A/N: I betcha missed me, huh? Hehe. Had lots of fun at the lake. Went wakeboarding, set off fireworks, caught tree's on fire, and now have a bunrt dog. Hehe. Was Lots and lots of fun. : D

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. I don't own Bella. I don't own Edward (cries).

Chapter 4: Confusion to Anger

"Ok, Bye." I shut my phone, completely torn. I hate Edward, and I'm confused with Alex. There was only one person that could help me. I picked my phone up and started dialing Alice's number. She always knew what to do.

Alice's phone rang for what seemed like forever. Until finally I heard, "Hey, this is Alice's cell. I'm not around right now but leave me a message and I'll get back to you soon, thanks." I waited till I heard the beep.

"Alice it Bella, well I really need to talk to you so please call me as soon as you get this." I hung up the phone feeling slightly disheartened. I was really hoping she could help me with this now so I could just get over it and move on.

By now I felt really crappy. I didn't know who to choose. Well I did, but I know I wouldn't. Does that make sense? I mean I like both and I don't really know either, plus I can't stand one of them and the other sometimes makes me feel uncomfortable. But I still like them.

I know I had to admit how I felt about Edward; it was the headrest thing in the world for me to do. I was crushing on him. I loved the way he smiled and I loved the way he made my heart race at the simplest touch. At the same time I hated him because he could make me feel this way, he could make me human, and he could ruin my perfect status. But deep down I know that some how in a matter of days, Edward Cullen had made his way into my cold, vain heart. He made me want to be me, not the graceful angel at school, but the clumsy, air head I usually am.

I was so confused. Thinking of the guys was making me go crazy. I just wanted a simple life. I didn't need the luxury of having a great status at school; I didn't need a flawless reputation. I left Phoenix in the first place to be normal, not perfect. How did it all come to this?

I went upstairs and lay on my bed. Forget dinner, forget the homework, and most importantly forget boys. I just laid there half aware of my surroundings and half completely oblivious to the world. There were so many things I had to think of.

I had been meaning to visit my mother. It had been such a long time since the last time that I saw her. She had always been my best friend, before Alice that is. Alice and I could talk about everything, but sometimes I just couldn't tell her things that are really deep in me. When this happened I would call my mom. I would become a child again and cry to her telling her everything that was going wrong.

Every girl needs there mother. Regardless of your age, you can always call up crying to your mother. That's exactly what I did to, I called her. The moment the phone started ringing my eyes watered up. By the time she answered tears were silently running down my face. "Mom?" I tired my hardest not to let the tears creep in my voice and failed miserably.

"Bella, What wrong honey?" She asked in a motherly voice full of concern and compassion.

Forty five minutes later my tears stopped and I was laughing with my mother again. We hung up with our 'I love you' to each other and I laid down and relaxed. I now knew what I would do. I didn't want it differently either. I wanted Edward Anthony Cullen, but I would give Ale a shot just to be nice. He was a sweet boy, and he might be exactly what I need to get Edward.

Someone knocked on my door. "Bella, take out Chinese is here!" called Charlie from behind the door.

I walked out with reed puffy eyes and a smile on my face. Somewhere in between laughing and crying my shoes had been taken off and my skirt changed to pajama pants. My shirt was still on though, but because they were comfortable I didn't mind.

I walked down stairs able to smell the sesame chicken, vegetable delight, sweet and sour pork, and the other different food which had been laid out. I got a plate load and sat at the table. "Thanks dad for calling for food. I wasn't feeling well earlier." I said slightly ashamed that I would let my emotional status get in the way of my everyday life.

We ate in silence comfortably. After that I went upstairs to continue my normal routine, homework and Pilates. I decided that I would continue my life in the fashion it had been for so long. I would win Edward that way. I would study my butt off and become as graceful as a ballerina and would never give up. Even when I was as confused as I am now, I would continue being strong as I could.

And as for the 'date' with Alex, I would work it out to my advantage. I would make Edward jealous and when I was sure that Edward had seen what a gem I am, I would tell Alex It wasn't meant to be. He would be hurt and I would wait a while till Edward and I started going out, but in the end it will all be worth it.

My phone started buzzing. I opened the phone to Alice's high voice. We talked about everything from me liking to Edward to a new movie that was coming out that we wanted to see. She giggled when I told her how much I wanted to go out with Edward and about my plan to win him over. She said I was an evil genius and wished me luck. We finally hung up agreeing that we needed some sleep.

That night I had dreamless sleep. But it was refreshing. I woke up to something bright shining on my face: the sun. It was a sign of a good day, I hoped.

I quickly skipped to the bathroom to brush my teeth and get ready for another day filled with drama that only a teenager would understand. As I looked in the mirror I saw remains of yesterdays makeup. There was black smudged across my eyes and patches of pale skin where the bronzer had come off form tears. My lips were dry and there was a big red spot on the tip of my nose. A pimple. I popped it, I know people say you aren't supposed to, but school was going to start in a few hours and it had to go now. I quickly washed and scrubbed my face and brushed my teeth. I reapplied my make up and ran to my room tripping on the way in. My head slammed against the door painfully and I twisted my ankle. I hobbled to my bed and rubbed my ankle for a few minutes then got up and found some Motrin in a drawer in my old computer desk. I quickly swallowed three before finding something to wear.

Today I didn't want to get all dressed up and play my role, but I did anyways. I picked out a light blue snug fitting tee shirt that had a low cut on it and quickly put on a pair of tan Bermuda shorts since it was sunny out. To finish off the look I put on a pair of light blue converse. Ok, so I was not going to wear my usually heels, but not all changes are bad, and besides, these are a lot more comfortable.

I finished my look with a silver chocker that had a small silver heart and some simple studs for my ears. I looked in the mirror at my messy hair and quickly brushed it our and put it in a high ponytail. Satisfied more or less I walked down stairs only tripping twice.

I walked outside after a quick bowl of cereal and hopped in my old truck. It started with a thundering noise and I was off to school. The sky was a beautiful and rare blue color with only a handful of fluffy white clouds in the sky. The sun was so bright and foreign to theses skies and looked slightly out of place.

I parked finding a place quickly and jumped out with a smile on my face. Alice ran up to me in a rush. "Jessica... Edward…. They… And…" She huffed from the running.

"Calm down and breathe!" I ordered. She took a deep breath and put herself back together. "Edward and Jessica were kissing this morning! He asked her out last night." My smile slowly fell from my face. My mouth was hanging open and my heart suddenly stopped for a beat. I was going to throw up, I was going to faint, I was going to cry all at once.

I had about ten things running through my head. How could he?! Why did he? This is WAR and his ass will be mine damn it! Jessica, that scheming bitch. She thinks she has him but she has no clue! I'll show them both! Where the hell is Alex?! I was heartbroken and pissed. When you cause my heart to break, your's will too!

I smiled and looked down at Alice for a moment then raised my head high; nothing was going to get to me today. I was going to be untouchable and I will make Edward wish he hadn't done that. He will wish he was with me. He's going to regret not kissing me when he had the chance that is for damn sure! He will pay!

"Oh they did, did they? Well good for them. I hope they have a good long lasting relationship." I said between clenched teeth. Alice knew I was pissed. She knew I would ruin Jessica. But she didn't know that I would actually be nice, considerate, and possibly have an 'accident' or two with Jessica, not kill her reputation behind her back. I'm not that mean to go behind her back and all, am I? No, it's so much more fun to do it in her face.

I smiled thinking what a wonderful day today was going to be. There was no one in the world that was going to stop me either.

Alice looked at me with an eyebrow raised. "So how do we break them up?" She asked slowly and cautiously.

"We don't do anything. We sit back and watch all the fun that is sure to happen today. " I smiled a knowing smile that always scared Alice.

We walked into our first class together. She took her seat to my left while I noted that my seat to my right was empty. Instead Edward had moved himself to Jessica's side. Not that I really cared after he betrayed me. Ok, so maybe I cared a little. And maybe it really hurt, but I wasn't going to show it. No sir, I was as strong as steel.

Throughout the class I was always answering before Mr. Markovets called on someone. I never gave Edward a chance to open his big mouth. After class Edward gave me an annoyed look that I just shrugged off. Jessica looked at me and glared. I walked passed her. "If you have something to say, I dare you to say it to my face." I hissed at her.

That girl was seriously pissing me off now and if she thought she was going to get away with it she didn't know Bella Swan very well. I found Alex waiting outside the classroom. I grabbed his hand and started walking to my next class. He looked happy as ever and talked about our up coming date at the movies and dinner. He seemed really excited. As we approached the door of the classroom I looked up at him and stopped. I smiled then gave him a hug. He smiled down at me.

"I'll see you at lunch." I promised then calmly walked in.

"Bye!" He waved.

Ok, while I was gone I was still writing. I had a LOT of trouble with this chapter because I know what I want to happen, but had trouble filling in HOW it was going to happen. So yeah, thanks for all the reviews, I really appreciate them.

Next chapter will be in Edwards POV, I promise!