Sorrow Brings Happiness Chapter 4, a twilight fanfic

Disclaimer: Don't own. Blah, blah, blah...

We were about to start the singing thing, that we supposedly did every Saturday, that Alice told me about. I was in a sort of love-hate situation right now. I was excited we were doing this. Excitement being a large emotion for me. I was looking forward to it...in a way. I wanted to go out there and sing my heart out. But...embarrassment, well let's just say we're not good friends.

Carlisle had written everyone that lived in our house's names down. He placed them in a hat, and he stirred them around with his hand. He said that he would randomly draw one, and whoever's name he drew, would have to assign a song to everyone, to sing. He had his hand reaching down a baseball cap right now.

He slowly lifted his hand out and read the name out to us, "Bella."

Yes! I get to pick everyone's song! A small smile spread across my face.

"Bella, dear, here," Esme said, handing me a sheet of paper, "Why don't you make a list of the songs you want us to sing, alright?"

"Okay," I said, taking the paper, and grabbing a pen off of the desk.

Okay, Alice, Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle, Rosalie, Esme, and of course, myself...hmm...what would be some good song choices? I thought. I tapped my pen on my leg while I thought. Then all of my favorite songs, babbled like the gush of a river in my head.

And I had it. I knew all the perfect songs, songs that would compliment how I assumed their voices sounded. I had only heard Alice, and Edward sing before, and I knew that they were great. I didn't know how the others were.

I took the sheet of paper to Carlisle, and he took it and looked it over. He looked up and smiled at me. He opened his laptop and started typing like mad. I asked, "What are you looking up?"

"Oh, I'm just finding the website we use for all of the songs we do, it shows us the lyrics and plays the songs, except with out the singer singing them," he explained.

"Oh," I said lamely.

"Okay, got it. Alright alphabetical order. You guys know the drill, Alice your up," Carlisle commanded.

"Okay, Alice," I told her, "Your singing Satellite Heart, by Anya Marina."

"Alright," she said uncertainly, but still exuberant with joy. I assumed she had never heard the song, unfortunately.

The music suddenly started. Alice smiled, then started singing,

"So pretty, so smart, such a waste of a young heart

What a pity, what a sham, what's the matter with you, man?

Don't you see it's wrong? Can't you get it right?

Outta mind and outta sight

Call on all your girls don't forget the boys

Put a lid on all that noise

I'm a satellite heart, lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far, you stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I hear your living out of state, living in a whole new scene

They say, I haven't slept in weeks

You're the only thing I see

I'm a satellite heart, lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far, you stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I'm a satellite heart, lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far, you stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

No matter what you do

Yeah, I'll be true to you

Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh

Oooh Oooh Oooh"

We all started to clap, Alice was amazing.

She bowed.

No one could have sang that song better than Alice, even Anya Marina herself.

"That was great, Alice," Carlisle complimented, "Bella, your up next. My Heart by Paramore."

I started breathing heavily, I was scared out of my mind. Edward sensed my distress, and patted my shoulder, and said, "You can do it, Bella. Just have fun, okay?"

I nodded, and stood, I looked at the computer then closed my eyes, remembering I didn't need the lyrics.

The music began.

"I am finding out, that maybe I was wrong

That I've fallen down, and I can't do this alone

Stay with me this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song, and we'll sing it back to you

We could sing our own

But what would it be with out you?

I am nothing now, and it's been so long

Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening

Sing us a song, and we'll sing it back to you

We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

My heart, my heart is yours

My heart is yours

My heart is...,"

That wasn't hard at all. I almost laughed while I was singing it, because, Emmett knew the song and he was doing the monster voice that you always hear faintly in the background.

I was enveloped in applause. Edward was clapping the loudest, his eyes shone, and he beamed at me. I timidly smiled back at him.

"Okay, my turn, alright, I'm singing How To Save A Life by The Fray," Carlisle announced.

He set up the computer, then started to to sing.

"Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down its just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

And he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

'Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life,"

Carlisle finished the song and we all clapped. The Cullen's were an extremely talented family.

"Okay," Carlisle said, after he downed a glass of water, "Edward, your next."

"Okay, Bella, what am I singing?" he asked me.

"Um, Restless Heart Syndrome by Green Day," I said.

"Yes! A song I know! One time Alice made me sing a Kanye West song!" he exclaimed.

I smiled. The music started, and in his fabulous voice, Edward began to sing.

"I've got a really bad disease

It's got me begging on my hands and knees

So take me to emergency

'Cause something seems to be missing

Somebody take the pain away

It's like an ulcer bleeding in my brain

So send me to the pharmacy

So I can lose my memory

I'm elated

Medicated

Lord knows I've tried to find a way

To run away

I think they've found another cure

For broken hearts and feeling insecure

You'd be surprised what I endure

What makes you feel so self-assured?

I need to find a place to hide

You never no what could be waiting outside

The accidents that you could find

It's like some kind of suicide

So what ails you is what impales you

I feel like I've been crucified to be satisfied

I'm a victim of my symptom

I am my own worst enemy

You're a victim of your symptom

You are your own worst enemy

Know your enemy

I'm elated

Medicated

I am my own worst enemy

What ails you is what impales you

You are your own worst enemy

You're a victim of the system

You are you're own worst enemy

You're a victim of the system

You are your own worst enemy,"

he finished. I stood up from my seat and started clapping wildly. Edward grinned when he saw me, I blushed. I sat back down and coughed.

"My turn!" Emmett yelled excitedly.

"Yeah, it is. Okay, Emmett your singing Last Resort by Papa Roach," Carlisle announced.

Edward started laughing. I shot him a look feigning hurt, that sobered him up. I grinned to let him know I was kidding.

"Oh my God! I'm singing Papa Roach?! Yes!" Emmett screamed.

And with that, Emmett started to sing.

"Cut my life into pieces

This is my last resort

Suffocation

No breathing

Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces,

I've reached my last resort,

Suffocation

No breathing

Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding

Do you even care if I die bleeding?

Would it be wrong?

Would it be right?

If I took my life tonight?

Chances are that I might

Mutilation out of sight

And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight,

Losing my mind

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Losing my sight,

Losing my mind

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized I was spread too thin

Till it was too late

And I was empty within

Hungry,

Feeding on chaos and living in sin

Downward spiral, where do I begin?

It all started when I lost my mother

No love for myself and no love for another

Searching, to find a love up on a higher level

Finding nothing but questions and devils

'Cause I'm losing my sight,

Losing my mind,

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Losing my sight

Losing my mind

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright

Nothing is fine

I'm running and I'm crying

I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces

This is my last resort

Suffocation

No breathing

Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding

Would it be wrong?

Would it be right?

If I took my life tonight?

Chances are that I might

Mutilation out of sight

And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight

Losing my mind,

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Losing my sight

Losing my mind,

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I'm running and I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Can't go on

Living this way

Nothing's alright,"

Emmett finished, and the whole time throughout the song he was smiling his huge, dimply grin.

"Well, that was...quite a song, Bella," Esme said.

I laughed.

"Well, dear, it's your turn," Carlisle said to Esme.

"Don't worry, yours is much milder," I told her. "It's A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton, do you know it?"

"Actually, yes," she said, surprised.

"Go Esme!" Alice cat-called.

Esme went up and stood, and started to sing once the music began.

"Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces passed

And I'm home-bound

Staring blankly ahead just making my way

Making my way through the crowd

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by?

'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you

Tonight

It's always times like these when I think of you

And I wonder if you ever think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong

And I don't belong

Living in your precious memories

'Cause I need you

And I miss you,

And now I wonder...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by?

'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you

Tonight

And I, I

Don't want to let you know

I, I

Drown in your memory

I, I

Don't want to let this go

I, I don't...

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces passed

And I'm home-bound

Staring blankly ahead just making my way

Making my way through the crowd

And I still need you,

And I still miss you

And now I wonder...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by?

'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by?

'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you

Tonight,"

Esme sang, beautifully. Just like everyone one else in their family. Well, our family. That is if you excluded me.

"Jasper," Carlisle said, "I think you'll like yours."

"What? Why? Who is it? No, no, it isn't is it? Is it?" Jasper asked, extremely excited.

Who? What? Why? I'm confused.

"It is," Carlisle confirmed.

"Can someone explain please?" I asked.

"Oh my God! Thank you so much, Bella! You picked a Linkin Park song for me!"

"What? Are you like a Linkin Park fanatic, or something?" I wondered.

"Yes! What song is it?"

"Hit The Floor," Carlisle said.

"Yes! I know every word!" Jasper exclaimed.

And he spontaneously burst into song.

"There are just too many

Times that people

Have tried to look inside of me

Wondering what I think of you

And I protect you out of courtesy

Too many times that I've

Held one when I needed to push away

Afraid to say what was on my mind

Afraid to say what I need to say

Too many

Things that you've said about me when I'm not around

You think having the upper hand

Means you've gotta keep putting me down

But I've had too many stand-offs with you

And it's about as much as I can stand

Just wait until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute your on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you've won

And then it's all gone

So many people like me

Put so much trust in all your lies

So concerned with what you think

To just say what they feel inside

So many people like me

Walk on eggshells all day long

All I know is that all I want

Is to feel like I'm not stepped on

There are so many things you say

That make me feel you've crossed the line

What goes up will surely fall

And I'm counting down the time

'Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you

And it's about as much as much as I can stand

So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute your on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you've won

And then it's all gone

Now it's all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say

You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway

And all the lies have got you floating up above us all

But what goes up has got to fall

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute your on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you've won

And then it's all gone

Now it's all gone,"

"Yes! That was freaking awesome!" Jasper yelled, right after he finished.

"Jazzy! You were great!" Alice squealed and pecked him on the cheek.

"Thanks!" he said, still riding his "Linkin Park high."

"Rosalie, your the last one," Carlisle said.

"What am I singing?" Rosalie asked curiously.

"All Around Me by Flyleaf," Carlisle told her.

"Okaaay...never heard of it," Rosalie said.

Carlisle showed her the lyrics, then she started to sing.

"My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed,"

Rosalie finished the song, and said, "Oooh! I like that song!"

Everyone laughed, and I smiled.

And then to my great horror, all of the couples embraced, kissed, and said there, "I love you's"

I made a mad dash for the bathroom.

AN You guys owe me SOOOOOOOO bad!!! I typed ALL of that, I didn't do the "Copy and Paste" crap!
This was ALL real! And my fingers are aching. This was twelve freaking pages! I think I have Carpal Tunnel!!

And in case you didn't realize, the ending to this chapter is extremely tragic. It's not Bella having

to pee real bad. She's going in there for a reason. So umm...reviews=faster updates!! So, REVIEW!

Please?

~Lyssa.

P.S. I love you.!