A/N: Hello, lovelies! Thank you all so much for your kind reviews and favorites! It really means a lot to me. I'm glad you're enjoying Not About Angels so far! Keep the awesome reviews coming! I hope Chapter 3 makes you all as happy as the previous chapters have! Thank you all so much for being...well...YOU!
Before I forget, I'm going to be adding the Preface to Chapter 1 eventually, because it's really annoying me how it has a #3 next to Chapter 2. Haha.
Enjoy Chapter 3!
Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans. I would if I could. If I owned the Teen Titans, this whole Teen Titans Go business would never have happened.
Warning: Children, your parents would not approve of you reading this. So don't. Okay. This chapter has a little of the content that makes this story rated M, so be warned. Please be cautious, this chapter includes the attempt of rape and molestation. It is NOT suitable for children, and written for mature audiences only.
Chapter 3
Starfire
It felt magnificent to just fall into a deep sleep. With everything that had happened that day, it did not take long to drift into a welcomed slumber. I believe it is called "I was out as soon as my pillow hit my head".
Sleep was good for me, it was how I healed myself both physically and emotionally. My body needed some emotional healing, so sleep was natural.
Dreams did not come in my healing slumbers...it was just darkness. It was as if my body was floating in the nothingness of the darkness that filled my mind. It was always like that.
But even in my sleep, I could tell something was very wrong.
The majority of my mind was lost in the warm, dark, inviting healing sleep. But there was a part of my mind that was still lingering in reality. It was as the humans called being "half asleep". Part of me was on the lookout, being defensive.
That was when I heard my window open.
Naturally, it is very hard to awaken from a healing sleep. My body did not want to cooperate with the part of my mind that was awake, screaming to wake up. I could not even open my eyes. My head dangled off the edge of my circular bed, my body completely limp. I could still hear them, though. Whoever was in my room had a reason for sneaking in. The small part of my mind that was awake scrambled for explanations. Disoriented and confused, the answer should have come much quicker than it did. But it took several moments, as I listened to footsteps gradually getting closer to my bed, for me to figure out who was in my room.
Then it came to me.
Slade.
I tried to scream, but my body would not allow it. My mind was spinning and protesting, but I could not move. I was defenseless. I could not call for help. I could not call for Robin.
Robin.
He would be so angry with me, for not being able to defend myself. He would be so worried and frantic and try so hard to locate me. Slade would win again.
I heard banging on my door.
Please, my head screamed. Please, hurry.
I heard Slade chuckle beside me. He kneeled down so that he was level with my head. I felt his breath on my neck and I shivered. I still could not say anything, could not do anything.
"It looks like your friends know I'm in the tower," he whispered huskily. "We will have to move faster than I planned. But that just makes it all the more fun."
The banging on my door continued, growing more frantic as the seconds ticked by.
Slade laughed again, the fury inside me building and almost bubbling to the surface.
"I don't plan on taking you tonight, my dear," he said quietly. I could hear him stand, his voice growing distant. "Tonight, I simply wanted to have fun."
Fun? What did he mean?
"You see," he started. "Robin will be quite thankful that I did not take you. But he will be just as crushed when he finds out what my intentions for you tonight are."
I was still so confused. I wanted nothing more than to awaken and make him pay for wanting to hurt Robin in any way. I wanted to hurt him like he had hurt us so many times.
I felt a hand on my ankle. It worked its way up to my knee, then my thigh.
Oh no.
"Starfire!" I heard Robin yell, his fists beating the door. "Starfire, please! Open the door!"
I could not move, I could not speak. The healing sleep was doing what it was designed to do, keep me immobile. Keep me in one place until I was healed. I was paralyzed.
"It seems Robin is here," Slade whispered, his hand playing with the hem of my skirt. "Shall I invite him in and make him watch what I am about to do to you?"
I could feel the warm tears welling in my eyes and leaking out of my closed eyelids. I felt them run down my cheeks, probably staining the covers as they landed on them.
"Starfire!"
Slade laughed as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled my body up into a sitting position. I heard something click, and then lips were being crushed onto mine. I could not fight him, though I tried so hard. I was lifeless, and I could feel and hear everything he was doing and saying.
When he pulled away from me, he started kissing at my neck and down to my collarbone.
"It's a good thing I knew how you were going to be in a healing sleep when I arrived," he said in between kisses. "This way, you can't fight me. It makes it so easy."
Apparently, he did not keep his voice down low enough, because Robin screamed on the other side of the door.
"He's in there! He's in her room! Help! Guys, we have to get in there! HE'S IN THERE!"
Suddenly, the door crash open. I was suddenly dropped onto my back on my bed, and I heard the clicking noise again.
"Slade!" Robin yelled. "Get the fuck away from her!"
I could only imagine the scene that was played out in front of him. I was limp on my bed, my lips swollen from them being attacked. I could feel the bite marks on my neck. I knew my skirt was pulled up slightly and my hair was a mess. Robin was going to be absolutely furious.
I could tell he took in the scene when he spoke.
"What the fuck did you do to her?" He sounded broken.
"It seems obvious now, doesn't it, Robin?" I heard Slade say, sounding amused.
"No," Robin said, his voice curt. "No, you didn't."
"Oh, but I did," Slade responded. "And it was so easy. She is in a healing sleep, something that her kind do when they need to heal after physical or emotional strain. She cannot awaken until she is healed. She had no idea what was going on, Robin. She was very cooperative."
He was lying! He did touch me, yes. He did kiss me. But he did not rape me. He violated my personal space and did so when he knew I could not defend myself, but he did not have sex with me. Why was making Robin believe he did such a thing?
There was a deafening silence in the room, then. There was not a word. It gave me time to think about what had happened. If Robin had not heard Slade and entered the room, would Slade have raped me?
That was his intention. He wanted to break Robin.
He did not wish to take me tonight. He wished to do the unthinkable to me, and he wanted Robin to catch him doing it. Robin caught him too soon, however, so Slade was lying. Slade was trying to convince Robin that he had raped me. And by the silence, I could tell that by the look of my body, Robin believed him.
It was so wrong.
I wanted to scream. To wake up and tell Robin what really happened. I wanted to make Slade pay for violating me in the ways he did. I wanted to do or say something. Anything.
But I could not.
Instead, I just listened to the unbearable silence that had fallen in my room.
It seemed like eternity, but finally, Robin spoke.
"You..." he trailed off. "You...raped her?"
Slade's laugh cut through the air like a knife.
"I did, Robin," Slade said after his laughter. "I took away her innocence. And the best part is, she let me do it."
Robin was silent again for a moment. Tears slid down my face.
"I'm going to fucking kill you," Robin said, his voice barely above a whisper.
"Try it, Robin," Slade said. "Do it right now. Come on."
More silence. What was going on?
"I didn't think so," Slade said. I heard his footsteps come closer to me. He took some of my hair in his fingers and I heard him inhale.
"Get away from her," Robin growled.
Slade chuckled and breathed in my ear.
"I'll be back, my dear," he whispered. "I'm not done with you yet."
Suddenly, there was a loud cracking noise. I heard Slade scream and fall on the floor next to me. He was breathing heavily.
"Don't you ever fucking touch her again," Robin warned. "I swear to God, Slade, I'm going to fucking kill you."
"Maybe another time, Robin," Slade responded.
"You're not going anywhe-"
"Ta ta!" Slade interrupted him.
More silence.
Slade was gone.
He got away.
Robin suddenly let out a scream, kicking something into the wall. I heard more things thrown and smashed and then finally, I heard him fall to his knees beside me.
He took my hand in his and held it to his lips. I could feel little wet drops connect with my skin. He was broken, his sobs tearing through his chest. His body was shaking with the loud cries he was letting out. He truly did not believe I was awake. There was no way Robin would share this side of himself with any of us.
Except, maybe me...
"I'm so...so...sorry..." he cried into my hand. "Star...pl-please. Forgive m-me."
I wanted nothing more in that moment to comfort him and hold him in my arms and tell him the truth. I wanted to tell him I was the okay, and that we would defeat Slade together. I wanted to tell him that he did not need to cry for me.
"I will make him p-pay," he said. "I promise. He will pay for w-what he did to you."
Of that, I had no doubt.
Robin sobbed again, his arm wrapping around my stomach. He buried his head in my hair, and whispered constant apologies in my ear.
Oh, Robin, it is not your fault...
Eventually he stopped and fell silent. I assumed he cried himself into slumber. He did not leave my side, however. He stayed with me for the rest of the night, and I did not mind at all. His arm over me protectively, his deep breaths on my neck soothing the rest of my mind into healing sleep. I willed the resistant part of my mind to sleep, so that I could awaken and tell Robin the truth.
The world slowly faded away, and I was completely engulfed into the comfortable blackness that I was supposed to be in from the beginning.
Robin's tired, sleep coated voice was the last thing I heard before my world went away.
"I love you, Star."
A/N: OH MY GOOD GOLLY GOSH! ROBIN ADMITTED HIS LOVE FOR STARFIRE IN HIS SLEEP AS HE THOUGHT SHE COULDNT HEAR HIM BECAUSE SHE WAS IN HER HEALING SLEEP. OH. MY. GOSH. Hahahahaha, it was bound to happen.
Well, that's chapter 3! Sorry it was a little shorter than the last chapter. It had to end there. I didn't want to add pointless things just to make it longer. I hope you all liked it! Originally, it wasn't going to go this rout. But as I was writing it, it sort of just happened. I thought that, besides killing Starfire, the worst thing Slade could do to Robin would be violating her in the worst way possible.
Guys, seriously, rape and molestation are serious issues. If anything like this happens to you, please go see someone and go straight to the police. Rape crimes happen every day to both men and women, and it is very important to be as careful as you possibly can. Protect yourselves. Be safe and be careful. It is something that really hits me hard. It was extremely hard to write about it.
Stay tuned for Chapter 4! It will be up next Wednesday! I'm already eager to post it. Thanks for reading!
-Sierra