I do NOT own the Secret Life of the American teenager and it's characters. It is all property of ABCFAMILY & BRENDA HAMPTON. I only own this story, and plot. ENJOY!

THAT NIGHT IN THE CAR

Adrian P.O.V.

Adrian laid in bed awake in her parents house thinking and wondering about how he life got like this. She looked at her wedding band, and twirled her ring on the chain around her neck, and began to think back to the night that started all this.

FLASHBACK March 16, 2010 10:30 PM

Adrian saw Ben leave Amy's house and the look on his face was similar to the one she had when, she discovered Ricky had slept with Zoey. She, then put her plan into action, she knew that if she could sleep with Ben at all, now would be the perfect time if not the only time. Unlike most guys she had been with she knew Ben was different. Even though he wanted to have sex, Ben was not the type of guy that would just have sex on the fly. If that was the case he would have had sex his first week of high school. Ben, was kind, sweet, considerate, and handsome, but most of all he was the richest kid in school and all the girls knew it. Many would have been glad to take his virginity, and especially get pregnant.. Which is probably why Ben was so careful not to choose the wrong girl, or at least he tried until he met Amy.

She had to admit also Ben was handsome he wasn't a hot stud like Ricky, or a beef cake like Jack. But, he had that charming gentleman quality that some women are attracted to. His eyes as Adrian, knew were his best feature she loved the way Ben would look her at her with awe and innocence. Unlike most Ben kept no secrets and his eyes showed that whenever someone would stare into them.

She loved to look at those brown doe colored eyes of his, which always gave away what he was thinking even if it was a naughty thought,. Even when she was dating Ricky, she liked the way Ben, would notice her, and talk to her. She really loved flirting with him it was like a tease that many girls would do on the play ground for all the other boys. Ben, had a way of making her feel like she was innocent again. But, Ben unlike many other guys was also noble, and loyal almost to a fault. He would never betray a friend, and definitely not the woman he loved.

But, that was a flaw Adrian had spent some time creating in him. She hated Amy Juergens, no matter how hard she tried to build a relationship with her. It wasn't because Amy called her a slut, or that she was the mother of Ricky's child, it was because Amy in her eyes, was a Snake.

She pretended to act like she was so innocent, and didn't know what she was getting into when she slept with Ricky, and instead of taking responsibility for herself she pawned it on everyone else. She blamed Ricky, like she couldn't say no. Ricky was hot true, but even she managed to say no to Ricky., and even if she was so innocent, why didn't she wait at least until she knew him better. No, she knew what she was getting into, Amy just didn't think anything bad would happen to her.

But what Adrian hated most of all was what Amy did next. She hooked up with one of the nicest, caring, and most loyal guys in school, and treated him as though it was his responsibility to dote on her every minute. Ben didn't deserve that, especially from some idiot band geek who didn't know that unprotected sex was dangerous.

Ben, was there for her from the moment her little babbling brook friends, spilled the beans. He got down on one knee and proposed to her in a park. Imagine that a rich kid of only fifteen, marrying a chick pregnant by another man. Most girls would have jumped at the chance, and so did Amy, which is why I knew Amy was no good. If she truly loved Ben as she had claimed she would never have put him through all that. If she really loved him she would have either gone through with the abortion or broken up with him, so she could keep from embarrassing him.

But, no she continued to date him and let everyone know that Ricky was her baby's daddy, making him the school idiot for hooking up with the pregnant girl. But, she didn't even care. All she did was allow him to take care of her while letting Ricky go off and have his fun. That was so cruel, sure I'm a bitch, and I'm mean she thought, but I never would have hurt him like she did. But, she thought to herself, I did hurt him like that worse even only a few hours ago when she slept with Henry.

That night they slept together she waited for her father to go to bed and looked outside to see Ben still sitting in his car looking so broken, it made her feel bad to think about what she was going to do. But, perhaps this would make him feel better, for at least a while anyway. As she left her bedroom she reached into her purse and grabbed the condom Amy had given her. This would make the moment even more symbolic she thought, I'm going to sleep with Ben using the very condom she gave me. I wonder she thought to herself, why after all of Ben's complaining about them having sex did she decide to get on the pill and carry condoms after they broke up. Probably because she wanted them for Ricky, Adrian grimaced.

Little Amy only used Ben for so long to take care of her while she was pregnant, and once John was born, she wanted to see what type of man Ricky would be. When he became a better person, that's when she decided Ben's usefulness had come to an end. The BITCH she thought. Amy never really planned on being with Ben she was just using him as a back up plan for Ricky. Well she thought if I had any seconds thoughts about this, they are gone now.

Adrian went into the bathroom to put on a little make up, and take her pill, don't want to be like Amy, she thought as she opened her new prescription. She then put on a little perfume and looked herself over. I can't make myself look as though I planned this I have to pretend that we both want to. In her head she knew she did want this however, Ben Boykewich, reminded Adrian all to well of the girl she used to be innocent, naive, and lonely. But, like her first love Antonio Ben took all that away with his charm.

Sure, Grace was my best friend, but Ben was different he knew me better because I could tell him anything and everything. I told him about Antonio, how I grew up, and even about my dreams of being a lawyer like my father. I don't know why but I just couldn't help but to confide in Ben. He was like diary that girls keep to tell all their secrets because I knew that I could trust him with anything. Ben, didn't judge me like everyone else and he didn't expect anything in return which is what made me actually want him.

Unlike Jack, or Ricky; Ben wanted to get to know me wanted to be my friend. At first we became allies simply to keep Amy and Ricky from being together, but somewhere down the line we became more than that. I genuinely cared about Ben, and hated Amy for not wanting him or letting him be with other people. Amy knew that other girls were looking at Ben, but she also knew that he only had eyes for her. So as long as she kept the sex topic on the table she knew Ben was hers. Which is why I was glad when he told me that he was going to Bolognia for the summer, and why she was so worried about it.

Ben, was cute, Italian, rich, and the son of a very influential family in Italy. I remember how he told me that one of his cousins was a lawyer for the mob. It was a distant relative but still, he had connections. So, him going to a city known for doing the number two of naughty sex acts sat well with me. It meant that someone would see Ben and show him Amy Jeurgens is not the only girl in the universe. I was also a little jealous as well to know that he would probably meet someone new. But, I had Ricky, and even though I had come to care about Ben I knew that I didn't fit into his world, and I didn't want to risk our friendship then.

But, that night was different, that night it was personal to me. Because Amy Jeurgens took this to a whole new level by kissing Ricky. He was with me, and she knew it, and after I actually tried to make nice with her and be her friend she goes behind my back and kisses my boyfriend. Now to top it all off she goes and hurts one of my only friends, just to get even with him for making out with a girl that saw the great guy he was and appreciated him. I saw the person Ben was, and appreciated it, but I knew he would never see me the way he looked at her. So I would break him free of that WITCH'S CURSE, even if I destroy our friendship in the process. And this would teach Ricky a lesson as well, if he can screw around on me I can screw around on him.

But, when I reached Ben's car he needed a lot of provocation to get him started. Most guys, a little smile a laugh, and a touch would get them all over you. But, Ben wasn't and never would be most guys. He needed to be led by the hand actually pushed. We talked, we talked about everything, the kiss our relationships with Ricky, and Amy, Grace, Maria, our parents. And I never knew how so alike Ben, and I were. Ben was always looked at as the spoiled rich kid, where I was always looked at as the school slut, and neither of us wanted the title. I always wanted to just have a guy that wanted to be with me and after Antonio I thought by giving myself to the guys that showed interest it would happen again, but they all only wanted one thing, but it kept me from being lonely.

Ben, just wanted a girl that cared about him, not his money or his last name. and couldn't understand why sex was so important to him. In that moment I almost didn't want to do it, but I came there with a purpose and I aimed to succeed. So I leaned and said, "Do you want to see what all the fuss is about". He, gulped and said "Adrian you're with Ricky" Well I said moving closer to him Ricky isn't here and if he can have fun with Amy why can't I have fun with you.

"But he was about reply," I kissed him hard on the lips before he could even protest. Man, I thought o myself I have wanted to kiss this boy for a while, and he didn't disappoint.

Ben probed my mouth with his tongue and wrestled with mine for supremacy. Neither of us were relenting, he gave as good as he got and I had to admit he was "THE BEST KISSER I HAVE EVER HAD" Omar is a close second. But Ben, is the best. His kisses, when he wants are sweet and innocent, but the first kiss was nowhere near innocent. He grabbed me around the waist and leaned in, which gave him more control and this caused him to gain the upper hand. Somehow I broke from the kiss, not because I wanted to but because unlike Ben I needed air.

I then put my hand to his chest and felt the small pectorals that were there he was thin, but his skin was so smooth and soft, he really did have boyish charm I thought. As my hand moved down his shirt. I felt his hand stop me as I moved closer. Adrian, we shouldn't this is wrong. Well, it feels right I said. You, and I have been letting Ricky and Amy , use us for so long for once lets teach them how it feels to be hurt and betrayed. But, Adrian we're supposed to be friends, and I couldn't do this to you like all those other guys. He replied. Ben, you will never be like all those other guys, I said looking at him genuinely.

Those eyes of his I thought they were so innocent, and filled with hurt from what Amy did, and here he was still thinking of her, and of me. This made me want him now more than ever because unlike others he deserved to have at least one adventure. Even if this night ruins our friendship I thought I know he will always remember me. Because, I am the one who is going to take his virginity, and this will also put me even with Ricky and Amy.

Sure, I could leave and be satisfied with all that we have just done, but then who would he be with. Grace, or Maria. I loved Grace, she was my best friend, but she stopped being worthy of Ben the second she slept with Jack. I didn't know Maria that well, but if she truly wanted Ben then she would have taken him in Bolognia, or the time she was here with him.

Or Amy, she has had every opportunity to be with Ben and she always turned him down, and after all he has done for her the least she could have done was this, especially if she loved him. She certainly isn't saving herself for him that's the truth. And all she would do even if she did sleep with him was lord it over him keeping him wrapped around her finger. I could, let him leave and find someone that really loves him. But, then I wouldn't be the one. The one who he will always remember and keep close, and that is what I want, just like Antonio.

So I stepped up my game I slowly took his head in my hands and said, "Ben, forget about why we should or shouldn't do this. Right now, stop thinking and just let go. You have done the right thing your whole life, and tried to be the good guy." Well Ben, if you haven't realized by now the good guys finish last" So be the bad boy for once" I know you are envious of Ricky. Well, maybe its time you stopped being so envious and find out how the bad boys live." It is what got Amy isn't it, I said adding salt to the wound I had given to his pride.

It was the extra incentive I needed to get him going again. I felt his hands go around my waist and pull me onto his lap. We began kissing again, this time with more passion and fire. Ben, seemed almost possessed by some spirit as his hand began making their way under my clothes. I felt him remove my jacket and his hands went under my shirt and unhooked my bra. Whatever he learned in Italy, he got an A+ in.

He then moved me off his lap to remove his shirt. Yep he was no Ricky, and definitely no Jack. But, he wasn't bad either. I then moved to the back seat and asked him to join me. I removed my shirt and bra as he made his way into the back and climbed on top of me. For a second after seeing me like that his eyes widened and that doe eyed look of innocence returned to his eyes. This made me smile to see him looking at me like that. His car had more than enough room, as we lay down he on top of me and we kissed his weight settled in on me and it felt almost natural as we lay there kissing and his hands went to my breast.

He rubbed them firmly and placed both my nipples into his fingers massaging them and forcing them erect. I moaned in delight, most guys even Ricky, worried about themselves, but Ben seemed to be taking his time as a way both to make it last and allow me to enjoy it as well. He then began to kiss me and in those kisses I felt strange, as though I wasn't Adrian Lee "The Grant High Slut", but someone else. Someone who didn't know about sex someone who was new to all the things Ben was doing, and this made me appreciate it even more.

But, I came back to my senses as I felt myself being aroused, and moistening in my crotch as Ben broke from our kiss and began to make his way to my breast. He kissed both so slowly and firmly, yet he never stopped looking at me with those eyes. As if he wanted me to know that he knew I wasn't Amy, but he wanted me to feel as if I were. I felt his tongue go over my right breast and his lips began to wrap around my nipple all the while I felt his other hand around my waist and is right still played with my other bosom.

I wrapped my hand on the back of his neck to keep his lips sucking on my bosom. This aroused me even more as I rubbed his head to urge him on. He then stopped and repeated the action on my other breast, making me coo with delight. No guy, not Antonio or Ricky made me feel like this so innocent, and sexual at the same time. I was actually nervous as his hands began to take off my pants. He slid them off slowly taking his time and care to ensure they did not snag on my feet and rubbed my tan smooth legs as well. When my pants were off he actually sucked on my toe before kissing his way back up to my waist.

This is so freaky I thought to myself. I came out here to seduce Ben, yet I felt as if I was the virgin here. As, Ben made his way to my satin red panties he took his time to breathe in my musky aroma from being so aroused and then kissed the wet patch that appeared on them. I moaned in ecstasy at this. He pulled them from my waist just as he did my pants when he returned he kissed my sex.

I thanked god I had shaved and douched that day for Ricky. Ricky I thought this whole time I didn't think of him, and as his name came into my mind it left just as quickly as it appeared, when Ben began to kiss, and love my clitoris. This moistened me even more as now I was naked, and he was literally making me so horny I was about to release. I held on and back as he placed two fingers inside me and pushed them in and out until my sex juices flowed. I grabbed his head, at this and wrapped my legs around his neck as his oral assault continued.

He then stopped and kissed his way back up my body and he again began to kiss, and suckle on my nipples. I then grabbed his head and kissed him. I then forced him down onto the seat and began to remove his belt, and open his pants. As I did this I saw his manhood come to life, and was surprised at how much it did come to waken. As I then unzipped his trouser and allowed my hand's to probe inside he almost stopped me. He looked at me and was about to protest when I put my finger to his lips and said, We already came this far Ben, lets go all the way. As I said this, he laid his head back down, and I placed my hand into his boxers.

What I found was startling, if Amy actually knew what Ben was packing she would have never given Ricky a second thought. So, this is the real reason why they call you the "Sausage Prince". I said with a smirk. He looked so surprised and embarrassed, I couldn't help but feel bad. I was probably the first and only girl to touch him down there. Let's, not act so informal Ben, I said. You have already seen and touched mine so now its' my turn. I took time to rub, it and feel my hand and around it. I have to say my hands are small, but, on Ben's dick they were even smaller. I then began to remove his clothes until his pants, and boxers were around his ankles.

I was surprised at how he looked. He was almost boyish save for his height, and his manhood which really looked out of place on someone so small. I then kissed him, and began moving down his neck, kissing his collar bone and chest. I moved to his nipples and kissed, licked, and even bit each one. I kissed him down his body to his belly button and kissed it. I discovered this was his tickle spot, and played with it all the while watching, and feeling as his dick became erect. I then moved down to the main piece.

I kissed his manhood, and began to licking up and down it's length, and cupped his balls before taking one in my mouth and sucking on it. This was indeed the biggest, I have ever seen, and I have seen plenty. I then reached into my jacket pocket on the front seat and took out the condom. Amy got this for Ricky, or Jimmy I told Ben, because she didn't get it for you. I stated. How did you get that, he asked. She, gave it to me so if you had any doubts about her wanting you, and not really wanting to sleep with you this is it. She got these, and went on the pill after you two broke up.

How do you know he asked, almost sorrowful. His manhood began to go down which is what I was hoping for, so I could slip on the condom without breaking it. She told me, I said. At this moment I slipped on the TROJAN for him. No wooden horse can hide this I giggled and thought to myself. I then rubbed and kissed him, and he with me as he slowly but surely came to life and stretched the condom to its fullest. I then, laid on my back and took his head in my right hand while guiding his manhood to my entrance with my left hand. I looked at him, and he at me. So we are going to do this he said. Yes, Ben we are, I replied. If anyone deserves this its you and me. But, be gentle and go slow I said with a motherly tone.

He kissed me and I guided him in. It was rough, as it hurt somewhat and I felt myself being stretched by him, I said owe. He then stopped pushing into me and sat up to look into my eyes. He, looked so scared to think he was hurting me seriously I kissed him, and pushed him back inside, and said its okay Ben. We then began his deflowering, or mine, I didn't really know who was the virgin anymore at this point.

We started a slow rhythm and he took it in with an innocent joyful expression. He may have been a virgin, but Ben knew what he had and used it well. He moved slower, and quicker, not going by the feelings he was getting from this, but by my expressions. Most times when I had sex I never let a guy know how I felt until after we were done, I would usually just keep myself and enjoy, but with Ben, I had no choice but to enjoy and reveal both the pleasure and pain I felt of having him inside me.

He moved with such gentleness making sure, he didn't hurt me, but the power of his manhood, begged to differ. After fifteen minutes, we soon both began to move into a place that was truly euphoric. It allowed me to enjoy him, as well he enjoy me. All the while he kissed me and looked at me with those eyes of his. He touched and nibbled at places, that I never knew were there much less made me feel so aroused. Amy truly didn't know what she had. As we both slowly gained pleasure from this I felt something inside me but gave no notice to it. I had worked my way into a passionate motion and would not stop.

+I wrapped my legs around Bens' waste and forced him deeper into me. He took the time then to pick up his pace and we soon had waves of pleasure, and lust coming from each thrust. I couldn't help but to let go of my inhibitions as we did this. I then looked at him with those doe brown eyes, and in that moment I didn't care about what would happen next or in the future for he and I. I didn't care about Ricky, Amy, or John. In that moment no one else existed but Ben Boykewich, and me. I remember that moment well for that was the moment I knew that the condom broke and our daughter Mercy was conceived.

END OF FLASHBACK:
PRESENT DA MAY 31, 2011 11:32 PM

I never told Ben that, mainly because he would have realized that I did want him. That I somehow on some level I intentionally got pregnant. I didn't just go to him and want him for revenge against Amy and Ricky. That night was about me wanting him for myself, if only for one night and one moment. I would tell everyone else that is was for revenge, but I knew the truth. Maybe if I had been honest with Ben from the beginning none of his would have happened. Maybe if I had told Ben that night, how I more than cared about him, we could have been something different.

But, Would've, Could've, and Should've still means I didn't, and I can't go back and rewrite history. I can't stop that night from happening, or the night our daughter died. The night I took out our daughters nursery, or the night I kicked him out of our condo. Or last night, when I broke my husband's heart when I slept with his best friend.