me so I would t-t-talk" I breathe in deeply once again. "So t-t-t-they c-c-c-could" I could hardly talk, all my emotions growing stronger and stronger slowly taking over me. I feel my hand reach out under the table without me knowing, gripping tightly on to Derek's arm. Having him close like this was more comforting than anything in the world. I feel his arm hot and tense under my hand. Then he moves removing my hand but before I could sink into a pool of guilt, regret and rejection he twines my fingers with mine.

"Chloe" Simons says but I shake my head knowing what he was going to say and knowing I had to finish.

"Could track you down. I stop taking my meds hiding them in food and flushing them down the toilet. I managed to pretend I didn't see ghosts which I didn't not really the odd one but none ever spoke to me. It was hard when I did see one but I would try to ignore them, letting it all out when I was alone which wasn't often but it helped. Things seemed to cool down after a while years went by. I was still accompanied everywhere my email and mail read before being sent my phone monitored but no more questions about you guys."

"Then when I was at school I had an episode. My erm" I feel blood heat my cheeks "I got my erm period" I rush the word and continue like my face wasn't beet coloured "and then this ghost spoke to me more but he was hideously burnt and wouldn't go away no matter what I did he followed me chased me down the school hallways. I don't know what happened but the next thing I know I'm at this placed called Lyle House" I shiver in memory, Derek squeezes my hand. "A place for disturbed kids. Aunt Lauren comes to talk to me; she wants me to get help from the same people as before, who took me to the lab. I refuse but she's not happy. Tells me it was the only way I would get better. That it was the only place that could help me as they were the only ones who knew anything about me. So I go along. I have an idea, if they know about me why can't I know about them. "

"I m-m-manage to sneak into Dr. Davidoff's office, he's the head guy and on to his computer"

"How did you manage that?" Tori asks.

"Erm I-I had some help from a ghost" Close enough to the truth, more like a demi-demon. "I find all these files on us. On what they did to us and if we were s-s-successful or not." We all knew that we were science experiments. Kit had explained it all to us when he told us why he wanted to take down the Edison Group. It had freaked me out but Derek had helped me through. Told me I was just fine.

"Later that night I made a run for it. They must have gotten bored with me not co-operating. I refused to take my meds or talk. So they took me to this room. There they told me to summon someone. They didn't care who they just wanted me to summon. I refused. They tried everything thing to get me to. Bribery, threats. I don't know why they wanted me to summon so badly. I don't even know how to. When they realised I wouldn't they sent me back to Lyle House."

"That is when I saw her" Kit takes over and I smile over at him in thanks." I saw then escort her back into the house. At first I didn't believe it was Chloe but it was. I didn't think the plan over that much; just did a locator spell to find which room she was in. Luckily it was out back on the second floor. After throwing pebbles at the window I got Chloe to jump out of the window and then brought her back."

"It can't have been that simple" Simon says his eye brows raised.

"Well no. There was a small chase and I had to cast a few nasty spells and take a very long way home but it wasn't as hard as it could have been if I waited. It was the surprise of it that I think got them."

"But now they know that we have her" Andrew says.

"Yes, we will just have to use that to our advantage"

"How?" Tori asks. I sit back letting them talk. My throat felt dry, and just enjoy the warmth of Derek's hand, and his thumb gently rubbing circles on my hand. I don't think he realised what he was doing. He was listening intently to what was being said.

"No" He suddenly says. "No that is not happening" What was happening. I really regret not listening now.

"No I won't allow that to happen. Chloe is not to be put in danger again. We are not sending her back to them"

Andrew's cheeks heat in anger and I start to dislike him.

"Derek, Chloe may be important to you-"

"Too us" Tori injects and feel my mouth drop in surprise. She looks over at me and just shrugs "she's not just important to Derek but us. So I don't like the idea of sending her back either"

Neither did I. I was not going back there if I had a choice.

"No offense but you are just children! You have no idea how important taking down the Edison Group is. Chloe would be perfectly safe"

"No" Simon says sharply frowning. Just as Derek growls. The sound vibrates from his chest and throat. Kit looks from Derek to Andrew and closes his eyes.

"Derek" Andrew starts a small amount of fear entering his eyes "Chloe maybe your m-"

"Chloe is not going back there not on her own anyway" Kit quickly injects. "I think we all just need to think about what's been said. Andrew a word" Kit stands and heads towards the door. Andrew looks at Derek a second before following. Simon and Tori also get up smiling at me. Tori taps my hand and Simon leans down for a hug. Derek releases my hand slowly.

"I'm glad you're ok and back" He whispers into my hair. Then they were gone. To listen in to what Kit and Andrew were arguing about. Leaving me and Derek.

"Thank you" I whisper "For arguing against Andrew"

"I just said it first. You heard Tori none of us want you to go back"

"Yeah, but thank you anyway" Derek walks to the door and my heart sinks. I didn't want him to leave but then he turns around.

"I will protect you" the words shock me as much as I think they shock him "I will protect you and keep you safe from everything. That's why I'm telling you to stay away from me. I will hurt you" I don't get a chance to reply before he was gone. My breathing and the click and hum of the clock and fridge the only sound in the kitchen.

"Oh Derek" I whisper.

A/N the longest chapter but not as long as I thought. Next chapter things start to happen. I hope this answered some of the questions you might have had.

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