Emma stood on the Degrassi stairs at the end of a school day, Jay had just gotten into his car and he leaned back in his drivers seat, watching her a bit gloomy.
She'd never believe he had real feelings for her, he just knew it; their relationship had been rocky and full of sarcasm and teasing since they had first met. That's what made her so special to him, she was fun.
Emma checked the time on her phone, Snake said he had a suprize for her and would pick her up today himself, but he was missing.
As she looked around a red car pulled up and she tried to ignore the fact it stopped infront of her and the window rolled down.
"Want a ride hot stuff?" came a deep voice and Emma couldn't resist rolling her eyes and then giving he driver an annoyed look.
Her mouth fell, Sean drove the car and grinned devilishly at her.
"Sean!?" she said in still pure shock and went around the car as he opened his door and came out, hugging her tightly.
Back in Jay's car, he sat up and his eyes almost budged out, of fucking course Cameron would be back, with the worse timing ever. The guy left 2 months ago now and now he decides to come back? What the hell!
His door opened and in came Spinner, "Man so sweet of you to wait for me." He taunted Jay, hitting his chest playfully.
Jay didn't even move or look away from what he was watching and Spinner sighed, knowing what he was doing, he saw it from outside too.
"Stop watching man, only going to bug you more when they get back together." Snickered Spinner.
Jay snapped his eyes at Spinner, glaring, "Who says they are?"
Spinner shrugged giving him a sorry look, "It's what they do, even though they know how the story ends, they'll keep going back to another." He snickered, "Pathetic."
Jay looked back, his mouth hung a bit. He punched the steering wheel and grabbed his keys, getting out.
Spinner's eyes widened and got out quickly, "Jay!"
Meanwhile, Emma pulled away from the longing hug Sean gave her, and he still held onto her waist when she pulled off.
"What are you doing here?!" she exclaimed.
Sean was about to answer when Jay's voice came through, "Yeah bud, not even a call to your oldest friend?" Jay asked sarcastically, stopping between them, Sean still didn't let Emma go.
Sean gave Jay a sorry look and smiled to Emma, "I wanted it to be a surprise." Emma smiled softly back.
"Tickle us suprized." Snapped Jay, narrowing his eyes at Sean who gave a funny wierd look but shrugged it off.
Emma felt the tension and pushed Sean's shoulder slightly, Jay rolled his eyes at that. Flirt much?
Emma insisted, "I'm glad you're back. How long are you visiting?"
"I transferred back Em!" Sean informed happily, dimples showing off, "Your Dad helped me."
"You what?" Jay asked, stunned, mad, happy, pissed off, jealous.. he didn't know WHAT he was feeling anymore. That was way too much right now. He hated going to Degrassi ! Damn FUCKING drama.
Emma shook her head slowly, unsure,"Sean..don't you think that might be a little unhealthy?" she tilted her head curiously, "I thought you were doing well in Wasaga?"
Sean finally dropped his hands off her, feeling a bit rejected but tried to explain happily, "I was but I was thinking, me and you put our differences aside, I admitted to Ellie I wasn't happy with her, and I got my best friend here." He slapped Jay's stomach who hid his cringe but glared at his 'friend'
"Yeah." Jay muffled out and caught Emma's look of warning. What was that look for?
"I think I can manage being okay here." Sean said as him assuring himself too, he smiled to Emma again, "You're doing it."
Emma laughed uneasy, "Yeah.." she drifts off and both guys watched her awkwardly shift and look around, "I'll see you around then?" she asked Sean, taking a step away, hinting she had to go, but not really to be honest.
Sean sheepishly grinned, "Snake actually asked me to drive you home.." he looked at Emma with a bit of hope.
Emma oh'd and Jay bit the end of his tounge so hard he swore it was bleeding.
Sean smiled to Jay and Jay tried to put on his fakest grin, "You too bud, you're coming to the Nelson/Simpson household tonight." He looked to Emma, "Snake said we're having a small welcome back dinner." He laughed a bit.
Emma and Jay shared a look and Jay replied to Sean, but with his eyes on Emma, "That's great!" he said ever so sarcastically, shaking his head happily at her.
Emma squinted her eyes at him and Sean now knew he wasn't imagining it, something was wierd here, then again, Emma and Jay were always wierd near another.
"Okay." Breathed Emma, trying to calm down, "Let's go." She went to walk to the passangers door until Jay grabbed the handle, scooting infront of her and giving her a look.
"Men in the front." Jay simply said to her, opening the door for himself while giving her a taunting look as she glared up at him but moved to the back door, glare still on him.
"You mean little boys." She corrected and he just snickered, both of them looking for Sean to unlock the doors.
"Cam." Jay said, snapping Sean out of it who stared at the school.
Sean coughed awkwardly and blinked, going over and unlocked it, getting inside. Before Emma and Jay got in they shared a small look, was Sean actually going to be okay? The shooting had really shook him up..
They now all sat at the kitchen table, Emma's mother broke the silence.
"So glad you could come Jayson, we haven't been introduced yet. I've heard tons of things!" Spike went around the dinner table, passing everyone plates with pizza on it.
Emma scowled at her mom, that wasn't true, least she didn't hear anything from Emma! Snake was turning red look, smiling down at his plate though and Sean laughed, knowing it must of been Snake.
Jay got the hint and joked, "All bad things I hope." Hmm, dinner with his MI teacher, and Greenpeace, this was going to be interesting.
Snake laughed, he had to admit, guy had a good humor, just wasn't a A+ student.. nor B+... sometimes not even C... anyways!
"I just told her you were a bit like Sean back in the day." Snake told Jay, putting a hand on Sean's shoulder, "A bit wild, rebellious.. don't know your place in the world yet. Misunderstood!" He insisted, nodding, Sean nodded too and it seemed only Emma and Jay didn't like what he said.
Even Emma snuck a glance under her eyelashes as Jay who just stayed leaning back in his chair, an unreadable look on his face.
Spike sat down and noticed the awkward silence and narrowed her eyes at Snake and tried to smile to Jay.
Sean took a deep breath, "Well, it's glad to be back." He insisted.
Snake nodded, "It's glad to have you back, right Emma?" he asked the blonde as if it should really matter to her.
Emma looked a bit embarrassed and just wanted to leave the table, Jay looked the same way, she just nodded slowly and picked off the meat off her pizza.
Jay noticed he got a pizza with no meat on it, and just switched his plate with her, finally leaning forward and eating it.
Emma snuck a glance at him, looked down at the now veggie pizza, and another glance at him, softening.
That was actually sweet. Did he even notice he just did that for her?
Sean saw the nice gester as well and eyed Emma, catching her watching Jay. She...no, no, Emma couldn't like Jay, Jay was not her type, not one bit, he didn't even care for the environment, hell the trash she picked up was probably from him!
Sean clenched his jaw and asked too curiously, "How Lexy Jay?" he asked.
Jay looked up at Sean, and eyed him. Sean knew the relationship Jay and Alex had, they didn't care about another, nor talk about another outside their once relationship. So why was Sean suddenly caring? Jay smirked, did he see something between him and Emma? Was he threatened?
Good.
Emma decided to chime in, "He cheated on her." She taunted, smiling successfully when she heard her mom gasp and put her smile toward Jay who gave her a look that knew what she was trying to do.
"We both cheated." He confirmed, trying to look as if an alright guy to her parents.
"Ah to be young." Snake joked, then pointed at Jay, "One day you'll meet the one and she won't take that crap."
"Emma!" exclaimed Spike, giving her daughter a look of unapproval when the blonde snorted at that.
Emma shrugged innocently, she just didn't think Jay could do not not ever cheat on someone. He liked to party, and he liked his girls too much, and Jay knew she didn't believe in it either, so he shook his head looking at Spike.
"It's okay. She doesn't know me as well as she thinks." He informed Spike who gave a confused look. He hardened his look onto Emma who just raised an eyebrow at him.
"Emma and Jay don't get along." Sean informed Spike as politely as he could.
Jay eyed Sean close now, the little jerk was TRYING to make him look bad. He knew it! Even Emma raised an eyebrow at Sean, who was he to say something like that? Least this was Jay and Emma's agreement from the start with another, what was Sean's excuse for being so mean to her even after they broke up?
"Emma, you're not the type of person to judge someone and not get along!" Spike said in shock.
Emma's mouth fell and she got all flustered, shooting Jay a look and back to mom, stuttering for words. She didn't like not looking perfect in her mothers eyes, "He..." Emma blurted out the first word she could, "BULLIES people, mom!" she exclaimed.
Jay choked on the milk he was drinking. Both Snake and Sean raised their eyebrows amused.
"Ah, the bad boy of Degrassi." Spike said, understanding.
Jay was still trying to get it together, "You just call me a bully?" he stiffed another laugh, looking at Emma who scowled at him, pushing her chair out.
"I'm going to get a drink." She informed and left.
Jay leaned forward on the table, elbows on the first and holding his hands together in a fist, his fist laid against his mouth, trying to hide his smirk. She just called him a bully!
"I'll go apoligise." Jay lied, getting up. Spike smiled sweetly at him and went back to talking to Sean.
Emma was in the kitchen and glared at the cup that was over flowing with water from the sink, Jay went up behind her and watched it over flow with her.
"I think you got it full." Jay taunted and she glared over her shoulder, too mad to be scared from his sudden appearance. She put her drink down, not caring for it.
"How dare you make me look like the evil one infront of my mom!" Emma snapped, turning to face him and leaning on the counter, they were so close his waist was even pressed against hers.
"I didn't say anything." He said in amusement. Sean said it.
"You not saying anything does enough." Emma shot back.
"And I'm the bully?" teased Jay leaning his head down to her, his eyes scanning her eyes to her lips, then her smooth neck, "I think it's just you now Emma, its you bullying me now." He said rather sexily, like it didn't bother him one bit. He loved to tease her.
Emma bit her lower lip feeling his breath on her neck, tickling it, oh how much they both wanted him to just kiss it, leave marks so people knew she was his. He didn't want to scare her, so he slowly raised his elbows and ran his hands up her smooth tanned arms and his strong hands gripped her upper arms when it got there, then pulled her up against him.
Emma moaned when he did so, and he pressed his lips to hers, and kissed her in want and need until she pulled away, eyes still closed with his and bit her lip but kissed him back after a second. He flicked his tounge against hers and deepened the kiss, they kissed so much he had time to run his hands from her arms to the back of her thighs and lifted her onto the kitchen sink and kissed her some more, they kissed so much that when they pulled apart, they were breathless.
Emma's little hands softly pushed him back a little, staring forward in shock as he stared down at her.
Her big brown doe eyes stared up at him, still panting, she suddenly insisted, "This isn't right."
"Tell me that when you're not kissing me back." He shot back quickly. She bit her lower lip and stopped when she saw him hungrily looking down at it.
"Stop!" Emma exclaimed, not knowing how to deal with this..attraction. She jumped off the sink just as Sean came in.
"You guys coming back in?" Sean's voice startled Emma, and she stared at him as Jay gave him an annoyed look but huffed, nodding slowly.
Emma looked back at Jay who just nodded towards Sean at her, as if to say it was okay to go, Emma slowly went passed Sean who looked clueless.
At the end of the night, Emma walked Sean and Jay over to his red car, he still had to drive Jay back to his car at school, midway though Sean stopped and told Jay, "I'll be there in a second."
Jay turned and gave him a look, Emma stood behind Sean and didn't see the look Sean gave Jay, narrowing his eyes to where Emma stood to hint to Jay he needed to talk to her.
Emma heard Sean though, and knew he wanted to talk to her without Jay which sounded, bad, like he wanted to say something important, she even gave Jay a puzzeled look back until Jay looked away from her slowly and nodded at Sean, leaving.
Sean turned to Emma, digging his hands into his pockets at Sean's car door shut, Jay inside, trying not to look.
Jay furrowed his eyebrows, confused at how terrible and nervous he felt right now. It took him his everything not to look at them.
Sean took a deep breath, "Emma.." he drifts slowly and she stared at him, "I want you to know, I came back.. for you."
Emma stopped breathing, fuck, she knew it. Deep down, she knew it! Selfish little Sean, trying-.. to.. get back together?
Emma glanced at Jay inside Sean's car, now lighting up a smoke.
"I know it's wrong, but I can't help but feel you're the missing piece to making me feel better again, to feel whole." His words went through her head but she kept looking at Jay a little sadly well in thought.
Maybe this would make Jay back off, understand that even if they were, mildly, extremely attracted to another, it wasn't meant to be.
Her and Sean had to meant to be right? Since he kept coming back over and over? Emma looked so confused as she finally looked at Sean and nodded.
Sean blinked, "I-Is that a yes?" he was abit shocked as well, all night she looked a bit distance. She was really going to give him a chance.
"Yeah." Emma said after looking blank and then nodded, smiling softly.
Sean smiled and leaned in, pulling her into his arms. That when Jay finally glanced out the window, and saw them, jealousy hit him like no tomorrow, but he insisted it was just a friendly hug, not knowing what was going on or being said. He looked away.
Sean suddenly captured her lips to his and she softly kissed back until pulling away and mustered a smile, putting her hands on his chest, "I'll see you tomorrow." She declared.
He smiled backing up, "Tomorrow." He insisted and teased, Back in Degrassi. Back together!" Emma couldn't help but sadly smile and form a small laugh, watching him happily get into the car.
This had to be for the best, Emma snuck another glance at Jay before she turned, sucked in a shakey breath and went back inside. She was meant for Sean. This was right, right? She'd get over this attraction for Jay some day, she wouldn't feel this twisted feeling of wanting to pick him over Sean anymore?
Because Sean was for her! Sean was for her.. she kept repeating in her head and closed the front door, leaning on it and shutting her eyes.
The next school day Jay was heading over to the school building when he slowed down seeing Sean waiting for him, but Alex standing next to him, as if waiting for him.
Both of them? Even though he swore Alex wanted to kill him?
"Hiiii.." Jay slowly drifted, eyeing her dangerously close.
Alex rolled her eyes to Sean, "Told you its his fault, he just makes me want to punch him." She confirmed, giving Jay a look.
Jay rolled his eyes, "If only you were a guy I could punch back." He taunted.
"Alright, lets get over this." Sean confirmed, "No more fighting, there's been too much this year, I want to hangout with both of you so you're gonna have to put up with another."
Alex seemed to actually think about it as Jay snickered, "No way."
Alex glared at him and then saw both guys watch as Emma and Manny got off a school bus, Alex smirked and Jay caught that.
"Sean maybe you'd like to know-"
"Okay we'll get along." Jay cut off her giving her a pleading look not to tell Sean about the kiss with Emma. He didn't feel like getting punched right now.
Alex sized him up and down, looking like she didn't care but sighed and nodded, "We'll get along."
"good." Sean said and smiled happily, "Now I gotta go say morning to my girl friend."
"Girl friend?" both Jay and Alex said at the same time watching Sean walk around them and go to the mystery girl, yet not so mysterious when he snuck up from behind Emma who was walking with Manny and kissed her cheek happily from behind, she even laughed a little and shook her head, Manny Santos gawked the scene as well and hugged Sean, welcoming the traitor back..Jay felt sick.
Jay's mouth hung open as Alex leaned on the stair railings with a redemption look on her face, "How's it feel?" she asked, narrowing her eyes at Jay.
She was a little taken back how he didn't even blink, eyes still on Emma and Sean walking up into the school. When they were out of sight, he stared down at the ground sadly then hard.
Alex felt a pinge of pity, she had known Jay since she was 13, they were a terrible couple, they actually seemed just like friends the entire time they were dating, so it made her feel a little bad to see a friend upset.
Alex softly punched his shoulder, "Come on." She said gently, "its the Sean and Emma way. Fight, make up, fight, make up."
"She..kissed me the other day." Jay said emotionlessly, how could Emma do that? She wasn't that type of girl.
He thought he finally got her to see that they could be something, that he made her feel as great as she made him feel.
"The girl had a gun to her head, we can't understand that, actually, we're the reason for that." Alex informed and continued, "Sean knows how she feels maybe they do need another. Or, if you're lucky, it's just some cry for help and they're both going nuts. Either way, you gotta move on." She hit his back and started walking up the stairs.
Jay still didn't move. He felt totally betrayed, rejected, awful. He wouldn't wish this upon his worse enemy.
At lunch he sat with Alex, Spinner and Amy when Sean came over, pulling Emma behind him.
"no,no,no." Emma's small whisper was heard, trying to resist going over but Sean was whispering things into her ear and pulling her over.
Jay glared down at his can of pop, not wanting her to sit here either but there Sean sat infront of him, Emma beside.
"Love birds back together huh?" Spinner asked with his foolish grin and Sean nodded, smirking at Emma. When the two were wrapped up in another, Spinner passed Jay a sorry look.
Jay just ignored it. But he could only ignore so much. Under the table he clenched his fists together tightly, listening to Sean whisper sweet little things to her. Even Alex and Amy weren't caring but Jay was losing his mind.
It was when Sean moved Emma's long beautiful hair that Jay adored, over her shoulders, and he then leaned down and kissed her neck, that Jay snapped.
Emma even jumped when he got up so quick his chair threw back and he just walked off.
"What's his problem?" Amy asked, looking around. Sean shrugged, not knowing either and Amy looked to Alex who rolled her eyes and nodded at her to go, they got up and left.
This left Emma with Spinner and Sean, but she didn't talk to them, she glanced at the chair that was still fallen onto the ground until Sean took her hand in his.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
Emma swallowed hard and mustered a smile, shaking her head, "Nothing." She kissed him quickly.
Sean eyed her though and leaned closer, she got nervous. Did he know?
"If it's Amy being around.. we don't have to sit here at lunch." He swore. Emma smiled a bit softly, that was sweet..but wasn't it. Actually it was wierd how Emma could care less about Amy now.
You think she would being that she was the girl Sean dated after breaking Emma's heart.
"I just need air." Emma admitted, standing.
Sean smiled sadly at her, "I know what you mean." He joked lightly, Emma eyed him.. he thought she meant the shooting still bugged her?
I mean yes every now and then it did.. but she found herself more worried and caring about something else, something unexpected. But she just nodded and left.
Spinner overheard that and was a bit guilty looking right now and coughed lightly, "You feelin' better these days man?" he asked Sean slowly.
Sean blinked hard and looked at Spinner, putting a fake grin on, "I'm fine."
But Spinner saw right through him, and actually felt terrible now. He wasn't. He understood he wanted Emma back, but maybe Degrassi was a bad idea right now? No?
As Emma found a fountain, she just stood by it, not even taking a sip. She glanced around the halls to look back to the left when she noticed Amy and Alex with Jay, he didn't see her watching, and Emma watched closer when Alex and Amy seemed to be rather too close to him, putting their hands all over him as if comforting him and being sluts at the same time.
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
Emma stormed off and around the corner, stopping and leaning on the wall breathing heavily, having a panic attack. It wasn't fair! It wasn't fair she felt no hate for Amy around Sean, but felt it when she was around Jay.. it wasn't fair Emma's heart didn't flutter when around Sean and it wasn't fair it did more than flutter around Jay.
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities, well I was wrong
Emma needed to keep her distance. Badly. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Emma was with Sean as she exited school that day, and she caught Jay's eye from him standing against his car in the parking lot.
Sean's car was in the front of Degrassi so Emma could just get in there.
She and Jay held a bitter stare before she got in though, and she slammed the door after her, leaning her head against the window and shook her head, closing her eyes softly.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa